Shafted again....

As everyone knows Mother's Day is a day to give thanks, love and much appreciation for the woman who gave birth to you and to the women who didnt give birth to you but are still a mother to someone none the less. Now please stop me if I start to bitch and please correct me if i'm wrong, but a first Mother's Day is suppose to be the most special Mother's Day of all because simply its the first. Weather you're a mother to 1 or to 10 every mother atleast deserves a card to let them know how special they are and how much they are loved.

I'm not trying to complain in the least bit but maybe I just feel that I need to say something about this just to make myself feel better even if I'm pretty much writing to myself (because I know how many people REALLY read my blogs). I guess I feel kinda shafted by Mother's Day because I got absolutly SQUAT out of it. And no, I could care less if I got a gift or not, but it really is the thought that counts when it comes to things like this.

I'm a single mom who works in a very busy flower shop for an absolute wretch of a boss, makeing barely over minimum wage and barely makeing ends meet. Not only did I not get any kind of dinner, greeting card, or well wishings, but  never got a single thank you. I didn't get a single thank you for being the mother of someones child but I didn't even get a thank you for all the hard work and effort I put into everything that I do and for even doing all that I do. For being a single mom I've done pretty damn well for myself and my daughter and all with out having someone there to really help me. I think the least i deserved if not a Happy Mother's Day is a freakin thanks.

I'm not the kind of person to crab about not getting anything on my birthday or on Christmas, but seeing as this is my first Mother's Day, damn am I hurt hurt about it. And I don't wanna hear it now after I've said something about it the "thank yous" or anything else because if you really ment it you would have said it Sunday.

Thanks for nothing...

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the truth
Category: Life

WHY GIRLS CRY

This is true...

Girls Cry Because.....

They fell in love with the wrong person

They're Mad

They're Sad

They're Scared

They're Nervous

They're Frustrated

They're Missing someone

They're Alone

They're PMSing

They're wanting someone to understand

They're tired of abusive relationships

Their Heart Is broken

They're in love

Their souls have been torn

They met someone they cant have

They feel cheated

They hurt so bad inside

They feel unloved


BOYS!!!: If any girl you know is crying, and you see them, don't just stand there like an ass and say you're sorry, hold them, kiss them, and tell them everything will be ok, even if you have no idea what is wrong with them. Girls go through more drama than you can imagine! Girls just want to be held and know that someone cares about them.


Girls: Repost this if you're tired of dealing with the drama, and you're sick of putting up with the bs

Boys: Repost if you're a loving, caring, sensitive guy, who hates to see a girl hurt like this and you hate to see a girl cry!

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First Reaction

Type what comes to your mind first when you hear these 34 words. Don't think and don't go back to change. Doesn't matter how random, just type it! Repost it for all of your friends...

1. Cigarettes: sexy

2. Sex: in a bed

3. Relationships: sucks

4. Your Last Ex: what an ass hole

5. Power Rangers: the red one, and kool-aid

7. Crack: fuckin crack man..

8. Food: makes you fat

9. The President: bill clinton

10. War: civil war, the middle east

11. Cars: what a stupid movie

12. Gas Prices: dunon, don't drive

13. Halloween: black n orange pumpkins

14. Bon Jovi: "it's my life..."

15. Religion: catholicism

16. MySpace: worste idea ever, nothing but trouble

17. Worst fear: being alone cuz i got left high n dry...

18. Marriage: i only fuckin wish...

19. Paris Hilton: that's hot

20. Brunettes: whatever

21. Redheads: fuck those dirty fuckin sluts

22: Politics: could do with out

23: Pass the time: computer games

24. One night stands: only for skanks (ew, totally not for me)

25: Cell Phone: wish i had a better one

26: Pet Peeves: fucking worthless assholes

27: Pixie Stix: are to be snorted in the back of the bus on a band trip among the bass/tenor section. hehehe!!!

28: Vanilla Ice cream: how plain...

29: Porta Potties: i chose the one in the middle that's backed up to the fence, ALWAYS

30: High school: phs, what a waste

31. Pajamas: the kind with feet in them

32. Wood: split fire wood

33. Wet Socks: ugh, how annoying

34. Pictures: don't lie. they also have a thousand words, and then some..........

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Then & Now

-How old were you?
15

-Where did you go to school?
McLaughlin Middle School

-Where did you work?
No where

-Where did you live?
with my mom and dad

-Where did you hang out?
Jack in the box and the band hall

-How was your hair style?
long straight and blond

-Did you wear glases?
I was supposed to

-Who was your best friend?
Brandi Cook

-Who was your regular-person crush?
Aaron Hart

-How many tattoos did you have?
0

-How many piercings did you have?
2

-What did u drive?
nothing

-What was your worst fear?
Didn't have any

-did you smoke a cigarette yet?
a couple times, but i was dumb and didn't know how too. :p

-Had you been arrested???
no

-Had your heart broken?
Yes

**HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!**
September 2006

-How old are you?
almost 20

-Where do you work?
no where

-Where do you hang out?
my house and john's house (i don't go out)

-Do you wear glasses?
suppose to

-What is your hairstyle?
Long straight and layered

-Who are your best friends?
LB, Kristin, Brandi, Katie, n Ferny (blessed i'm sure)

-Still talk to any of your old friends?
no, they're all gone

-Who is your current interest?
my baby's daddy :)

-How many piercings do you have?
12 (had 13)

-How many tattoos?
3

-What kind of car do you have?
none

-What is your biggest fear?
to be left high and dry with my baby n no help.

-Have you been arrested since, if so, how many times?
0

-Have you smoked a cigarette?
almost every day

-Has your heart been broken?
yes, too often

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frustrations
Current mood: drained
Category: Life

you know, there are times when i just need to vent, and this most deffinatly is one of them.

everyone has frustrations in thier lives wether they be big or small. for the most part i'm able to work through my frustraions with ease in an sensable manor, but recently that hasn't been the case AT ALL. it's like my most major frustrations have an un-obtainable solution. like, i need one thing to get the other but i dont have that, and i need one to have the other, but unfortunatly, i have nether. so one frustration turns into another and i end up just goin crazy about the whole fuckin situation and makeing myself sick. horrible, i know.

i'm the type of person that's very AGAINST conformity (unless it comes to marching band but that's a whole nother sory for a whole nother day) but there has been so many times when i wish everyone could have the same balance of emotions and views on things so that we can all understand each other for freakin once and stop all the bickering and have peace, FOR ONCE! i mean, i know it's good to have a difference in opinion, dont get me wrong by any means, but when it comes to certain things, like the common sence kind of morals and ethics (e.i. don't steal, lie, or break promises/comitments, ESPECIALLY to those who you love and care for and those who love and care for you, and honesty should be one of those policies that you at least TRY to stick to), those are the things that i wish everyone could just be on the same damn page about. (i know that i might be a bit hipicritical when i say that because i know that i've gone aginst a couple of those, but know what i'm getting at right??) then we would have a lot less problems. i mean, think about it: if no one stole, lied, cheated, or broke any kind of promise or comitment made, then there would be a hell of a lot less crime for one, but there would also be alot less heartbreak too. all the dumb rednecks wouldn't get married when they shouldn't have, preventing them from going on divorce court and makeing themselves look like even bigger dumb asses, the world would be more on time (like FedEx???) and less bussinesses would be lost or have any kind of problems.

but getting back to the point here. my most recent and major frustraition is about understanding and haveing things made clear. i'm in a situation currently where i feel as though i'm not being understood in my thoughts and opinions and views of how things are and i feel as though i'm not being made clear enough (although it seams as if i should be for as hard as i'm trying). and in the other hand i don't understand the things that i need and want to understand, so nothing is clear to me or makes any kind of sence at all. its almost like when you put the quarter into the machine at k-mart and get either an empty egg back or just nothing at all and then your at a loss for what happened. (bad analogy maybe, but i'm not gonna make anymore cuz i'm not really good at those things in the first place.)

anyways, i guess what i'm trying to say is that this is the most frustrating frustration battle that i've had to fight in a long time and it's by far been one of the longest, and now it's finally starting to make me crack up. for the longest time i've had strings apon strings of different kinds of problems in the same places with the same people and i couldn't ever place my finger on what the deal was with WHY those things kept happening untill recently.

i have found 1, ONE, person that gets me and gets how i feel with my frustrations and finally gave me some insite to help me better put my fat lil digit on what the problem was with these people (or better yet the problem between these people and myself). and what it all boils down to is a form of a lack of comunication and a lack of common cares/opinions: i dont understand them because to me their ways of thinking and ideas seam pretty perposturous for the situation at hand and their wants and needs seam so much different than what i expected them to be, so there for my brain gets busy thinking about my views and opinions and my wants and needs and tunes them out, making it hard for things to be clear to me as to why they have these thoughts, opinions, wants and needs, and vis versa. not my any means am i trying to make the situation about me, but i can't help but sit there and compare and contrast the ideas etc. in my head just simply because they're so different to me and i kinda need a moment to chew it over (guess i shoulda grabbed a Twix huh?). unfortunatly all that thinking while conversing fucks me over and prolongs my arival to the end of the whole freakin ordeal.

and i know that whole thing about the word assume, "it makes an ASS out of U and ME". well, i hate to say it, but everyone assumes at some point or another wether its in a harmless way or not, and yea maybe i am assuming by saying that what i've come to the conclusion of is the same vis versa, but i guess it makes sence to me and thats why i'm saying it.

so to bring this blab to and end, i guess i should just say that now i'm starting to see that the only way i see possible for my frustraion to ever end with these people is if there is a TREMENDOUS amount of patience on both sides, more willingness to be more open minded to others and to try and reach more comprimises for the solutions to the situations that arise and are at hand.

if that could happen, holy shit... my hair would prolly stop falling out and i could prolly eat and sleep again.

till next random rant,

~*Ali*~

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my conffesion

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 60%

Gluttony: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Envy: 0%

Greed: 0%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die with your hand down your underwear, watching Star Trek.

yeesh, i can't help it if i'm tired hungry and angry, i'm pregnant, what can i say?? atleast i'm not a greedy conceided hoe.

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scars
Current mood: rejected

i know that alot of you may have already heard this story before, but it's just a reminder as well as my appolgie to those that this aplies to (some of you know who you are).

*Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence. (Most importantly the last sentence.)

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. " A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one. Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us."


Please forgive me if I have ever left a hole.

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Death Card

You Are Death

http://images.blogthings.com/whattarotcardareyouquiz/death.jpg" height="100" width="100"> You symbolize the end, which can be frightening. But you also symbolize the immortality of the soul. You represent transformation, rebirth of a new life. Sweeping away the past is part of this card, as painful as it may be. Your fortune: Don't worry, this card does not predict death itself. Instead it foreshadows the ending of an era of your life, one that is hard to let go of. But with the future great new things will come, and it's time to embrace them. Mourn for a while, but then face the future with humility and courage.

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rubiks cube blindfolded

crazy kids these days..

http://www.compfused.com/directlink/1137/

*courtesy of comfused.com and nayfam (thanx!)

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