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Monday, May 05, 2008
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Sound Track of My Life.
Current mood:  drained
Category: Life
I put Windows Media Player on all music and selected random. I placed the song that came up next as the song to go in the next area. Here is the sound track on my life and I have to say, I quite like it. Its a great soundtrack having been random.
Opening Credits:
Keane - We Might as well be strangers.
Waking Up:
Sevendust - Desertion.
First Day At School:
Alien Ant Farm - Smooth Criminal.
Falling In Love:
Chevelle - Paint The Seconds.
Losing Virginity:
10 Years - Paralyzing Kings.
Fight Song:
Pillows - Sleepy Head.
Breaking Up:
Lucuna Coil - Devoted.
Life:
Offspring - The Meaning of Life.
Mental Breakdown:
Breaking Point - Good bye to you
Driving:
Rammstein - Sonne
Flashback:
Bush - Head Full of Ghost
Getting Back Together:
Stained - Excess baggage.
Wedding:
Evenking - Perpetual Knot
Birth of Child:
Abandoned Pools - Goodbye song.
Final Battle:
Powerman 5000 - Heros and Villains.
Death Scene:
Rammstein - Zerstoren
Funeral Song:
System of a Down - Question!
End Credits:
Bush - Mouth[The Stingray Mix]
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Sunday, April 27, 2008
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I Hate Who You Have Become.
Category: Art and Photography
This is dedicated to someone I thought was a friend, I have learned who you have become.
I Hate Who You Have Become!
Your a loser! and a user!
You have never been productive,
You'v only been destructive.
Your a fake! At your wake!
The real you has come out,
We will finally know what the really you is all about.
Once apon a time, in my younger years.
Your the one person that could heal my fears.
Touch an aching heart and take away the tears.
BUT NOW ALL YOU ARE!
Is a loser! and a user!
You have always been regressive,
You'v only been depressive.
Your a fake! At your own wake!
I never new what you were all about,
Now I am glad I have figured you all out.
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Thursday, April 24, 2008
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I Heard The Voice of An Angel Today
Current mood:  touched
Category: Friends
To my love.
"I Heard The Voice of An Angel Today"
I heard the voice of an angel today,
My heart raced as I took in the world for the first time,
I think this is the first time I have really lived.
My hands shake,
My heart races,
My hairs raise,
And my skin tingles.
As I heard the voice of the angel,
the angel spoke of her love for the first time.
Her voice too entrancing to understand.
My eyes begin to cry as the voice fades away,
Unable to hold back the tears I begin to pray,
Wishing she didn't have to go.
My mind in shambles,
My soul shivering,
My desires fueled,
and My lips tingle.
I heard the voice of an angel today
I heard the voice
I heard
I
I wait for the moment that I free my bonds to this land,
Hope once again fully restored as my heart pounds,
I think this is the first time I have truly lived and loved.
Death hands shall never grasp this soul,
For so strong of love has never been felt,
And two lovers become one soul with endless bounds.
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Saturday, August 04, 2007
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The Truth in Words.
Category: Religion and Philosophy
The one who takes your hand but touches your heart is a true friend!
We seldom think of what we have,
But always think of what we miss.
The more precisely you plan,
The harder destiny will hit you.
Don't make an effort because,
The best things happen when you least expect them.
The greatest events,
Aren't the loudest,
But the most quiet hours.
The most difficult lesson to learn is:
Which bridge in life to use or which one to break off.
Everybody sees how you seem,
However,
Only some know who you are.
Perhaps
God would want you to become acquainted
With many different people in the course of your life,
So that when you meet the right ones,
You can appreciate and be grateful for them.
Give something a name, and it will happen.
Love doesn't require two people look at each other,
But that they look together in the same direction.
Life is like drawing, you just dont get an eraser!
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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
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10 Things about me.
1.) My greatest fear is the furture, the unknown.
2.) I wonder constantly what people think about me.
3.) I think people are always talking about me behind my back.
4.) I dropped out of highschool because I couldnt mentaly, and emotionaly take the drama. Not because I disliked school.
5.) I love and care for people easly, and I hate myself for it.
6.) Im insecure.
7.) I think a great deal of people only talk, dated, or know me because of my hair.
8.) I have not considered anyone in a few years a 'best' friend, meaning, I consider people my friends, but no one I consider close.
9.) When I was younger I purposly thought things to make myself feel worse and go into a panic/anxiety attack. Now, I cant stop those thoughts even when I realize they are not true and are illogical.
10.) I would rather you be honest and blunt with me, even if you hurt me.
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Friday, July 20, 2007
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Tell me...
Why do you always seem to have a problem with me?
Why is it that you never understand me?
Why am i so screwed up?
Why do you always drum it into me that i am screwed up?
Why do you always have to critisize me?
Why do you choose to carry things on and never let them go?
Why do you always hold a grudge against someone, even if they did it by mistake?
You were my only reason for keeping sane.
Now its all lost completely.
Why were you the only one i could turn to in a time of need?
Why did you always bother to help me overcome my deepest of troubles when i could never do it on my own?
Well, those days are gone...
My trust for you is washing away.
I hate what you've become.
I hate what i've become.
I hate the way you judge me.
I hate the way you look at me.
I hate how i used to lean on you.
I hate how i always end up apologising for the way i am.
I hate not being able to find the right words.
I hate knowing that you'll never accept me for who i really am.
I hate this world we live in and how the people that live in it treat eachother.
I hate myself.
I hate how i always turn to more pain to overcome the pain that i am already feeling.
I hate not knowing the reason that stops me from contemplating suicide.
I hate not understanding that reason.
I hate knowing that i am still alive.
I hate the thought that i was born into a family that never really wanted me in the first place.
Why am i writing this?
I hate the way i feel right now.
Why do i always get left alone in the cold?
Why does it feel dark everywhere i turn.
What is fucking wrong with me?
I feel like what im writing is bullshit!
Is there an answer to any of this at all?
Didnt think so!
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007
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I am Sure its Mine
Current mood:  lonely
I am Sure its Mine
Tormented by my past
I walk my path alone
An endless road of pain
Leading me from all that's known
Taking me into a night so dark
Swallowed by an unholy force
I face a world by myself
Filled with only anger and hate
No one can feel my pain
Nor can they understand why
Sometimes your feelings die
So with nothing to share
But my undying pain
Should I care about them
They should feel the pain
Like only I have felt it
Losing your humanity
It only shows one thing
If pain has a face
I'm sure it is mine
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Insain
Current mood:  cold
Insanity
Unloved and unseen by the world,
All I am is alone,
With no one to care for.
My heart turns to stone,
Not a tear or a word,
Can explain how I feel.
All I know is that,
My heart is impenetrable like steel,
With nothing to feel,
But Loneliness and pain.
Its no wonder,
That a man will go insain.
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Monday, May 21, 2007
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Poem to Your Promise.
Current mood: drained
Your Promise
Always thought your promise was for life,
I did not think I would have to hear you say good-bye,
And I always heard you lead another life,
I doubted every time,
I guess my love was blind.
Because in my eyes,
Love was always something magical,
But the feeling is so tragic...
And all I know is that in love,
The thing that I want most,
I can not posses.
There's only emptiness.
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Why do people lie, because they are pretending, there misunderstanding, they say they love you, they just really fake it all.
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
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Maybe its just me.
Current mood:  rejected
Category: Life
I feel hurt, my heart feels completly and utterly smashed into peices.
The main reason being...
I love people in many ways, wether its love for being a friend, or love in another way.
But three people today in one way or another have really hurt me.
I just hope some way they could know without me having to tell them.
Maybe its just me =(
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Currently
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Truth Is Currency
By
Revelation Theory
Release date: 27 September, 2005
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