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Wednesday, February 13, 2008
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A Song for a Friend
Current mood: bummed
Category: Writing and Poetry
Written by John Morelli. Thanks, John.
Its the difference that I've felt alone
Its the change that I've come to own
When I go back It all comes back So much I had to lock away
Its just the difference that's kept me sane
Just the difference that I've thrown away
When I look back I just can't look back You just took so much away ...
I've repressed all the hatred That left me tired and alone I've repressed all the love that Kept me here and made a home
I've held in all the silent screams I've been dying to cry out I've kept in all the dried up tears
That have been slowly running out
YOU CAN KEEP YOUR SANCTUARY YOU CAN BAN ME FROM YOUR LIFE
YOU CAN TRY TO HOLD ME HERE BUT I KNOW THAT I'VE DONE RIGHT...
CAN YOU HEAR ME SHOUT OUT! CAN YOU FEEL MY HEART POUND! CAN'T YOU HEAR HER CRY OUT! LET ME TAKE HER HOME!
CAN YOU FEEL THE SEASON? CAN YOU SEE THE REASON?
CAN YOU STAND TO SEE US HAPPY AND ALONE?
I've repressed all the lies I've told For the truth that I blacked out I've repressed all those good times To forget when I cried out
I'm angry and fallen down In the closure of myself I'm so desperate for love But my fear won't leave the shelf
YOU CAN STAND THERE BOASTING ABOUT HOW I'M SO FAR OFF!
BUT YOU'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND ABOUT EVERYTHING I'VE LOST...
IT'S BEEN THIS SEPARATION THAT I LIVE ON THE DISTANCE IN BETWEEN IT'S BEEN A LIVING HELL WITHOUT YOU BUT I'M GLAD YOU'RE NOT WITH ME!
CAN'T YOU HEAR ME SHOUT OUT! CAN'T YOU FEEL MY HEART POUND! CAN YOU HEAR HER CRY OUT?! AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO CARES?
CAN'T YOU SEE THE REGRESS? CAN'T YOU FEEL THE SECRETS? DOES SHE WANT WHAT SHE GETS?!
OR AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT'S THERE?!
IT BEEN REPRESSION THAT I LIVE ON! FORGETTING WHO YOU ARE! ITS BEEN FORGETTING I'VE LIVED ON! AND HOW I'VE COME SO FAR!
If I could wish for just one thing, To keep her future true... Than I would wish for her to know, She'll NEVER BE LIKE YOU!
CAN'T YOU HEAR HER CALL OUT! CAN'T YOU FEEL HER HEART POUND? CAN'T YOU SEE THE PAIN - THAT SHE IS GOING THROUGH?
CAN'T YOU SEE HER CRY NOW! CAN'T YOU FEEL HER TEARS POUND! CAN'T YOU EVER LET HER SO FAR AWAY FROM YOU?
It would've been like Christmas Or a time I thought I knew Why all of this repression Why I chose to forget you...
But when I see her crying Her sobs on an empty street... I just keep trying So she never feels like me....
It's just all this repression That keeps me so complex All of these emotions Almost a jaded wreck...
I can hear her call out I can feel when she pouts I can see the signs So why can't you?
I can tell when she's sick But I know the clock ticks
So please
Let her - leave - you...
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Monday, November 27, 2006
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I'm always up for trying something new...
Current mood: nauseated
Category: Friends
but never AGAIN will Chris and I chase tequila with chocolate pudding!!!

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Saturday, July 08, 2006
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Camping: Last Chance
Current mood: anxious
Alright Flakey McFlakersons...yeah youuu know who you are!
So you all keep calllin and askin when we're going camping. Do you still want to gooo!?!? I mean it rains pretty much every day, but maybe we can make a game out of it out in the wild. Also people are going out of town and school is startin up soon. So let's make a decision peopl!!
Here's the dealio, we don't go if I don't plan, right? Well I'm planning for next weekend or the weekend after. Let me know what works best for you.
I'd like to go on a Friday and Saturday drive home Sunday. How's that sound? Things to do while we camp? I have no fuckin idea because hiking, fishing, and invading each other's sleeping bags.
Let me know where you think has the best camp sites. If you need help:
http://www.campcolorado.com/
Invited people:
John Morelli - you can bring your climbing gear and teach us!
John Miller - me hungry...you catch foood!! (in other words, your the food bitch! mhahaha!!)
Bobby - you need to come to protect us from encounters with .....?
Christopher - you HAVE to come just because I said so
Aimme and Amy D - you best better come because it was your idea in the first place! :)
Mike H. - You're the entertainment plus you never fuckin stop talkin and that's why we like ya ;)
Abby and Joseppi - umm yeah sure, that's all i have to say!!...hahaha
And anyone else really...but it was really going to be the us only, the more the merrier!
RSVP below and if we don't go, at least I can say I tried.
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Saturday, July 01, 2006
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Mas Agua por favor??
Current mood: happy
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
Hey Chris-to-mo-pher, next time we go out and you drink water...Ima KILL YOU!! haha j/k
So...I was going through my pictures and found that us going out and Chris drinking water was not an isolated incidence (ahem...just cuz you drank the night before, doesn't mean that I'll be ok with you not drinking with me!), but a frequent occurance...
Ohh let's see what I have in my collection, shall we?
Thomas passed out (hahaha!!):

Mike shoving his face in John's nether region:

.....Then we have Chris drinking water:

Me being crazy as usual:

Loc dancing on the bar:

........Chris drinking water:

Let's keep this relationship happy and harmonious by remaining devoted to our extreme and excessive drinking habits, ok?!?
Drunk Julie and Chris = Happy Julie

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Tuesday, June 13, 2006
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A Message to my Friend
Current mood: hopeful
Those of you that know me know that I comfortably disclose information about myself. You're only my friend if you know all of me--the good, the bad, and the ugly. For those of you who remain my friend, thank you. Your friendship is much appreciated--you are the ones that will be there for me unconditionally. For those of you who decided it was too much, that's ok, I am a high-maintenence friend, I am who I am and some people can't take it.
Well...my "friend" has come by difficult times. To me, when I call you to hang out and you say, "I'm going through some shit and I'll call you when I work it through..." That's cool with me, we all have our non-social, semi-depressive states where we just want to be alone.
I'm the type of person that reach out and ask my friends for help. Like I said, I disclose most of my problems to receive insight from different perspectives. I know we all deal with our problems in different manners, but I wish my friend would reach out to me for help.
So friend, its ok if you're not comfortable sharing things with me, but I wanted to let you know that I'm here for you. If you're lack of communication is because you're hesitant to reveal yourself at your most sensitive, nonstable, weakest moment, its ok, we all have those times. You know me, I've talked to you about me...I'm not perfect and neither are you. I just wanted to let you know that if you ever become comfortable to talk to me, my friendship...our friendship exists because we don't judge each other.
Even if you don't want to talk, you know you can always come over and we can take our rage out and blow people up on some xbox game...your choice.
One more thing, friend, I've been thinking about you everyday. Worried. Wondering whats wrong since the last time we talked. Will you let me know when you're better?
Your friend,
Julie
P.S. Friend, I have a tendency to gossip, I'll admit that. But if you ask, like most have, my lips are sealed, and you can count on that.
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Counting Crows
What the freak??? Counting Crows tickets has been available since friggin May and I haven't heard a thing about them being in town!!! Anyways, they're playing at Red Rocks Amphitheater--an amazing venue!! This is where DMB recorded their live CD. Well...I tried to buy tickets last night but they were sold out. Damn Ticketmaster didn't even have the decency to put "sold out" on the website and teased me into thinking I had a chance in purchasing tickets.
So if anyone is selling tickets, become mysteriously ill that week, or suddenly decide that they do not like the Counting Crows...I'll be glad to buy tickets from you. If you bought 2 tickets and need a date, I'll provide great conversation and be an awesome date.
Someone? Anyone??
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Monday, June 12, 2006
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Confused
Current mood: okay
Transition. I hate transition. I remember when I was packing up for college, I was so sure of the decisions I made/was making, I was ready to leave everything behind me and make a new beginning. I didn't even have any second thoughts of what I would be leaving behind, because I was ready to let it all go for something new.
I'm currently in the process of moving, applying to grad school, soon-to-be graduating, and my boyfriend is moving back to the east coast. Everything is changing so suddenly, so soon. I feel like my world is spinning out of my control. Everything I feel now is the exact opposite. Am I making the right decisions? The what if's plague my mind day in and day out, I can't sleep.
I know that I can be indecisive sometimes and I dwell on things too much, but how can you make decisions and never think back of what could have been? I know that throughout my life I'll be continually making these decisions and I'll have to stick to my decisions.
The "what ifs"....does it not bother anyone else?
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
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Down in the Dumps...for now
Current mood: crushed
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
I got this letter in the mail yesterday saying that I'll be no longer receiving financial aid anymore. I didn't really understand why so I decided to trek up to the financial aid office for a q & a session. They said that I've gone over my damn limit and I'm not even fuckin finished with my degree. Baahhh them. I can honestly say that if we hadn't received 100 full tuition, I would have never gone to college.
I'm nearly done and its so close I can taste my success to finally graduate and start applying for medschool. I felt a sense of accomplishment and acheivement to actually be one of many people actually applying to medschool...but nooo instead of studying for the MCATs, now I'm looking for jobs that will require me to work 40 hours. Booo government. I know I've been free loading for the past couple of years, but what about all those people with financial aid that get "average" grades. I chose the medical field because I wanted to give back to my community....I know that sounds like a line of crap, but I'm seriously thankful that all of your tax dollars paid for my education, and this was my way I thought I can redeem myself for all that I've taken. Anyways I'm pissed. I feel like someone has taken something away from me. I feel as if I've been robbed in plain sight.
Whatever. We'll see if I ever pay my taxes ever again!! I guess I'll have to settle for putting my dreams on hold. Thanks for ruining everything.
Sorry for being such a downer, I'm usually not like this.
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
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Two Thumbs up for Ice Age the Meltdown
Current mood: blah
So after relentless begging, Jeff finally took me to go see Ice Age the Meltdown. Just wanted to let everyone know how AWESOME that movie was. It was definately 10x better than the first. And Sid is my favorite character!
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Friday, November 04, 2005
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Best Halloween Costumes
<center>Cheers to the guy that insisted on scraping by me with his plunger (used or new i dunno??) at this crowded ass party, and yes, Luigi was there too! 

to all skeet, skeet, skeet...god damn! (is that your crunk juice?)
Rainbow Bright!

Rick James....biiiaatcH!

Dub-ba-ewe Bush and Bin Ladin! (who'd a thunk?!)

Pin Striped Bunny and ICP Groupy/Fan Girl

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