REFLECTION...AN ODE TO PAC AND BIG.... JEWELS
Current mood: grateful

PEACE GOOD FOLKS...I’M SITTING HERE WRITING THIS SONG CALLED "TOXIC" ....AND I STARTED DRIFTING THINKING ABOUT GOOD MOMENTS ...
I BECAME FRIENDS WITH MANY OF YOU JUST THRU MY SPACE AND MAJORITY OF YOU HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME THRU MY MUSIC...A LOT OF YOU DON’T KNOW MY HISTORY AND IT’S TOTALLY COOL....BUT I WILL SHARE THIS WITH YOU ALL.....
I TRULY APPRECIATE THOSE LITTLE MOMENTS IN LIFE THAT PLENTY TAKE FOR GRANTED...I WAS THINKING ABOUT BIG...WE MET AT A RAP CONFERENCE IN MIAMI...ME, HIM AND A DUDE NAME MIKE WENT TO THE PARKING LOT UNDER THE HOTEL AND HAD A HOT BOX SESSION....BIG WAS PUTTIN ME UP ON HOW MANY CATS OUT IN BROOKLYN WAS UP ON
ORGANIZED AND THE ONES WHO WASN’T DIDN’T KNOW ABOUT LYRICS..
BIG WAS A FUNNY DUDE...I WAS TWISTED WHEN WE STEPPED OUT THE CAR...HE STARTED TALKING ABOUT FOOD....EVEN THOUGH I’M ANGERED THEY DIDN’T CLOSE THAT CASE...I APPRECIATE THAT MOMENT AND THE OTHER FEW MOMENTS I HAD WIT THE DUDE....PAC WAS A LIL DEEPER..
MY MAN SAAFIR(yes the m.c. ,actor) TOOK ME TO PAC CRIB AT PAC’S REQUEST..THE LOVE WAS GENUINE...HIM AND SAAFIR ARGUED ON SOME CREW SHIT BRIEFLY AND AFTER SOME INTENSE SCREAMING ...PAC BROKE THE TENSION AND INVITED ME TO TAKE 1 OF THE 6 BLUNTS ON THE TABLE...WE KICKED IT OAKLAND STYLE FOR A LIL...THEN BROKE OUT TO MONEY B PENTHOUSE....AND FOLKS I CAN ADMIT...AT MON’S....PAC PUT ME UP ON HENNESY...IT WAS MY 1ST TIME.....SEE..IN NEW YORK I WAS DRINKING GIN AND VODKA....SHIIIIT!WHAT A NIGHT !!!....AND IT WAS THE HARDEST...LONGEST TRIP BACK OVER THE BAY BRIDGE TO MY HOTEL in S.F. AFTER BEING WITH THOSE DUDES...NOW SKIPPING OVER QUITE A FEW PARTY NIGHTS AND DAYS WITH PAC, MONEY B AND SOMETIMES SAAFIR...YEARS LATER...I REMEMBER SEEING HIM IN NEW YORK AFTER THE SO CALLED EAST COAST WEST COAST BEEF HEATED UP(the stupidest shit in hip hop!) AT A MOVIE PREMIERE...HE LOOKED AT ME...SMILED.. CAME TOWARDS ME AND WE HUGGED LIKE WE WAS BACK IN THE BAY PARTY HOPPIN....BROTHERS...NONE OF THAT SHIT BETWEEN HIM AND BIG AFFECTED OUR BROTHERHOOD!...PAC’S A REBEL...BUT MOST IMPORTANT...HIS HEART WAS PURE AND HE WAS A KIND DUDE....SO WAS BIG A LIL FROM WHAT I SEEN .....I THANK GOD FOR BRINGING HIM AND BIG THE WAY HE DID INTO MY LIFE... LETTING WHAT WE HAD END ON A POSITIVE NOTE THAT THE MEDIA AND THE WORLD HARDLY SEES AND NEVER CREDITS....TRUE BROTHERHOOD! ..SO MUCH HISTORY....MAN...SO ON THAT NOTE KNOW THIS.....MONEY CAN’T BUY GOOD TIMES PEOPLE....IT CAN ONLY HELP CREATE IT...BREAK BREAD WIT YA TRUE FOLKS....HAVE FUN AND LIVE.....MEMORIES IS PRICELESS........NOW BACK TO MY RHYME......GET AT ME LOVED ONES....P

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UPDATE YA SWAGGA !!!
Current mood: grateful
Category: Life

I GOT SOMETHING ON MY MIND I WANNA SHARE...I'M THE ONLY BOY OUT OF 8 KIDS...I TRULY LOVE MY SISTERS TO DEATH...AND BEING YOUNGER THAN ALL OF THEM EXCEPT ONE DEFINITELY GAVE ME AN ADVANCED SWAGGA....I HAD THE BLESSING OF LEARNING HOW TO BE A DECENT YOUNG MAN. MY POPS SHOWED ME HOW TO TREAT WOMEN...MY MOMS TAUGHT ME HOW TO COOK AT AN EARLY AGE....AND ONCE I SEEN HOW MY SISTERS MOVED...OOOOH IT WAS ON. THUS STARTED MY IMAGINARY COMPANY CALLED P.V.I ....I'M NOT GONNA SAY WHAT IT STANDS FOR...IMMA LET YOU FIGURE IT OUT...ANYWAYS ...WAS BLESSED TO UNDERSTAND SELF RESPECT AND RESPECT 4 OTHERS ... BLESSED TO TRAVEL MANY MANY PLACES AND MEET SOME REALLY WONDERFUL PEOPLE...A LOT OF CATS IS MAKING IT BAD FOR US REAL DUDES...FELLAS....YOU GOT 2 START TAKING INTIMACY MORE SERIOUS...STOP BUSSING AND FALLING ASLEEP !!! ....THERE'S ABSOLUTELY NOTHING BETTER THAN MAKING COOKIES .....THAT MEANS YOU'RE NOT FINISHED UNTIL SHE HAVE 2 OR 3 ORGASMS...IT'S AN ART ...IT'S OUR DUTY..U HAVE TO BE PASSIONATE ABOUT THIS MANNN !!!....GOING FAST DOESN'T NECESSARILY MEANS SHE'S BEING SATISFIED....FIND YA RHYTHM...SWITCH IT UP...TEASE IT FOR A WHILE...NUTURE THAT ASS...LOOK AT IT....TALK TO IT...MASSAGE HER FEET WHILE U HITTIN IT REAL SLOW....I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YALL DUDES....BUT I REFUSE TO BE REPLACED BY A BATTERY OPERATED DEVICE !!!......A VIBRATOR MAY ROTATE AND SHAKE...BUT A VIBRATOR CAN'T MASSAGE ASS...SUCK TITTIES AND F$K AT THE SAME TIME....IT'S NOTHING WRONG WITH THEM HAVING ONE BUT DON'T PLAY YASELF AND GET TOTALLY REPLACED BY ONE YALL GOTTA UPDATE YALL SWAGGA.....EAT YA VEGETABLES !!!
STOP PLAYIN AROUND ...U GOTTA GET INTO THAT SHIT !!!....
MAKE UP NEW SHIT...USE YOUR IMAGINATION......MAKE HER MAKE THAT FACE !!!....RESPECTFUL BUT NASTY..THIS MIGHT SAVE SOME OF YALL RELATIONSHIPS....MARRIAGES.....PERSONALLY I HAVE A VENDETTA AGAINST THE NOOKIE.....IT'S OUR DUTY TO RESPECT AND NUTURE OUR QUEENS AND ANGELS...UPDATE YA SWAGGA !!!.....GET AT ME...PEACE GOOD FOLKS...P

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WHAT MY SPACE MEANS.....REAL TALK
Current mood: depressed

PEACE GOOD FOLKS...IT SEEMS LIKE PEOPLE FORGOT ABOUT RESPECT AND GOOD INTENTION...I SOMETIMES BROWSE FRIENDS ON HERE AND IF THERE'S SOMETHING ON YOUR PAGE THAT SEEMS CREATIVE OR IF THERE'S ENCOURAGING WORDS IN YOUR WRITINGS, I MIGHT ADD YOU....OR IF THERE'S SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME LAUGH....I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO KNOW YOU...THIS IS WHERE WE BECOME FRIENDS !!!...JUST BECAUSE I REQUEST YOUR FRIENDSHIP DOESN'T MEAN I WANNA SLEEP WITH YOU OR I NEED YOU TO BUY MY MUSIC......BUT I DO LIKE TO SHARE MY MUSIC WITH YOU... BECAUSE I'M HOPING SOMETHING ENCOURAGING IS THERE FOR YOU... I'M HOPING SOMETHING I SAID CAN BRIGHTEN YOUR DAY...I SAID MANY TIMES...WE ARE EACH OTHERS TEACHERS...I OFTEN SEND OUT BULLETINS SO THAT IF YOU WOKE UP ON THE WRONG SIDE OF THE BED...IT MIGHT PUT YOU BACK ON THE RIGHT TRACK..I'M HOPING THAT MY PAGE...MY BLOGS...MY BULLETINS..AND MY MUSIC GIVES YOU STRENGTH...MORE PATIENCE...MORE FAITH IN YOURSELF...MAYBE EVEN SAVE YOU FROM DESTRUCTION...AND AS FOR ME.....I CAN EVENTUALLY FIGURE OUT IF I'M TALKING TO A DAM NUTBALL...JUST BY THE WORDS YOU LET REPRESENT YOU...IN YOUR RESPONSES...EVEN YOUR WORDS TELL THE TRUTH ABOUT U....SO.....LADIES...QUEENS...ANGELS...YOU ALL HAVE TO DO THAT AS WELL....THERE'S TOO MANY NUTBALLS ONLINE !!!...ANYWAYS...I TRULY APPRECIATE  ALL WHO BUY MY MUSIC...YOU ALL ARE IN MY HEART....AND FELLAS DON'T GET ME WRONG...NOTHIN WRONG WIT FLIRTING AND KEEPING YA KICK GAME TIGHT....SHIIIIT.......I'M PROBABLY A MUCH BIGGER FREAK THAN MOST OF YOU...I COULD FUCK EVERYDAY IF IT WAS ALLOWED...BUT WE ALL HAVE TO RESPECT OURSELVES...OUR FAMILIES...AND OUR LADIES....IF SHE WANT YOU....TRUST ME....SHE'LL HOLLA.....MOST OF THEM DO IF THEY WANT IT...BUT YOU CAN'T  BE TAKING THE P*SSY !!!...THAT'S THE DEVIL'S WORK AND MAD FOUL.....UNLESS IT'S A MUTUAL THING....ANYWAYS...JUST WANTED YOU ALL TO KNOW TODAY THAT I APPRECIATE YOU....I TAKE THE WORD FRIEND SERIOUS...WHETHER WE DISTANT OR CLOSE...SO....STAY WELL....FRIENDS...PEACE, P

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LIVE.....
Current mood: excited

I HUMBLE MYSELF TO SIT DOWN AND SHARE WITH YOU...WE ARE EACH OTHER'S TEACHERS AND I CAN'T WORRY ABOUT NOTHING BUT WHAT I CAN DO...AND HOW I MANIFEST MY EXISTENCE...I CALL THIS LIVE....BECAUSE EVERYDAY I SEE SO MUCH BULLSHIT IN SITUATIONS AND PEOPLE THAT ..IT'S MY DUTY TO DROP SOME JEWELS ON YOU ALL..SO THAT WE CAN ..LIVE!!! .... WHY ARE WE SPENDING SO MUCH TIME SURROUNDING OURSELVES IN NEGATIVITY...WHICH IS PROBABLY THE REASON SOME OF US CAN'T FIND A JOB....OR MAKE ENDS MEET..OR GET OUTTA THAT SCHOOL...YOU NEED AS MUCH TIME AS POSSIBLE TO GROW...MENTALLY....SPIRITUALLY..AND OF COURSE WITHOUT A DOUBT...FINANCIALLY...STOP TALKING ABOUT THAT SAME TIRED ASS DRAMA..WHICH NOBODY IS BENEFITTING FROM...IF YOU HAD ISSUES WITH SOMEONE AND IT'S BASICALLY OVER....LET IT BE DONE! ..WE SPEND MORE TIME COMPLAINING THAN CREATING....DO THAT EXTRA BABYSITTING FOR THAT MONEY....WASH THAT CAR FOR YOUR ELDERLY NEIGHBOR...WE AS SOCIETY NEED TO SPEND MORE TIME BEING CONSTRUCTIVE...I TOLD MY LIL DUDE B....BY THE TIME YOU FINISH TELLING ME YOU TOO BIG FOR MC DONALDS...YA BOY WHO WORKS AT KFC WILL HAVE THAT I PHONE...OR GO ON THAT TRIP TO COSTA RICA....30 PERCENT OF SOMETHING IS BETTER THAN 70 PERCENT OF NOTHING...SO LIVE! ...THE PERSON THAT LAUGHS AT YOU IS THE PERSON WHO ENVIES YOUR DRIVE AND CHARISMA...PROBABLY ACCEPTING THAT FACT THAT THEY WON'T END UP ACCOMPLISHING NOTHING IN LIFE AND THAT IS SAD...TRUE FRIENDS ACCEPT YOU FOR YOU...AND CAN DISAGREE WITH YOU WITHOUT A GRUDGE....THOSE FRIENDS KNOW HOW TO LIVE...SO MANY PEOPLE UNDERESTIMATE THEIR ABILITIES...SOME THINGS YOU HAVE TO PUSH HARDER FOR...IF WE ALL HAD EVERYTHING WE WANTED..WHEN WE WANTED IT.....THEN WE WOULDN'T APPRECIATE SHIT!!!...WORK HARD...THEN PLAY HARD...LIVE!!!....IF THEY DON'T WANT TO WORK AND SWEAT...THEN YOU DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO...BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY...YOU'LL BE THE ONE FLYING TO ALL THOSE BEAUTIFUL PLACES...AND DRIVING THOSE NICE WHIPS...JUST REMEMBER TO TRY AND HELP A FEW THAT'S TRYING TO HELP THEMSELVES...LET THEM LIVE!!! .... IT'S FUNNY HOW SOME OF MY CALI FOLKS LOOK AT ME FUNNY WHEN I TOLD THEM I DIDN'T DRIVE TODAY..AND THAT I TOOK THE BUS....A FEW EVEN SNICKERED....AND IT'S SAD BECAUSE I BEEN TO THEIR HOMES...I SEE WHAT THEY DRIVE...AND BECAUSE THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIVE....MOST OF THEM WILL NEVER GET TO DO A QUARTER OF WHAT I DID ..AND WILL NEVER SEE A TENTH OF THE PLACES I BEEN...AND DEFINITELY NEVER SEE THE MONEY I ALREADY MADE....IF YOU HAVE SOME CASH FOR ME...OR IF YOU'RE A FUN PERSON TO BE AROUND...I'LL GET ON THE BUS TO BE A PART OF IT....STOP LOOKIN AT WHAT EVERYBODY ELSE IS DOING...AND LIVE!!! ....I TOLD ONE OF MY EX'S A LONG TIME AGO....NOBODY'S PAYING ME TO FUCK UP YA LIFE...SO BREATHE EASY AND LIVE...ACCOMPLISHMENTS IS LIKE AN ORGASM.....YOU BE WORKING DAT ASS....AND WORKING  IT...AND SWEATING...AND SLOW STROKING IT...THEN WHEN SHE FINALLY BUSS .....YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ON TOP OF THE WORLD.....AND THAT'S JUST ONE EPISODE....SO PEOPLE....LIVE!!! ......

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SIGNS OF MATURING...
Current mood: horny
Category: Life

1. PEOPLE SAY AND DO STUPID SHIT....AND YOU JUST DON'T EVEN RESPOND OR ACT LIKE IT WAS EVEN DONE.SILENCE IS A SHARP WEAPON!!!
2. WHEN PEOPLE WRITE YOU ON MY SPACE ASKING QUESTIONS BUT REALLY SAYING NOTHING....SO YOU JUST SAY FUK IT AND DON'T EVEN WRITE BACK
3. WHEN YOU'RE IN THE PARTY AND YOU SEE THE SAME FACES WHICH ARE BROKE MOTHERFU$KERS STILL FRONTIN LIKE THEY'RE BALLERS!
AND THEY LIED SO MUCH THAT THEY START TO BELIEVE THE LIES THEMSELVES
3. WHEN YOU HAVE A PRETTY LIL SOMETHING HOLLARING AT YOU AND YOU KNOW DEEP DOWN INSIDE SHE'S CUTE BUTJUST NOT AS NASTY AS YOU ARE...SO YOU HAVE TO PLAY STUPID AND SMOOTHLY BRUSH HER OFF. I'M NOT WASTING A HARD ON...
4.YOU FIND YOURSELF CHOOSING TO TOSS THE ANCHOR ...INSTEAD OF HAVING THAT SAME OL REGULAR SEX WITH THAT PERSON.....OKAY...OKAY..TOSS THE MONKEY...
5. WHEN YOU CAN FULLY CONTROL YOUR HARD ON.....SHE JUST DON'T DO IT FOR ME....SORRY....
6. WHEN YOU FIND YOURSELF LYING TO PEOPLE BECAUSE IT'S JUST MORE EASIER TO DEAL WITH THAN TRYING TO EXPLAIN. SHARING THE LOGIC WITH SIMPLE MINDED IDIOTS CAN BECOME A STRESSFUL JOB!!!
7. YOU MAKE EYE CONTACT WITH A CHICK YOU THINK LOOKS BEAUTIFUL AND YOU KNOW SHE WANT YOU TO GET AT HER AND YOU JUST SAY MAN....WHY CAN'T WOMEN SAY SOMETHING TO START OFF THE CONVO...AND YOU JUST SAY FUK IT...AND  ACCEPT LOSING OUT AND YOU KEEP IT PUSHING !!!....THERE'S A HANDFUL OF WOMEN THAT WILL SAY SOMETHING SWEET BUT SPICY...IN A DISCREET BUT SEXY WAY.....BUT DON'T HOLD YA BREATH

JUST WANTED TO SHARE THAT.....IT DEFINITELY MAKES ME LAUGH THINKING ABOUT SOME OF THE THINGS THAT HAPPEN IN OUR DAY TO DAY.........STAY BLESSED FOLKS......P

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