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Thursday, June 19, 2008
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Your Spiritual Revolution
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Your Spiritual REvolution is an e-mag published by Spiritual Science and Research Foundation and edited by Prabhath P (who I met at Gaia community www.gaia.com). They have some great articles and have been publishing several of my pieces too. I have posted the articles they published here at myspace already. The one that will be published in July has been edited quite a lot since being posted here. To download the e-magazine go to the site http://yourspiritualrevolution.org
You need to register and log in to the e-mag site to download the magazine in PDF format. Registration is free. After you log in you can either right click on the download this issue link to save the PDF file on your computer or left click to open it in browser.
Titles of the articles and months they were or will be published:
The Essence of Intuition - February, 2008
Seeking: Its Inherence, Beauty and Pitfalls - April, 2008
Exploring the Meaning of Enlightenment - June, 2008
Defending Ourselves Against the Unknown - July, 2008
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Sunday, April 06, 2008
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Reconciling old friends and life-style with changing consciousness
Category: Religion and Philosophy
These following 10 blogs are all from a dialogue with posters at oprah.com who are studying Eckhart Tolle’s "A New Earth".
This is to a poster regarding his difficulties with reconciling his friendships with his new awareness:
Every moment, relationship and situation is a possibility to deepen in this awareness. As you "continue to evolve and become more focused on the present" the awareness found through your stillness and Silence will inform your actions. Your deepening presence will also unveil your oneness, and in the Heart of that oneness you will only feel greater acceptance, closeness and compassion with those around you. Those around you may not feel or see similarly - and your response to that and whether it is one of acceptance or one of resistance can be your invitation to look deeper at yourself. No formula or belief or preconceived ideas can tell you how to proceed in your relations. You can stay with them and feel/find peace or stay and feel division - you can go towards your commonalities in peace and with good will towards your friends or go in division. You can embrace whatever it is for you as a vehicle for your growth. Within myself, I experience the sense of division and suffering as its own alarm and an invitation to look deeper and inquire into the thoughts and beliefs behind my expectations and attachments. - I sense the way I am triggered as being about me and not about the other.
Living your truth (whether you stay and/or find new friends) is the gift of your soul and can inspire others around you to do the same. Shift happens. Your peace and loving acceptance (whether you stay and/or find new friends), can be a beacon of light that is very inviting - or it can be threatening - or both. In your movement, you are likely challenging the individual and the tribal mind, and in doing so, the individual and the tribal ego (in you and in those in your tribe) will want to fight for their survival.
I can understand how difficult it can be to feel alone amidst family and friends with whom you no longer feel you share a connection or commonalities. I know the fear of not wanting to leave them (and the you that you know in relation to them) behind and the pure and innocent desire to want to share it all. I also know that sometimes we want to teach ourselves through teaching others or make it easier on ourselves by teaching others, and that can be alienating to them. Something to watch and be vigilant about.
Sometimes people act just the way we expect them to act because they are held to our psychic formations of them and how we think they are. Be willing not to know how your friends will be and even what they are interested in - - let them (and yourself) be "new" - and just see. That is one of the greatest gifts you can give them. I know that we tend to define our love and care through what we know about each other and our familiarity, but approaching someone you have ’known’ for a long time in wonder and the spirit of discovery and mystery can be extremely intimate, the most loving invitation for them to be all they can be, and a gesture of great trust. Relating to someone as if you are meeting them for the first time, without your preconceptions of them, is being truly Present and through that, there is the possibility of having a true Meeting and paradoxically, seeing them clearer and knowing them deeper. Your life is your laboratory.
To ever-deepening breaths relaxed and awakened to the still and potent fullness of now.
To your deepest peace, joy, fulfillment and unconditional freedom through all conditions,
Love and namaste,
sunyalila - aka Ellen
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On "Ego"
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Question: ET states that his ego dissolved, not really sure what he means by this from my own experience. The only time I felt my ego dissolving is when I also felt a feeling of anxiety. I understand now what this meant, but at the time it freaked me out. From my understanding is if one kills off their own ego, how can they relate to other people on an egotistical humanistic level? I mean it’s easy to surround yourself with spirit minded people and be at peace, but try surrounding yourself with egotistical people having a conversation and be at peace. How can one relate without giving the impression your better then them or you’re a know it all or CRAZY?
I find that within ET’s vernacular, some of the terms, such as "ego" seem to be used loosely. I sense that his saying his ego dissolved meant that it became subjugated to his awareness and he stopped identifying himself as and through his ego. I don’t think the ego is to be killed but to be embraced and seen for what it is.The only thing that would feel the need to kill ego is ego itself. What we are calling ’ego’ is the only thing that can give the illusion power. When ego is seen for what it is, it can be allowed to do its useful and creative functioning in service to what is beyond it. All thoughts/beliefs/phenomena - and ’ego’ arise within awareness/consciousness/Self. To want to kill them is to give power to the illusion that they are more powerful than the awareness that they arise within and that can see them for what they are.
I don’t think that ego or the mechanism that enables us to survive when in danger is what allows us to relate to each other or to people who are "egotistical". That kind of "like-mindedness" generally does not see itself in the other and creates the perfect alchemy for wars. Although, understanding the mechanism of ego and how it can run amok and go beyond its useful ’job description’ may enable us to be more compassionate and understanding with those that are "egotistical". What enables us to connect, understand and be compassionate is the heart and the light of awareness that knows itself as not above or below but one with all and sees beyond our illusions of separation. But that can only be received (or connection mutually experienced) if the other feels a resonance with what is being offered - or That within them recognizes itself in what is being offered. People can only see what they know themselves to be no matter how much divinity you see in them or how wise, compassionate, skillful and loving you are in expressing that. If they are identified with their ego and looking through that, they will certainly get the impressions of their projections. I feel that if they see me as crazy or holier than thou it is their business unless it triggers me - and then it is mine to see my illusions of separation and what is between me and my peace.
Love and namaste,
sunyalila - aka Ellen
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The Sword the Cuts in One
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Comment: "We are all having difficulty (the internal war) looking at who we are and our issues and how are we going to expurgate them in order to get to the Light...the Light of our consciousness."
There is nothing to get to - the Light is who we are. Seeing what does not recognize itself as that light in truth, transforms its appearance and our relationship with it. The "internal war" employs swords that cut in two, that come from and create division. When we, in the light of our truth and freedom, slay that which we are attached to, we use a sword that cuts in One; that heals division and unifies; that is Oneness shining its Light on Itself and illuminating Truth.
To swords that cut in One. 
Love and namaste,
sunyalila aka Ellen
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Perceived failure as a call, opportunity or invitation to inquire
Category: Religion and Philosophy
That which is perceived as failure can be seen as a call or an opportunity and invitation to inquire. It can be seen this way and welcomed as such when we stop judging the conditioned response and arising feelings and just see them for what they are. and yes, if we are to assess that, it can be seen as a success because we are then present... but the other side of seeing success is seeing failure and not giving energy to the comparative mind is allowing more possibility towards being present with what is.
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"Can observation or witnessing lead to dissociative thinking patterns?"
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Question: "I wonder if this all translates into becoming observers and not the experiental objects...could this lead into disassociative thinking patterns?"......
Observing mind and thoughts enables greater presence and connection, greater ability to experience things as they are rather than our preconceptions. When we can rest in the awareness that is prior to thoughts and conditions and see arising thoughts and conditions for what they are, there is the possibility of a true meeting, a true oneness, a true connection, a true Knowledge. Observing thoughts could unveil dissociative thinking patterns and enable greater engagement with life.
When thoughts are seen for what they are, when they are seen in truth, they no longer have a hold on you. If "presence" is understood as just a notion and not experienced as an outflow of Silence and a function of connection then observation can be from the mind and dissociative; a mind shut down and disconnected rather than a mind illuminated. If these sorts of concepts are approached intellectually and not through awareness and the sense of connection that comes from there - and if we leave out the heart or try to "spiritually bypass" emotions or thoughts that arise rather than really feel and hear them and what they tell us and see them for what they are (which we can do without believing them) - then I think we can fall prey to the context of distinctions that you are referring to: observing life rather than experiencing life, and perpetuating dissociative thinking patterns.
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awareness recognizing itself enables dis-identifying with form
Category: Religion and Philosophy
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Looking at distinctions between radical self-inquiry & deconstructing beliefs, & nihilism
Category: Religion and Philosophy
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Regarding Sudden vs. Gradual Awakening
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Someone asked Eckhart, "Is there a fundamental difference between your own irreversible inner shift and our experience of step-by-step awakening" and asked us what we thought about it. The following was my reply:
Depending on where identity lies, there are many ways we can experience or speak about "step by step" or gradual and sudden awakenings. I think that there is a fundamental difference between "trying to become" awakened and "awakening" waking up to itself. Trying to become awakened feeds the notion that there is a someone separate from the awareness and that there is something other to become. In that light, it obfuscates what we already are and what essentially need only be unveiled.
"Awakening", as a term of manifestation, is a process, and in time, gradual. Yet, everything happens now. Process is what we see when we look backwards. There is nothing but this ... now. What appears to be gradual is the realization of that fact in time.
Realization in time enables an integrated and consciously embodied awareness through each arising condition. Life in all of its infinitely diverse and challenging conditions is an invitation to re-membering ever deeper, less conditionally and more consciously what we already and always are.
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What I have seen is that sudden awakenings may provide people with awareness "that can never be reversed", but when there are wounds, habits and thought patterns that have not been investigated or faced with the light of that awareness, and they are triggered in moment to moment embodiment through new arising conditions in life, and there is no understanding of the mechanism involved and how to recognize what is triggered before it takes hold, the "mechanism" can run amok and the same reactivity can occur and shadow material can play out. An awakened awareness will not believe or hold onto it for long because in a general sense there is no sense of separate identity needing to defend itself, but may still react in such a way that does not reflect a fully integrated and embodied understanding. Disconnection from the body (as opposed to disidentification with it) and lack of grounding in the heart can also limit presence relationally and even perpetuate levels of dissociation. We have heard of so-called gurus that Know Self and transmit That Knowing quite profoundly and also abuse their power and work out their sexual expression, shadow material or whatever, for example, with devotees. Perhaps you have heard about the "stink of enlightenment" and the subtle or not so subtle ego that can be created and unquestioned through taking on the role of teacher or guru?
In the ’satsangs’ I have been to people often want to know that moment that triggered awakening as if to have a map of how to find it themselves. Many teachers have answers about these sudden event horizons that seem to me to so often concretize a notion of ’who’ has awakened and through that, mythologizes them and also "awakening".
I feel that the aspiration for Truth and realization is innate - but if we feel that what we aspire towards is other than who we are, we end up reinforcing our illusions of separation from it. The agendas and strategies to achieve awakening can end up obscuring it. Awareness can wake up to itself (or the beliefs that are obscuring awareness awakened to itself can relax) every moment. Activities done for that purpose can perpetuate the falsehood that there is something that is not always and already here - yet the unveiling of that awareness can appear through any activity and also through practice, the grace of prayers and purpose that are essentially seeded by Truth consciousness itself or That moving towards its (Self-)realization.
Love and namaste,
Ellen
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Be the Space
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Oprah has Eckhart Tolle’s book A New Earth as her book of the month and is doing weekly online webcasts at oprah.com with Tolle. They also take questions from people around the globe on skype. It is more than her usual book club because there are work books, ’awakening exercises’, meditations, and a live after class event with wonderful Elizabeth Lesser (founder of the Omega Institute and creator of the curriculum of this event). All of this, including past classes, can be accessed at her site. This is the largest class in the world with millions of people from all over the world participating. It is quite inspiring being part of a collective meditation of this magnitude, witnessing the transformations, seeing so many receive the invitation of this awareness and the levels of Self-inquiry proliferating. There is a message board where hundreds of threads whiz by. Although I haven’t read the book yet, I recognize and resonate with what is being discussed and I joined in for a couple of days and will blog here some of what I posted. When someone asked what ’be the space’ means. The following flowed out:

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Saturday, April 05, 2008
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Saying "Yes" to Now
Category: Religion and Philosophy
There is such compassion in saying ’yes’ to now - whatever it is - even if it is a ’no’. Antecedent to that is a deep acceptance in what is - even if what arises is lack of acceptance. And in that is a deep acceptance in ourselves. When we fight what is going and are heavily invested in the idea that it shouldn’t be happening, we are often fighting God and/or ourselves in not having been able to do what is essentially "God’s business" and create a different outcome. We end up reinforcing our sense of separation from it and the illusion that it is bigger than us with our resistance to it. We fight ourselves when we fight life and there are sometimes some very strong self-judgments at play when we perceive "bad things happening in life". Giving ourselves compassion and tenderness may be a way of allowing the judgments and self-condemnation to surface so that they can be seen in truth and released. When we know ourselves as the awareness in which it all arises and not the thing that arises, we are no longer at the effect of it and can be more present with it and see it in truth. I love the phrase used here: "be a space for it." When not lost in identification with form there is no longer a sense of one separate that needs to survive, or protect; no one of two to fight. In that light, there is no need to add story to the unfolding story - the narrative that is created through our ideas of and attachments to how things should be. We can let it be as it is, and in that, paradoxically, we are then more present to make changes if that is what is called for - even if it is a change in the way in which we are perceiving our reality.
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Monday, March 17, 2008
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révérence series
Category: Art and Photography
With special thanks and reverence to my friends here, Anna, Carl, Joseph, Kristine, Kate and Brian and your kind and intelligent comments to my last blogs. I am sorry that I am not more interactive here these days but I appreciate your feedback and am heartened by your presence in my life and hopeful that there will be a time to explore, discover and experience more directly together.
These are stills from videos that I took yesterday with my phone camera while I was dancing.
Love and namaste,
Ellen










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Monday, March 03, 2008
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Seeking: Its Inherence, Beauty and Pitfalls
Category: Religion and Philosophy
That which is always and already That is innate and inherent, as well as that which moves towards its infinite self-experience and knowing. Moving into diversity of experience and towards self-knowing and self-realization in all its guises is the nature of the One in its Play in manifestation. This measurable, relative universe provides the opportunity for us to experience Self in relationship with itself. So we are at once always and already complete. Yet the nature of manifestation is to experience this and in order to do that there is a here to a there; a process, which leaves open the possibility for our seeing the illusion that we are other than what we move towards or aspire to... and that we can be more or less That. When we believe that what we are reaching for is other than what we are, we concretize our perceived separation from it and obscure the awareness of the divine suchness which is always and already innate in all. Adding on top of that the illusory notion of "enlightenment" as a measurement of realization ends up further obfuscating That which is innate and our birthright into something apparently unreachable, or, possibly reachable with exceptional grace and "hard work." In a sense it makes rare something that is very natural and ordinary and obscures from our awareness the always already suchness in all of life including the mundane.
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We feel a separation from what we aspire towards when we do not recognize ourselves as the same and one with what we are seeking. The more that we 'seek' what we believe is other than ourselves, the more we concretize or reinforce the very illusions of separation that stand in the way of realizing our aspirations. This sense of separation is fed by our identifying solely through our individuation.
Our Divine Nature calls to itself from within to be realized, which is such a beautiful expression of the Divine Will in action. Yet through our habits and illusions of separation it is translated like a nag that wants something it is not, which can then distort things.
This distortion is compounded by our tendency to identify ourselves through the effort of our aspiration and then the need to invest more and more in that effort to validate our selves. When we have a vested interest in what we have built, we tend to continue to fortifying it with our beliefs. Within the momentum of that dynamic, non effort or stopping is not even a consideration because of the fear of failure, of the unknown, of non-being or of ceasing to exist. Our actions and thoughts then become defenses against that. Defending ourselves against the unknown is a path enmeshed in preconceptions and away from the realization of Truth. Our mental associations and representations of what we see further obscure or add story to what is.
"Not knowing" or not giving energy to mind and its constructions is a path towards getting beyond mind's limitations, but when aspirants deny or refuse Knowledge that comes through Silence and beyond mind so as not to give energy to knowing, they can stop a very divine flow and remove themselves from the very essence of the Truth of their being as the Allness that Is and Is Not, that Knows and Knows not.
Speaking to the Seeker in Conflict with Seeking
Trying to deny seeking is chasing your tail in one direction, and seeking for what you believe you are not is chasing your tail in another. Not allowing this innate aspect of yourself moving towards self-realization in form because of feeling that it will obfuscate self-realization is creating for yourself a double-bind.
You are at once "always, already" That and there is nothing that you can do or that you need to do to BE That ---- AND you are That coming to realize, know and experience self as the many faces of That in manifestation. If you allow both as they arise in your awareness you will not create division around it. My sense is that depression comes as a result of suppressing one and not accomplishing your ideas of another while judging yourself for it.
You are at once "always, already" That and there is nothing you need to do in order to BE That - AND you are always realizing Self through all of life. Realizing depression, Realizing joy, Realizing peace, Realizing sleep, Realizing unconsciousness, Realizing bliss, Realizing forgetting, Realizing suffering, Realizing awakening, Realizing something, Realizing nothing.
Can you find any place in your awareness which is undisturbed or unaffected by your seeking? Can you find that which is unperturbed by seeking or not seeking or what appears to be the conflict between the two and could include either or both?
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Seeking is an innate aspect of Consciousness as a force of play in this relative, material, space-time universe. Consciousness, the Divine, God, seeks to know and experience ItSelf in Its infinite diversity as and through us. Where it becomes a paradoxical bind in the experience of the seeker, is when what is seeking perceives itself to be not of the same substance in its essential nature as that which it is seeking. It is then when the seeking separates oneself further in experience and identity from that which one aspires towards.
It is like trying to deny the inherent nature of the Divine within manifestation to deny the essence which seeks for or moves towards more of itSelf. Every cell seeks to be realized. When speaking about "letting go", "stopping" and the "always already" unconditioned self without acknowledging this, we set up a paradoxical bind in our beingness which creates a tension and conflict when "doing" or the desire to perfect or achieve happens, even if it arises out of this essence which moves to realize more of ItSelf.
Essence seeks for more of itself or moves towards its self-realization in manifestation. In manifestation this "seeking" or moving towards is innate. There is nothing but That; all movement can only be That being itself and whatever direction we might perceive it going, it is That going towards itself, either in awareness or in ignorance. May it be in awareness. All eyes open to awareness dancing itself.
Ellen Davis - © 2000
Revised © 2008

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Defending Ourselves Against the Unknown
Category: Religion and Philosophy
We are innately worthy, innately divine, and need do nothing to substantiate this. We are One enjoying our infinite diversity. Yet so often, through the journey of individuation and the veils of illusion that we can get lost in, to validate our place in the world and give ourselves a sense of identity, meaning, worthiness and security, we define ourselves in relationship to our world: "I am here and not there. I am fat and you are thin. I am fast and you are slow. I am bad and you are good. You won and I lost. You are this way and I am that way. I used to be this way and now I am that way. I believe this and you believe that."
We define ourselves through our conditions: "I am hot, I am cold. I am tired. I am old. I am young. I am hungry, I am horny. I am happy. I am sad. I am angry. I am depressed. I am sick. I am well. I am in love. I am lonely."
We define ourselves in opposition to the world or in identification with it: "You are this way and I am not like you. The world is this way but I am that way."
Then, to make it all even more meaningful, we create reasons to feel these ways. And the more reasons we have, the more that we think it gives us validity or justifies our existence. And if we do not have reasons, we judge ourselves as shallow or crazy.
When we avoid the unknown, the way that we think we will know where we are, is in relation to something else. And our "something else" is often not seen for what it is but through a streaming narrative about it built on preconceptions and the agenda to give ourselves a name, place and meaning in our world. What I am pointing to is distinct from a celebration and enjoyment of individuality and diversity. I am pointing to the momentum of the comparative mind and the way we shape our identity through our belief in our confabulations.
When we are not comfortable with the unknown, we tend to defend ourselves against it; against NOW; against what is and the unknown. We do this by layering on top of it meaning and stories and beliefs which place us in a context to where there is an appearance of knowing and an appearance of identity. When we surrender to the now without fixating in identity through our relationship to something else or our own conditions, we may see, if look to find who we are, that there is no one there. If we do not see ourselves in relationship to something else we fear we may cease to exist, and in fact we (or the illusion) may cease to exist as a separated self-sense. And if there is no one there, there is no sense of a someone who can do something. And who are we and what value do we have if we do not do anything? Paradoxically, when we as awareness, without a fixated identity, surrender to the Now through a Silence, without our preconceptions/stories/beliefs layered on top of the now, we can really see where we are, what arises and what to do much more intimately. This is awareness.
Approaching life with all of our preconceptions and self-referencing in relation to the world around us is like looking through glasses which are colored with designs and polka dots on them rather than through clear ones.
When we are insecure with the unknown and the present moment, we tend to do everything we can to avoid it. When we think those things external or separate from ourselves will create sustainable meaning and security for us or when we have expectations for specific outcomes, we set ourselves up for disappointment. Our only true insurance is through a surrender to the present and it Silence. The only kind of meaning that is sustainable and not subject to the conditions of the moment is meaning that is prior to all conditions.... and that is not a mental kind of meaning - it is the ineffable suchness of all of this and none of this, found not through thought and preconceptions, but through Silence.
We perpetuate the myths of our fears when we feel that we need to substantiate or validate ourselves with our confabulated meaning - as if we were not innately valid or worthy. We create stories and meaning where we are actually clueless. We define ourselves and all of life in relationship to our representations and interpretations of something else. It is habitually part and parcel of this relative/space/time/measuring world. If we had nothing to measure or reference ourselves in relation to, where would we be? Who would we be? I am not pathologizing this - it has created its own field for Self-experience and exploration. But I also see that doing it can obscure an experience of freedom where Truth and creativity flow unimpeded and stories Divinely intelligent unfold (supernovas, galaxies) without our adding stories to them that direct life in ways that mind and fear cannot with all of its gumption ever hope to. When we are awake to this and what is prior to our conditions within the conditions of duality, we can live without division; we can live eternity in time.
Ellen Davis - ©2001
Revised ©2008
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Friday, December 21, 2007
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Solstice Greetings to all of my friends
Category: Life

Happy Solstice! and a Joyous Holiday Season to you
To this love affair of the earth with her sun these days with their night and our hearts coming to know themselves as one
To our breathing ever deeper into the present moment, our widening embrace of shadows and light, To dancing our joys and eternities into time and the light of our days into our night
In love and care for the earth and all of Her inhabitants, please join me in sending blessings of peace and heartened awareness to world leaders and people everywhere.
Om shanti shanti ommmmmm
All of my love and blessings,
Ellen
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