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Category: Blogging

I tell ya life is funny.  I can never seem to figure it out and really don't even know why I bother.  I am a gluten.  I seem to just move along day to day trying to make it through, but got damned if it isn't so difficult.  I was watching a show the other day and the main character said that "The universe may not always play fair, but at least it's got a hell of a sense of humor."  It seemed so right.  Only I am not fuckin laughing anymore. 

In more recent news.  I have officially moved in to being a second year student and start my residency in just 2 short months.  I am excited and apprehensive at the same time.  I wonder if I am making a mistake.  Sometimes I feel like I have to live 2 lives just to get through from point A to point B in my career.  I live the life of the real me and the life of a practitioner.  The field of medicine is most often, not all, times filled with a bunch of stuck up hoity toity individuals and I hate being that way.  But I love what I do so I put on my damn pin striped pants and heals and don the white jacket like it was made for me.  Of course I never miss the chance to wear my doors shirt underneath or jam to Eddie on my lunch hour.  Behold the power of my Zune player.  I could not have made it this far without it.  Sigh....I have become a closet hippie. 

So I am on break for two weeks.  I spent the entire last week sleeping.  I shit you not, I have never slept so much in my life.  I was so tired after finals I couldn't function, so I guess I must have needed it.  This week I have spent with my kids and catching up on movies I missed and the books I wanted to read.  Key word being wanted to read.  I watched "I am not there" and it was fantastic. 

I have also found time to write again.  I have not put it out there into cyberspace, but have tried something I have never done before....I wrote it in a journal.   It is was very liberating and I learned I have a lot to say.  It actually kind of got annoying because I had so much to say.  In the end though it was worth it.  Which...for me not much (beyond my kids) in life is worth it, so I snap at those moments when I can.

In the words of Eddie "I don' need drugs to make my life tragic".......I seem to be all that I need to head down that road.

Love,



The Closet Hippie

Currently listening : Vitalogy By Pearl Jam Release date: 1994-12-06

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Valtrex please....
Current mood: blah
Category: Blogging

I have been doing a bit of housecleaning around here, since my recent return.  I have removed all family members from my profile and my subscription list.  I didn't do it out of meanness though.  I love them all dearly and they have done nothing to cause problems in relation to what is being said on here, I just feel that knowing there is a possibility that they are reading my stuff inhibits me from always saying all that I want to say.  I have tons and tons of stories, blogs, filthy little tid bits, and dirty little secrets that are just screaming to be shared.  You have been warned. 

I have also noticed that this place is like a bad case of Herpes.  You can go for extended periods of time without an outbreak, but all the sudden the bugger rears its ugly head into your sight and you are infected like the first day you had sex with the bastard who gave you the virus. 

Don't get me wrong, I have met some really unbelievably cool people on here, but damn it can become time consuming when you have been MIA.

I needs me some……………..

Happy Friday to you all and have a fantastic weekend!!!

Currently listening : Dirty Little Secret By The All-American Rejects Release date: 27 June, 2006

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LOL!!
Current mood: amused
Category: Life

Some of the greatest memories that I have are those moments involving fits of laughter.  Specifically those minute and often times only "funny at the time" "you had to be there" moments.  And I guess it is not even so much the fits of laughter that I love so much, but moreso the feeling of joy and humor itself.  And as we all know laughter is the best medicine to cure even the most heart breaking and difficult moments in our lives. 

Over the last few weeks there has been a great deal of stress in our household...mainly due to it being a period of adjustment.  For the first time, it is only me and the kids...meaning no man around the house.  Also their father and his girlfriend have moved away because of a job and so they no longer have his male influence around either. (insert insult regaurding exes lack of maleness) .
 
In all reality it is really not a big deal for me to be alone, but I definitley feel the kids clinging to me for security, because I am the only one around.  Unfortunate for them I have one foot in the door to the local looney, due to the stress of grad school. 

An example of one of those moments happened today.  And even at this moment, just thinking about it brings back the pain in my stomach from laughing and a smile to my face.  I just got to say that I love my kids and they are the funniest damn heathens on the planet. 

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The kids and I often spend our car rides home for the day acting like a bunch of goofballs.  Sometimes we will talk in computer lingo to each other, like they do on the commercial, saying only things like...lol...lmao...omg and so on.  Often times we will also make things up, such as FWP, which means fariy wairy princess. 

So at times we will have to figure out what the other person is abbrevaiting.  Well my daughter decided to call my son a BM, which was a new one that she had made up.  My son and I sat there in silence for a moment trying to figure out what she was calling him and then I blurted out, without thinking, "did you just call your brother a bowel movement?".  Without considering the fact that they had no idea what a bowel movement means. (Now in my defense I have spent 8 hours a day in clinical medicine courses and a BM is the medical abbreviation for a bowel movement. Just saying....there is a method to my madness.) 

They both just looked at me with that look like I had just said the most confusing thing in the world. 

"What?" I said.

"What the heck is a bowel movement?" my 12 year old replied.

I explained what it is and explained in my defense that I have been completely immersed in the field of medicine for the last 7 months and sometimes it is hard to turn the medical dictionary off in my head.

Then the funniest thing happened.  My 8 year old turned around to my daughter and with the most serious face I have ever seen and said.

"Well since we are talking medicine, would you like a butt full of my foot for calling me a BM?"

I lost it.  Big time.  I was laughing so hard that I had tears streaming from eyes.  Which is dangerous as hell when you are driving with 6 lanes of traffic going 55, with a population that consists of 80% rich old shits driving beamers and caddies. 

I could not contain myself and they couldn't contain themselves and I literally had to swerve across 3 lanes of traffic and pull over before I ended up in a big time wreck from not being able to see through the tears. 

It took an entire 15 minutes for the giggling to stop and for us to get back on the road. 

I love moments like this, because they don't always happen.  As human beings we often go through the motions of life and no matter how hard we try, we are not always connected to those around us that we love and adore on such a level that we let down all guards and inhibitions and let ourselves go.  I am sure many of you know what I mean.

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Also since we are on the subject of humor.  I learned a very very valuable lesson yesterday.  It is not okay to say "What the fuck is that?" while viewing an xray in the middle of an exam.  Even if you can't figure out what the fuck it is or where the fracture is.  Can't imagine why the professor would frown on such behavior. 

Oh and I have eliminated OB/Gyn from the running for the "what the hell do I want to specialize in" group.  After looking at what a va jaja looks like on the inside and what the birthing process does to it......I would be just fine not to look at another one in my clinical career ever ever again.  I  have no idea how people can spend all day looking at em.  Plus holding a speculum freaks me the hell out...in the been there...had it done kinda way. 

Well  I am off to pick up the kiddo from softball........

 

Currently reading : Bates’ Guide to Physical Examination and History Taking, Ninth Edition with E-Book (Guide to Physical Exam & History Taking (Bates)) By Lynn S Bickley Release date: 01 June, 2007

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Who is she again?
Current mood: accomplished
Category: Life

To whom it may concern......

I am alive and well and my sanity seems to be holding up pretty good.  Not that I was that sane in the first place, but whatev. 

School has been going good so far.  I can't say that I am not extremely overwhelmed, but this is what I asked for.  This is what I wanted to do.  This is what I was meant to do.  I have learned alot about myself in the last few weeks.  I have learned that I am scared as hell, but that I am strong as hell.  The task I have taken on is a huge one, but I know in my heart I will not let myself down.  Granted I come home and crash right after class some nights, but hey 8 hours of anatomy will do that to anyone right?

I have had a lot of time to adjust to my new lifestyle since the kids are spending the next month with their grandparents, but I have to say I miss the pain in the asses.  They are so much a part of me. 

As for excitement, we got tickets to go see Linkin Park in a few weeks and I am thrilled.  The seats are not that close, but I don't give a shit.  I am happy I am going.  I have seen them twice and they are great performers.  Also, it looks like I get to go to ozzfest after all.  The schedule changed at school and I will be on break.  I don't care to much about the other bands.  Really I just want the chance to see Ozzy before he stops performing.  To top it off we get to sit in the 20th row so yeah for me.

Other than that, there is not much more going on.  My life is full as usual, but hey whose isn't.  Hope you are all well.  I will write more when I have more time.

Loves and all that good stuff,

Me

Currently reading : Human Physiology: An Integrated Approach (4th Edition) By Dee Unglaub Silverthorn Release date: 23 March, 2006

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TO RESPECT OR NOT TO RESPECT - A QUESTION
Current mood: curious
Category: News and Politics

I have got a rather legnthy ABN Psych paper due tonight and I was curious about how you guys would answer this question.  I know it is Friday and serious shit is just not on your list of things you want to do today, but I would appreciate anything you would say.  It might even bring a cringe of a smile to lips, highly unlikely, but the possibility is there.  Also, it is not that I need your help to write the paper, I just want an insight into all perspectives that is all.  I know what my opinion is, but what is yours?

Here is the question to answer in the paper.

Given the treatment of women in cultures such as that in Afghanistan and Somalia, should we respect "cultural diversity" or do we have the right, as a culture, to demand that this treatment be changed?

Currently listening : Bob Dylan's Greatest Hits By Bob Dylan Release date: 01 June, 1999

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ASSHOLES - UPDATED
Current mood: aggravated
Category: Life

Nothing pisses me off more than someone who is a self-proclaimed asshole and is proud of being such.  It makes me want to go out to my car, get my crowbar, and hit them over the head whilst telling them to grow the fuck up.  Some people really suck ass.  

Currently reading : Simon Said (A Simon Shaw Mystery) By Sarah R. Shaber Release date: 15 May, 1998

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WHO WAS YOUR LAST?
Current mood: pissed off
Category: Quiz/Survey

I got this from My Hezz who got it from Da Pope who got it from Ms Boo Boo Kitty Fuck.

Rule 1: If you open this you GOTTA do it.

Rule 2: You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks.

Rule 3: Only answer True or False.

Q: Kissed someone on your top friends?
A: True

Q: Been arrested?
A: True

Q: Kissed someone you didn't like?
A: True     

Q: You like someone?
A: True

Q: Held a snake?
A: True

Q: Been suspended from school?
A: False

Q: Been fired from a job?
A: False

Q: Sang karaoke?
A: True

Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
A: True

Q: Laughed until you started crying?
A: True

Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
A: True

Q: Kissed in the rain?
A: False

Q: Sang in the shower?
A: True

Q: Sat on a roof top?
A: False

Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
A: True

Q: Broken a bone?
A: False

Q: Shaved your head?
A: False

Q: Played a prank on someone?
A: True

Q: Had/have a gym membership?
A: False

Q: Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?
A: True

Q: Shot a gun?
A: False

Q: Donated Blood?
A: False

Q: Had your heart broken?
A: True

Q: Broken someone's heart?
A: True

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"Who was your last?"
just be 100% truthful

LAST PERSON.

1. You hung out with?
A: Devil

3. You were in a car with?
A: Kids

4. Went to the movies with?
A: Chris, Shell, Justin

5. Went to the mall with?
A: Chris

6. You talked to on the phone?
A: Hil

7. Made you laugh?
A: Kids

8. You hugged?
A:  Kids

10. You cried with?
A: Joey

WOULD YOU RATHER...?

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
A: Nose

2. Be serious or be funny?
A: Funny

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
A: Skim

4. Die in a fire or get shot?
A: Shot

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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Sun or moon?
A: Moon

2. Winter or Fall?
A: Fall

3. Left or right?
A: Left

4. Sunny or rainy?
A: Sunny

6. Where do you live?
A: Lala land.

8. Do you want to get married?
A: No

9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
A: Twirl

10. Wheres 11 and 12?
A: Between 10 and 13.

13. Do You Cook?
A: Yes

14. Current mood?
A: Pissy

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IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...

1. Kissed someone?
A: Yes

2. Sang?
A: No

3. Been hugged?
A: Yes

5. Danced Crazy?
A: No

6. Cried?
A: Yes

7. Like someone you can't have?
A: No

Repost this as, "Who was your last?"

Currently reading : Gilda Joyce, Psychic Investigator (Gilda Joyce (Hardcover)) By Jennifer Allison Release date: July, 2005

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TIS COLD IN MY WORLD
Current mood: cold
Category: Pets and Animals

I always told my kids it would be a cold day in hell before I would buy them a rodent/rat/furball/nasty ass thing for a pet like a hamster.   To me they are not pets. 

Well my hell is frost bitten right now because somehow within the last 12 hours I was tricked, manipulted, and bullied by my boyfriend and kids.  My son will be getting off the school bus today with one more living thing than he took on there.  He is doing his part to reduce the hamster population in the science lab at school and I just don't know how all this happened so fast.   My son, the one who rips off lizard tails, is bringing home a hamster.  May god have mercy on his little hamster soul, for this is his new owner.......

I will post some pics on Monday pending the rodent makes it through the weekend. 

Currently reading : Gilda Joyce, Psychic Investigator (Gilda Joyce (Hardcover)) By Jennifer Allison Release date: July, 2005

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BODY ART CONTEST
Category: Art and Photography

I completely forgot that I did this.....I swear if my brain wasn't attached I would have left it somewhere by now. Mine is #25. Vote for whomever you want, I don't care either way. I will not resort to whoring myself for votes. Ya'll know that's not me. Anyways...happy thursday!

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Date: Mar 15, 2007 1:53 PM


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SOS
Current mood: Insane
Category: Insane Life

Somebody for the love of humanity…please…please…please, throw me a life preserver. 

I am literally drowning in my own insanity.   Seriously, Haywire has got nothing on me.
 

 Oh and if at all possible……make sure one of these guys is attached to it.  (uniforms optional)

Thanks and good day.

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