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Thursday, August 28, 2008

00:33 - Excersising good sense
Current mood: distraught
Category: Life

I suppose some people have it easy on the surface.
Seems you can have great things in abundance and still be lacking in areas.
There is good sense to be measured out by prudence;
Not only in the words we choose to speak but in the words we choose to keep in our hearts silently.
Not only in the emotions we choose to share but also in those we keep from others so as not to hurt them.
Pregnancy is truely a beautiful thing. It is like anything else in life...built upon slowly~ line upon line, trauma after trauma, and heartbeat after heartbeat.
This little one inside of me is a joy. I already know they are special and I would do anything for them. A few weeks ago it was so small all it could do is hang onto me from the inside and make me very very nauseous.
There are lists of ailments and trials that I get to have, sacrificing normal 'well being' for something bigger than myself. A few weeks ago I couldn't form a connection with this person at all and beyond morality had little or no feelings towards it.
But now, a guess its spirit is growing as fast as its small body. I am alittle over 1/4 a mother. NO  idea how to proceed except hope my mother like qualities will watch over it. Keep it safe, feed it, and occasionally speak and think to it. Whether or not it can hear me.
But then there is preparing for it to enter the world. Through love I know I will get what it takes for the child. A place for it to sleep, be rocked and have baby blankets and clothes.
As for the bills on doctors. That is quite another stressful matter!
That is the source of burdon on my heart. I doubt anyone will read this secret world/life of mine but for my own benefit I will go back into my history of when I found out I was pregnant. So out of the blue but still such an exciting discovery. A life change completely. I was serving the elderly in a job I loved dearly. I had insurance about to kick in and the baby and I were both covered. I worked harder and with more love than I had ever worked before.
Then with a turn of shadows I found out I was being used as a fall out person for an attention starved 65 year old boss who used me as the reason she could not handle her new job and I was fired. No recourse. Let go the very day before I was covered with insurance. Now I am not bemoaning my fate even though justice was far from within view on this occasion. Some things get settled in the afterlife.
What am I supposed to learn from all of this? I have searched high and low for means of bringing this baby into the world without money. I got on a baby your baby program and found myself a work from home job which pays very little until after the baby is born due to it being 'training'. But it is a major blessing to be able to raise my own child and help bring in monetary help for the family. Next month I should receive some money somewhere.
Mickey is the only provider. He is still waiting for a raise and between all the bills we carry, we are stretched to over capacity. Which is only by the grace of God that we make it month to month. But we are making it. He should be up for a raise, a partnership, a great future with this company. But he also might not have work this winter unless they can win a bid for a waterfall project in Hawaii. The snow will kill off ability to work. and he is not salary yet. He is hourly.
We tried to get onto medicaid but even with the little we earn we are over the limit. They count BEFORE taxes instead of after. So we still have no way to pay and no way to receive aide.
I found a small relief through maternitycardadvantages so that was good news. But it still means we are thousands of dollars short with possibly no way of earning even any money. Worst case scenerio. Who knows. But what can be done? We work in this life as hard as we can. We begin a new life with another person sometimes very young as we have. Tragedy and injustice does strike. I know that my God does not wish spreading contention for contention that others dish out. So there is no fight to be made without making things worse for my old boss.
Mary was the mother of God. Joseph was a hard hard worker and still they could not afford even their doctors. They could not even find someone to give them a room to have their baby. That king of the universe. The greatest soul anyone could ever ask to know. I wonder how often Mary tried to find the means to bring forth her child. Her faith was great and so was her purity. And still those humble and sad circumstances. How much stress and sadness must have weighed on her mind and heart! How sad Joseph must have felt as he surely must have fought against feeling a failure as a provider and husband and soon to be father. How hard for anyone who is giving birth.
If a Loving heavenly father allowed his only begotten and beloved son to be born this way, what lesson must he have wanted taught? That he will always look after you...that no matter what you are in his hands. That you can make a difference no matter what station you find yourself.
I suppose that babies come with or without money or doctors or hospitals. but I want the best for this young soul. I can scrimpt and save and make most of the things the baby will need for a long time, while perhaps some stability will come into play with enough tenacity and hard work, but what can be done to bring a child into this world safely?
Good sense would be to slowly pay off the baby's bills over time no matter the cost to your family.
Good sense then, is hiding those feelings of stress and darkness from entering reallity. Let them disapear as a fog you are walking through. Do not bask or cry in defeat, but instead walk forward with faith, only believing.
Good sense is doing all you can do, having faith and believing in the Holy One of this universe and that all things will work out for the good of those that love him.
It is a crazy notion to let heaven know you still believe in them, after they have become invisble and it seems you are all alone.
It is a crazy notion that no matter how hard you try there is no one really to help you in your most desperate circumstances, but that you still have faith and try.
It is a crazy notion that out of a seemingly normal person could come superhuman ability's.
It is a crazy notion that any of us are even here on earth.
Hardest part of excersising good sense is that the sense of emotions are so real. Out of a seemingly normal textbook of our lives comes emotions which cloud every task. You feel the loss so deeply. You feel the lonliness and isolation so fully. You understand little and asked to give so much. You lose sight of the future and even though you may be steps from success you want to give up and collapse in shadow. You remember only feelings in the moment and you begin to fear.
But fear is the absense of light.
Light is not the sense that all is going perfectly. For it often will not. God does not love you only when he blesses you with money, love, and wisdom. God loves us in our poverty, in our challenges, in our desperation, and when we are on our knees. He does not give us an inner tube to traverse life where our bodies will not grow, only the world will. No, he lets us walk, and strive, break bones, hurt, and grow.
It is not easy but I have faith there will be a light. This much opposition must surely be against such a great good and I am determined to keep that alive inside of myself no matter what.
Good sense.
I hope it will always be found here.
It is so vital a commodity for the human experience.
It seems Especially mine.

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Monday, August 04, 2008

15:21 - Not the end of the road ever
Current mood: Somber

Never did imagine that you were the gun

Shooting away reality.

Dynamic winds sweep a dream of you past my soul

My mind is free to accept that you never were what you said

Never should have given you rides in the dark

Perhaps you would have killed my innocense slower that way

Somewhere you are a mystery with blue eyes

But not here.

"Did you imagine your last moment would be the wheels smashing another car"

Fading in and out to what?

What has romantic ideals and monogamy brought to my knowledge?

Certainly not reality beyond my small aura

Your heart always belongs to what you hold most dear

But how can such a purity of eternity hold such a poisen with high regard?

All you knew was wrong by atleast two shades

The paths of life wound beyond the simple into knots of compromise.

If my life were the flashback of your vision

You would not see all the lies and how they transfixed me

Not the part where I wanted to believe them

And not the part where I abhor them

Experience in the pure raw form would be all that is left

Bidding meaning to come from raw nature devoid of logic

We simply just 'are'

Reacting to how we really are without ever knowing why

Until perhaps a happy or not so happy moment when it crashes against you

Like a sword

Maybe I kissed a hundred souls

Or tried to sparingly do the prudent thing and restrain to only four

But more likely find myself somewhere slightly above prudent

But only two ever meant anything aside from the man I am spending eternity with

They were souls truely loved

Although second-hand sight and hind-sight both display them in a different light

Who am I to change the past we shared or ignore I was on the stage of their plight?

To say I want either back would be a lie

Such different paths have been taken since

The world would barely expect to still even dare to care.

But love is a cord I was weaving in eternal starlight

Can you imagine my suprise when years after it is done,

A soul feels so lost to me that I feel I lost a peice of my life?

I try to find this reality so forlorn and kidnapped from my sight

There is a land I do not recognize

You weren't a phantom but you were a ghost of fog

Blue, sad eyes that thought a criminal past stopped a beautiful good future.

Darker eyes painting a reality far from what was really true.

Being swung in the air or having your face traced was special

So was a 5am kiss in the snowstorm

One soul will never be dead while one is already a corspe

Immortal sadness pens a longer story than a staked vampiric evil

I belong where I am

But I will forever be sad that to one immortal

I will be but a distant star

It will try to tear me apart with a strong pull of being here before

I look out against the wind blowing my face to a shifting world in decay

And know it is never the end

I will always be on your side wherever you go

And this is not the end of the road.

 

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Thursday, July 10, 2008

16:21 - Lead the way into the light
Current mood: focused

Somewhere in the recesses of my mind
Surely I must have known it to be true
That slowly this dream world disapears
Not slowly, but quickly into a new hue

Often the loss can look sullen and grey
The world doesn't know what once stood in your way
Once he stood in a picture with you
Now empty space revealing nothing was used.

So sad how we start to see outside of a shadow
more to a world than a cave and its caverns
Increased sorrow bubbling up from remorse
That we grew to love such a prison.

Where do we go into the light of day
when all around us, in darkness, our friends play?
I don't know the answer to hug a heart into ease
Perhaps in a struggle a heart really can't wrestle free.
All I know is if your in the light it is how its supposed to be.

How such a majestic hillside of red rock and oceans of green
Can hold such maggots of human debris
Will forever remain a mystery.
The good of humankind is the song of the waterfalls
As adamantine as the wolf, lion, and eagle
But will the bad soon splash over like a monsoon
So powerful we might lose hope?
Has mother nature become so sick she will heave her set bounds?

Splash your way down the mountain
Even if your song bounces off rocks of sadness at your loss
What is corrupt is corrupt
You can save nothing in this world
unless you start to lead the way.

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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

10:20 - yesterday
Current mood: disappointed

With sun shining on my back
Getting me through this day
I lay floating upon the blue still water
Trees blowing overhead
So simple
Nest of birds think they found a safe home
A bus crashes leaving all the babies dead
A mother refusing to leave
Just collateral.
Who is to blame?
When will this all be over?
If lack of human entanglements and things is happiness
Why aren't the homeless the most joyous of all human creatures?
Fighting against time, sickness
makes us heartsick
Makes us feel all so alone
The act of fighting
I am the waves of the ocean
Happy and still in yesterday
Crashing in change
I wish my heart was right today
That I really could hide in yesterday
The memory of those wonderful people
But by the voice of one selfish green person
It was all blown away
On a raft again I look up to the sky
away from another land I loved
Its people in my heart
Your not much more than a child
Going down this path will destroy you
Why am I on my feet again?
Angel of mercy
I am on my side
And on lucky days
I have some other soul on my side too
I wanted to just feel and love
A tragedy shows the angel of mercy
I am on my feet
Heaving every few feet
Its time to pick myself up onto my feet
How did you hear of my story?
Somewhere weaknesses are our strengths
I will die searching for this place
echoes of angels who won't return.

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Monday, June 09, 2008

09:46 - Freedom vs. Security.
Current mood: anxious

Obiediance to the uninforceable
Is the way desire is found in flesh and blood
The grindhouse of a labor mill
can only last as long as the rising sun
Only for a breif glimpse into the future
Can you ever see the twilight of the passion
The escape from white, working heat
Jumping into the network of world travel.
You honor me for earning money
Steadfast code of work
But don't....for it is the corpse of reality.
The shell that protects the truth inner spark
which has nothing to do with society's impressions
everything to do with freedom and adventure.
Every soul seeks that meaning
The travel into the unknown
Feeling of belonging to an expectation of another land
But few fully find it.
Money talks its way into dreams
But for some, they find Apollo's dream with no penny gleaming
Don't tell me I earn respect for this work
Even for consistency you must be fighting for a purpose.
I am confined in a heavy cloud of understanding
In a little office, with an open door.
I see clearly all the places i could be
And yet I am here...
For security.
Not freedom.
Which is more important?

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Tuesday, May 27, 2008

13:43 - Its hard work dating a superhero. :)
Current mood: amused
Category: Writing and Poetry

Try to tell me "Your the only one"
But the words behind your silence
Speak right into my clarvoyant mind.

Try to tell me your tired, instead of sad
But being an empath I feel like crying with you.

Try to cheat on me
But I can see right through walls
Your perfect schedule just can't keep anything secret
I am a superhero.

I know its rough to want to think silently
"She bugs me so bad. I wish she would stop talking."
But have me pick your words from your mind.

You think that I want you to work 9-9
For me to travel the world
But I like the 10-2 instead
Because I can fly
But I would still rather be with you.

I know that its hard when I lift the car up with my mind
your muscles can't jack up the car
Your ego must really find itself in a bind.

I know there are no secrets.
No putting on fake airs.
Its hard to simply love someone
A superhero who easily subdues every care.

But someday you will realise
Mundane and common gets your secrets into debt.
For the easy way ends up being the hardest
Its hard work dating a superhero isn't much of a bet.

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

15:44 - You just never know....
Current mood: selective
Category: Life

I have been working as an activities director lately. This has been one of the best jobs I have ever had! This is not due to the stimulation of mind or the overall career goals I would love to move towards but it is an important fullfiller of my individual needs.

I get unlimited freedom, I get to give unlimited service.
It is the perfect job for me. However, for the perfect life I wander quite a lot. Since I have gotten this job I have never looked so hard for another job. I have been scouring the international jobs offered, traveling jobs, and even had great avenues open up for great advancement simply by knowing people and them finding out how valuable my mind really can be (like anyones').

Today I took my lunch at noodles and company. It was overly crowded with people so I let a gentleman in a suit sit at my table. Found out he is a big business guy in the mortage and loan officer field and he wants me to work for him a great deal! To the point of excitement he said "You will be perfect I am so excited and really want to hire you right now but I will wait!"

What a strange thing life is. I have a moment or two to reflect on how I could be earning near a million dollars a year. But on the opposite end I would spend less and less time on what really matters to me, and all for the sake of money. The whole point to a career is to make a difference in this world, to expand and become a necessary part of 'something', and to (yes) earn lots of  money. Without money you really are crippled from doing good in this world.

So what is to be desired or gained from this million dollar proposition or simply another lifechange? More money I suppose. More mental exertions and the ability to learn and grow in another field. Less time with Mickey and my family and friends. Less time to prepare for becoming a mother.

Funny thing how you can desire to be needed and when the universe opens up a million doors all of a sudden you realize you really are the master of your own destiny. That you don't just pick a door for a money sign. You don't just pick a door to travel. You don't just accept offers. You choose your path. You keep hoping and working and having faith and by your thoughts you create reality.

You just never know what a day will bring. Even a rainy day. You just never know if you will feel sick or if someone desperate and inhumane will hurt you or your belongings. You just never know if a job will open up for something huge and wonderful.You just never know what will happen in life.

All "I" know personally is that I am happy. I am still not peaceful with where I am at fully. I still feel driven to do something more. But I know that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing right  now. I am serving people. I am working hard every day. I am doing my best. And I am blest.

And who knows.....maybe the next guy at a coffee shop will be that guy who works in refugee work, who combines medical work, with security enforcement work, with investigating work, with travel, with ingenuity and with humanitarian/government work...and you just never know...perhaps HE will offer me a job and the stars will be aligned after all my preparation and hard work and I will say YES
Find my place in life, make my money, serve others, bring justice to those who must be served justice, and not just have a job~ but have a lifestyle.

Funny thing is, things that I just never knew before have happen at an alarming rate...so I have great hope in the fact that if I keep on this path....that path I desire with every cell in my body will happen....

"Look to the Lord in every thought! Doubt not! Fear not!" You shall have in the very hour of your need exactly what you stand in need of.

Ancient powers exist today.
And the power of belief and knowledge of eternal truths brings about greatness if followed strictly and with faith.
You just never know where truth and desire will take you...

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Monday, May 19, 2008

18:05 - kiss that goodbye
Current mood: catalyzed

That guy got himself in trouble
All alone in the dark
I dream of you beside my side
I found you inside my dreams tonight
I knew you would disapear again
Can't stay here anymore
Nothing is the same since you walked through the door
I forgot that you are really gone
Deciding tears falling, that nothing could get worse
Nothing really ended
I bounce back to reality for a few hours
Then back to Dreams illusions
To that love we shared
Divine
When we were together
Before I sleep I said prayers
That I would find that love divine when we were together
Now I pray before every whirlwind of memory
Your eyes are earth
Staring up at the milky way
Its hard to face the future while you are away
Take me back to the love we shared
When we were together...
I want to go out
But everything seems so pointless
Can't resist
The pull of the angels' tears
Sorrow is dripping from my skin
Flooding me with your memory
As the world forgot me
You ran away but never could resist the eastern star
Salty winds tear apart a fake world
I am no longer here.
That wild face is the tiger from legends
She walks between the world of dreams and reality
Seeing both
Ignoring both
Ive had enough
I kiss that goodbye
Lion lips turn to teath
vicously tear apart the gap between worlds
Going back to the jungle with the memory
Nothing is gone
fighting against what invades our thoughts for years
only makes lovers of our enemies
Fighting against histories web of our desires

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Saturday, May 10, 2008

11:51 - Human Trafficking...now is the time to abolish slavery forever!!!
Current mood: angry
Category: News and Politics

The following was written for the victims of Human trafficking. This video was based off of a tv series to raise awareness of current day slavery.
Namaste






.."


When your eyes have tears
Mine cannot shine in peace
When your body is shackled by slavery
I cannot enjoy my herbal garden then walk to church.
Your desperate plight
Reminds me of mine
As I spiral back in time
Crying so hard I scream a voiceless panicked
Mind hemmoraghing suicidal rupture
The world seems to think I am invisible
I walk a busy highway street
My face the waterfall people admire
As they cross themselves in gratitude
Its me and not them
I am the small waterfall of sorrow felt
To the tornados of some young hearts' torture
I guess my angelic heaven of that land all my own will have to wait
Of that comfortable 9-5 with kids going figure skating
The dinner parties and the smiles over wine
For every smile that tugs on my lips and heart
tugs along hand in hand my responsibility
To abolish the slavery of humankind.
Some won't act
They believe one person can't take down a world of evil
But in the jaws of hell
All it took was just one hand
outreached in love
To save my entire world
I was in the busiest traffick of desperateness
Lucky for me I hitchhiked onto a safe road
Safe from Hell
But I always look back
And know I must return
To save all those who remain
Whose hearts and lives torn leaves this world
Slowly bleeding to death
Our humanity will disapear
Leaving us all alone against the world
If we don't act.
We are all connected
Your heart is my heart
Gods are crying
Demons are laughing
I am not resting
Til the tears in your eyes
Are again the stars that are shining!


**Freedom is for everyone!!!!!!!!! God as my witness I will not be complacent until everyone is saved who will be saved!!!!!****

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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

13:21 - Life a hundred years ago
Current mood: exanimate
Category: Writing and Poetry

I wonder why I was born in the year 1985.
I am nothing like the children of my generation. But sometimes I fear the pull of society might wear off on me too much. To work hard to be who you wish to be can be a challenge. Because you might just be rebelling. Or you might be following. What is truely novel?

Well, for me, I think it is listening to your own dreams caste from the place in the universe that you find yourself. I know too much of other civilizations and of the past to be complacent and happy with this lethargic and pride filled America (Rome clone).
I am learning ever more from the senior citizens I work with. I am their servant but I have my ears wide open. I can and am learning amazing things from them. There is a hundred year old man here. He has lived 100 YEARS!! I doubt I even understand how much life he has seen. And yet my eyes are wide open to seeing exactly how much life I am in the midst of living right now.
They have taken to calling me "Little Girl". Usually I would get all indignant on someone for that. I am proud of my maturity and somber mindset ever since I really was a little girl. But now I am so greatful for the title. I am young and able to do ANYTHING! and I will. I never want to be caught saying "if I had it to do all over again..." I want to be proud of my history. I want to MAKE history. And I do make it.

I make it every day I engage in life. Right now I have great dreams. I might soon be a part of a depression. I am young and married and struggling with finances. But I still can impart of my time and love. I can still sacrifice for the bigger picture. I can live without a chair in my dining room. I can work every day and kiss the one I love. I can write a journal full of memories and ideas.

But I must above all, love people! I must spend my time fitting all I can in to touch and improve society. I must improve my intellect. I must learn from the 100 year old man I drive to his optical doctor.

Years pass. Gentleman used to open doors and years before they used to be knighted. But funny thing is today they are rarely seen or appreciated. Ignoring all the stimulus to get back to nature. Honoring those who have seen so many trials.

Life is not perfect. But in its amazing shortcomings come the flowers of people who make me proud to be human. Often I think I am stuck at dead end jobs, even this one I am afraid. Even though I love it more than most I have ever had. But of course as long as we are serving others and working hard we end up finding just where we need to be.

I want to work where my intellect will be challenged. Where I am needed and can have more than a job but a lifestyle. I want to be able to be known for my integrity as well as my knowledge and how innovative I am. I want to work and serve humanity and my people. I want to bring about justice. I want to travel and I want to have adventure. I want to be able to work a computer like the back of my hand and I want to fill my days so full there is every minute going towards a purpose even if it is just kissing, scrapbooking, running, weight lifting, or serving someone.

Who knows how much life can be lived in a hundred years.

But I know i'm not going to waste one day being stupid and wasting my time. I know I am not going to give up on my dreams just because i am in the grindhouse right now. Sometimes we don't get anyone giving us a hand to lift us up to where we know we should be. So we have to gut it out and get up by our raw knuckles.

I look back just like anyone. I miss the Mayan. I loved it there. But it changed. I would go back but the door is closed. I miss security but that door is closed there too. I miss a lot of things. But even if I could go back I know I shouldn't. It won't get me anywhere. Life 5 years ago is the same as 100 years ago. We can't go back but we can look back and learn. We can make the here and now so driven and so full that we are proud when we look back in a hundred years....

Saying YES! I did that and look how far I have come. Look at what I have seen and done. Look at my legacy!

It all starts today. It all starts now. Keep your dreams because soon they will be fullfilled. Maybe you will get a hand to help you up. Maybe you won't. But there is always a way where there is a will

Namaste!

 

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Thursday, April 17, 2008

08:44 - Death
Current mood: cultured

Your words mean nothing
Angry
Your words mean everything
Forgiving
Your death slices my heart
Your memory will forever change me.
All the things you accomplished
More so the things you omitted...
A scarred legacy to stay away from
A fire once keeping me warm
Then burning me
A smile understanding the dead tree
Forlorn sting in my eye
You are Salt Lake's Ghost.
Brick building in the heart of stone
Make believe and it will be so.
Try to fix what is bleeding
But you are just one big seive
Leaving was the best choice I ever made
I still look back often though
Unmasked, unseen
Maybe unremembered
Maybe an unwanted memory
Tragedies concubine
White and red skull
Death killed but little
Your soul was dying long before

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Sunday, January 27, 2008

14:16 - Come play with me :)
Current mood: silly
Category: Writing and Poetry

Ok heres the deal.....

Leave your name as a blog comment.
Once you do that, this is what I'll do...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. 
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.  You MUST. **

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Saturday, January 19, 2008

13:39 - The death of the religoen of Jesus. It must come back and be restored. And it has...
Current mood: determined
Category: Religion and Philosophy

Thanks to my friend L'angelo Misterioso I found a compiled vision of amazing magnitude if understood and lived. What is important to note is Christs divinity. That that divinity was corruped and his church was destroyed. His works were passed down but not his true knowledge and preistood power.

Read the following. Yes, it is lengthy even for me. But it is well worth it if you are searching for truth. All things were restored. Spiritual knowledge is not found in other people. But from above. Practice the meditation to find truths and absolutes as they really are.

Enjoy!!
Gwendolyn Nycz

THE VISION OF ENOCH



THE MOST ANCIENT REVELATION

THE DEATH OF THE RELIGION OF JESUS
(CHRISTIANITY)

By Allan Cronshaw Jr.

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An Eyewitness Account of the Events that Brought About

THE RAPE, PILFERAGE, AND DEMISE OF MANKIND

The Destruction of TheWay, and the Second Fall of Man!

It was a typically warm day, and I could feel the breeze of the morning wind on my face. As I gazed around, I could see the fields where we grew our crops. Like a tranquil song, I could hear the sound of the smoothly flowing water in the nearby stream. On the surface everything appeared peaceful…serene. As I took another step and began to walk toward our assembly house where we met for prayer, I abruptly caught a glimmer of movement in the distant brush. Suddenly, the peacefulness of the moment was broken by the gruff voices of soldiers as they scrambled toward our complex. As I looked around, other soldiers began to come into sight -- entering houses and gathering up the people, ushering them toward the center of our community where the assembly house stood.

Somewhere in the distance I heard a young girl's shrill scream -- a truly frightening scream that pierces to the depth of one's soul. I heard the thud as a soldier hit her, sending her tumbling to the ground. And as I strained to see, I saw the girl -- a young woman about the age of nineteen -- and I could see the soldiers tearing at her clothes. Like animals, they swarmed all over the people in the manner of blood crazed beasts -- beating the men, raping the women and young girls, as they hoarded everyone into the center of our community.

Do you accept the god of the emperor -- they screamed? Will you pray to Jesus -- and profess allegiance to the religion of the emperor? But this question was only a mere formality -- for the soldiers knew before they even entered the community that we were Ebionites -- a people who it is said were too Christian to be Jews, and too Jewish to be Christian, and very much the direct followers of Yeshua (Jesus), the great Teacher and Prophet who had come to reveal to mankind the Spiritual Meaning of the Law through the teachings of The Way. For three hundred years following the crucifixion we had preserved the Sacred Teachings of The Way of Life -- and Yeshua himself remained with us even to that very day. The great Teacher and Prophet often visited with us -- teaching and healing in accordance with the promise of the scriptures. But alas, great change was on the horizon -- and I realized that the time had come where another biblical prediction would come to pass -- one that to our own detriment is ignored by a great many believers today. And what was that prediction? The time had come in accordance with the vision of the the man known as the Apostle Paul when he foretold that in the very near future the True Church of Christ would cease to exist -- as the forces of darkness and the god of this world began to rule the church and reign over the hearts and minds of the people who called themselves Christian.

On that fateful day as I watched in horror at what was taking place in the name of the god Jesus and the religion of the emperor, I saw the soldiers begin to usher the people into our assembly house. Bare breasted young women whose tattered clothes had been torn from their naked bodies by these savage intruders who had violated their innocence, cried as they were dragged along by beastly and unruly animals who masqueraded as human beings. Bloodied and broken men carried their brethren, while the beasts of the Christian emperor jeered them in their struggle. As the soldiers laughed, they barraged the door with furniture and dry wood, threw oil lamps on both the wood that blocked the doors and the thatched roof, and set the building on fire. And as the smoke swirled and the flames engulfed the wooden parts of the structure, the people inside prayed -- prayed for the Light -- and prayed for the forgiveness of those who persecuted them. And in a vision, the whole of the congregation saw Yeshua (Jesus), the prince of peace appear in the mists of the people. And as he opened his mouth to speak, we heard him say: "Be strong, little children, for on this day you will be with me in the Paradise of our Eternal Father". And as they looked to him, his feet raised two feet off the floor, we saw him totally surrounded by the Light, and each of us could feel the radiation of his Love. In unison we then prayed in the words of our Master and Teacher: "Father forgive them, fore they know not what they do!"

Outside the soldiers celebrated as the smoke-filled building became enveloped in the fire. They had enjoyed the spoils of another successful mission -- and they reasoned that both their emperor and their god Jesus will rejoice over the destruction of the heretics. Thus, if one could take a step back and observe the two worlds that clashed on that fateful day so long ago, one would immediately be struck by the reality of the dual powers that had been brought together. Inside the burning assembly hall with the tormented victims of the god of this world was the Master Yeshua -- the Prince of Peace who had lived as the Son of the Eternal God. On the outside were the soldiers who called themselves Christian -- a people who the Apostle Paul wrote would worship the Prince of Darkness as he sat upon the throne of the church -- and while from an historical perspective these savage and ruthless barbarians called themselves Christian, we must ask if these heathen and bloodthirsty barbaric men were truly the faithful flock of the Church of the New Covenant that was created to be a Light to this world?

As I once again began to move back across the spectrum of time into the present, and I found myself emerging from this episode of reliving the experiences in the life I had previously lived as Matthew, the fourth-century Ebionite Elder, I found myself once again being drawn back into the presence of the Light in my own time. And as I questioned the impact of the events that I had again relived in the memory of a my own more distant past, I remembered the first time I had come into the presence of the Light while in a deep state of prayer and meditation. As with all developments of human potential, the ability to enter into deep states of meditation and inner exploration must be accomplished with much discipline through the ability to release one's mind from its attachment and focus on this world. Admittedly, it is not easy -- and is a process that must be established and achieved through a great deal of work and practice over the course of time.

As I went through my routine of prayer, scripture study, and then a time of extended reflection, I felt myself letting completely go of the outside world as I slowly moved into that inner space of tranquil solitude. Suddenly, I felt myself begin to move inward in consciousness to a place I had never been before. It was as if I had been drawn through an inner gateway that I can only describe as an interior place of abode beyond the barrier of the normal consciousness that I used in my daily life. Contrary to those who describe a Near Death Experience where they first find themselves outside the physical body, it seemed that my state of deep meditation permitted me to be drawn through an inner gate -- i.e., a sort of tunnel that connected this world with a parallel realm within which lies concealed from man's carnal senses associated with his physical body.

Traveling inward at what seemed to be a rapid rate, the place that I felt myself moving into was well beyond what I would describe as the normal depths of what I had previously considered a deep state of meditation. And as I continued to move in consciousness, I found myself in the presence of what I can only describe as a Being of Light -- and as I contemplated this new experience, the thought came into my head that this was surely the Christ! And as I pondered this new dimension of my journeys into inner states of mind, the Being of Light impressed upon my mind the question: "Are you Greek?" And as I questioned the meaning of these words, my mind began to form the word Messiah! And again the thought was impressed upon my consciousness: "Are you a Jew?" Feeling perplexed, the Light said to me: "When you use terms that are foreign to your understanding, you can never get a real sense of what these words convey".

In a vision I was then shown that the Greek word Christ, as well as the Hebrew word Messiah, are words that are descriptive of a condition or state of mind and being -- i.e., as in the English translation of these words when they are properly rendered "The Anointed". And as I pondered the relationship of these three words -- i.e., Christ, Messiah and their English equivalent as understood in the word Anointed -- I felt myself being drawn into still another time in the more distant past -- a time prior to my life as Matthew, the fourth century Ebionite Elder -- back to the very beginning of our Common Era -- and as the vision of previous ages came into clear perception, I saw the man known today as Jesus as he spoke and taught the people on the shores of Galilee. And as the memory of this more distant age began to flood into my mind, I understood that I was now seeing the world through the eyes of Jacob -- the life my soul had previously lived when I was a follower and disciple of this Great Prophet and Teacher who had come to save mankind by leading them out of the darkness of this world and into the Kingdom of the Light of the Father.

As I looked out at the people who had come to hear him speak, I was literally overcome with sheer amazement at what was transpiring before my eyes. As Jacob, the disciple of the Lord's Anointed Teacher and Prophet, the Master Jesus had opened my mind and enabled me to become aware of man's extended reality which was manifest on a multidimensional level. It was as if the events that transpired in this world was a staged production which was being orchestrated by other realms that were beyond the perception of carnal man in his natural organic state of being. These other realms were therefore not hidden or concealed -- but rather, they could only be detected by sections of the mind that related to states of consciousness and being beyond the barrier of this physical world. As I gazed upon these mysteries, I began to understand the great truth which the Apostle Paul attempted to express throughout his Epistles -- i.e., that the carnal mind of man is embryonic, and it must be born into two extended realms of consciousness in order to inherit the promise of Eternal Life that is a paramount theme of the sacred writings of all religions the world over.

As one who had received the spiritual gift of the opening of the mind by the Master -- which gift enabled me to perceive multiple parallel realms -- my vision of life was more complete. I immediately realized that when the scriptures speak of Jesus healing the blind, what was being conveyed had more to do with man's soul and spiritual blindness, than the physical blindness we commonly attempt to limit the message of the text to in our modern biblical interpretations. With eyes that had been opened to man's broad expansive reality that he is generally unaware of, I could see and hear what was transpiring in this physical world -- I could simultaneously observe extended realms and levels of consciousness (of Law) that controlled the events that transpired in this world -- I could further see that there was an in-between state which could only be accessed by Jesus' most devout followers and disciples -- and above these parallel dimensions, I could simultaneously view still another world which I called the realm of the souls. As I gazed at the spectacle I was observing, I innately knew that there were still other worlds above what I could observe -- purely spiritual realms -- worlds that I could sense existed, but I was not able to see into.

What I observed as I looked through the eyes of Jacob was both enlightening and perplexing! While the greater majority of the people sat and heard only the words which Jesus spoke, there were those among us who sat with the Master in what I can only describe as being present simultaneously in more than one dimension -- a parallel dimension that the carnal people of this world had no idea existed. Thus, I observed the biblical portrayal of the difference between those who were said to be "…without", and those who learned from the Master "…in the house". And as I saw these things which revealed to my vision a picture of man's greater reality, I came to understand that the mind of man consciously exists across a multidimensional spectrum of being. Many scientists have concluded that man can only use less than 10% of his potential of mind. Why? Why is man's intelligence so limited? Contrary to popular belief, it is not that these other dimensions and areas of mind are dormant -- but rather, that these extended areas of mind are segregated and walled off by barriers which are formed by the natural formation and interaction of law working upon our consciousness. Moreover, once the nature of the limitations are understood, there is no reason why man cannot utilize more of his mind -- right up to the 100% level of mind that the historical Yeshua (Jesus) did! In fact, all that he knew, as well as the miracles he performed, were all the result of the Anointing (Messiah/Christ) of his mind by the Most High God who chose him above all other men because of his true holiness and righteousness that enabled him to totally and completely fulfill the Law (Torah) within himself.

As I thought on these things which I saw before me in my own more distant past, I began to realize the enormity of the scriptural warning with respect to the reality that the part of mind of carnal man which is projected into this world is merely a partial, embryonic seed -- a seed-mind that must be grown, matured and developed if it is to become born and manifest in the Kingdom. And as I saw these things, the enormity of the meaning of the parables came into focus -- an enormity that few students of the Bible whose thinking was bound and anchored to the culture of this world could even begin to contemplate in man's very limited assessment of the meaning of life and Creation. And in this elevated vision of man's greater reality, I realized that we were very much the seed that was planted in the soil of this world -- i.e., we were the prodigal sons who had left the Heavenly Realm of the Father to learn the lessons of this life and return to the Kingdom in a more complete and perfected form!

Looking out through the eyes of Jacob at the people who heard only the Master's words, I realized that it was these people who the scriptures spoke of as being carnal and of a natural organic state of mind. Because their thinking was in accordance with the culture and philosophy of this world, they had become severed from their own greater spiritual reality, and they had no idea that they existed across a multidimensional spectrum of being. How could they, when they saw only the material things of this world which was merely a fraction of man's true reality. And as I continued to observe the world through the eyes of Jacob, I then saw others who possessed a hunger for Truth and Light -- men and women who dwelled in varying states of spiritual awareness -- and I could see that the realm of Law which created that natural barrier between this physical world and the other parallel dimensions that were beyond carnal man's ability to perceive, had begun to open and permit a greater stream of consciousness to flow between realms.

In seeing these things I realized that our modern culture dwells in a state of spiritual darkness because we attempt to view the mind in reverse of man's true reality. We attempt to educate our children by filling their minds with what we deem knowledge facts -- when we should instead be teaching our children how to tap into their inner resource of soul and spiritual knowledge that greatly exceeds all of our modern-day understanding of life. As I looked upon these men and women who possessed an elevated perception of the meaning of both the scriptures and life, I saw that their minds had begun to open to the inner dimensions of the soul and spirit. And as I looked, I could see higher thoughts entering within their consciousness in the manner of a stream of impressions flowing into their minds that nourished them in their search to understand the enigmas and mysteries of life. Where the carnally minded listeners heard only the words that Jesus spoke, these more enlightened individuals were able to perceive what was being said on a multidimensional level. As I gazed upon this vision of the past, I began to understand that the scriptures and the teachings of The Way was not a mere system of belief -- but rather, a means to overcome the limitations of the natural barrier of this organic world, and open a path of communication to man's soul and spiritual natures.

Lastly, there were those few men and women who had totally consecrated their lives to the Light -- i.e., those who were considered extremists because their lifestyle and thinking was not attached to the culture and philosophy of this world -- and it was these souls of whom it is said in the scriptures that they had been made WHOLE -- whose consciousness was drawn from a multidimensional level of being -- and it was these consecrated men and women who learned directly and experientially from the Master in a realm that was beyond the ability of the carnal people of this world to perceive or even envision. Thus, while the multitude of people heard only his words -- and while more sincere believers could receive a higher understanding via the flow of impressions that flooded into their minds -- his genuine disciples were simultaneously taught by him privately "…in the house" (Matt 13:36), where the Master revealed Spiritual Truths and the Mysteries of the Kingdom only to those who had consecrated themselves from the defilement's of this world.

I immediately saw that while the modern believer is often sincere in his faith in biblical mysteries that he is unable to comprehend, it is his own adherence to scriptural interpretations, the doctrines of men, and the dogma of well-meaning religious authorities of the church, which limit the believers understanding and growth in the Word of God. Once again we do not perceive this great enigma of life, because we continue to embrace the process of learning in reverse of what is necessary in order to overcome the great obstacles of life. It is not until we become thoroughly cognizant of the reality that the scriptures are not an historical narrative -- but rather, a conveyance of spiritual truths and events that must take place in the life and mind of the believer and disciple as they walk in The Way, that we are able to begin to embrace the soul and spiritual meaning of the written word.

When we ignore the warning of the Apostle Paul that the meaning of life, the scriptures, and the true depth of the Word, does not make rational sense to the carnal mind of man in his natural organic state of being, the people of faith become severely burdened by a modern church which generally rejects this very important element of the original teachings of the New Covenant. Contrary to the many warnings throughout the scriptures, they do not understand why the Son of God would teach one doctrine to the masses, while reserving what they perceive to be a secret doctrine to the few. From a church/doctrinal perspective, they desire an all-inclusive Savoir who equally redeems everyone regardless of their faithfulness to the core teachings of the scriptures. Yet, it is the modern church that ignores the very words of the Master when he commanded: "Do not give dogs what is holy; and do not throw your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under foot and turn to attack you" (Matt 7:6 RSV).

When the scriptures speak of dogs and swine, it does not make reference to animals -- but rather, people who possess the traits of these animals. Dogs and swine are indicative of those men and women who squander away their essence of life on the meaningless things of this world. Religion to these people is always redemptive, and is seen as a means to appease the gods so they can continue to immerse themselves in the sensual and material things of this world. On the other hand, only those who are possessed by a sincere desire for Truth and Light and focus their vital life-force on the development of man's innate spiritual nature, are able to overcome the organic Laws which create a natural barrier that separates this world from the parallel dimensions of soul and spirit.

It is not that man's higher reality across a spectrum of dimensions of consciousness are kept secret and hidden -- but rather, their state of blindness is actually self-imposed. Where the people of a carnal mind are totally focused on the elemental things of this world, those who direct their lives in the pursuit of Truth and follow in the footsteps of the Lord by living in accordance with His Word, are able to utilize a greater amount of man's potential of mind, and are thus able to perceive man's higher reality. It is only these faithful disciples in search of Truth and Light that can then be taught what men and women who are of a carnal mindset are unable to comprehend: "And when he was alone, those who were about him with the twelve asked him concerning the parables. And he said to them, 'To you has been given the secret of the kingdom of God, but for those outside everything is in parables; so that they may indeed see but not perceive, and may indeed hear but not understand; lest they should turn again, and be forgiven'" (Mark 4:10-12 RSV).

The great flaw in the thinking of carnal man is that he not only fails to perceive the threefold nature of both man and Creation, but that in his attempt to homogenize his perception of life, he fails to understand that each of us exists at greatly varying stages of soul and spiritual development that causes us to see and comprehend this world in a vastly different manner. Thus, while it can be said that all men were created equal, that does not suggest that equal means that we enter any particular life the same. In no longer understanding the original teachings of the New Covenant that still survives in the writings of early Christian writers such as the third century Church Father Origen, who wrote: "Every soul... comes into this world strengthened by the victories or weakened by the defeats of its previous life" (Origen, De Principiis) -- the modern believer is unable to comprehend why some men and women are born with greatly advanced spiritual powers of mind that the majority of people do not possess. They reason that if these extended realms of reality truly existed, and man has the ability to see into these realms, then they should be able to view these other worlds. That they are unable to see beyond the barrier of this three-dimensional realm causes them to conclude that these other worlds either do not exist -- or if they do exist, that all men and women are equally blind to their existence. The whole biblical concept that each of us is born into this life with greatly differing abilities and powers of mind that is inherited by virtue of the previous accomplishments of our pre-existent soul, is simply beyond their ability to grasp or comprehend.

As I gazed upon this vision of man's own higher reality that would literally shock and dismay the average person whose limited experiences of life does little to prepare him for a more enlightened perception of Creation, I suddenly realized the relevance and relationship of all that existed in the physical world within which carnal man unsuspectingly dwells. In many instances what we consider evil, is merely our inability to perceive the higher good that will be brought about. Thus, I began to perceive the true depth of the words of St. Gregory, Bishop of Nyssa where he states: "…it is wrong to judge of what is morally excellent, or, on the other hand, of what is evil, by the standard of the senses". St. Gregory then writes of the absolute importance of going beyond the physical in order to ascertain the truth and states: "…by withdrawing the mind from bodily phenomena, we must decide by itself and from itself the true nature of moral excellence and of its opposite".

What is it that St. Gregory was conveying to the reader? St. Gregory knew that what we perceive and understand via our carnal senses that are associated with the body in which we presently dwell, detect only the physical things of this world, and as such are incomplete. It is not until we are able to understand the cause -- i.e., that every event in life has been brought about by a pre-existent cause that is designed to rectify not only a past action, but also is intended to correct or improve our journey towards our eventual destiny with respect to our return as the prodigal son to the Kingdom of our origination.

As my mind entertained the depth of St. Gregory's observations, I immediately saw that what is beyond the very limited perception of carnal man is that every event in life is not only brought about for a purpose and reason -- but that these events that man repeatedly views as evil, is often both necessary and for his eventual own good. In the biblical example with respect to our search for the meaning of life as presented to us in the parable of the prodigal son, we can see that the Father never comes into the far country in an attempt to persuade his child to leave the suffering of this world and return to the realm of his birth or origination. Spiritual complacency, therefore, is viewed as satanic, because it will bring about our own eventual demise. The great truth that we fail to understand today is the fact that because each of us innately possess the knowledge of the Kingdom by virtue of the experiences of our pre-existent soul, we will not only perpetually hunger while we continue to roam in the darkness and incompleteness of this world -- but that every event and episode of this life us ultimately brought about in order to force us to return to our place of Origination that continues to remain our inescapable Destiny.

Remarkably, even the non-believer and Atheist was often led into lives of opposition to the church for man's own eventual good. In the same way that for the son's own good, the Father in the parable of the prodigal son did not attempt to persuade his child not to enter into the far country -- but rather, He knew that what is perceived as the evil of this world would eventually bring about the greater good -- the destruction of the Spiritual Church by the army of the Roman Emperor Constantine was actually brought about for the benefit of mankind. In like manner, when man began to emerge out of the Dark Ages, we have often heard of what has been portrayed as the conflict of religion of science -- and yet, this conflict and the rejection of church doctrine by many more rational thinking men of science was absolutely necessary in order to bring about the eventual greater good. Unless the mind of man is free and unshackled, he will remain a perpetual slave to the powers of darkness and ignorance. If science had remained a puppet to the shadow church of Constantine, then the more evolved perception of life and Creation that has only now been realized by the modern scientist -- an elevated perception that actually proves the fundamentals of Genuine Religion -- could never have been brought about in the life of man. Fundamentally, the great truth that both inspired believers as well as ardent Atheists both fail to understand is the fact that there is no conflict between religion and science -- only the politicization of man's congenitally inherent limited vision of both himself and Creation.

SCIENCE PROVES NEW COVENANT TEACHINGS:

"After religious teachers accomplish the refining process indicated they will surely recognize with joy that true religion has been ennobled and made more profound by scientific knowledge. The situation maybe expressed by an image: Science without religion is lame and religion without science is blind" Albert Einstein



One of the primary obstacles in our understanding of both the scriptures and life itself is seen in the fact that we embrace a Darwinist perception of life -- and even people of faith who ardently oppose the Theory of Evolution fail to recognize that in the reinterpretation of the Word by the fourth century Roman Church, even the modern Fundamentalist Christian views both the Bible and life from a quasi-Darwinist perspective that is totally alien to the original teachings of The Way. Thus, in the fourth-century rape and destruction of the true people of the New Covenant, the Church of Constantine not only defiled the teachings of The Way, but molded the thinking of society along a course that naturally gave birth to men such as Darwin and the Atheist Manifesto that pervades our culture today.

The problem is seen in the fact that we have permitted ourselves to become anchored to an erroneous perception of Creation -- and while Darwin and his theory of evolution remains the holy grail of the Atheist and Secular Humanist who are the architects and guardians of our modern-day culture, even the more enlightened scientist readily sees the flaw in this very mechanical and limited perception of life. In the words of Niles Eldredge of the American Museum of Natural History: "The old explanation that the fossil record was inadequate is in itself an inadequate explanation." Why? The fossil record is inadequate because everything that we see and perceive in this realm is directly caused by patterns of force being exerted upon matter from beyond the bounds of this three-dimensional world in which we presently dwell.

Einstein experienced shock when he first came into contact with the new reality of atomic physics, and wrote in his autobiography: "All my attempts to adapt the theoretical foundation of physics to this [new type of] knowledge failed completely. It was as if the ground had been pulled out from under one, with no firm foundation to be seen anywhere, upon which one could have built". In much the same fashion, the European physicist Niels Bohr stated that "…The great extension of our experience in recent years has brought to light the insufficiency of our simple mechanical conceptions and, as a consequence, has shaken the foundation on which the customary interpretation of observation was based." These "…mechanical conceptions" make reference to Darwin and the theory of evolution.

In his 1951 textbook on quantum theory, Bohm offered some interesting speculations on the analogies between quantum processes and thought processes, thus carrying further the celebrated statement made by the astronomer James Jeans two decades earlier: "Today there is a wide measure of agreement… that the stream of knowledge is heading towards a non-mechanical reality; the universe begins to look more like a great thought than like a great machine"; and the statement by astronomer Arthur Eddington: "The stuff of the universe is mind-stuff". More recently, cyberneticist David Foster described "an intelligent universe" whose apparent concreteness is generated by cosmic data from an unknowable, organized source. The holographic theory says that: "…our brains mathematically construct hard reality by interpreting frequencies from a dimension transcending time and space. The brain is a hologram, interpreting a holographic universe."

What is the impact of these findings of modern science? The reality that is being conveyed is that what we perceive as solid physical matter, is being interpreted in this manner because our brains interpret that frequency to make what we see appear concrete. Moreover, what it also means is that we perceive only a fraction of Creation because our brains, which by virtue of the fact of their physical nature, can only detect frequencies that are within the same spectrum. In the same way that in order to be effective, an antenna must possess the physical characteristics that enables it to receive a certain range of the frequencies that the device (radio, TV, wireless phone, etc.) is intended to operate within, our physical mind and bodies are designed to function within a certain spectrum of Creation -- and this is predicated by the fact that our physical nature is composed of the elements that are of this world.

Just as important is the fact that we only use less than ten percent of our potential of mind which corresponds to the ten percent (physical) spectrum of frequencies with which we interact with in this world, because very few of us have ever trained and developed our minds to go beyond this natural organic limitation. Once we begin to comprehend this fact -- and strive to overcome the three-dimensional barrier of this world -- only then can we begin to comprehend the constant biblical assertion that carnal man is blind to higher reality.

That the Bible continually warns the reader that man in his natural organic state of mind neither understands what he sees with his physical eyes -- and perceives only a very limited perception of reality -- is easily confirmed in the above statements by the modern scientist. What this equates to is conformation of the many truths that biblical holy-men and prophets have invariably declared and warned us about with respect to the fact that what we see is not concrete -- and what we see with our physical eyes appears to us as solid matter, only because our physical brains are wired in such a way so as to interpret it in this manner.

Fundamentally this means that what we see when we look out into the world is a very limited perception of reality, and equates to nothing more than the same ten percent of our potential of mind that we are limited to using by nature -- i.e., men and women who use less than ten percent of their potential of mind are only capable of perceiving less than ten percent of the totality of Creation and the world in which they dwell. Yet, to our own demise, we fail to embrace the reality that men such as Martin Luther, Darwin, our many scholars and philosophers throughout the history of the world, the people who teach our children, the political and religious leaders who convey to us their very incomplete and limited religious doctrines, quasi-scientific theories, and philosophies about life, all have failed to overcome the very flaw in human reasoning that caused the Apostle Paul to both condemn the wisdom of this world as foolishness, and warn us that the people of the simple faith do not comprehend the Spiritual Gospel of Christ! Yet, we ignore the wisdom of the Apostle, and erroneously believe that man can attain to higher understanding while still using less than ten percent of his potential of mind -- a ten percent that only detects a very limited and suppressed spectrum of the totality of Creation. The problem is that to recognize the great dilemma that confronts man is not enough -- only a truly Great Soul possess the vision and experience to lead others to the Kingdom of Light that lies beyond the barriers of this world -- and when Constantine and his forces of darkness snuffed out the lives of the true disciples of Yehshua (Joshua/Jesus), all of mankind has paid the price!

In the first two chapters of Paul's First Epistle to the Corinthians the Apostle very clearly teaches that there is the "testimony" of Christ that is preached to the multitudes of people, and the "mysteries" of the Gospel that cannot even be contemplated by those believers who have yet to be transformed by the Spirit, and are still of a natural organic state of mind. While this reality was difficult for men such as Martin Luther and Darwin to envision, this is no longer the case in our present time. Luckily, our modern scientific advances have provided us with great insight into understanding what Paul was attempting to convey to the mind of the still carnal believer. Once we are able to comprehend that we are dwelling in a non-mechanical "…holographic universe" that is now being described as being of an intelligent nature -- i.e., and appears to us in every way as a great thought -- only then can we begin to truly understand the universal plight of man that Yehshua (Joshua/Jesus) came to free us from. What the Bible portrays as Satan -- both collectively and as a singular being who opposes the Heavenly Kingdom -- can more appropriately be portrayed as the power or force which bonds and shackles us to this world through the organic physical body/vessels we are presently residing in.

If we are to use an analogy or comparison, Satan can thus best be understood as the gravity of mind that holds our thinking to this world. In the same way that gravity keeps our bodies attached to the surface of the earth, the satanic force the Bible warns us of keeps our thoughts attached to the physical. Moreover, because we dwell in an "…intelligent universe" which attempts to fight off all threats to its existence in the manner of our own physical bodies fighting off an invading germ or disease, any time we attempt to move into harmony with our indwelling soul or spirit, the physical world not only inhibits us, but will garner its own forces to overcome us in the manner of the body producing antibodies to combat a virus or foreign microbe. It is for this reason that the Apostle Paul wrote of the war that rages in his flesh that opposes the law of the spirit -- and that all those who are of the flesh will die because they cannot live in accordance with the spirit.

While the modern Christian will passionately and vehemently oppose this statement on the basis of an incomplete understanding of Paul's doctrine of faith -- i.e., saying, they have received the prom