no matter wat i can't help but to love her i tried not too but the thought gave me shudders i didn't understand so i tried to shut her, out to distance myself cause she wanted distance herself, doubt is a person's worst enemy, we were amazing now we're still close but closer to friendly still tied to each other still exclusive but now we're on a break, reclusive had to find ourselves so us is sidelined, postponed we were eachother's everything, king and queen dethroned we still talk but now we hear less of eachother no pictures so we see less of one another and i wish it wasn't that way but it is i can only keep wat we have and live and hopefully we'll both miss that love we've felt because i can never see myself loving someone else she said to keep hope so when she's ready and she understood it wasn't fair to me so she said it's her loss if i'm not waiting but she's the only girl i see we were so close, we were eachother's other and no matter wat i can't help but to love her
if you love em let em go right? i don't know so show me insight life's goal is to find your matching soul i'm tryin to grasp it tight so i don't lose my hold needed room so im tryin to play my role we were amazing till we had to fold we were straight till we hit a curve sent us off our curb, now we omit certain words the thing is i still feel the same there's somethin in my brain that won't quit sayin how you still love her and wish you were layin by her how holdin her felt like you had everything in the world how the feeling was just right cept the distance inbetween but we always knew love could rule by any means love can conquer anything right? i don't know anymore so show me insight was so in love used to call just to hear her voice everyone said it'd be tough but that was our choice knew we could make it cause there's no one like you and i haven't really said it, but i still miss you i see our pictures and wonder how we got here we were just laughin and smilin and now we're not there never would bet i'd be facing my worst fear and now it's not us but only me in one mirror with my everything i loved so much and now it's only me, no us...
i replay like a new game feature all day study my craft like a underdog in last place fuck whoever laughed all up in my face i'm past you now, you mad cause you all gassed down i'm that new shit you old like some hand me downs i'm that fresh kid you like the town's own clown and i murder fools at any rate, you could get it straight don't need a clip i fuck wit ya mind wit my wordplay is impeccable out of this world, extraterrestrial keep a eye on ya girl even if she's next to you i caught her peepin my mic skills, she sensual gave her a wink yea she sexy too haha my most formidable opponent is only i, me i set my goals high so i dont just pass em, i leap outwards bound like superman makin city rounds flyest kid on the planet just workin to make it happen i'm so wats up, i even float when i lounge was slow at first, but now i'm lappin while i'm rappin and yall can clap in but you could never slow me down it takes more than slo-mo to doge my bullets now i'm out to take this music crown and lay you face down so while you layin hopin the hurt'll fade i'm workin my mind away to hurdle fate cause i'm the truth, no matter wat my race now i'll leave naysayers wit a fuck you but have a nice day
they say the harder the pain hits the more strength you get and i bet you're sick of the weather metaphors but it pours whenever my rain hits and it's a trip whenever i talk to her it rips my memories back to our memories but all of a sudden we're in a whole nother world a whole nother state of mind when before i was yours and you used to be mine still a state away never in your state or mine so i'm stuck wit these obstacles i'm tryin to climb time and time again i wish i could bend time cause i'm still tryin to find where we weren't fine where we weren't array and started to slip away cause less than sixty days we were more than okay less than sixty days maybe we were just okay...
The world is a crazy place, so i'm doing a little research, and i'll post interesting stuff here; videos, and sites, and such. Go head and leave me comments, and let me know what you think. Here's something to get it started. Also check out this site http://www.infowars.com/. Now before you get it twisted. There will always be crazy theories. I am a Christian and I still hold my faith in God, but keep an open mind, and every once in awhile question the world you live in. I'm not saying I believe any of the stuff i post yet, but after doing extensive research I'll eventually make my own conclusion, and hopefully you will too.
i gotta get my mind out, frustrations bring a blind cloud can't see straight my peripheral vision's on time out to heavy can't carry no doubts, tryin to figure out reroute questioning why did G_d really send me, and left me empty wit every pain is a moment of hope wit every hope is a moment of change but that's all after the pain cause pain left me gallons of rain let the clouds part, sun shine on my mind, my wit, my brain i refrain from the subject but still hear it in my spoken word cause wit pain as a subject every inch of me still hurts and every inch of me still learns i take the good wit the bad, the glad wit the sad the happiness had me shadowless till my mind just fades in this words mumbled they just fade in this the hurt got me fadin miss it got me fadin miss....
i get to thinkin bout you daily, nightly, mostly wishin you were here so we could know wat close be cause bein close to you is wat i want the most see but distance got me feelin like two different coasts, sea like saline water is wat i'm feelin parched wit no buildin no expandin, no growin, but i never wanna fold in cause i never wanna give up you mean too much, this love is so much and when pressure gets to pullin it feels like any moment i could lose you in this rush this busy bustlin place that we call life things could get in the way but don't lose sight of me cause i could never be witout your heart not for the life of me watever you do please think twice of me, cause i think thrice of she the one who is my very dream, who makes me me she could never be no other girl besides her, and that's my key
Sometimes it just gets so hard. Like how does a long distance relationship grow if you see them less than a quarter of a year. Every moment you wake you wish that one person was just there to spend it wit you. You know that deep down it is the hardest most painful thing, but you love them so much that they're worth every struggling day cause one day you'll both be together. I've felt heart ache before, but knowing you love someone wit every ounce of you and they feel the same way, it truly hurts more. Knowing you found this amazing person who loves you just as much and can be your complete self around and wants to spend every second till the end of time wit you, but can't. It truly hurts so much more...
had a dream the other night you were right by my side woke up wit a smile, but only came to realize that i was just dreamin, you were still far away so i tried to go to sleep, but i just stayed awake thought about how much i missed you how much i wished i could just be wit you hold you, laugh wit you, and just kiss you really wish life could be easier done than said so i'm stuck, wishful thinking, wit a half empty bed i can see now how i was meant to come this way cali brought opportunities, american dreams, the american way fulfilled dreams means great things, but i'm missing something and it brings an empty feeling knowing i met someone, but can't be wit that one why does it have to be so hard i met the girl of my dreams, but we're just so far apart and i think of all the people that really get to see her and how lucky they are, and how i wish i could just be there to just share and cherish every moment but i'm so far away wit this pen and pad that i'm holdin so all i can do is write wit wishful thinking waiting for the one day i can hold my world's meaning i love you
