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Friday, April 06, 2007

I got a review...

http://www.poeticdiversity.org/main/columns.php?recordID=1108&date=2007-04-01

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Saturday, December 23, 2006

SAUPG

In 1977, long before most of you were a gleam in your parents eyes, (he wrote, sounding very like the grandfather he will become in the next few days!) I was living in a tract home in Van Nuys, studying music at Cal State Northridge, and living with  some other music-obsessed kids. Among those residing in our little not-yet-punk-rock enclave were my sister Kira, my best friend Glenn Brown and a mad drummer named Mark Levine.
Like so many of you out there, we soundproofed the garage, filled it with instruments and spent countless hours learning, playing, dreaming and laughing hysterically. At some point we collected random samplings of the seemingly endless recordings we made onto compilation cassettes and called them SAUPG...Sheer And Unpretentious Genius. There wound up being 13 volumes before we split and went our inevitably separate ways.
Flash forward 26 years. I receive a friend request from a mysterious person named GB who uses for his default myspace picture an angry looking red-headed child. It gradually dawns on me that it is my dearest friend Glenn, who I have lost track of for decades. My heart melts. This is the incredible magic of myspace, which sometimes seems to tie life into beautifully wrapped Christmas bows.
In an exercise in unapologetic nostalgia, Glenn, Kira and I have created myspace sites for the 13 SAUPG tapes. In it are revealed moments of naive brilliance, amateurishness, the learning curve revealed. Grappling with instruments, recording equipment and the new aesthetic.
Mainly, it is about our sweet friendship and love...


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Thursday, December 14, 2006

Touching History...

I few days ago, I held in my hands the MASTER TAPES for "Never Mind the Bollocks, Here's the Sex Pistols." Dated 10/22/77.
Gave me chills...

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Monday, July 10, 2006

My Book is out...

I never thought I'd say that. I'm proud of it though, and thrilled that Pablo over at Brass Tacks decided to put it out!
I guess if you guys want to buy one, send me a message and I'll hook you up.
Everyday is completely different.
It's pretty cool.

Oh yeah, here's an article that just came out...

Keyboardist Roessler turns to poetry to deal with dark period in his life



Being a skilled keyboardist in the center of a rock 'n' roll reawakening with plenty of raw, unbridled rebellious energy and creativity but very few fluent musicians places you in great demand, Paul Roessler found out as L.A.'s punk scene exploded in the late 1970s.

He was an essential part of early Los Angeles punk favorites The Screamers, played with goth punk innovators 45 Grave, and was sought out by eccentric German pop diva Nina Hagen to record on the CBS Records release Nunsexmonkrock, the first record that Hagen sang in English.

Later, Roessler added musical production to his areas of expertise as he began working with punk/alternative producer Geza X at his Satellite Park studio retreat, which overlooks the canyons in Malibu.

Now Roessler has turned to poetry, and plans to debut a work he wrote over a period of six months focused on what he describes as some of the darkest and most dismal days of the eight years of his life that he was a drug addict. The poetic work is titled Eight Years and will be released as a chapbook by Brass Tax Press.


Roessler is scheduled to do a reading at 7:30 p.m. Saturday, July 8th, at Beyond Baroque, 681 Venice Blvd., Venice. Roessler will share the bill with fellow punk scene favorite Keith Morris and his most recent project, Midget Handjob, a group whose chaotic whirlwind of sound might best be likened to the sonic result of jazz punk and spoken word poetry being run through a garbage disposal. Suggested donation is $7 for general admission and $5 for students.

It might have been a cliche story, had Roessler become a drug casualty of the early Los Angeles punk scene days like so many of his contemporaries in the 1970s and 1980s.

But it wasn't until he was in his 30s in the 1990s that his life became overrun by addiction to methamphetamines, he says. It took him about eight years before he finally shook the habit in 2002.

And it wasn't until this past year that he was inspired enough to write about his experiences.

For a six-month stretch, Roessler went to work in areas of Mississippi devastated by Hurricane Katrina. He was working with a consulting company that photographed the destruction caused by the natural disaster.

"I saw real suffering," says Roessler. "I saw people pulling out bodies and true destruction."

It was just this destruction that he says most likely caused him to go back and revisit a dark period of destructiveness in his own life through poetry. He worked on the writings throughout his stay in Mississippi, having no background in poetry except for the lyrics of songs he had written.

"Poems just started coming out," says Roessler. "Well, I don't like to call them poems out of respect for the genre. I don't study poetry, and I don't read poetry."

But somehow a 24-part poetic work resulted dealing with drug addiction, family and his experiences in music.

Roessler got married around the time he joined the Nina Hagen Band in the early 1980s, and within a few years had two children. With his family, he has maintained some stability in what is often the solidly unstable life of a punk rock musician.

"Some people put the music and writing and creativity above everything, where family and children play second fiddle, but I've never been able to do that," says Roessler. "Some are willing to go all the way and commit to art above living."

Roessler has somehow managed to maintain both, even when performing with groups considered at the fringe of pop eccentricity.

In the late 1990s, after about a 15-year hiatus, Roessler was asked to rejoin as keyboardist for Nina Hagen, who still enjoys a successful touring career and pop stardom in her native Germany, while she maintains cult status in the United States.

"Nina Hagen was able to really connect culturally in Germany, even though she's pretty out there by their standards as well. In the United States, however, she's just one step too far removed from American pop culture."

The influential punk bands Roessler started out with also proved too far removed for mainstream American culture, although their influence reverberated through less substantive "pop-punk" groups in the late 1990s.

It was perhaps his theory on music which helped develop the two-way street of attraction between Roessler and more eccentric pop/rock artists.

"When I play keyboards on a song, it's my goal to achieve what I call emotional violence," says Roessler. "Meaning, if the song is sad, I want to make my part sound so intensely sad. If the song is angry, I want my part to sound so intensely angry."

Bands that Roessler worked with (including the Dead Kennedys) often had a strong political, social or artistic message in their works. But still Roessler says he's skeptical that music is truly an effective tool to bring about meaningful social change.

"It's very rarely that a song touches people so deeply that the message is woven into people's daily reality," Roessler says. "However, it can affect people's hearts. It can get people angry and worked up."

"There are pop bands today like Green Day or Neil Young that are saying something relevant. But they are wealthy and perhaps disconnected from the people they want to change. Truly, people change by example. When Gandhi wanted to change India, he wore homespun robes and nearly starved himself to death for his cause. People change through the examples that they see."

But Roessler sees a lack of positive examples among today's mainstream American society.

"Right now we have a fascist government that's creating bombs that can be controlled with a joystick," he says. "It's us, it's our culture that chooses to live that way."

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Burnt Church The Opera Screenplay (5)

EXT DAY SKYCRAPER GLASS ELEVATOR: Angelic Bernard sits like a bundle of tattered white rags atop the elevator as it crawls down the side of the skyscraper. Inside is Bernard, arms outstretched, hanging inside the elevator which is filled with a piss colored liquid and festooned with sea anenomes.

 

Angelic Bernard sings sadly down to him:

 

 

 

Now that you've seen it how are you feeling baby?

 

No way to cheat it now that you know

 

 

 

INT GLASS ELEVATOR: His torso is opened by the robotic arms, his heart removed, and hung above his head. The arms work with blinding speed, severing his toungue, shaving his body, basically reconstructing every part of him, internally and externally. The elevator descends faster and faster.

 

 

 

Now you have real eyes

 

Now that you've realized

 

Now that you...

 

 

 

 

 

EXT DAY SKY: Angelic Bernard launches himself from the falling elevator and soars into the sky. He is absolutely free, lifted by wind currents, gliding effortlessly, like a fall leaf released by a tree. The city recedes farther and farther below him as he reaches for the sun.

 

 

 

The sun came out today and everything was alright

 

I didn't want it that way cause I was taught how to fight

 

For everything worthwhile for every

 

But I was growing tired thought the inside had already died

 

 

 

Reality flickers and Bernard is stumbling down a beach with his hands reaching out for he knows not what. It flickers again as the angel draws almost close enough to put his hands on the sun.

 

 

 

The sun came out today and everything was alright

 

I held my head in my hands and I began to cry

 

It's allright, It's allright dry your eyes don't want to cry no more

 

In this life

 

The voice came from behind

 

Was I going out of my mind?

 

 

 

It flickers again, and Bernard, stumbling through the waves, puts his hands on the sides of Sophia'a face. They embrace again on the beach. It flickers again and the angel grasps the sun and whites out. We hear a voice:

 

 

 

Scene Eighteen: I Can Intro/Macro tabletop

 

 

 

        Roy Jones Jr.:God does not make mistakes

 

 

 

The white screen turns into a close up of a dollar bill. We pan lovingly across it.

 

 

 

        Desmond Tutu:How can you say you love God, whom you have not seen; and hate your brother who you have?

 

 

 

The camera continues to pan and leaves the dollar bill, discovering a handgun, an old black and white photograph of two black kids dressed for school, a plastic dinosoar, an ashtray overflowing with cigarettes.

 

 

 

        John Lennon:We're willing to be the world's clowns, because we think it's a bit serious at the moment...

 

 

 

        Scene Nineteen/ Doowoppers in Alley

 

 

 

EXT LATE AFTERNOON ALLEY:Bernard is hanging out with a black doo wop group, dressed very 50's, snapping fingers and moving to the music. Bernard is center screen, throwing a pair of dice, which come up seven every time. One by one, musicians enter the view: a piano player, a sax, more and more street characters saying "hey,hey"

 

 

 

I Can

 

 

 

Gonna do it I'm really gonna do it Hey Hey

 

 

 

MONTAGE: An enormouse outdoor Hindu celebration, a kalaidacope of flowers and dancing Hare Krishnas is intercut with archival footage of the world readying for war: missiles launching from the backs of trucks and battleships, miles of barbed wire and dug in soldiers, soldiers patroling urban streets heavily armed, riot footage, LA, Watts, the South, policemen sicking dogs and beating with batons,

 

 

 

Cause I can

 

I've been through it all

 

Lonliness and war

 

Cause I can

 

Now I'm finally free of all that I believe

 

Cause I can

 

I've got real eyes, I opened up my eyes

 

Yeah!

 

 

 

 

 

        Ghandi:There is an indefinable, mysterious power that pervades everything...

 

 

 

The End of the World

 

 

 

A collage of every face you've ever seen...paintings, photos

 

 

 

Couldn't see what my life would be without you

 

Couldn't live anymore if I pushed you away

 

And all the reasons I gave to myself to doubt you

 

If I was given just one last day

 

I know I'd find all the reasons to stay

 

 

 

I wouldn't care if it was right or wrong

 

Wouldn't have time for that

 

Wasting time taking back the words I use

 

To hurt you

 

Wouldn't care how much money we had

 

even time spent apart I'm glad

 

To have known and have missed you

 

 

 

Oh what a gift to have laughed and cried with you

 

Celebrate life for today, yeah that's all we have

 

Wouldn't have any time to regret what I'm missing

 

All that really would matter to me

 

Show my love and I'd make you feel it

 

 

 

My darkness would shine so I could see

 

Through oceans of human emotion

 

I've traveled to find you

 

The most curious times are in each other's arms

 

That the wonder of what we've found

 

I'll be loving you till the end of the world

 

A lasting kiss on your velvet face

 

Chasing the sun away

 

I'll be loving you till the end of the world

 

The stars that reveal our final breath

 

There where the silence falls

 

I'll be loving you till the end of the world

 

 

 

I surrender

 

Victory

 

Thank you

 

Love

A bird flies over water.

 

 

 

ABOUT THE SCREENPLAY

 

 

 

This is a visual interpretation of Burnt Church: The Opera. The visuals coincide on a second to second basis with the music. For maximum impact, it is suggested to read the text while the music plays.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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BurntChurch The Opera Screenplay (4)

 

EXT DAY: CITY STREET: Bernard's hair and beard have grown out to manes befitting a Moses, and they have turned nearly white. His singed, filthy rags are so voluminnously tattered that they appear to trail like tattered wings behind him. He resembles a bleached dead crow or seagull, but his mad, bleeding eyes are alight with intelligence. He sings from his back, broken and unable to rise. The camera pans slowly back. Bernard is lying on a city street. Well dressed men and women studiously ignore him as they pass.

 

 

 

 

 

Bernard:The things that I saw they burned out my eyes

 

I lost the will to live and the strength to die

 

 

 

EXT DAY BY LAKE: Bernard and a beautiful woman, clothed in flowing white tattered robes which trail behind them like wings, slowly turns their heads to gaze out over the lake. Floating close to shore is an angel, dead, like a seagull trapped in an oil spill.

 

 

 

So many gone

 

 

 

EXT DAY BRILLIANT GREEN HILL: Bernard,in his pre-fall angelic state, kneels, head down before a white cross marking a grave

 

 

 

 the brave and the pure

 

I think that we won I never was sure

 

 

 

EXT DAY:HELICOPTER OVER JUNGLE: In slow motion we watch over the shoulders of paratroopers, as they leap out over the vietnamese jungle. But the view flickers and we are simultaneously watching angels hurl themselves into the sun

 

 

 

Now castaway here with a shipwrecked head after we

 

Slaughtered our enemies strangers and friends

 

 

 

ARCHIVAL FOOTAGE: Nazis goosestep to music, snapping their heads in time as they pass Hitler. Dirty, warlike, determined looking angels, fly from a crack in a ruined mountain.

 

 

 

We died at our own hands mended our wounds

 

Buried ourselves in deep ancient sacred tombs

 

 

 

EXT SPACE: STARRY BACKDROP: A large group of angels have somehow manuevered a moon to fall crashing down upon a planet. One of them turns abruptly to the camera. It is Bernard, side by side with the beautiful one, singing madly:

 

 

 

Bernard:I guess I oughta know the closest thing to pure evil you ever touched

 

Was yourself and no one else and you liked it

 

You liked it so much...

 

 

 

The moon destroys the planet in slow motion, but reality flickers and we see archival shots of Hiroshima, Nagasaki, Cherynoble

 

 

 

EXT NIGHT:THE CITY STREETS OF EARTH: Bernard is again the filthy fallen angel, urine stained and mad, he furiously walks along a street singing to himself like a schizophrenic, then slouches angrily against a wall and sits down. Well dressed legs pass in front of him.

 

 

 

The streets of this planet they choke me like ghouls

 

I wake up drowning in stinking fetid pools

 

Left sad behind stranded but a detour for the well dressed unconscious fools

 

 

 

 

 

The camera draws back as he continues to sing madly to himself. He is dying, alone. The world begins to spin. But unbeknownst to him he is being sorrowfully observed by the human version of the beautiful angel

 

So many gone the brave and the True

 

I think that we won now I don't know about you

 

Now castaway here with a shipwrecked head after we

 

Slaughtered our enemies strangers and friends

 

 

 

Death descends on Bernard. A giant shadowy figure stands above him, as the life ebbs from him. Reality flickers and he is on an alien battlefield. In the background, angels slaughter each other and are devoured by vermin. Reality flickers and he is dying in a vietnamese jungle. Reality flickers and he is overdosing in the crashpad. He is back in the alley. An ambulance has appeared and paramedics are hurredly trying to save his life. All the while he is observed by the beautiful guardian angel. As the ambulance pulls away, flashers and siren blaring, we cut to

 

 

 

INT AMBULANCE: Closeup on Bernard's ruined face. We hear his thoughts:

 

 

 

Bernard:I think probably sexual obsession. I would think that I did the alcohol and drugs because I was obsessed with sex.

 

 

 

The angel is sitting over Bernard and touches his brow.

 

 

 

        Scene Fifteen: Hospital Emergency Room

 

 

 

INT DAY HOSPITAL EMERGENCY ROOM:

 

 

 

Bernard lies forgotten on a gurney off to the side of a chaotic emergency room. His angel hovers by the ceiling.He is attached to life support. A ghostly frontier preacher appears by his bedside, looks down and speaks.

 

 

 

        Burroughs:Narcotics have been systematically scapegoated and demonized. As a matter of fact, I'm feeling a bit sick right now...

 

 

 

He leans over and asks Bernard kindly...

 

 

 

        Burroughs:Are you holding?

 

 

 

The camera swings around till it is looking down on Bernards ruined face. It begins to recede, higher and higher. The heartbeat monitor indicates that Bernard has died. But before the camera leaves the room, we hover at ceiling level with the two angels, the beautiful white female angel, and the hideous black crow William Burroughs angel...Beauty touches the beast and he begins to shrink and shrivel. Just before he disappears we hear:

 

 

 

        Burroughs:God bless you my son, may you go to heaven.

 

 

 

 

 

Scene Fifteen: Entitled/Cape Hatteras

 

 

 

EXT LATE AFTERNOON BEACH: Bernard sits, slumped in a canvas lounge chair, amidst the dunes of an overcast beach. He wears sunglasses and shorts. Summer is over, and the tourists have deserted this particular vacation spot. The beach is wide and empty.

 

 

 

The camera angle moves and we see some weathered vacation houses in the background. We notice that Bernard is surrounded by a few items; a pack of cigarettes, an unread book, a bottle of water, a folded towel. He has shaved and cut his hair. He looks like a man who has barely survived a terrible ordeal. In the background we see Sophia, the angel, the girl in the bar, the dancer from the swamp, exiting one of the houses.

 

 

 

 

 

Entitled

 

 

 

Summer's come and gone

 

Broke down and tired

 

True blue I was lost in a dream

 

 

 

Sophia approaches across the sand, kneels next to Bernard and takes his hand. We can almost make out sand people, slowly undulating beneath them.

 

 

 

Knew a simple song

 

Been gone too long to want it

 

If I could believe

 

 

 

CLOSE UP: BERNARD FLOATING:Bernard sings up at us floating on his back. The camera pulls back slowly till we realize that he is floating on his back in the middle of a threatening ocean, with no land in sight.

 

Alone

 

With nothing else around

 

I know that I could belong with noone

 

With everyone

 

Entitled to Love

 

 

 

EXT DAY BEACH: Bernards eyes open. He is lying on his back on the lounge chair, but the sun has come out and he squints painfully. Sophia bends over him. She has woken him up to bring him an icy drink. He struggles to an upright position and takes the drink, lighting a cigarette.

 

 

 

Sun is burnin' on

 

World is turnin' round

 

Your smile I would like to believe

 

 

 

They stand and walk down the beach. They turn to each other and it is as if Bernard has seen her for the first time. A large wave rushes up the sand and engulfs them and they hold on to each other, ignoring it, clinging.

 

My happiness

 

Lost it with my brokenhearted

 

If I could believe

 

 

 

 

 

EXT NIGHT DUNES: They make love under an impossibly starry sky, the dunes flicker in and out of existance and they are water, they are clusters of stars, they are naked humans under the great umbrella of inky heaven. Finally they hold each other and watch the moon rise.

 

 

 

Alone

 

With nothing else around

 

I know that I could belong with noone

 

With everyone

 

Entitled to Love

 

 

 

 

 

EXT DAWN DUNES; Bernard opens his eyes. He is alone and it is dawn. Thunder cracks, and he stands up and begins to walk resolutely towards the camera down the beach. The scene shifts and he is walking down a country road, down a runway as a jet takes off behind him, down the middle of a crowded city street, through huge industrial steel mills and docks, fields of wheat, enormous junkyards, down hallways of office buildings, down railroad tracks, mineshafts, through deserts, jungles, ice fields, mountainsides. He follows telephone poles across absolutely empty landscapes. He walks into, and out of sunrises and sunsets. Finally, he falls to his knees before us and sings:

 

 

 

You can't turn my love around me

 

When I believe it

 

 

 

Behind him the sun rises again and again. Flowers grow from the dry packed earth. We pan around behind his head and he is kneeling before Sophia. The moon rises behind her again and again.

 

 

 

Scene Sixteen: Entitled Tag/ Forest Stream and Waterfall

 

 

 

EXT DAY SHADY STREAM: Bernard opens his eyes. He gazes up and sees leafy branches passing slowly over head. We hear water. He is lying in the bottom of an old battered canoe. An ancient man is paddling gently. He is dressed partially in the style of the aborigenal americans. We watch the canoe from the shore gliding peacefully. Naked childeren play by the side of the stream and gaze shyly as it passes. The paddler glances down and says:

 

 

 

        Faulkner: The basis for all things is to be afraid.

 

 

 

The sound of water begins to sound disturbingly like the roar of falls.