Gettin all introspective to Shiloh.....
Current mood: optimistic
Category: Life

So right now I'm listening to Shiloh's album,  "Bleed."  It's  a super work if you've never heard it.  I don't say that just because they're friends of mine either.  It's really an awesome album.

Anyway,  the track currently playing is "Fall Reprise."  This track speaks to me on soooooo many levels.  It has a very simple vocal in it.  All it says is "Show me the way to go."

I think this is the implied question we all go through life trying to answer.....Show me the way to go. 

Lately,  I've had a bunch of crap happen.  Those of you who know me well know what's going on,  or rather,  what went on.  To make a long story short,  my Grandfather died,  and it was a bit rough.  Top that on the other events of the last 4 years,  and you've got recipe for meltdown.  Honestly,  I've felt as if I'm adrift on a sea of confusion.  It's like I'm being tossed around with no hopes of stability in sight.  Everytime I think things are going to settle in,  something happens. 

Many times lately,  I've asked God to show me the way to go.  Unfortunately,  God doesn't deal in roadmaps,  emails,  and GPS units for direction.  Instead,  he forces you to develop your inner sense of direction.  Things have been taken away from me so I'd rely more on myself.  God said to me "Kevin,  I'm going to show you the way to go,  but first you're going to have to prepare for the journey."

Life is not easy,  people.  If it were,  it would be boring.  You can't appreciate the view from the mountain untill you've been at the bottom of the valley.  I've been forced to work through some very tough circumstances so I'd learn to be self reliant and do what I needed to do to get by.  I've been at a point in the past year where I was trying to scrape together enough change to go buy a pack of Ramen.  I always prayed to God that he would take care of me,  and that I was turning all my problems over to Him.  Once I did that,  things started looking up.

Do you know how hard it is for me to completely turn over control to anyone,  much less a higher being that I can feel but not see?  It wasn't easy.  I've always believed in God,  but I don't think it's been until about the past two years that I've been able to APPRECIATE God.  I realize that I am NOTHING without God,  and everything I have;  everything I am,  is because of His grace,  and not my work.

I haven't been the best example in the past,  but I'm working hard to correct those issues.  It's not easy,  because I'm only human.  We weren't created to be perfect.  There's a few things in my past that I'm not proud of.  However,  as far as I'm concerned,  they're all in the past,  and I'm happy to leave them be.  I thank God for forgiving me of my sins,  and pray that he help me be the person I should.  

Ironically enough,  the Shiloh track playing as I write this portion is "IMOK."  Ya know what?  I AM okay.  Sometimes people think I'm sad or angry,  but I'm not.  I've just never really been one to open up to people.  Just know that I'm very thankful for all of you,  and I'm here to help you all that I can.

I think I'm getting closer to answering my "Show Me The Way To Go" issue.  I believe I'm on the right track now.  I pray that you find your way as well.  If you'd like someone to be with you on your life journeyt,  please consider me more than happy to help.  I can't show you the way,  but I can help you get going in the right direction at least.

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Dedicated to a special few people
Current mood: contemplative

I was just listening to this.  It's "Alone Tonight" by Above & Beyond....Sometimes I have a hard time telling people exactly what I'm thinking,  so I'd like you to read these lyrics.  This applies to a few people in my life,  and I'm pretty sure you know who you are....

I've wrestled with angels all my life
Its always the haloes and the wings that keep you blind
And if I'd fought with all the strength I held inside
I wouldn't be out here
Alone tonight

Thanks to all my angels out there.  You people know who you are...

kt,pm,jm,asm,ab,bw,rp,jl,jm,cm,jl,zl,kn,jo,rr,

Currently listening : Tri-State By Above & Beyond Release date: 18 April, 2006

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White and Nerdy...Things I'm guilty of...

So I was listening to "white and Nerdy" by Weird Al....I got to thinkin,  and there are a few things in that track that I'm guilty of that I must confess to...

1.  I'm not a champion of D&D,  but I am quite skilled at Guild Wars and Final Fantasy XI

2.  I would rather have some Earl Grey than a 40. 

3.  My rims are stationary indeed!

4.  No Steven Hawking,  but plenty of technical guides and encyclopedae.

5.  I do have people begging for my Top 8 spaces on Myspace.

6.  mayo IS good on sandwiches!

7.  I,  as well,  have no gat,  but I do own a soldering gun.

8.  I would probably pwnstar you in ping pong.

9.  I have shopped online for deals on writable media.

10.  I have,  in fact,  edited Wikipedia.

11.  Yeah,  I know Holy Grail too.

12.  And I do know what ROTFLOL is.  0h n03zzz!~!!!!111!!!!

13.  I've never spent a night with Bubble Wrap,  but I do like it!

14.  I was in A/V club

15.  And Chess Club

16.  And Choir...

17.  I know I prefer Picard over Kirk.

thanks for sharing this nerdtacular moment.

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This One Goes Out to....
Current mood: thoughtful

So I was just looking over someone's Myspace page that REALLY REALLY bugs me because of some shitty things they've done behind my back but GUESS WHAT!!!  I KNOW!!!!  So anyway,  this got me to thinkin....

I'd like to dedicate the November 3 show to......
Everyone who has ever made fun of me
Everyone who asked why I should be playing somewhere back when I was struggling with some deeply personal issues...
Everyone who has ever gone to other cities and talked smack about me....Thanks for the free promotion!
Everyone who said they'd book me,  but never followed through.
Everyone that's ever tried to book me in the worst possible timeslot
Everyone who said I couldn't do it
Everyone who's said BTU is "cheesy"
Everyone who's called BTU "annoying cunts"
Myspace girls who won't accept a friend request or respond to a nice message because we actually DO have things in common.  Guess what...I'm not hitting on you,  so don't act like I am.  Don't think so highly of yourself.  There are still people out there that like conversation with interesting people...

But I'd also like to dedicate the show to....
Everyone who called me just to say hello
Everyone who's ever sent me a nice email or message.
Everyone who's really enjoyed the show
Everyone who was my friend when I really had problems
Everyone who ever reassured me that yes,  I could do it.
Everyone who ever kept me from selling all my music
Everyone who's ever believed in me.
Everyone who's ever given me a chance.
Everyone who's passed word along about the show
Everyone who doesn't believe the Birmingham scene is dead.

So....Decide which group you are in....And think about it.  Word gets around,  people..  For those of you who are negative,  please be at Club Red on November 3 and know that I don't take it personally.  In fact,  without you,  I would have never had the drive to take my game to the level I have.  Please tell me you are in the negative group...All will be forgiven,  and I'd like to personally thank you,  and maybe even start a friendship!

If you're in the positive group,  thanks for being there!  Without people like you,  I wouldn't have the strength I need to confront negativity.  I love you all very much!

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Check it, yo.
Current mood: okay

Yeah,  so a few of you may know that I write music.  It's not very often that I write a vocal track,  but here's something I put together Sunday night.  Once I get everythign finished and mastered,  it'll go up on my artist page.  I call it,  "Understand."

I want you to know that I'm feeling fine
Since I got you off my mind
So don't come around at any time
I really don't need any of your kind
Cause I'm feelin like a bowl of Frosted Flakes
Yeah you know that I'm feelin great
So head on out before it's too late
I moved on what about you old mate?

I'm movin on and you should know
That some things just had to go
So think of other ways that you could show
That you don't understand the meaning of no

Some people bring drama and some bring love
Some people seem perfect as if sent from above
But are you one of those when push comes to shove
Are you a vulture or are you a dove
You've had your chance or did you get the news
That some day I'd finally have to choose
I couldn't sit and wait cause it was time for me to move
Someone else became the winner and you had to lose

Some things in life we don't comprehend
Sometimes we lose and sometimes we win
So when we do come to that page again
I need to know if you're out or in

And repeat chorus twice...

Now all I need is a decent vocalist that gets what I'm doin.  By the way,  this is about nobody in particular.  Or no situation in particular.  Actually,  the lyrics were inspired by the song "IMOK" by Shiloh.  I'd been screwin around with these lyrics for quite some time and finally laid em out on some music.

Maybe I'll become a cheesy pop producer for a while.

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It's my blog, yo. it's my blog, yo. I write here, yo. Just some thoughts, yo.
Current mood: thankful

hey.  I'm bag.  Blogging time again!

1.  Party at Rivendale this saturday.  Hit me up for directions.

2.  Where my Pockys at?

3.  September 1 is the launch of BTU Recordings.  Buy our crap on Audiojelly.com yo.

4.  Life is really good right now.  I'm surrounded by the best group of friends I could possibly have.  Our newest addition is Jen.  I went to High School with her.  Known her for a while.  Great to have her around.  If you don't think she's cool,  then you just don't know what cool is.  Check it, yo.

5.  Love to my homey Jacksin,  defending our freedom in Germany.  Thanks for your sacrifice,  mate.  Nobody ever tells you servicemen and women that enough,  so I'm saying it now.  Thanks Jacksin,  and all you other people currently serving,  or that have served.  thanks for putting all of us ahead of yourselves.  You guys are the TRUE heros.

6.  Speaking of Jacksin,  his Freezer Spoon remix of interstate Traveller will just make you wish you'd never been born!  Look for our first release on BTU,  Interstate Traveller by Fitzpatrick with remix support from Jacksin and myself.

7.  Speaking of coolness,  be on the lookout for big news from BTU on September 1.  Prepare to have your jock rocked.

8.  Soeaking of jocks,  I really wanna play hockey again.  maybe I'll get some new gear.

9.  Speaking of gear,  I'm back on a bike!  Maybe I'll get competitive again.

10.  Like this blog?  Subscribe to it,  yo!

11.  Like btu?  subscribe to our podcast,  yo!  www.btulive.com

12.  Why do I keep getting all these friend requests from porn bots?  oh well.

That's all I got for now...Love to all of you.  Thanks for being my friend

Later days!
Oneel

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Random Emoetry.
Current mood: ecstatic

So I was in an Emo poetry faceoff with Brooks....Here's my entry....

I call it...Drifting into the abyss

As the darkness closes in

And I begin to think

About mans fall from love

My hope begins to sink

Away from light away from hope

Away from all I know

My torture and depression

Slowly begin to show

Happiness is but a myth

Created by some man

Not tormented by inner demons

As I know I am

Melancholy and depression

Wrap thickly around me

While I continue to fall

Into a dreary sea

A loathsome place of anger

Accompanied by strife

A place where love is dead

A place of bourgeois life

As I fall deeper and deeper

Darker into the place

I look into a broken mirror

Noting pain across my face

Is it from what I know

Or what Im to become

Does my life mean anything

In this place without a sun

I sit in the room with my thoughts

Focused on a knife

Do I live this torturous way

Or do I end my life

One way easy another hard

What am I to do

The great beyond becons me

So to you I bid adieu

I am now to move on

Onto another plane

Please do not weep for me

Your world will be the same

You do not really miss me

You wont even know Im gone

Nobody cares if I live or die

My demise should not take long

Now to the light of a single candle

I gently apply the blade

Life departs a journey begins

As this world starts to fade

I am leaving all behind

To go upon this trip

Into the great beyond

I sail upon a ship

A ship of shattered tattered dreams

And loathed mockery

I sail into the great unknown

On the blood red sea

I am gone now so its done

My existence is erased

Will you ever remember me

Or even recall my face?

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Weekend wrapup

Wow!  What a weekend.  It felt good to be back on the shenanigans bandwagon after a week off.  Here's a short recap of what went on....

Jackyl & Hyde...Club Red,  Birmingham,  AL...Friday,  July 14
After assembling the troops at Rivendale,  Fitzpatrick,  Brooks and I boarded the ECho and headed off for Southside.  Upon parking and discovering that Harmony Network's van had been tagged (with the subsequent call to inform Karen.),  we walked down to the club. 

First off,  nice job Club Red!  I know the DJ booth was moved over in front of VIP simply because Jackyl & Hyde had a Live PA setup,  but having the booth over there really created a nice atmosphere.  I didn't hear one set the entire night that I didn't enjoy.  Especially big love to Josh P and Lee J,  because that was some of the best House I've heard in a while (Excluding Shiloh at Cornerstone)  DJ Swamp....Crazy stuff!  Did a bit of stagediving.  Played such hits as "Smoke On The Water" and "Inna Gadda Navida" using needle drops.  Jackyl & Hyde are always amazing.  They truely are pioneers of the Live PA.  Hyde uses a vocoder to do all sorts of crazy vocals during the set.  Then Dieselboy came on,  and did a great job.  Looked to me like everyone had a good time.  Here's just a couple of pics...

The crew!  L to R,  mikey,  Rachel,  Me,  Brooks

Me with a couple of longtime friends,  Tara and Brittney

Jackyl & Hyde at work

BTU @ Rivendale......Birmingham,  AL  July 15
Another episode in the BTU Weekends Live at Rivendale series.  We had barely recouped from the night before it was time to do it all over again.  Powered by Brooks' hot dogs,  we managed to gather enough energy to go again.  I have to say that the music at this BTU party was probably the BEST EVER!!!  OMG!!  Corey Harris started out and kicked 100% ass.  Then Fitzpatrick and I did a tag set that was cool.  Zion's gate came on next and continued the kicking with some serious psytrance.  Matt Phillips closed out the official party lineup by banging out some killer house.  Looked like the night went over pretty well.  We were pleased with the turnout.  Look for the next Rivendsale party next month.  As for now,  here's a few pics from that night.   Of course,  there are more in the forums at www.btulive.com

Fitzpatrick & I during our set

People on the deck

Zion's Gate aka Adam Sean

Matt Phillips

BTW...Make sure to head over to www.tastyfresh.com and check out my latest article in my Business of Dance Music series.

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West Coast Rocks!
Current mood: chipper

Hey everyone!  I know it's unusual for me to be posting so many blogs so close together,  but I really need to do this more often.  Here we go!

1.  Please,  subscribe to my blog so I can keep you all updated a bit better on what's going on.  I'm making an honest attempt to keep in better touch with people.  My scatterbrainedness can be an impairment at times though.

2.  So I'm going to the Jackyl & Hyde show at Club Red tonight.  Should be good stuff.  Dieselboy is also playing,  but I really don't care to see him.  I'm kinda intersted to see DJ Swamp though.

3.  Why do I end so many sentences with the word "Though"?

4.  Kev's crazy electronic rave website of the week:  www.shilohmusic.ca

5.  BTU's live show is shaping up quite nicely.  Hopefully we can pull funding together and have it rolling by sometime in 1st quarter 2007.

6.  Look for us real soon on your friendly mp3 distribution sites like Beatport,  Trackitdown,  etc..

7.  Party at Rivendale this saturday...Email for directions!

8.  New pics from the Great Festival Adventure are up in my pics section.  Check 'em out,  hosers!

9.  Episode 10 of "Guide To The Weekend" is recorded.  Should be up in a day or so.

10.  All you west coast types...Specifically anyone around Sacremento,  Vegas,  San Francisco,  and Vancouver/Seattle...We're looking for some BTU bookings in those areas at STEEPLY discounted rates.  Feed me some leads!

11.  Please click on those ads at hte bottom of this blog.  Your clicks help keep BTU going...No trackers,  nothing to sign up for...Just please click on each one of 'em.

12  have a great weekend!

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Festival Week In Review

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