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State: New York
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Friday, March 28, 2008
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Death is only the beginning.
Current mood:  discontent
Category: reflective Life
If i had just died today, think there would be a few scenes that would flash before my eyes and I would embrace them fondly, knowing i just wasn’t ready for the next realm. I was always a Metacognitionist, a new word i just learned.
Even as a child i always though that if i could stay in the middle, do nothing, be staunch, i wouldn’t have to choose between light and dark, good and bad, yhin and yang. So i established myself a haven. a choice that wasn’t really a choice, staying in the middle. being undecided. not participating. by doing this, i would neither have won or lost. I would’ve been no more happier than i was sad. forever comforted by the apathy that was forfeit, nothing could ever be worse or better, because i abstained from the selfishness of choice.
However, over the years, Daoism, Peer-Pressure and life in itself have all taught me that choices will be made no matter what. Its in every situation and every choice that yin extends her cold, black hand and yang shines brilliantly upon you. The craving for knowledge has never been more powerful than letely and before i forget, these lifedefining moments must be recollected as best i can.
I like this about my blogs, they can always be updated. :-)
Age 6. This is about my seventh time running down the jagged cement sidewalk sloped down to about a 45 degree angle. I trip and scrape a chunk of flesh off my knee. I cry like all hell. I scream, because this isn’t the first time its happened, (actually it’s been happening all week that week.) " Why me? What did i do to deserve this?" and My mother scolds, "it’s because God’s punishing you! because you never listen to me." The explanation i never heard. All i heard was that god was punishing me and i didnt know why. I believe i had flown into some sort of tourettes. " I hate God! He would never do this to me if he loved me!" My mother looked at me as though i was not her kid. " You take that back." she said in the most fluent spanish. " god won’t let you into heaven if you don’t." I could care less about that at the moment because i always had my doubts about things I could not see. "whats wrong with you?" my brother aaron was always too late with his inquiries. That night, i prayed for a good four minutes, scared that i had provoked divine judgement.
And with a scrape on the knee, atheism was born.
Age 8. My sister Jenny, had lost her job and couldn’t afford her House in Rockaway and had to relocate to Manhattan, my house, to be exact. Theres where i met Loudy, my niece and potential confidant. I dunno why we call her loudy, her names Laura. ONe day i wake up at an early 5 AM and she was already awake and sitting on the couch. She asks what anybody would ask a twin, "which one are you?" i had become used to the alientation this questipon would propose, sometimes embrace it, playing pranks on the occasional person or two. So after discussing the earliness of the day we decide to do what kids do best, trouble. We thought it would be a good idea to climb the fire escape to the last (fifth) floor. I wasn’t as scared as i would’ve been because i had done this once before, only I was naked(Age 5). SO then, Loudy leans on over to look down and decides to spit all the way to the pavement. watching that spit splatter, some odd sensation came upon me, and I felt changed, as though something was proved. We were seen by some old bag and we ran for our lives back into the living room of my mothers apartment. we jumped on the couch till Bill nuy the science guy aired.
And with spit and gravity, Metacognition was alive.
I have more life defining moments but, it’s late and i have to call it a night.
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Currently
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Revolver [UK]
By
The Beatles
Release date: 25 October, 1990
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Thursday, August 16, 2007
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Columbia Scum
Current mood:  busy
Category: News and Politics
CB9 Commi  ttee Votes Down Expansion Plan By Anna Phillips Issue date: 8/16/07 Section: News The members of Community Board 9's Urban Land Use Review Procedure voted Wednesday night to oppose Columbia University's West Harlem expansion plan unless certain requirements were met.
The resolution, passed five hours after the meeting began, laid the groundwork for further negotiations between the University and CB9 and cited specific conditions under which the community board could come to accept the plan. The conditions-ten in total-range from insisting that Columbia take eminent domain off the table and withdraw the proposal for a 7-story bellow grade structure, to provisions for affordable housing, and promises that what is built will be done so as to minimize pollution and maximize sustainability.
"It's not a vote against [the plan]. It's a vote to negotiate," senior executive vice president Robert Kasdin, said.
In his comments for the record, CB9 chair Jordi Reyes-Montblanc supported the idea that both sides would have to give on certain issues and compromise was desirable. "The community must get over its suspicion and dread of the Columbia expansion and Columbia must overcome the feelings that they know better what is good for West Harlem and our people," he wrote.
The full board, whose vote is a nonbinding step in the city's Uniform Land Use Review Procedure, will vote on the plan on Monday.
But for many in attendance, the resolution was an afterthought to a long and chaotic evening.
Confusion began before the public comment period, when participants in a program calls the Addicts Rehabilitation Center-run by Rev. Reginald Williams of the United Missionary Baptist Association-stood outside the community center, handing out leaflets supportive of Columbia. Few knew why they were there or what they were doing.
"I just came for some fresh air," said one ARC member who would not give her name. "I don't know why I'm here. What are we doing? Supporting the projects?"
When the public comment session did begin, over 50 people were not allowed to enter the Manhattanville Houses Community Center because the auditorium was at capacity and, by the time they did gain entrance, had missed speeches by President Lee Bollinger and former New York City Mayor David Dinkins-both of whom voiced their support for the plan.Dinkins, like many others who spoke in favor of the plan, was berated by a pocket of West Harlem community members-mostly members of the Mirabal Sisters Cultural and Community Center and the Coalition to Preserve Community-who shouted and booed at speakers while waving maracas.
Resident Mario Mazzoni, like many others, addressed President Bollinger on a personal level. "If you're uncomfortable, I'm glad you're uncomfortable," he said. Others approached the microphone only to walk away seconds later, unable to make themselves heard over the din.
In total, 22 people spoke in favor of Columbia's plan, a larger turnout of support than the University has ever had at a community event.
Many of those who came to support the University's 197-c were members of the Coalition for the Future of Manhattanville, created by Bill Lynch Associates, a consulting firm that Columbia hired in April of 2006 to encourage more vocal support from people in West Harlem. A press release from the group lists 19 members, though Kevin Wardally, a consultant at Bill Lynch Associates, said more names would be released shortly.
"There's been a lot of miscommunication," said Rev. Williams. "People get hung up on eminent domain. If they [Columbia] haven't used it on 90 percent of the land, why would they used it on 10 percent?"
Another member of the new coalition, Hazel Dukes, the New York State Conference President of the NAACP, said that she believes the community board's plan, the 197-a, and Columbia's plan can be combined. "There's always room to negotiate," she said.
Despite this showing of support, opposition to the plan was overwhelming-73 people spoke against the plan's various elements and the disintegrating relationship between the University and the community.
"The expansion plan that Columbia has created makes me ashamed to say that I'm a Columbia student," said Desiree Carver-Thomas, CC '09.
Other speakers voiced disapproval of the new coalition of supporters for Columbia's plan.
"I really do think it's a travesty that Columbia should have bused in people here-people who have not been involved-to be a part of a dialogue about the future of our community," said Cecil Corbin-Mark of West Harlem Environmental Action.
CB9 member Dr. Vicky Gholson admonished both sides for their behavior. Those against Columbia's plan, she said, were being disrespectful. And to Columbia:
"I don't think you understand just how angry this community is," she said.
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Gray Daze: No Sun Today
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Grey Daze
Release date: 27 February, 2001
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Saturday, June 09, 2007
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wierd coincidence
Current mood:  cynical
Category: Romance and Relationships
i was reading this AP magazine this girl gave me(and it was my first one).... and so f*%&ing wierd! Shaant from cute is what we aim for got his first AP magazine from a girl! also it was the 22nd aniversary issue, so thiers alot of writing. he said also, that the girl said no at first, but it's hangin on his wall now. wierd... and i actually read that article in the first one i got.
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Belfast Rocks
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Johnny Thunders
Release date: 19 February, 2004
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Friday, June 08, 2007
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New blog Series
Current mood:  bouncy
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
Hello, yall. ive been really bored lately and decided to make a bunch of short conspiracy theories on music and , well selling oyur soul to the devil for super cool powers!(guitar riff)
Anyways, the series will be called 666 acoustica, and some of my first accusations, and they will all be new york based/lived there for a bit bands in this episode, mind you, will be; KISS, Jimi Hendrix, The Plasmatics, and etc. of course the episodes are written on blog. they should be uploaded as soon as july, but what do i know?
BRYANT.
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Saturday, March 10, 2007
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Ideals :D
Current mood:  giddy
These are my best of the best. took some time but, there in there. if you feel you know a better for my llist feel free to let me know. other topics will come frequently so check back if you must. ;-)
Music
ideal Song: Hey Jude- The Beatles
Ideal Punk song: Seventeen- The Sex Pistols
Ideal Hardcore song: Repeater- F.U.G.A.Z.I.
Ideal Metal song: Lateralus- Tool
Ideal Rap song: Nobody believes me- Common
Ideal indie song: Brimful Of Asha- Cornershop
Ideal Bluegrass song. Hey good lookin- Hank Williams xp
Ideal grunge song: Zanzibar- Motherlovebone
ideal Alternative song: Monkey gone to heaven- The Pixies
Ideal (disco)House song: Move Your Body- Marshall jefferson
Ideal dance song: All around the World - ATC
Ideal techno song. Sandstorm- Daruda
Ideal Low-Rock Song: Cure For Pain- Morphine
ideal Dance-punk song- Cansei De Ser Sexy- Off the Hook
Carto..)
ideal anime: Rurouni Kenshin - Nobuhirou Watsuki
Ideal manga: YuYu Hakusho- Yoshihiro Toagashi<3
Ideal Hanna barbara cartoon: Courage the cowardly Dog!!!
T.V.
Ideal series: drew carey show
Ideal reality: MXC!!!
Ideal variety show: SNL
ideal Drama
DREAMS
Ideal job: Artiste
Ideal girlfriend: ;-)
Ideal house: not too big castle size should do. :)
Ideal car: porche(green) or ferrari(yellow)?
Food
Ideal pizza: cheese and peeperoni and sausage and pinapple and bacon and stuff.
Ideal cake: chocolate(golden)
Ideal Ice cream Flavor: Prailines n' cream ^-^
Ideal Deli Cut: Ham, American, muenster, bacon, lettuce, mustard, tomato, Doritos, victory bread. <3
OTHER
Animal: Dog
Exercise: Yoga =)
county: manhattan.
city: tokyo?
Country: India
GAMES
Ideal Fighter (2-D): Super Smash Brothers: Melee (NGC)
Ideal Fighter(3-D): SoulCalibur3 (MANY)
Ideal FPS: 007: GoldenEye (N64)
Ideal RTS: Age Of Empires 2 (PC)
Ideal Platform: Super Mario Bros. 3 (NES)
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Friday, February 23, 2007
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The Law
Current mood:  blah
Category: Life
you know. the other day my friend got into an accident. he was in a fist fight. it was with another guy. he was rich and shit but he decided to get drunk on the other side of town. so my poor frined beats him up because he starts doing this racist skit and points my friend out. my friend got 3 months but the other guy got off with community service. DRAMATIZATION. LMAO but seriously, this is why humans shouldn't make law. emotions are the enemy of justice. i personally think they both should've got three months or atleast be charged similarly, because they both broke the same law. just a note.
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We Are Not Alone
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Breaking Benjamin
Release date: 29 June, 2004
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are you?
Current mood:  accomplished
are you honest or just rude?
are you unique or a freak?
are you stylish or a poser?
are you fortunate or a preppie?
are you a goth/punk (wear black ALL the time) or just mournful?
are you a gangster or just food?(<--- hip-hop term.)
Are you deep or just conceited?
are you a philantropist or juast need the support?
are you tough or just wasted?
are you cool or just fearful of rejection?
are you evil or just recooping?
are you an atheist or misplaced you anger?
are you an asshole or have demons?
are you a fanboy/girl or were banished socially?
Are you dirty or just trying to live fast?
are you mature or have an unwavering point of view?
i think these apply to alot of people. we all see things in one way, but they might be misunderstood.
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Final Fantasy X
Release date: 08 September, 2006
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Monday, February 19, 2007
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about ME
Category: Religion and Philosophy
this ones about me and this ones about time. all the ironic things i do and like
I like racist jokes but i hate racism.
i like music, but i cant dance
i cant dance but i will :p
i like pet causes, but i hate giving.
i like landscapes but i hate outdoors.
im very creative and outgoing but extremely lazy.
i like grafitti but i hate vandalism
i like groups crews and clubs but i hate gang related violence.
i like justice but i KEEP loyalty
i like stimulants but i hate peer pressure.
i like girls but i hate commitment.
i thank god but i do it again.
i believe in magic but the is a god.
i like leaders but i hate politics.
i like summer but i was a winter baby
i hate eavesdroppers, but like spying.
i like the truth, but i hate jerks.
i hate feelings, but i like emos.
im shy at times, but i like head bangers.
i hate eyeliner, but i like punks.
i hate politics but i like political rap.
i like knowing but i hate school.
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Currently
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Saturate
By
Breaking Benjamin
Release date: 27 August, 2002
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Thursday, February 15, 2007
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other poem
Current mood:  blank
Category: Music
this poem is a sadder one but it still sounds like a spell XD
I try in vain , to ease my pain but all the while it stays the same.
the evil stain, on this terrain, is stronger than the crooked rain.
the evil strain upon my brain, i try in vain. it stays the same.
o.o what should i call it? leave comments(and kudos) at the bottom. 
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Currently
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Valiant: A Modern Tale of Faerie
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Holly Black
Release date: 31 May, 2005
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