a moment of weakness...
Category: Friends

So those of you that really know me know how much my life has changed since this time last year. It's taken alot of love and patience (and sometimes tough love) to get me to where I am today, and I couldn't have done it without my mom and sister, Jessie, Nicole, Janelle, Tony, Dan, Patty, and Patrick...you guys are my rocks, and whether you realize it or not, you pretty much helped save my life. So listen up rocks (and everyone else), I'm going to need all of you to help me continue to stay strong during the next couple weeks. Ava's birthday is coming up and I know that Fridays phone call from a certain someone was not a fluke, rather the first of many lame attempts to get back into my life, and that's one thing that absolutely can't happen. I can't give in and allow that moment of weakness to take place, it would ruin everything I've worked so hard for. So all I need from you is to keep being the fabulous friends you are and help keep me grounded...that's not too much to ask, is it? Love you guys! xoxo

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blog, blog, blog...
Category: Life

So its almost 2am and I cant sleep, Ive got a million thoughts racing through my head and I thought maybe if I get a few of them out Ill be able to sleep....so here goes, friday was a weird day, I received two random phone calls, both from two different ex boyfriends. One was a nice suprise, we had an amazing conversation and Im actually looking forward to hearing from him again. The other was from the ex who fucked up everything (Id rather not mention his name, but you know exactly who Im talking about). And needless to say, that call was not as welcomed as the other one, in fact, it pretty much ruined my day. Not so much because of who it was, but more because of the things he tried to convince were true. Why do some people not understand the concept of knowing when to give up? Seriously, its been an entire year already, just go away and leave me alone. Im quite pleased with my life now, no more going back, I promise. Thanks for listening, I feel better now! xoxoxoxo

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peace out g.blad!

So last week started out as just another week, and ended in surgery and a 2 week recovery. My trip to the e.r Tuesday afternoon for stomach pain resulted in me having my gall bladder (or g.blad according to my sister) removed Thursday morning...peace out g.blad, lmao! I was glad to know that my stomach problems would be over, but scared of the surgery and sad to miss David Cook Day on Friday. The surgery went great and after 4 days in the hospital, I was more than ready to go home, but not before a phone call from David Cook! Patty and Amy knew how much I wanted to be @ Ford Day with them and when they got to meet DC, Patty called me and he offered to give me his g.blad! I still can't believe she did that for me, my friends are amazing! Thank you to everyone who visited, called, texted, or myspaced me while I was in the hospital, I love you guys! I'm stuck @ home for the next 2 weeks, so if anyone wants to come cheer me up, you know where to find me! <3

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my sister is the shizz!
Category: Life

so my last blog was all about my fabulous friends and how much i love them and i didn't mean to leave anyone out, especially my sister.  she has done so much for me and helped out with ava countless times.  chelsea you are the best aunt ever and im so lucky that ava has you in her life!!!  we love you chi chi!  most of you know my sister, and even though we have our stupid little fights (as all sisters do), i really do love her and i can't thank her enough for being one of the people that helped save me.  i love you!!! 

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can.you.fix.my.h.e.a.r.t.cuz.it's.d.a.m.a.g.e.d
Category: Life

soul mates...two little words, one big concept. an idea i picked up from the best girly show ever, sex and the city. most people would say that their husband/wife, boyfriend/girlfriend is their soul mate, but i believe that my best friends are my soul mates. not to discredit my family because they are amazing too, but without my friends i doubt i'd be in the place i am now. you girls (you know who you are) saved me when i thought things were hopeless and i just want you to know that i love you! my life is no longer controlled by someone else and that is the best feeling ever, im so lucky to have fantastical (haha jessie) friends to share it with! and ya never know, maybe soon i'll meet my other soul mate (or maybe i already have)! who knew that watching sex and the city would inspire such thoughts! =]

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Not in high school anymore...
Category: Life

I think my sister said it best..."you're 25 jess, and getting too old to put up with other peoples drama." Such a simple statement and so obvious to most people, but when she said those words it was like a light bulb turned on inside my head. I didn't think I'd make it this far on my own, I've been without the person I once thought I couldn't live without for 8 months now and I'm proud to say that I know I'm finally going to be okay. I have an awesome family and the most amazing friends a girl could ask for. If you know me now, it's because I believe that you're good for me, I've been working on removing all the bad from my life and so far, I think I've done a pretty good job. It's good to know that certain people genuinely care about my well being, and it's nice to feel loved again. If you read this and know what I'm referring to than I want you to know that I LOVE YOU! And if you read this and have no clue what I'm talking about, maybe you should ask me, but I have to warn you...it's a long story!

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Wanted: Love Dealer
Category: Romance and Relationships

Love Is My Drug...Wanna Be My Dealer? My sister and I came across this gem of a line while browsing the "lost connections" section of the myspace classifides late one night. It's caused me to laugh til I've cried so I thought I'd share it with all of you, so please enjoy! and fyi - guys, if you use this particular line on me, be prepared for love at first cheesy pick-up line!

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As The Pussycat Dolls and ODB played in the background....
Current mood: loved
Category: Friends

Tonight was Nicole and Amy's big party and it couldn't have come at a better time, with all the unnecessary drama of the last few weeks it was nice to just go out and have some fun...I didn't realize how much I'd missed everyone until we were all there...it reminded me of the days when we would sit at Nicole's house drinking and eating Hungry Howies pizza...and even though alot has changed for all of us, some things will always stay the same...Chelsea will always be my crazy lil sister (she's the shizz! lol), Tony and I still refer to one another as hookers, Nicole will always be my sister, Patty cracks me up, Josh molests me with hugs everytime I see him, and Liz still tells me that I'm too good for any guy (even though her and I aren't that close)...and that's why I love my friends so much. If you guys read this, we need to make it a point to see each other more, seriously. Hopefully the pics from tonights festivities will be posted soon. I LOVE YOU ALL! *The party was actually May 9th, not today the 28th

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it's not you, it's me...
Category: Romance and Relationships

i didn't know that that line was actually used in real life, i thought it was just something you heard in the movies...but last night someone that i thought i knew delivered that line flawlessly, not in those exact words but a variation of them...honestly, how do you tell me that im an amazing girl and follow that up with, "but i don't love you and that's not enough for me, i don't want to hurt you." would you really think that those words wouldn't hurt me? anyway, he was right about one thing, i am an amazing girl (not to sound conceited or anything) and if he doesn't want to stick around to find out how much more amazing i can be, then it's his loss! i needed to get that out of my system, thanks for listening to me rant! xoxo

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