For those of you who knew, or heard of me speaking about my little cousin Aven, this will be the last update you recieve of him. Aven Everett, 9 years old, had fought a brave battel with brain cancer for a year and a half. Today, April 10, 2008 he finally gave up fighting and passed away. Funeral services have not been arranged as of yet, but family is flying in from Texas, and Washington. Aven was an amazing child who had so much to give in his life, and it makes me proud to know that before he died he got to meet our ancestors who went before him. I have the utmost faith that they have finally greeted him on the other side and he can finally rest with out pain, and suffering. Aven is survived by his mother and father, and a sister. Thank you all for continuing to pray and support us through this hard time.
I just got off the phone with Mom a little bit ago and she told me that Aven has slipped into a coma. This is the final leg in his journey I believe. Just a matter of time now. Thank you again for all your continued support and prayers.
A lot of you who visit my myspace know about my little cousin Aven who has been battling cancer for over a year now. I’d like to give all of you an update on how he’s been doing. This past weekend my Mother called to inform me that he has been slipping in and out of consiousness. When he is awake he tells us that he’s been talking to people, mainly my grandma Neva who died in 1997, and Aven was born about 1999, 2000. Aven never met Grandma Neva but he says its her. He’s been speaking to other relatives of ours that have been long dead and has been describing to us what Heaven looks like. We think we’re reaching the end of the road with poor Aven but its a comfort to know that the family is there with him helping him transition to the other side. If you pray for him now, please pray that he goes smoothly and gently. He shouldn’t suffer. Thank you all for your continued support and prayers during this time for my family. We all really do appreciate it.
So a few days ago I watched a special on the news about cyber bullying that profiled a young girl who had been picked on because the had a seizure infront of her class. Another boy, who seemed in the picutres to be healthy, fun, and adventerous was also being picked on by cyber bullies. The little girl had to change schools three times, and most of her bullying came from a website stating as its headline "I Hate (insert her name)" on myspace. The boy, sadly, killed himself. I was deeply saddened by this but brushed it off for a time.
This morning I went to check my own personal myspace and I noticed I had a message from Tom. It was an update letting us know that he and his lawyers have changed the User Agreement Terms of Use policy and the Privacy Policy. I'm sure that not many people actually sit down and read these policies but I read did. I went through and read from top to bottom the Terms of Use and what I found was, like all Terms of Use, the document said everything it could to allow Myspace to do what it wishes to user content with out reprimand. This is not unusual since most companies and internet sites must protect themselves from unreasonable people. I did read however that they will no police content posted or user profiles but they did have the right to alter or delete a persons profile if they have proven to be in violation of laws and regulations, and or shown to be a danger to other users or Myspace. So I asked myself…who is policing these profiles then, and are they posting the new Terms because of the special about the children I saw.
I decided for curiosity's sake to take a look and see if I could find the "I Hate…" page and so I typed in "Hate". I was astounded when it showed 294 myspace users have the word somewhere in their name or head line. So what is this word that so many people are taking as part of their online persona? The Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary has this to say about the word, "Hate: Noun, often attributive, Middle English from Old English hete, dated before the 12th century,
a: intense hostility and aversion usually deriving from fear, anger, or sense of injuryb: extreme dislike or antipathy :loathinghate of hard work>2: an object of hatred hate had been big business — F. L. Paxson>
Notice how the first cause of Hate in Merriam's definition is "Fear". I don't doubt that the children who picked on the little girl feared her condition, and I have no doubt they were angry (cause lets face it, what middle school student isn't angry at the world) but what injury did this little girl do to her classmates that made her so hated among her peers? Do you mean to tell me that 294 people using myspace are so full of this sense deriving from fear, anger or sense of injury that they have to scream their hate on the internet.
By no means to I expect to change the world with this post, but I do mean to make some people stop and question themselves or those that they know. It is just another example why I believe the state of people around the world is falling dramatically into our own demise. Hate, I know, is not something we can get rid of, although TV wellness ads would make you think otherwise. I just find it sad that so many people cling to this concept for…well for what? A sense of security in their hate? Maybe, and maybe everyone in the world is just sick.
I am not, by no means, secluded from my own observations. I hate…I don't hate many, and I don't hate because of fear. I hate because of personal injury caused to me and my family, and the one Man in my life that is subject to my hate will soon be dead (due to cancer and not my own hand) and because of this I have attempted to swallow my hate and try my hardest to support those that I love. My family wished him ill for so long and they have swallowed their hate as well to be there for him in his last few days. If they can do it, then so can I.
I wont lie, in the process of serching through the many "hate" users on myspace I did find reason to report some of them as abuse of the Terms of Use agreement, and I hope that those few I selected will be deleted from the Myspace site. I wont be saddened if in the process Myspace decides to take a closer look at my own profile and delete it as well because of content (which I have no content that would be offensive to the majority of people, I believe) but it wont matter because I don't often use myspace anymore. I use it mainly to network with those people who can't seem to send out and email to me every once and while.
So that is what has been on my mind this morning and I wanted to share it with my avid readers. I am posting this on myspace as well, and you know that I don't do something like that unless I feel it is warrented. I hope your week is going well and with that I leave you with another episode of "What is Asatru". This is the fifth in the series and I hope you enjoy it.
I'm posting here because I found this video on Youtube, its from NextTV and its a great video that would explain a few things about what I believe. I would love to hear what my friends think of the video and what you all think. So here it is.
Hey guys, just wanted to let you know I'm saying bye bye to the Myspace blog and starting my own that will hopefully provide me with more than just a networking capability...i.e, actually pay me. So if you want to help a girl make some money and you want to keep tabs on me then read my blog at:
9:20 AM - Proud of my accomplishment and a very important topic
Current mood: accomplished
I have to admit, I'm rather proud of myself. After much tedious work and a night not so restful I have finally gotten enough done to constitute a rough draft. Ten pages long, and I'm not finished, I still need to cover Eve in my paper, cause I have some of her done, but I've mainly been focused on Lady Egerton. Lastnights work yeilded a page which helped a lot. I have faith yet that I'll be able to do this before the end of the semester. The very fact that I have a new found faith in this is because I can say with out a doubt that the work I have put in thus far is note worthy and definately not half assed like some of my papers. *sigh of accomplishment* Now I know the road is long from over. I have a shit ton of work still to do in the three weeks that remain but I have to believe that I can get it done. Because I'm so proude of my work I would like to add a little excerpt from my hard work.
"Comus, as I stated earlier is feminine because he is a disciple of female Deities dancing under the moon and shunning the sun. The moon is recognized as a symbol for females, and Goddesses, whereas the Sun is the symbol for males, and Gods, particularly of Zeus. Because of his affinity with the feminine he, like many other female deities in history is associated with the passionate, the emotional, and natural side of Human nature. The moon, in addition to being the symbol of females, is also connected to the state of mind. We get the term Lunatic from the word Luna, a name for the moon suggesting that the freer, irrational side of the mine is feminine in nature. Because of its presence in the night sky it is also associated with dreams, the often irrational and purely emotional mental process tht is given over to the subconscious desires of the min. "Comus, then is hardly associated with the sun and a rational, logical orientation. That role is saved for the attendant Spirit, a messenger of Jove who has come to "save" the Lady and return her to her father." (54)"
Bet you wouldn't have guessed that Puritan Milton would be writing about female Goddesses and Lunar influences when he wrote his masque Comus did ya? Anyway, not only did I get that done, I'm going to fix up my Mary Kay page and will provide a link to it later so all of my soon to be customers from here can view my page if they wish. I'm excited to get started.
Before I go on I feel like I should address a topic that has recently come to mnd. I've flipped through random myspace pages, flitting through the pagan circles of all kind that are featured on here. I've noticed the random few people who insist on taking the names of Gods and Goddess as their own. Here I have a problem. I understand that a myspace page is under no regulation and is a personal representation of those who participate on here. I also understand that some do this to pay tribute to the God or Goddess that they follow. I have no problem with praising your Goddess, or God in a setting that is free of the scorn you would normally face in the world today. I also understand that a Myspace is one of the last places that people can shead their masks that they wear for society and be, perhaps, who they truely are, no matter how stupid, crude, evil, kind, sweet, or artistic that may be.
My issue is this; if you take the name of a God or Goddess as a representation of yourself on Myspace I have to say, and can say with some strong conviction that you, no matter how good of a disciple you are, fall exceptionally short and land hard against the reality that you will be and are, no where close to the power, and the strength, and attributes that your God, or Goddess contain. The danger in taking a name so recognizable is that you might well catch the eyes of those around you, but the eyes of the very power you claim to embody, and if you are not 100% sure that you are worthy of such recognition then the attention will be ill wanted.
In taking a name such as these you are saying one of two things; either a) I am worthy of praise and recognition because I hold a name with such power or b) I am too unintelligent to realize the dangers and implications of my actions, and feel that I am allowed to lessen the power of my God or Goddess to a physical and Mortal standard, a big insult to any Higher Power. To be a physical embodyment of a power such as a Gods is a road rarely traveled by men or women because we are human and the Gods, either accepted as Myth or Reality, are there to exemplify standards that we humans are to strive for, but understably in our imperfection fall short. This idea of falling short is obviously a christian ideology but in my own religion it is understood that the Gods are who they are, we are human, and that in order to gain the honor we seek and gain their favor we must recognize them seperate from ourselves and understand that we strive to be like them, and to attend to them, but also understand that because of our mortal flesh we are unable to be physcial chambers for them. The few instances where this is acceptable is when the Gods and Goddess seek a vessel of our liking for a specific purpose.
If you are one of the unintelligent people then you obviously believe that You are raised amongst the standards of a God or that they are not so powerful in the first place and so you deserve their title. If either of these are the case then the Gods and Goddesses will act accordingly in finding their own punishment for you, and to the eyes of others you are incredibly self righteous, ignorant, and fool headed.
Not to long ago I made a promise to treat my cat as a daughter of Freya. I said that I would love her and care for her as if she were a representation of the very Goddess. I am by no means saying that my Cat were the Goddess in a physical manifestation, I am however saying that because Freya is recognized with her cats, I am treating Prima as if she too were one of Freya's and worthy of all the love and care that I can give her. I do this to recognize the gift that I have been given in the pet I now have. I promised to love her, which I do almost with out abandon, and care for her, that does not mean I will dote on her with bowls of milk and tuna every morning. I understand that if I did these things it could comprimse her health and that is something I do not want to do if I am caring for a representation of a Goddess. The long and short of this issue is, if you take a name, be sure you understand what you are doing when you call yourself by the title of a God or Goddess. Instead, morph a name all your own that includes the God or Goddess you follow but is individually your own and shows you as a dedicated follower. Doing this is probably one of the highest compliments you can pay to your diety, after all they want you to be an individual and unique follower of what they teach.
With all that said, I hope I offended no one, but still got my message across. I'm off now to do my Mary Kay thing, and hopefully to play some WoW. I haven't done so in like two weeks. I know I've been a good girl by that account. I wish you all the best of luck in your endeavors.
Always,
Lib
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Fancy Ultra Fresh
By
Freezepop
Release date: 11 May, 2004
You heard me right. I'm selling Mary Kay! I made my first payment to get my starter kit today! Which means that after friday, in two weeks, I'll have my starter kit and be open for buisness! I'm really excited. I also attended a Mary Kay meeting tonight and Oh my GOD it was so much fun!!! I'm really looking forward to selling now... I wasn't too keen on the idea of selling at first, but one of the consultants is paying off her husbands truck with the money she's earning, and paying for dental care. Those two are no small bills and Margie said for 20 hours of work in a month she's made over like 1000 dollars. Can you believe it! So anyway, this is my shout out to all of my myspace fans girls and guys alike!!! If you want to buy Mary kay please don't hesitate to contact me now. I can set up a facial by mail and a consultation over the phone and get you on your way. We also have some male products, like cologne and things like that. Christmas is coming up guys and you don't want to be buying that special someone a gift last minute. Come to me and get her Americas number 1 rated skin care products today! By the way country fans...CMA awards...all us! Mary Kay is doing the makeup for the CMA. *hugs* So contact me soon...if you need my phone number, mail me and I'll send it to you!
9:36 PM - A birthday weekend
Current mood: anxious
Well its 11:37 pm, and I'm working on my senior thesis, on the weekend of my birthday. Joy for me. Sad thing is, I've got two pages done, and the rough draft is due tomorrow. So I'm going to work as much as I can tonight, and then I have to wake up tomorrow and finish a paper for History of the English language before three o'clock. I know, this anguish is self inflicted, but I think I'm making good progress. I'm taking a small break to write this because if I focus too much on the draft I end up losing myself. Stepping back and taking a fresh look at it helps me to clear my thoughts and focus better.
Today has been good. Mom and Maamaa got here from columbia early, like seven a.m, so I'm a bit tired cause I had to wake up early. They got a hotel in columbia to stay at, and after they got here, we took the dogs for a walk, and I took Mom and Maamaa out to Peter's lake. They enjoyed it. Afterwards we went for a walk around the square, came back and had tuna salad sandwhiches, and then I went to work at noon. While I was at work, Mom and maamaa went back to columbia to look around. They picked up sourdough bread bowls from Panera bread company, and shortly returned. Dustyn picked up stuff to make soup, so we had one of my favorite meals when I got home.
While at work I got news that Misti, a good friend of mine, had to go to the hospital. She gave us all a good scare. Her blood pressure was really high, but she's back home. Doctor gave her some orders and if she doesn't stick to them I'm gonna hurt her. I busted my ass at work, I don't think I've ever worked so hard. I really didn't want to be there and I knew that if I slacked off then it would seem to take forever. So I kept busy hoping it would make the time go by faster, and sure enough it did. So after I got home, we all had a nice family dinner and watched a few movies on T.v. They left at like eight p.m and I had to take a moment to get over the fact that they were gone. You know how it is when someone invades your space...you just gotta take a step back to regain your barrings. So at about ten o'clock I started on the rough draft. So thats been the extent of my day. I'm off again to work on the draft. Love you all.
Libellule
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listening
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Not Too Late
By
Norah Jones
Release date: 30 January, 2007
8:47 PM - New companions to the home
Current mood: calm
Hello everyone,
Today is my birthday and what a fun day it has been. My Mom and grandma decided to come down to visit, and have brought the dogs. Prima is not amused by the two giant four legged creatures that have taken over her house. She's been hidding in Dustyn's closet for most of the day. I don't blame her but she had better get use to the puppies. After all, she might end up living with them. She's an only child so she's spoiled. Lol.
After Mom came into town we got her a hotel. The dogs aren't allowed so they are spending the night with me. I'm glad to have them, after all, they are my babies. Well once we got them settled, Mom took us out to Macoronni Grill, one of my favorite Italian resturants. I love Italian food. We had a wonderful dinner and talked the night away over cups of Irish coffee.
After dinner Mom took us to Walmart. I had plans to use the 100 dollar I had gotten from Grandma and Grandpa Compton on new fish for our fish tank but Mom was nice enough to get them for me. So we have new additions to our fishy family as well. Sushie (the original beta and king of the tank) died after having him for about four years. Row (the father Molly named after the japanese caviar) died just a few days ago, so our fish tank looked a bit empty and sad. So we arrived at Walmart and promptly picked out another Beta (he's Green/blue) and named him Wasabi (yes after food again). We also picked up Three gormani- I think thats the name, not sure...but they are fat lookin fish. We picked up four more Mollies to continue the breeding process, and we picked up three Red Glofish...these things are like neon pink with neon yello fins. I bet they would look good under a black light. We also got new bubble makers. I don't know what they are actually called but thats what I call them, more gravel for the bottom of the tank, and a net breeder so we can seperate the mothers so they can give birth, and remove the moms right afterwards and keep the babies safe until they are big enough to swim with the other fishes. All in all Mom spent 37 dollars at walmart for us, it was a joint b-day present to both Dustyn and I.
We finally decided to give some of the other fish that have survived official names. The big clown loach is named Tao, the small loach is Sechwan, the three red finned tetras are: Si, ah, Mese (dustyn's idea) and the two mollies that look like Row are Kung and Pow. They get special names because they look different from all the others and they look like their father...orange and black. I wont name any of the new fish, except for the beta, until I'm sure they will live and adjust well in our tank. No reason to name them and get attached if they are just going to die in a week.
So dustyn is fiddling with the gravel, you have to wash that stuff really well before putting it into a tank, and messing with the rest of the stuff, and I'm going to work on senior thesis tonight. Mom is going to come back this way early tomorrow morning so I shouldn't stay up too late. *shrug* We'll see how well this all works out.
As for the new name and the new look. Remember that change I was about to make...well I made it. I wanted something to do with butterfly's since they seem to be a theme for me recently, and Well since I do have some butterfly stuff on my page I feel that is sufficient. But the Name Libellule is a name for a shade of blue, a color that seems to predominate many areas of my life. However it is not the color of depression, quite the contrary, blue to me signify's peace, and a calm energy that I have aquired since my mind has turned a new leaf. The transformation is finally complete...at least until a new one comes. I chose the picture I did because the woman in it, although dark and gothic looking, seems like she is getting read to blow out the candles in the picture and make a wish. Making a wish for my future is what I'm doing. Its hopeful. So there ya go. An explination of my name...not as lengthy as the other but length doesn't always represent significance.
With that said I will bid you all good night. May you have many good dreams and wonderful days ahead of you.
accomplished
anxious
calm