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What a wierd and interesting life......
Current mood: tired
Category: Life

Hello out there to all the lovely and wonderful people who accualy have nothing better to do than to sit here and read my blog... LOL how are you all doing this wonderful day? I am doing ok still dealing with the drama of living in a house with 3 other gay men and two of them being in a relationship and from my earlier blog you can tell how thats going.... altho some updates on my mom.... she is in the hospital right now because she was retaining water really bad after her heart surgery about a month ago. She has gained 30 pounds of water since the surgery and they have her in the hospital trying to get rid of the water. When i got the ER last night she looked like she was 9 months pregnant... God I worry about my mother.... after losing my father to a heart attack it worries me because her heart is not in the best condition itself..... but if the saying "only the good die young..." holds true she will live a LONG life LOL. I love my mother she is the biggest smartass alive.... which is where i learned everything and has made me the smartass that I am today. But as of a little while ago when I left the hospital they say that she has already lost 10 pounds of the water and if everything looks good she will get to come home tomorrow. If i ever lost my mother.... god I would be a total wreck. I was allways closer to my mom than my dad.... and losing him tore me up bad enough i cant even begin to imagine would would happen if i ever lost her..... ok well i did what i came here to do give you guys an update... well im getting ready to head to bed and try to get some sleep. you all have a wonderful night and all that sappy shit.

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THE BOYFRIEND APPLICATION!!!!
Current mood: amused
Category: Romance and Relationships

Ok yall its been a while since I have had this on here.... so i figured I would post it again and see if I got any bites LOL

Currently listening : Sinful Innocence By Cory Lee Release date: 21 May, 2007

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What is it with the gay comunity that they tend to stay with the most ignorant people?
Current mood: confused
Category: Romance and Relationships

OK hello to all my wonderful friends!!!!! It has been a while since I have been on here and blogged anything. Well as you can see I am back and ready to VENT!!!! What in the hell is up with some people in the gay comunity who will stay in a relationship with someone who is TOTALY not good for them? The reason I ask this is there is a friend of mine...(who will remain nameless to protect...whatever) LOL ok this friend of mine has been in a relationship for over three years to someone who is a total ass and is no good for him... he has even agreed with this himself. He has tried to "kick" this person out god I have lost count of how many times. But for some strange and fucked up reason... this person is back in the house... usealy within a couple of hours. My friend comes up with excuses as to why he took him back "oh he promised to change.." (god i have heard that one more times than i can remember) "but if i kick him out then we will have trouble paying bills..." (oh i forgot to mention my friend is also my roommate) (I moved into his house to help him catch up on bills.... mainly caused by that dumbass sna*********) oh yeah thats the nickname that one of my friends gave him....(ill explain later to whom ever asks).

But he keeps taking him back over and over.... and it is just VERY puzzling to me. I guess that I dont "understand" their relationship, however as somone looking in from the outside... it doesnt look like it is worth all the trouble. But being the good friend that I am, I still live here to help my friend out. I love him dearly as a brother, and I want to take care of him and help him out any way that I can. Because of this virus on humanity is still in the house I basicly have to confine myself to my room because I cant stand to be around him for any length of time. Like tonight he has been out of town for the past week, AND IT HAS BEEN AN ENJOYABLE TIME!!!! But now he comes home tonight and my friend is picking him up at the airport and bringing him home. I told my friend that if that is the case then I will be up in my room so that I dont have to deal with him. My friend then asks "why dont you stay downstairs and give him a chance". Im sorry but I have given him multiple chances for the sake of my friend, but I can not stand to be around him at all. The second I see him I want to just walk up and strangle him untill he can no longer take a single breath!!!! And I hate that anyone is able to bring out that kind of reaction in me. I am a VERY kind and gentle person, and it takes ALOT to cause me to get upset. But this person brings out that dark side of me, and I do not want to see that so I stay in my room away from him.

The other sad thing in this is there is another roommate living here, who happens to be an ex of my friend. Now the two of them did break up because of a valid reason, but now I think that the two of them could make a very good couple down the road. But with that dumbass sna********* living here all it does is cause more stress and a rift between my friend and that other roommate. I am also afraid that the dumbass will end up causing the roommate to move out because he has had about enough of the dumbass himself. He can no longer handle being around this person either.

That is another thing, This dumbass has run all of my friend's friends off. my friend at one time had many friends, besides myself. But now this dumbass has run everyone of my friend's friends away. The only reason that I am still around is because my friend and I are very close, and I would give my life for him. But even I am starting to hit a breaking point on this. It did come to a head about 2 weeks ago. I had finaly lost it and went off on my friend and told him basicly what I thought, and how big of a mistake he was making letting that dumbass stay here. God knows if that made any kind of impact in my friends brain (I doubt it because the dumbass is here), but like a hopeless idiot I will hold out hope that my friend will finaly grow the balls he needs to get this virus out of his life for good.

OK I think that I have vented enough. And I really do feel much better than I did before writing this. So I hope you all enjoy reading my little rant... more to come im sure LOL

Have a wonderful weekend everyone,

Nathan

Currently listening : Sinful Innocence By Cory Lee Release date: 21 May, 2007

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life is so short and precious.....
Current mood: depressed
Category: Life

hey everyone i just thought i would blog and get some of my feelings out because i have been so messed up for the past few days so i needed to get some things off my chest so i guess this is the best place to do it i have been a mess since my uncle buddy passed away on wednesday he was like a second father to me and i loved him dearly and he was one of the first people in my family to find out i was gay and he told me that it didnt matter to him because i was still his nephew and he loved me just the same (even tho my own father i came to find out that if i had come out to him he would have disowned me ( he is old old old school) ) so he was the father that accepted me as i was and loved me for it no matter what the way he found out is that his daughter was good friends with someone that i used to do drag with and when he found out i was related to her he went and told her and she told him he called me up and asked me to come over and talk to him well that is when he sat me down and told me that he loves me regardless and if i needed to talk to come see him anytime then he talked to me about my father and he told me that before he talked to me he talked to my father and he wanted to find out what he would do if he was confronted with it because he told my uncle that he would disown me if i told him i was gay so to me uncle buddy was more of a father so losing him was really hard so i have been going through a huge depresion since wednesday it has gotten a little better since the funeral because now i was able to have some closure and have a chance to finaly say good bye to him so now im feeling a little better and i want to thank all of you for beeing so nice and sending me those nice comments and thank you all for your prayers

Currently listening : High Lonesome Sound By Vince Gill Release date: 28 May, 1996

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my new computer!!!!!!!
Current mood: ecstatic
Category: Life

hey everyone hows it going i just thought i would blog cuz i got me a new computer and i LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!! i got a laptop and it is a toshiba and its a beautiful thing it works wonderful altho i need to get more ram cuz what it came with is just enough to run windows vista so it runs kinda slow when i try to do alot so here in a month or so im going to buy me 2 gig of ram so  then i can go nuts with my computer and do all the crap i want yaaaaa i cant wait well i will let you all go now but have a good one and all that sappy shit

Nathan

Currently listening : Unwritten By Natasha Bedingfield Release date: 02 August, 2005

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IM SO HAPPY I COULD JUST SHIT MYSELF!!!!!!
Current mood: bouncy

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!!!!!! well life worked out ok and im really happy!!!!! it worked out that i was able to get a new car so now i dont have to move in with my mom again LOL well i got a 2005 Chevy Impala (NICE ASS CAR!!!!) and i love it to death it runs good and looks hot as hell so im out of my funk now so i just wanted everyone to know so you guys didnt worry about me :-D hehehe talk to you all later cuz im going to go out and play with it some more ROFLAO have a good one yall

Currently listening : Mucho Mambo (Sway) Pt.1 By Shaft Release date: 23 August, 1999

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WHAT THE FUCKING GOD IS UP WITH THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: depressed
Category: Life

hey everyone how are you all doing? well here is some new information for ya hope you all dont get to disturbed but i need to get this off my chest before i lose what little santiy i have left (god knows i aint got much of that left) and for those of you who know me you know thats right  well here it goes WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH PEOPLE WHO DONT FUCKING HAVE CAR INSURENCE!!!!!!!!!!! what in the fuck are you thinking all you are doing is screwing everyone else. case in point about two weeks ago i was comming home from work and some dipshit kid (he looked like he was 16) (acording to his licence he was 25) ( and he was hot but thats besides the point) decided to make a right hand turn from the left lane right infront of me causing me to smash into his ass. well of cource it wasnt my fault and i thought all would be hunky dorry that they would fix my linclon and i would be wonderful. (not my luck) well the insurence adjuster said that they were going to total my car out but he hadnt givien me the amount yet, but when we had talked before that if he totaled it that i would probably get around $3,600 for it which was gravy because it would pay off the rest of the linclon and leave  me enough to put a down payment down on a new car. (once again not my luck) i hadnt been able to get ahold of the adjuster so i gave his number to my mother to see if she could get ahold of him because i was at work all day and could not get ahold of him well today my mother called me and told me that she got ahold of him (and then the bottom fell out) he found out that the other guy does not have insurence and that they are going to have to put the claim on my insurence while they go after him for the money. well i have a $1000 deductable so that means now they are only going to give me $2600 (which will not pay off the linclon) and that wont give me any money to make a downpayment on a new car, and when he signs the little letter stating that they are totaling the linclon and giving me the money i only get to keep the rental for 3 days after that so in 3 days im going to be without transportation to get back and forth to work. and since i dont have the money to make a down payment i cant get a new car so im fucked all around. and to make it even worse (to even think thats possible) the only way im going to be able to get back and forth to work is to have my mother take me and because she doesnt want to drive to come get me to take me to work she said that i will have to move back in with her (OMFG!!!!!!) i have to move back in with someone who detests what i am and thinks that im going to rot in hell because im gay (COULD THIS BE ANY WORSE!!!!!) oh god wait i shouldnt say that because with my luck it is VERY possible.  so now that i have gotten that off my chest i feel somewhat better but it still doenst change the fact that im fucked up the ass without even the curttisy of a reach around....... i know thats a disturbing visual but thats the best i could come up with the moment because im not thinking clearly at the moment......... maybe i should go take a few shots of vodka and pass out maybe that will make me feel better......... naw i will just wake up in the morning with a hangover and the shit will still be there ok i think i have taken enough of all you nice people's time and wow if you have accualy read all of this hats off to you reading my ramblings 

Currently listening : N Sync By *NSYNC Release date: 24 March, 1998

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fun fun fun HA HA HA HA HA............
Current mood: bouncy
Category: Life

hello everyone how are you doing today it is going ok around here i survived gay pride weekend and now im trudging on it was a slow day at work today but i suck around and got an hour of overtime (shit i could use the extra money) LOL but it was ok the day seemed to go quick and i didnt get all the nasty people today to it made it half way bearible to be there LOL but i hope you all are having a lovely day and all that shit im going to get off of here before i get in trouble so kisses and hugs and all that sappy shit

Nathan

Currently listening : Confessions on a Dance Floor By Madonna Release date: 15 November, 2005

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isnt this special LOL
Category: Life

You Are Rowlf the Dog

Mellow and serious, you enjoy time alone cultivating your talents. You're a cool dog, and you always present a relaxed vibe. A talented pianist, you can play almost anything - especially songs by Beethoven. "My bark is worse than my bite, and my piano playing beats 'em both."

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