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Wednesday, November 14, 2007
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Long Overdue blog update via Myspace.
Current mood:  angry
Category: Blogging
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Well a lot has happened recently in my life. And now I can upload pictures, I can share the events visually too  . Firstly Princess the stray kitten we took in now has a new home and new mummy. Dave's friend Tori came yesterday and with her pink carry case and pink hair took the pink collared cat home to live with her small daughter and other cat. Who apparently is simular to Gonzo, because she's big and black. I wish them well and Tori has promised to keep in touch so all is good, and it's back to toliet training our cats. .. Last weekend at the drop of a hat (always nice) me & David went to York for the weekend. Mostly we shopped, it was for christmas so I could, hoorar! But the mix of old with new is so striking in York it's hard not to take in the serious amount of churches strewed across winding back streets. It has a medieval feel about it as the town is covered in mock tudor, something I love as it is truely a preservation of the past. Always a good thing. .. (Me & Dave braving the winter cold to explore). The room makeover is still on going…and going….and going. I did get rid of heaps of stuff two weeks ago with the help of Jayne. Lots went to charity which is always something that makes you feel better isn't it? There's still alot to do, the main thing being de-cluttering as I hold on to anything and everything. However after reading a very interesting article in Psycologies magazine I have a new take on how to sort out my junk and will continue today. I will keep posting pics of my progress as it will be a nice to look back on, one day. ..
(My messy desk where I write my blogs). Work: Ah work, sometimes I love it and sometimes I hate it. Anywhoo, despite it paying the bills at the moment I can't help but think that it is damaging my hearing. I'm working on my hypocondria, I am but the 'loss of voice' is not something I am prepared to go through. I still have a slight hope that one day it will become my source of income. With that in mind, I have started to apply for other jobs. One thing I hate about the company is the constant lies. They promise you one thing and then fail to deliver. Psssfff, I'm off. Aswell as de-cluttering my home I have also been de-cluttering my head. It's currently filled with worry and anger. There are a lot of people in my life who I considered very good friends at some point, and they have proved that time and time again. But this year it seems that several 'friends' have broken our ties. Without effort from both sides, there is no friendship and effort is lacking, but not from me. So I have made a list which I will keep private, I have worked out who makes the effort and who seems to not be arsed. After several failed emails, phone calls, texts and letters my patience has worn thin. I'm well known as a push-over, well not anymore.
.. (Me & my best friend Laura, who hasn't spoke to me since May). And finally, to afford to spoil Dave on his birthday, have pennies for a trip at the end of November and to crawlout of my overdraft. A lot of clutter* seems to be clothing no longer worn. So these items and a few nic-naks are going on ebay to raise funds. So if you're feeling generous, want some cheap new items, whatever. Get on my ebay. x (me .. (a topshop mexican tunic; just one of many items on my ebay account…soon) www.http://search.ebay.co.uk/_W0QQsassZpixiedustandlemonlies
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Echoes Silence Patience & Grace
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Release date: 25 September, 2007
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Saturday, August 11, 2007
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Recent News
Current mood:  weird
Category: Life
Okay, so this maybe the most revealing blog I write. I'm having some family issues at the moment and so rather than repeat myself a thousand times I'm just going to say what's going on here. My Sister has always been a bit strange. By the age of 13 she had a criminal record for GBH and ABH. She's always been aggressive and extremely jealous and self-destructive. Untill recently she seemed to have settled down. Sure she doesn't have a job and I think it's because she lacks confidence through never finished high school. But she has my five-year old niece. And seemed to like being a full time mum. To be honest, I always thought she was a timebomb, and my prediction was right. Last month she went off. I've known for awhile now that she is a heavy drinker. And since alcoholism isn't rare on my Dad's side, it isn't surprising. I feel partly to blame for indulging in sorting out my own life, but I did try to help. As my mum pointed out. You can't help someone who won't help themselves, and my sister is one of those people. I think it is because she is mentally ill. And due to her last two episodes, I think she has Manic Depression. So last month she drank a considerable amount and went round to her neighbours. From here she picked up a carving knife and slashed her face in front of her neighbour and the neighbour's daughter. She's also been self harming and when I got a call from her ex-partner about the siuation at 10.41pm I rallyed my parents (who live miles apart) picked them up and drove to Helen's in Liverpool. She was in an awful state and it wasn't nice to see her like that. She was rocking back and forth and didn't seem to know who people were. She was shouting and her face was cut in several places. I rang an ambulance and they had already seen her once that day and showed no remorse. She had already been into the hospital but had refused treatment and walked out. So off we went to A&E, but because she was ''under the influence'' the doctor's refused to treat her. Surely they could have given her something to speed up the sobering process? But no, I sat there for five hours and was hugged, mumbled at and eventually attacked. This is where the police stepped in as I was the only person who believed my sister needed sectioning (she was threating to kill me and herself) they decided to arrest her for being 'drunk & disorderly' as it's apparently easier to comit her that way. With nothing left ot do we relutantly went home at sunset and awaited news. She went to court and was fined £80 and free to go –unbelievable, but when you refuse to see a doctor, they probably don't want the hassle. With that added to her records and a new criminal record she went home and hopefully had a large think. Whilst for the next two weeks me and my mum/steve and family looked after Ciara and she sort of understood that Mummy was ill and she could go home when she was better. My Mum not understanding Mental illness thought she was getting better and Ciara went back to Liverpool. Things seemed to be going well, she had a date for her councilling and Fred has disappeared, him also being an alcoholic. Another call on Saturday morning, Helen had been sectioned. This time she rang the polcie and told them she was going to kill herself, Ciara AND the police. I hope she would have got some treatment if she hadn't threated the latter but apparently it's now a criminal offence. Again she found a knife and this time Ciara witnessed it all. I only hope she doesn't become too emotionally scarred. She was taken into Foster Care and was soon at my mum's the following day, as arranged by myself. Now were awaiting the next stage. She was commited but has now had a court appearance and is back in the cells awaiting a Crown Court date. I only hope they don't place her in Prison. She needs NHS help, not to be thrown into the overcrowded prisons for her actions, which she has no control of in a manic state. So I'm currently working overtime to keep up with the rent untill someone gets back to me about a full time job, balancing that with helping to look after Ciara and worrying about my sister. Which is making me ill as my IBS is all over the place. I don't mind. As I keep saying, Helen is ill. She doesn't know what's happening and I pray the judge sends her somewhere other than prison. I've never been to court before but if it goes to Crown then I feel it's my duty to go. David thinks that I shouldn't get so involved. But whether she's ill or not, she is my sister and it's my duty to stand by her, to try and help her, and most importantly help her to gain some sort or normality and life. I don't expect pity but I would appriciate some sympathy regarding my social life. I love all of you, my friends. But I hope you understand if I cancel, or you feel I let you down. This is very important and I need to stand by my family.
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Beautiful World
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Take That
Release date: 04 December, 2006
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
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So long for now!
Current mood:  okay
July 22nd, 2007
So due to my current situation and the relutance of Bury Council next week I shall be back in Golborne, Wigan.
This means that I will have no net access. I'm sure it can only be a good thing and will stimulate my productiveness greatly but all the same I won;t be able to contact alot of people. So before you dramatic people go off on one. I have not left you, I have mearly slipped back into the real world for awhile. Just untill I can support myself again.
The smoke, endless t.v shows and trips to Leigh Job Centre await me. but I'm sure that will be enough to push me into application overload.
So there we go, I won't be truddling along in cyberland for awhile. Wish me luck and all that jazz.
Cherio Chums! xx
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JJ72
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JJ72
Release date: 11 September, 2001
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007
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quizzy thing
Current mood:  geeky
Fill the people in below!
- Answer the questions truthfully!
1. David
2. John
3. Danny
4. andy
5. kate
6. sarah
7. Laura
8. Paul
1. Have you ever danced with number 3?
Quite a few, back in the pier days :)
2. Where did you meet number 6?
At Harvey Nichols employee induction, she was so quiet! lol
3. Have you ever gotten drunk with number 4?
Not yet. but theres time
4. Has 2 ever been to your house?
Yes, and he abuses my wii!
5. Has 1 ever seen you naked?
Haha oui oui mon cher
6. Have you ever gone shopping with number 7?
This quiz is funny, she's my best shopping buddy, go charity shops, woop!
7. Have you ever seen 5 in a bra
Nope but she did want to see my boobs to clarify their hugeness
8. Have you ever met 1's family?
Of course, they lurve me
9. Do you know 8's middle name?
James
10. Have you ever eaten anything in front of 6?
Yes, pizza is our lunchtime friend.
11. Do you trust number 2?
Yes, to a degree
13. Have you ever fought with number 1?
No biggies, but yeah a few
14. When was the last time you talked to 5 in person?
Saturday, she held a BBQ
15. Are any of your top 8 family?
I guess one is
16. Who makes you laugh the most?
It used to be Paul, but I haven't seen him in ages so Danny :)
17. Have you ever done something dangerous with number 6?
yeah first time I drove on the motorway Sarah held my hand, or shall I say wheel?
18. Have you ever slept in the same room with any of them?
Yep
20. Would 3 do anything for you?
I think so aye
21. Has 7 ever helped you out?
Yeah
22. Have you ever slept in the same bed with your number 1?
Lol
23. Which have you known the longest?
Paul and Danny
24. Who have you known the shortest?
Kate
25. Has anyone in your top 8 seen you cry?
Haha, prob all
27. Have you done anything illegal with number 1?
tehe not yet ;)
28. Will 1-8 repost this?
I dunno
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Release date: 04 April, 1995
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Wednesday, May 30, 2007
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Check out this event: Car Boot Sale
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When: 03 Jun 2007, 10:00
Where: NW m259ql
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Tuesday, May 15, 2007
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Seriously
Current mood: angry
I'm getting further and further into debt at the moment. Certain people whether I rememeber or not have taken money from me as a temporary act of kindness. Hopefully you'll stop being selfish fuckers and instead of buying that next pint you'll send me that money you owe me.
I really don't understand how I can help people out and then they don't bother to do the same. If I remember should an act then should I acknowledge our friendship? I don't think so. You wouldn't. And you have no idea what I'm going through.
So if you owe me money, get in touch for an address to send the cheque to. And if you do, then I thankyou in advance for sparing some back-logged wealth.
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Live It Out
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Metric
Release date: 04 January, 2007
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Monday, April 30, 2007
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I GOT SCREWED BY TOPSHOP!
Current mood: angry
THEY SAID THERE WEBSITE WOULD GO LIVE AT 6AM.
I GOT THERE AT 5:45 AND IT WAS OPEN. WITH THE VEST TOP AND TEE I WANT ALREADY SOLD OUT AND ON EBAY!
IDIOTS!
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Friday, April 27, 2007
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trying to contact me over the weekend
Current mood:  amused
Hey all. Danny sillyly put my mobile on a secret place in my car and I thought I'd left it in the moon.
So I got my phone blocked.
And I am therefore un-touchable this weekend.
But just so you know, I'm work 9-6pm anyway, tomorrow AND sunday!
Peace x
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From Every Sphere
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Ed Harcourt
Release date: 20 May, 2003
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007
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How silly
Current mood:  ecstatic
Kaz shows David this http://www.maccosmetics.co.uk/templates/products/sp.tmpl?CATEGORY_ID=CAT4718&PRODUCT_ID=PROD66211
in blacktrack.....
David says ''Is that foundation?''
Kaz pisses her sides for eternity.
The End.
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
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if you are
If you're bored today.
Come make some art with me.
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