Yay or Nay...
Current mood: surprised

How can Something that Started So Good End So Bad!
Current mood: depressed

well for those who know me know that i am the type of person to bottle up all my feelings and problems, cuz i was taught that letting people see that side of you is being weak. well as 2008 started it seemed to be the best year yet, not only bringing in the new year but also being a fun ass b-day  well i did not know that would have been my last happy time to date.

the month of january brought some really really hard times! first was the unexpected suicide of my closes friend, he was my closest closest love, we had made a pact and everything that by a certain age if we were still alone, we would marry and live together foreva  when i got the call telling me he was gone, i thought it was the worst joke ever, but then when it sunk in i realized he is gone, and to this date none of us know why, there was no letter, nothing to give us a hint on why he would do that.

as if that wasnt bad enough, here comes another blow. since god knows how long it has always been the gay tripod, Skott, Gilly, & Me  both skott and gilly was roomies at our infamous apartment  so the day gilly found him in the apartment, he was of course broken, and the fact that Skotts Parents blamed both of us for his death and not even allowing us to go to the funeral killed us!! i knew gilly was sad and depressed, hell i was too, and the fact that he had to go back to the apartment everyday after work and just be there alone, i knew it was gunna be hard and not to mention its vegas, its not like you can just go find another apartment right away, anyhow not even more then a week later gilly couldnt handle it, early one morning i got the call from the POPO saying gilly was gone also, i was so devestated, yes again, but yeah ... my Skott & Gilly are gone which sucks but yeah...

NOW for the Worst of IT ALL... way back in august i was partying with my friends from school and after that we all went back to my homie andys place, he had introduced me to his nephew Jerry, all i could think is WOW, he is so cute! so like a day later i asked andy to invite jerry along to a party we all went to, so we talked then ditched everyone to go hang out and party together, i was like this foo is the shit! me likes, lol, i dont know how long after that (i do just not mentioning) we started dating, damn that was a blast!! he has no idea how much fun and exciting it was for me, but among all this heart ache and sadness from my friends about a week after that Jerry & My 7 month relationship was over  out of all the people i lost in the past 2 months which you will be surprised was ALOT!! the thing the hurt and killed me the most was losing him *FO REAL!*

there are some main things i wish i could tell him before he leaves or moves on, but you know me *Mr.Bottle-it-UP* i wont be able to tell him, i think i would but its the fact that would he want to hear it, cuz i really want him to know, but i just dont know when or if it will happen. god i hope so, lol, i guess thats why im all  and taking the break up hard cuz its unfinished, damn i miss him, lol, i tell you since the day we got together we have been together non-stop and to my surprise it was always fun, sure we got in fights, but some was fun and other fights we was over it by the next day.. anyhow im prolly rambling, i just wanna say "I Miss Him"

i guess in the past 2 months of this shitty year all i have is nothing but loss

these are my people to be remembered, i guess this is somewhat my closure to my peepz that are no longer here..

January 2008

Skott - Hung Himself

Gilbert - Cut Wrists

Manny - OD'ed (Heroine)

Vincent - OD'ed (Meth)

Jamisha - Jumped Off Ledge

Hazel - Missing

Gabriel - OD'ed (Heroine)

The 2 Davey's - OD'ed (Heroine)

Christian - OD'ed (Heroine)

February 2008

David - OD'ed (Alcohol)

Peeches - Shot Herself

Maurice - Drowned Himself

Allan - OD'ed (Pills)

Jerry & Me - Broken UP

i know it weird to say that dispite all of that losing jerry was the hardest cuz he is really the only person i ever let in and fell in love with..

Currently listening : As I Am By Alicia Keys Release date: 13 November, 2007

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Something New and Really Cool!
Current mood: bummed

Now thats a Trip & Really Awesome!

Now thats what i call being creative not to mention patient *LoL*

i wonder how long that takes

Not only are the Dresses Awesome, Check Those Out

Well i dont know about you but that looks like fun, even tho i know if i was to try it after one balloon pops I'd Quit *LoL*

Currently listening : Real Emotion By Kumi Koda Release date: 17 March, 2003

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++The Reviews Are In for Britney’s New Album++
Current mood: flirty

It's Good!

..> ..>

1. Gimme More - we've all heard it, so yeah ++++

2. Piece Of Me - *LuVZiT* ++++

3. Radar - My Defanet Fav. on this Album++++

4. Break The Ice - Its a Cool Song+++

5. Heaven On Earth - Luv the Beat, i swear it reminds me of Paris++

6. Get Naked (I Got A Plan) - I *LuVZiT* ++++

7. Freakshow - I think i gotta give this a few more listens*LoL*++

8. Toy Soldier - She gets a*B*tchSlap*for this Song!*ThumbsDown*

9. Hot As Ice - It's not that Bad, But still++

10. Ooh Ooh Baby - HellYeah, take me to the*StripperPole*++++

11. Perfect Lover - Umm .. Nah ++

12. Why Should I Be Sad - I aint a Fan of the slow songs+ On a Serious Note This Album Is Awesome! a defanet BeST! *i do admit i thought it was gunna SUCK, boi was i wrong So now these are her TOP Album must Haves for those people who are not gunna give it a chance, you shouldn't bother commenting on it, you know its true

Currently listening : Blackout By Britney Spears Release date: 30 October, 2007

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That Trojan Horse Virus is a BIATCH!!!!
Current mood: ecstatic

Well for those of you who didn't know

My comp. was recently infected with

That Trojan virus and was slowly eating

Away at my system  not only that it

Caused 3 worms to go crazy on my other

Drivers

Even though I know a lot about computers I

Wasn't trying to risk it especially with school

Starting up ^_^ hell I know a laptop is

Just as important as the $700 dollar books

They make us buy (for those who don't know:

I am not over exaggerating on the price) *LoL*

Well first thing I thought to do was take it

To *Geek Squad* and let me just tell ya

$300 dollars just to get rid of a virus!

I don't Think SO!!! So bump those lil

Bitches with the cool little VW Bugs *LoL*

Luckily my bro is a tech wiz and new what

To do (so sad that I didn't know that )

So after 3 days of no comp. and internet he made everything fine and dandy

God all that time with no myspace I felt like a crack head without a *HiT*

Which I admit is really sad *LoL*

Currently listening : Phantasmagoria By The Damned Release date: 08 November, 1994

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