it’s ironic dontcha think?

When something you want is at your fingertips, or the oppertunity is present, and you just don't care enough to go for it now? that's me, so i'll pass: thank you.

shoulda tried awhile ago, too late now.

Lesson of the day : when you desire something stronly, put it away for a lil bit and come back and see if you still do.

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a promise

don't forget your promise to me, even if it takes forever.

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anniversary

today's an anniversary

though not one I can say I look forward to

nevertheless though, today is it.

at least now I can say god exists though

because i'm currently living in hell

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my karma realigns

so alot of shitty things have been happening to me all at once, but surprisingly enough, everything is fixing itself now....

karma realized it fucked up I guess, something to be thankful for :)

lately i've been having some awesome luck finding new music, and new bands.

OH 2 days til EURO 08 ;)

PS. To the person making up stories about.....idk why you are but...please stop not that it effects anything I guess, but it's a lil weird....

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my comp broke...

but now it works perfectly :)

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then i dreamed i was you, sweetest dream i’ve had....

even the most wonderful dreams i have, end in such a horrible manner

is these the best dreams i've ever had? or are the worst nightmares? hard to tell the difference these days.

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shit talking, a skull and umm ya.

I hate Aslan, he's a shitty friend, an asshole, and a whore...happy aslan? i talked shit about you in a post...so you got what you wanted :)

Aslan says I fucked up my priorities and wasn't concentrating about the thing i shoulda been concerned about, instead focusing on being depressed. So here it goes....Last week their was a fucking skull on my porch......placed in front of my door, as aslan says "looking at me when i walked up the stairs" that's some bad mojo....who the fuck would do that? Am I cursed now? anyone do voodoo and can explain the meaning of "skull on porch"?

Last week I went to a poetry thingy....even if it was kinda bad poetry...it makes me wish i was a writer instead of having awesome as fuck math skills, even if I could just write shitty poetry with no real depth.....it would be better than writing none at all I think.

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im just gonna talk alot of shit so....
Current mood: pissed off

Okay, as you can guess, i'm in a foul mood, so i'm going to vent, if you think this is about you, i can bet you all my possessions you're wrong, so don't stress.

Person 1

"but as long as im close you'll be here, and as long as i'm far i know you'll live"

I don't even know.....I really actually have no fucking clue....I really don't think you do it on purpose...maybe you do....i swear you only call when you're bored though, and really whats up with that? How about you call when you're not so bored.....

Person 2, who really is the point of this.....

"and i'll still be waiting when all this starts fading"

"you tried your best to take me down and then explained thats what friends are for"

I'm sick of apologizing for what you've done wrong, i LOVE how that works....you fuck up, and i'm sorry? You're the one who's in the wrong here, and you can justify everything all you want, but you know it isn't the truth, you don't like the way i reacted? get over it, you did something fucking evil, and you think i'm supposed to be like YAY! that's so nice of you!? you sold me out, straight up, good job, congratulations., when do you get to say I'm sorry anyways? oh ya, you admit you're never sorry....

 might as well have something I should be sorry for right? Well here it is, i'm selling off what you gave me.  Seriously, unlike you, i can feel an emotion called "regret" and I will regret it, but seriously....when you tell me things like "i did that to be spiteful" "i don't regret what i did" and you're umm almost 30?

 it's not getting much use, and you'll never pick it up, and seriously  i could use the cash. What's retarded though about  me is If you called, I wouldn't hang up on you, and I should totally hang up. That makes me stupid, but w/e, you ARE my best friend, i've known you forever etc etc etc. But seriously act like an adult, don't just insult me with all these lil things you say to make yourself feel better, notice how I didn't do that to you? I just sat and apologized for really stupid stuff that really...well...mighta made you feel better....but look at yourself, you say all these things, and yet you do the same things....and you can't even empathize, fucking kinda a lil creepy....One day, maybe you'll have this epiphany and you'll be like...wow...but until ....

yup, i'm jaded, sorry for all the hate :)

i love everyone else though :)

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Billy bob..

I used to think Billy Bob Thorton sucked....but lately, he's been playing these great roles in these movies i've been seeing him in... I guess he CAN act...... imagine that

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can i just say

Michael Haneke is a fucking awesome director?

fuck that FG remake though.....

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