What does that mean? Let Go and Let God? How?
Current mood: artistic
Category: inspired Writing and Poetry

The Tao described a river of life. Once you feel the tide you fight it off with paddles. We hold these paddles with dear strength and Divine might. When we let go of these paddles something happens. We let go of these paddles and we let that river of life take us. We stop fighting the tide we eventually and choose to throw away and discard these paddles.

Thanks to a dear friend mine he's kicked the final paddle I was fighting the tide with.

His name is not important, but he knows who he is, and that's all that matters. He did something for me that couldn't be done by just any person I might meet on our beautifully constructed Earth.

When we let go and let the tide take us we are being carried in that river of life. Letting go is not easy, in fact it can be terrifying. You have to let go of your paddles, in this "river of life" and try to swim on your own - AGAINST the tide. Or you can let the tide take you and surf the wave that's been pulling at you your whole life but never noticed.

I had a few paddles that I lost along the way. My friend kicked the last paddle out of my hand so I could try and swim on my own. Eventually I felt the tide and just went with it. This is called calm strength. He did for me something I've been searching for ever since I was put on this Earth, in one form or another.

I didn't try to swim against the tide, because I knew it was there. Since I knew it was there it carried me and now I'm surfing the wave. Every religion was right about one point or another. The Taoists were right about this river of life. The Christians were right about Jesus Christ healing with his hands. The Hebrews/Jews were right about something or another as well. Where did Christianity and Islam come from? Judaism. But they all disagreed about something too. That's why we fought it out. That's why more people have been killed over religion than any other thing in human history. We are keeping the balance. We are keeping our population in check so the Earth isn't overwhelemd by our presence. The Earth also keeps our population in check with the terrible disasters that are becoming more frequent in rate and magnitude (earth quakes, tsunamis, hurricanes etc.)

Once I understand what each Religion was right about I can transcend the differences between them.

Have a good day, after all the day is only as good as the lenses you view it through.

This is all for now. Thanks for your time.

~Kurtis "The Tranquility Machine" Monson

q -.-p========d-.- b

Currently listening : A Healthy Distrust By Sage Francis Release date: 2005-02-08

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"Sober People Think Sober Thoughts"
Current mood: cultured
Category: grateful Writing and Poetry

"Sober People Think Sober Thoughts"

So, let the night begin.
Ah, the fellowship of friends,
But wait, here comes the booze
And with it, the angry blues.

I didn't get drunk, but I had my fun.
As the beautiful woman drank, but not in front of her son.
Later he went to sleep in his bed,
As the alcohol hit his mom's stomach, and then her head.

As the night went on, so did their drinking.
The more the beautiful woman drank, the more distorted her thinking,
All of the sudden she's saying things she doesn't mean
With words, if put into action would have been a crime scene..

Lives were threatened, words were tossed about
Eventually she starts to shout.
Jealousy can consume a night
Before you know it the pretty woman wants to fight (to kill).

I made sure nobody got hurt,
Made sure nobody got blood on their shirt.
Finally the two in question parted
Perhaps a chemical imbalance is how this got started.

I'm grateful I'll never know what it's like,
To want to take another's precious life.
I'm just glad nobody got lined in chalk,
So the moral of this story is don't let booze talk.

Currently listening : Sick of Waiting Tables By Sage Francis

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The Soul Shaker
Current mood: happy
Category: forever grateful Writing and Poetry

The Soul Shaker

It's my belief that our minds and souls are like a bottle of soda, or pop for you fellow yankees. Going through our daily lives we encounter stress, naturally. Stress shakes up this bottle of soda, and the more stress the more the bottle gets shaken. We have a few options to deal with this pressure in the bottle (stress build up).

1. We can let the bottle get shaken and not worry about it. We can just not deal with it and let it build up. We can let the bottle get shaken so much that it pops/explodes. An example would be those in a psych ward or even someone serving a life sentence in prison for killing someone.

2. Maybe we could indulge in drugs or alcohol to numb out the mental pain induced by stress. Maybe even start a habit of ignoring your stress through daily intoxication. Some say you're trying to recreate a pleasure remembered from the past also known as "chasing the dragon". When the drunk or high leaves, however, the problems are still there - only now we have less time, health, energy and money to deal with our stressors.

3. We can unscrew the cap a little bit and let off some pressure/steam. We can do this by letting out how we feel. For example you could laugh, cry, sing, write your feelings down in a journal, dance, write poetry - anything. Anything that expresses how you feel. One of the best ways is just telling someone else how you feel, this lets off a lot of steam/pressure. Me, personally, I write or tell someone how I'm feeling to someone in my family or friends.

4. With an open mind we can realize the Divine love and guidance that is there and has ALWAYS been there and then accept the love/guidance of God (or whatever you want to call him/her/it).

A combination of two of these, numbers 3 and 4, usually works the best.

I hope this helped someone and I'd like feedback about this.

At first I just wrote this for myself but then I figured I'd share it; this is just what works for me.

Currently listening : All Eyez on Me By 2Pac Release date: 08 March, 2005

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Giving directions for a real place with no address.
Current mood: stoked
Category: sore Life

They say
Only when the chakras are aligned
Can one experience the Divine
And when sometimes I can't get her off my mind
I shake my head and trust things will work out, all in due time

They wait
As I give her directions to a place she'll never go
And talk about that place she says she's never known
I can't take make her believe, although I know it's so
As I buy her tickets to a play that she thinks will never show

They think
She doesn't believe in an energy so pure and surreal
But her soul is warm, like how the sunshine can make you feel
As I think of a bond stronger than the thickest, hardest steel
And I forget to give her directions to a place she doens't think is real

They wonder
How could I take her to a place she's never been
And hope she won't deny the natural feelings within
Or maybe I'm being too hopeful, for this blooming to begin
And not even with me, just someone with a kind grin

Currently listening : Transatlanticism By Death Cab for Cutie Release date: 07 October, 2003

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Dear Doug (for a friend who joined the Air Force)
Current mood: thirsty
Category: hungry Writing and Poetry

Currently listening : Horses in the Sky By Thee Silver Mt Zion Memorial Orchestra Release date: 05 April, 2005

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Feeling Great - Words of Wisdom (thx Ian)
Current mood: nostalgic
Category: Grateful (always) Life

Feeling great

If you could choose between feeling gloomy and feeling delighted, which one would you choose? If you could choose between feeling sorry for yourself and feeling confident in your ability to make a difference, which would you choose?

The delightful fact is that you can choose and you do choose your attitude, every moment of every day. When you're feeling sad or happy or frustrated or assured, it's because you've decided to respond to life in that particular way.

By feeling lousy you are not going to do anyone any good. Yet by feeling great and putting those feelings into action you might just lift up others around you and make a positive difference in your world.

But what about those days that are filled with challenges, obstacles, frustrations and pain? Well, if you don't want to feel great about what's going on, you can always choose to feel great in spite of what's going on.

No matter what has happened in the past, this moment is filled with positive possibilities. No matter how lousy you may have felt five minutes ago, you can choose to feel great about yourself right now.

And when you genuinely open your eyes and open your heart to all the good things that are truly possible, the world around you will begin to resemble those great feelings you have.

Currently listening : High Society By High Contrast Release date: 28 September, 2004

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Enjoy your life.
Current mood: chipper
Category: Life

Enjoy your life...

I'll be happy when...

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, when we are able to go on a nice holiday or when we retire. The truth is there's no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with and remember that time waits for no one.

So, stop waiting .

Until your car or home is paid off.

Until you get a new car or home.

Until your kids leave home.

Until you go back to school.

Until you finish school.

Until you lose 10 lbs.

Until you gain 10 lbs.

Until you get married.

Until you get a divorce.

Until you have kids.

Until you retire.

Until summer..

Until spring.

Until winter.

Until you die.

There is no better time than right now to be happy. Happiness is a journey, not a destination. So work like you don't need money, love like you've never been hurt, and, dance like no one's watching.

Currently listening : Illinois By Sufjan Stevens Release date: 05 July, 2005

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"Cobwebs" one of my very old, but very cherished poems. Kinda dark. (personal favorite)
Current mood: tired
Category: A poem written on the brink. Writing and Poetry

"Cobwebs"
© d-.-b Kurtis q-.-p

sit and rot
without a thought
none in your head
we're already dead
look how we think
our brains just shrink
from lack of thought
they sit and rot
no questions, no insight
analyze things? we might
too much action in my brain
driving me insane
to where i'm going mad
but it doesn't make me sad
dignity, integrity, sanity
please give it to me
without a pause
just break the laws
for it's thought you lack
so just stand back
and open your mind
you're far too blind
you jump into that pit
where you'll rot and sit
your mind will grow moss
reminding you of your loss
you've lost something real
the ability to feel
you're already dead, motionless
unable to think, notionless
and now you've stopped thinking
careful, you're now sinking
into the thoughtless quicksand
but, no fear as i hold out my hand

Currently listening : Juturna By Circa Survive Release date: 19 April, 2005

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The price of freedom - Happy 4th of July! 8D
Current mood: hopeful
Category: disgusted Life

This is a fantastic message for the 4th of July!

THANK YOU for writing this Ursa
Date: Jul 4, 2007 12:30 PM

Currently listening : The Trinity Session By Cowboy Junkies Release date: 25 October, 1990

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This is why I don't cheat anymore. Keep in mind this is 7 years old. I've changed much.
Current mood: guilty
Category: Like the song says "Love the ONE you're w Romance and Relationships

"Untitled"

I know I've hurt you
I know I've made you cry
I don't deserve another chance
But let's not give up yet

My actions caught up with me
I made one too many mistakes
Our heaven has melted to a hell
But let's not give up yet

My biggest fear was losing you
And now the day I dread has come
These puddles of tears are from my fears
But let's not give up yet

Although it hurts to go on
Although it's hard to forgive
You'll never forget what I did to you for as long as we live
But let's not give up yet

I too have cried
I have drown in my own pool of remorse
I too have been up all night so upset
But let's not give up yet

Loving you is all I have
Having you is all I need
Everything I've given you I will never regret
So let's not give up yet

These wounds will fester
And will not heal quickly
I've cut your heart, and I've cut it deeply
But let's not give up yet

Are we burning slowly
Like your burning cigarette
Or will this just make us stronger
Let's not give up yet

This infidelity has done its damage
However I still have hope
I will always be in emotional debt to you
So please, let's not give up yet

d-.-b q-.-p

My ex-girlfriend's response to that poem.

d-.-b q-.-p

"Untitled"

You tell me not to give up yet,
But what's there left to give?
You're already the only reason I have to live.
I gave my heart,
You ripped it apart.
I gave my soul,
Im miserable.
I give,
You take,
My heart you break.
I thought you were perfect
Thought you were real,
You told me the truth- how should I deal?
You're everything to me,
Im nothing to you
You play with my mind and tell me that's not true
I give into your smooth words,
My firm heart melts,
The deepest feeling I've ever felt.
Giving many chances
My heart wants to hate
Maybe being walked all over has turned into my fate.

- Amanda K.

I still talk to this beattiful soul to this day. I've changed a lot. She's changed a bit too. Don't cheat on the person you're with. No exceptions. It'll only hurt you and hurt her if she finds out. Tell her you want an open relationship, always be truthful. I learned the hard way.

I feel like an asshole every time I read this. However, every time I read this it reminds me to stay faithful to the one I'm with.

To the women out there never settle for less. Stay strong and beautiful!

Currently listening : Brushfire Fairytales By Jack Johnson Release date: 29 January, 2002

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