A Midnight’s Dream
Current mood: imaginative
Category: Writing and Poetry

It's dark out

And the stars shine brightly

I look up

In the stars I see

I see you

Eyes closed tightly

I can almost feel your touch

Right hand on my hip

With a strong yet safe grip

Left hand sweeping my hair aside

From right to left

I feel the chills down my back

And a long gentle kiss on my neck

I know your there

I feel you, I can smell you

But I cant see you

Come back to me my love

I long for your touch

And to see that smile again

Oh, the things I would do...

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Ive Been Blessed
Category: Friends

Last night as I lyed in bed I started to think about how many wonderful people Ive been blessed with in my life.  Some who Ive known literally my whole life, and some Ive known for just a little over a year; and even one who Ive only known for about 6 months...  But all of these people combined  have made my world a much better place. The love that I feel for these individuals is endless. I would be lost without each and every one of them. 

My only real reason for this blog is to tell all of you that I love you deeply and I appreciate you.  You are all amazing people and deserve the world.  Thank you for everything and thank you for just being a part of my life...

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Falling Apart
Category: Writing and Poetry

Im screaming so loud in my head
and I dont know how to make it stop
My life feels like a merry-go-round;
it just goes in circles
no begining and no end
The anxitey I feel inside is tearing me apart
piece by piece
breaking me down
more then I can handle
Im broken, and Im not sure how to fix it
fix me
One step foward and five steps back
story of my life
Im spinning so fast it makes makes me sick
Can I please get off this ride and try another?!

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Love in the snow
Category: Writing and Poetry

Snow falls so gently
beautiful peace, I sit
and I fall in love

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Gay, Straight or Bi?...
Category: News and Politics

Here's a news article that a friend sent me...  I thought it was interesting.  Take a look if youd like.

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Jeanna Bryner
LiveScience Staff Writer
LiveScience.com
2 hours, 40 minutes ago



Bisexuality in women could be a lifelong sexual orientation, not a phase, a new study suggests. The finding runs counter to the idea that bisexuality is an experimental or transitional period for women who, for instance, are uncertain or have fear of commitment.

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In addition to debunking stereotypes about bisexuality, the research sheds light on the complex nature of sexual orientation in women.


"These findings demonstrate that the distinction between lesbianism and bisexuality is a matter of degree rather than kind," writes University of Utah psychologist Lisa Diamond in the January issue of the journal Developmental Psychology.


Lack of research


To some, a finding of bisexuality as a separate sexual orientation may seem like a no-brainer. But among many scientists and members of the public, bisexuality has been defined by stereotypes and unfounded assumptions.


"There were clearly some theorists who suggested that bisexuality is a transitional stage, but that was largely based on anecdotal, rather than empirical, data," said psychologist M. Paz Galupo, director of LGBT (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender) Studies at Towson University in Maryland. "This view is popularized, also, by the stereotypes that our culture holds regarding bisexual individuals."


Galupo continued: "This notion that bisexuality is just a transition identity has not been challenged much in the research literature, partially because there are only a few researchers investigating sexual orientation who fully take bisexual experience/identity into account."


Galupo, who was not involved in the current research, noted that Diamond's study is one of the first thorough looks at bisexuality using a sort of gold-standard method in which individuals are followed over a long period of time.


10-year survey


Diamond surveyed 79 women aged 18 to 25 who considered themselves bisexual or lesbian, or who refused any label for their sexual orientation. She interviewed the women five times over a 10-year period from 1995 through 2005. Respondents gave detailed information on their sexual identities, attractions, behaviors and their social and familial relationships.


Diamond found bisexual and unlabeled women were more likely than lesbians to change their sexual identity over the 10 years. The bisexual or unlabeled women tended to switch between bisexual and unlabeled rather than to lesbian or heterosexual.


Nearly 20 percent of respondents switched from a bisexual or unlabeled identity to heterosexual, but more than half of these women switched back to bisexual or unlabeled.


By year 10 of the study, most of the women reported being involved in a long-term, monogamous relationship for more than a year.


Flexible and fluid


The results suggest that women's definitions of lesbianism allowed more flexibility in sexual behavior than did their definitions of heterosexuality.


For instance, 15 percent of the women who identified as lesbian in the last round of interviews reported having sexual contact with a man during the prior two years. However, women who settled on a heterosexual label in the last interviews reported having no sexual contact with a woman within the previous two years.


"This provides further support for the notion that female sexuality is relatively fluid and that the distinction between lesbian and bisexual women is not a rigid one," Diamond said.


Bisexual identity

Perhaps even more so than lesbians, bisexual women have more hurdles to clear before they are at the very least accepted by societies.

"One challenge facing bisexually identified women is that their identity is challenged by others," Galupo told LiveScience, "and that identity becomes assumed based on the relationships that they form — either lesbian if in a same-sex relationship or heterosexual if in an other-sex relationship."

Galupo mentions other misconstrued attitudes about bisexuality, including the idea "that it is adopted because it is trendy, or because bisexual individuals cannot make up their minds, that they are promiscuous, or that they have to be having multiple relationships with both women and men in order to maintain their identities."

In addition to nixing on-the-street prejudices, a more accurate understanding of bisexuality, Galupo noted, could have implications for the scientific field.

"Bisexuality is often defined by default — in terms of what it is not — bisexual individuals are neither heterosexual nor gay and lesbian. So understanding bisexuality can tell us a lot about our general definitions of sexuality," Galupo said.

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Calling (Titled by Larry)
Category: Writing and Poetry

Beautiful light
as angels come touching down
blissful embrace;gone.
Hair blows in the wind;
sea breeze sweeter then candy;
love is by the sea.
My star shines brightly
I hear your voice calling me
you go, as it dims.

Funny cause this started out as 3 seperate Haikus, but Larry said it would be better as a complete poem.  So here it is, tell me what you think...

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Haiku
Category: Writing and Poetry

Ok so the other night I gave Larry a 3 minute challenge to write a Haiku about the best subject ever... ME!  And this is what he came up with.

Carol

Sun laughing brilliant

Soulful deep of moons embrace

Dancing among stars.

Isnt it beautiful?!  I love it!  It just screams CAROL!

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Good-Bye
Category: Writing and Poetry

Torn between two thoughts

confused

and no where to go

My heart

continues to say yes

wanting you close to me

But my head

is telling me no.

It will never work

Why must it all be so difficult?

It shouldnt be this way

I liked you, and I thought you felt the same.

But so easy it is for you to run

I thought it was worth the fight

but we werent in the same place at the same time

I was here with love in my hand

and you; still torn

not here nor there

And now

nothing left to do

 but to say good-bye

I say good-bye

with a tear in my eye

For what I wanted was just to be happy

Just you and I.  

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The House My Grandpa Built (first draft)
Category: Writing and Poetry

A place

where so many of my happy

childhood memories lye...

Now bring me sadness and tears.

I remember

 the closer we got to you

 the happier I was. 

Even as small as I was,

 I couldnt read the signs

but seening that one big green sign

I knew I was but a few minutes away.

This small house 

 so grand to me it was. 

The house my Grandpa built. 

The only thing but the best

that was left after him.

The cancer over took

and her body bleed

from places you can only imagine. 

So young and beautiful,

 so much ahead of her that she could not see,

 it should have never been that way.

And just 5 days later

 the sadness took over

and he too was gone never to come back again.

 Is this possible?  Who knows,

but  no other reason was given.

22-14-11

And now,

now they had to fend for themselves. 

 They tried and tried

anything there little hands could do.

To help them stay alive.

22-

Now 6 feet under. 

He couldnt bear to stay

so he ran. 

 Further then he knew he could. 

 So far

he only found his way back

as he crawled to his death.

14-

The mother now. 

In many more ways then one. 

She left school to care for the baby. 

And now here she lyes on her death bed. 

 Body full of cancer

and no one left to care for her.

 She is what makes me smile.  She is why I couldnt wait to get here.

The house my grandpa built.

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Now a grown man.

He does what he can

his family, work.

Heck!  He got a second chance. 

He goes to see her and care for her

 but all he brings is tears.

One tear for the happiness of family.

One tear for the brother who has passeed.

and One tear for the thought that this may be the last time they see eachother.

All my wonderful childhood memories...Gone. 

As I help you dress like you did for me once. 

 I cook you a little something and hope you can keep it down. 

As I see you lye there with no strength to help yourself. 

And as I leave you behind and wonder if Ill see you again before you go.

All my memories gone. 

 The love I have is the same

but the memories over shadowed  by the sadness.

And now I say goodbye

with the hope that I WILL see you again. 

You were my happiness

in this house my Grandpa built...  <3

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My Body Tingles (final draft)
Category: Writing and Poetry

Just the thought of

you

makes my body
tingle; like the song says,
"it starts in my toes, makes me

wiggle

my nose"....
I feel my toes start to
curl...just the
thought of you;
your hands running over my

hand

and playing
with my fingers.
My stomach starts to turn as
you get closer
and closer to me
and you...

and gently

kiss my forehead.
The hairs; little
on the back of my
neck start
to tickle as you
caress my...face,

and I close my eyes.

You take me over and,

ah, I fall

in love
the beat of you
next to me...
And here I feel at home
and safe in your arms.

No one can see me

here and nothing can hurt me.
You are my strength.
And here is were I am

finally
at peace with

myself.

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