Proof Of Fear
Category: Writing and Poetry

Here lies the proof of fear

And what it can achieve

If allowed to co inhabit ones life

Inevitable one of us will cease

The tap that drips relentlessly

The agonizing hours spent alone

The empty sound of nothingness

the habitual checking of the phone

The ticking that deters sleep

The paranoia that slowly grows

The dark thoughts that gather speed

The yearning end of constant wows

The walls that once were friends

The bed that once meant rest

The unheard peace of ones sanity

The secret thoughts better kept

The distant memory of normality

The ignorance of its worth

The fate that deems us lost

The hapless fight for hope

Here lies the proof of fear

And what it can achieve

If allowed to co inhabit ones life

Inevitable one of us will cease

Wrote sometime ago, I have just found my old note book so thought I would post some of the poems from it thanks for reading.

Sarah

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Modern England (Adults Only)
Category: Writing and Poetry

Join the rat race and get yourself a job

Taking orders from some spotty teenage knob

Who thinks he's better than you coz he speaks proper

With he's poxy name badge the little f**king tosser

Now Listen here matey the wage is really shit

No chance of a pay rise so you'll have to stand for it

Coz this is modern England and this is city life

Where unemployment is not much fun but working is a bag of shite

Not a penny to your name when the weekend comes to go out

All your mates larging it big time, touting it about

Get yourself a smoke try waste the day away

What a f**king joke no lay on's, you've gotta pay

Two more sleepless nights and the dreaded day has come

Little hilter waits with his finger on the trigger of the gun

And yes this is modern England and yes this is city life

Where unemloyment is not much fun but working is a bag of shite.

By Sarah

This is just a bit of fun I hope the language does not upset anybody like I say it's just a bit of fun sometimes I like to write mindless rubbish.

Thanks for reading

Currently listening : The Libertines By The Libertines Release date: 31 August, 2004

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Survival
Current mood: artistic

Every day is survival in this place

Every hour as trying as the next

Nothing really fits always-missing bits

Every other thought so bloody complex

Every day is survival in this place

Every night brings empty peace

No rest achieved from artificial sleep

No forgiveness given for insincere apologies

Every day is survival in this place

Every cross marked where should be a line

No silent scream will go unheard

Welcome one and all to the depths of my mind

By Sarah

Just a draft at moment thanks for reading.

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Addiction
Current mood: calm
Category: Writing and Poetry

Addiction

It's a frightening realization to find you have an addiction

The admission of its presence, the fear that it breeds

A conscious effort needed to achieve sobriety

Frustrated now that your thoughts remain even though

You have stopped the drink

The acknowledgement that to aid your recovery you

Must cease to play the victim

Acceptance of the truth its not the drink that is the

Problem it's the way you think that is the problem

The courage to face unthinkable demons

Patience in slow progress and the forgiveness of

Yourself and all others.

Those mountains to climb become more achievable mounds

The inner voice of childhood courage once again found

Learning the tools of life you needed so badly before

Using those tools to strengthen your spirit and soul

Retaining the person you were always meant to be

Not adhering to the person you thought others expected to see

Loving yourself for who you are never forgetting "I am a addict"

And never far from temptation

The refusal to shy away from any prying conversation as you have

An illness and recovery is cause for a celebration.

Not written about me personally but a subject very close to my heart.  

Absolutely no structure what so ever but I love it the way it is. For me the content of poetry is the most important and it says everything I want it to.

Forgive me if there are grammar or spelling errors as I have just typed it straight on to the blog spur of the moment thing.

Once again thanks for reading.

Sarah

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A Lie
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

When is a lie not a lie

When it's white you would say

The timing is all wrong

Tomorrow should be a better day

When is a lie not a lie

When you've only bent the truth to suit

Your needs and interpret things

How you would like them to seem

When is a lie not a lie

When I allow myself to be fooled

That this is the only way forward

Instead of insisting we tell them the truth.

 Just something I did lunch today hope you enjoy.

Sarah

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I Miss
Category: Writing and Poetry

I Miss

I miss the gentleness of your kiss

The pure warmth of your embrace

That open look you gave me

Guaranteed to put a smile on my face

I miss the midnight chats we shared

About everything and nothing much

You and I against the rest of the world

But most of all I miss being in love

Now it seems we are two strangers

Lost souls sharing the same home

Never thought I could feel so miserable

Lonely but not alone

The distance in your voice

Is clearer then ever before

The warmth of your embrace

Is something I can only long for

I awake to find an empty pillow

Every night I yearn your touch

Each day passes my heart fades

With it the pain of loving you so much

I miss the gentleness of your kiss

The pure warmth of your embrace

That open look you gave me

Guaranteed to put a smile on my face

I miss the midnight chats we shared

About everything and nothing much

You and I against the rest of the world

But most of all I miss being in love

 By Sarah

Just a draft at the moment, thanks for reading.

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What of us

What of us

We've had our ups and downs

Such laughter such tears

We've stood the test of time

Together faced our greatest fears

But what of us now

When all is said and done

When the laughter subsides

What of us, what have we become

Just good friends

No more lovers, no more lust

Just good friends

This is what has become of us

We've seen such changes

We've lived such rich lives

Our home filled with endless love

But all too cold are our nights

So what of us now

When all is said and done

When the children have all grown

What of us, what have we become

Just good friends

No more bedlam, no more rush

Just good friends

This is what has become of us

Our memories slowly fading

Our eyes not what they used to be

Gravity has played its best hand

But you still look lovely to me

So what of us now

When all is said and done

When the mortgage is all but paid

What of us, what have we become

The best of friends

A life time shared, an unbreakable trust

The best of friends

This is what has become of us

By Sarah

It may need a little tidying up as I wrote it straight on to my blog. I watched something on TV the other night and it gave me food for thought this peice is the result.

Thanks for reading

Sarah 

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Fear
Current mood: complacent
Category: Writing and Poetry

Fear

A caged bird will never sing how you would like

A sheltered flower will not grow without light

A blunt knife will not cut the meat as you wish

A fearful child will not learn true love and happiness

 By Sarah

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To Want
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

To Want

To scramble to the top only to find

The middle was more your kind of place

To seek such wealth only to learn

You had all you need on a poor mans wage

The grass, which seemed much greener

Only now mows the same

But the love that once was yours

Now no longer calls your name

By Sarah

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Poem
Current mood: creative
Category: Writing and Poetry

Today I came across my old jot book and the first poem I ever wrote. For those who have already heard it I apologise but its one of those poems that really means something to me and I just really wanted to post it.

The Path

I have walk this path, too many times to say

but as I walk this path it looks so different today

I do not hurry by with weary eyes upon the floor

I take each step at a time, contemplating the one before

an air of beauty in the summer breeze

touches my heart and my soul it seems to ease

my steps it seems I no longer need to retrace

nor hurry by at such a pace

but just to stop, stand and stare

to appreciate the beauty and all that is there.

By Sarah

Thanks for taking the time to read it. x

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