ray of light
Current mood: awake
Category: Life

brillance shatter's,

across black steel.

though the paint is

rusty,

patched w/ dirt,

radiance bounces off.

as though it can not

help itself.

dancing like a careless child,

shoeless in the rain.

leaving me w/ a

sense of anticipation,

for what's to happen next.

gathering my thought's,

gripping my emotion's,

reeling myself in,

my morning's shine

so bright!

first wake w/ u ;

past / present / future

MUSE.

engaging out of slumber,

has never been

so sweet.

looking into the next

moment after moment,

just to catch a glimpse

of the next shade of light.

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I’ve been waiting for 30 my whole life.
Current mood: satisfied
Category: Life

Thats right.

Im about to be 30 on the 18th of November.

Watch out humans! This is my month of :

SCORPIO!!!

The ruler of Scorpio is Pluto. Prior to the discovery of the ninth planet, Scorpio was ruled by Mars, which is still considered co-ruler. The sign of cosmic purpose, Scorpio is considered the success sign. Self contained and self centered, concentrated Scorpios usually succeed in what they set out to accomplish.

Scorpions are known for their intense and powerful natures. They are willful, proud and calm with an electrifying undercurrent of seething intensity. Purposeful and animated with force, they project a magnetic personality.

Scorpio Zodiac in stained glass
Lausanne Cathedral, Switzerland,
Mid-thirteenth century

Their demeanor is dignified and reserved, affable and courteous, and many have a gaze that is both direct and penetrating. Their secretive natures make them natural detectives. Many Scorpios possess a suspicious outlook, and need to know the reasons behind everything. Scorpio does nothing in half measures. An all or nothing attitude permeates their entire life. When fixed on something or someone, the scorpion perseveres. Scorpio never settles. Life is meant to be lived to the fullest or not at all. ..>..> ..> ..>..>..>

Scorpio Associations Nature: Negative Quality: Fixed Element: Water Symbols: Eagle, Scorpion Glyph: Colors: Maroon, Dark Red Metals: Steel, Iron Gem: Opal Animals: Eagles, Insects Golden Eagle Dual Aspect of Scorpio

Scorpio will rarely be found in the center of activity, but will always know just what is going on of concern to him. Their tenacity and willpower are enviable, their depth of character and passionate conviction admirable, but it is their deep sensitivity that makes them the best and most loyal friend. This same quality makes them the most treacherous of enemies. Personification of the Moon (Luna), seen here processing through the sign of Scorpio. Italian manuscript, fifteenth century. Their sensitivity, and pride allow them to be easily hurt, quick to feel insult or injury, even when none is intended, and easily roused to heights of anger. An angry Scorpio is a sight to see. Unlike Leo, who can have a temper tantrum and five minutes later be quite himself again, Scorpio seethes, and doesn't give it up. When they harness their abundant energy constructively, their self-confidence tempered with shrewdness, and their ambition coupled with generosity toward others, they excel at whatever they undertake. Scorpios are demanding of others, but never ask someone to do what they would not do themselves. They can be fanatically focused and work till they drop, and ask the same of those around them. No middle ground for a Scorpio, all or nothing. Scorpio imagination and intuition are excellent. They possess refined critical perception and strong analytical ability. In addition, they seem to demonstrate a natural healing power. These abundant gifts allow Scorpions to penetrate the most profound subjects. They are serious folk, but quite charming to people they like, and when social events call for it. Their tragic flaw is their immense pride. Once wronged, once Scorpio's pride has been diminished, the game of courtesy is over.

Scorpio is the eighth Sign of the Zodiac, and you shouldn't take that lightly. You shouldn't take Scorpios lightly, either. Those born under this Sign are dead serious in their mission to learn about others. There's no fluff or chatter for Scorpios, either: these folks will zero in on the essential questions, gleaning the secrets that lie within. Scorpios concern themselves with beginnings and endings, and are unafraid of either; they also travel in a world which is black and white and has little use for gray. The curiosity of Scorpios is immeasurable, which may be why they are such adept investigators. These folks love to probe and know how to get to the bottom of things. The fact that they have a keen sense of intuition certainly helps.

It's the Scorpion which symbolizes Scorpios, and it's no accident. Much like the Scorpion would rather kill itself than be killed, those born under this Sign are the ones who are in ultimate control of their destiny. It is life on the Scorpion's terms, too, since these folks promote their agenda (they are quite the executives) and see to it that things go forward. Others may find this overbearing (it can be) and even self-destructive, but that's the beauty of the Scorpion: these folks have tremendous regenerative powers, much like the literal Scorpion can lose its tail and promptly grow a new one. Fearless Scorpions rarely lose, per se, they just keep on going, since they are stubborn and determined to succeed (this Scorpio trait is in keeping with the Fixed Quality assigned to this Sign). Scorpios work as hard as they do so they can someday sit back and feel satisfied with themselves. These folks are intense, passionate and filled with desire. They're also complex and secretive, so don't expect to get much out of them, lest they become suspicious and exit stage left. It's best not to bet against Scorpios, either, since these folks are surprisingly resourceful.

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she sings to me
Current mood: curious
Category: Life

think i’m going for a walk now
i feel a little unsteady
i don’t want nobody to follow me
’cept maybe you
i could make you happy you know
if you weren’t already
i could do a lot of things
and i do

tell you the truth i prefer
the worst of you
too bad you had to have a better half
she’s not really my type
but i think you two are forever
and i hate to say it but
you’re perfect together

so fuck you
and your untouchable face
and fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch
and who am i
i bet you can’t even tell me that much

two-thirty in the morning
and my gas tank will be empty soon
neon sign on the horizon
rubbing elbows with the moon
a safe haven of sleepless
where the deep fryer’s always on
radio is counting down
the top 20 country songs
and out on the porch the fly strip is
waving like a flag in the wind
y’know, i don’t look forward
to seeing you again soon
you’ll look like a photograph of yourself
taken from far far away
and i won’t know what to do
and i won’t know what to say

except fuck you...

i see you and i’m so perplexed
what was i thinking
what will i think of next
where can i hide
in the back room there’s a lamp
that hangs over the pool table
and when the fan is on it swings
gently side to side
there’s a changing constellation
of balls as we are playing
i see orion and say nothing
the only thing i can think of saying

is fuck you...

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daft punk was phenomenal
Category: Music

daft punk @ redrocks.

yea,.. I jet setted to a truly unforgetable show!!

i cant belive what i witnessed. what a beautiful setting. took my breath away a few times.

(that might also have something with the altitude up there.)

i danced on a very steep set of stairs for 2 1/2 hours

straight,.... (crazy)

the after party where Sebastian was playing

( the milk bar) got busted,...

but the Woody McBride/Lunatik after party saved us,..

cuz i wasnt done dancing yet!!! And let me tell ya,.... Woody showed up! ive seen him play atleast 5 times, and this one was definitely the best set i've seen from him, hands down!!

wish you all couldve been there w/ me.

cuz it was ravetastic.

they are playing again @

Vegoose in Las Vegas, with a tremendous

line up check it :

http://www.vegoose.com/index3.htm

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The LandLord
Category: Life

http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/74

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promise,...
Current mood: drunk
Category: Life

Ya know that I want your loving
but my logic tells me it ain't never gonna happen
and then my defenses say I didn't want it anyway
but you know, sometimes I'm a liar.

Could you ever want me to love you?
Could you ever want me to care?
Disregard my nervousness
Please ignore my vacant stares
Just what I've been through
is nothing like where I'm going to
Give me some sign of pursuit
a promise
and you're unhappy
this is only a guess.

Do you know what it's like to hate
when it's way down deep inside?
Oh God I hate what's been done to my life
I could rule the pain
I could rule the night
or would I ruin my salvation
ruin my mind?
Rule your pains
Rulers of the night
Ruin your salvation
Ruin your mind

Ba da ba da ba ba ba ba da da
Ba da ba da ba ba ba ba da da
Ba da ba da ba ba ba ba da da
Ba da ba da ba ba ba ba da da

Ya know that I want your loving
But Mr. Logic, Mr. Logic tells me it ain't never gonna happen
And then my defenses say
Well, I I I didn't want it anyway
But you know, sometimes I'm a liar

Could you ever want me to love you?
Could you ever want me to care?
Disregard my nervousness
Please ignore my vacant stares
Just what I've been through
is nothing like where I'm going to
Give me some sign of pursuit
a promise
a promise...
and you're unhappy
and you're unhappy
and you're unhappy
and you're unhappy
this is only a guess.

--G. Gano

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today's random thought
Current mood: contemplative

From now on, I can only hold tight to those things that enable my soul's freedom.

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Cuz Im bossy
Current mood: devious
Category: Romance and Relationships

http://www.musicsting.com/video/185/Kelis/Bossy.html

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need
Current mood: mellow
Category: Life

it will be 3 years and 9 mos since i went on holiday.

and no, float trips dont count, cuz i usually end up workin

my ass off to make sure everything goes as planned,

and something always goes wrong on float trips.

anyhoo,.. i digress.

boca raton/south beach was more than i couldve asked for.

i wept when i left the airport in ft. lauderdale back to KC.

im such a puss.

at the end of july i will venture to redrocks

colorado in search

of some serious R & R, mental & spiritual healing/growth.

now of course i will be there for the Daft Punk show,

but, before and after that it will just be

day hiking, record & shoe shopping, eating great food

& enjoying denver.

yup.

i will barely pack.

as i will need nothing more than

a few changes of underwear & my tooth brush.

the end of july is closer than it seems.

and im ready for it.

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Fight Scene!
Current mood: crazy

If you like kung-fu, you should like this one!!

Click here:

http://www.unc.edu/~rhillman/flash/fight.swf

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