Gifts can be curses..... Windows to make you feel helpless
Current mood: focused

Why do they give me this gift ? This window into souls. I have a friend out there that is hurting my gifts show me his pain and his hurt they have shown me for 2 weeks. Two weeks of peering through a window that only results in my feeling of helplessness. I have called him many times left him many messages. I want him to know  I am there for him that I know whats happening. But you see thats the curse of being giifted with windows.

Windows can often reflect like mirrors and i know why my friend wont call me back or answer the phone. In the past i have judged him i have tried to share what the windows have shown me, and even though he listened, he didnt hear, until all that the windows revealed manifested in his lifes lessons....and i was an ass and i couldnt resist the smug place of saying i told you so.

Thats the problem with gifts ...they can swell your head...so large until ...it blocks all real reasons that the window/gifts were bestowed upon in the first place. So like many, my gift is a curse, and so is my ego.

But if you are reading this and feeling this please know i genuinely feel and see whats happening and i promise on all that i hold dear....that those words you fear....wont spill from my lips.

So reach, call and know i am here just let me hear your voice if not for anything so the goddam windows will close - after all i have my own windows to screw up :)

So if you can see this J.D. this message is for you....

These arms for you are open
This heart for you does care
And when I think you need me
I'll try to always be there

I'll listen to your fears
I promise not to laugh
Comfort your falling tears
It has made this friendship last

I'll keep you near to my heart
I'll always hold you dear
Even when we're miles apart
Even when you're here

I hope I am to you
Everything you are to me
For the friendship we have
Is a special one indeed.

A

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Ten things I have learned in my 10 months being single

1. There will always be someone that hates you. But there will always be someone thats loves you as well. Look at both sides of everything.

2. I have learned that things don't have to be done perfectly. If I wait until I have time to do the job "perfectly" it will never get done.

3. You will recieve exactly as much help in crisis as you gave insomeone else's crisis. think of it as an account from which you deposit and withdraw. but the people who help you might not bethe same ones you helped, and vice versa.

4. Trust Your Intuition-It's right more often than you know, and I've made the mistake to ignore it all too often.

5. You can get over a broken heart. The feeling of being in love is beautiful, but life is so much larger than that feeling. You are responsible for your own happiness.

6. Know who you are Many people live their whole lives without knowing who they truly are. They seek to live out their destiny through the direction and example of others and they never venture outside the realm of the unknown to solidify the path that belongs to them alone. When you have a firm belief in WHO YOU ARE, no one can belittle, discourage or demoralise you, for your identity is forged in your own soul, not validated by the words and actions of others.

7. YOU are your own voice. Our lives can so often be dictated by the voices, thoughts and opinons of others. Though often, great strength and wisdom can be gleaned by our mentors in life, we do run the risk of our own voice being deafened out.

8. You don't own an idea until you understand it with your heart.

9. I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you
   the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

10. I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
    
    
    
    

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New Boss, Bad Boss and the reincarnation of E.R.
Current mood: creative

Saturday, November 18, 2006

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The Curse of Charlies Angels
Current mood: accomplished

Is there some sort of paranormal curse that lingers/lingered over the cast of Charlies Angels ?The original stars of the hit TV show,Kate Jackson, Jaclyn Smith and Farrah Fawcett have all suffered from major tragedies since appearing in the 1970's show. Fawcett has been divorced twice since she left the under cover show while Jackson, 51, has battled breast cancer and gone under the knife for open heart surgery and Smith has failed to find love and motherhood after a twenty year search. ( is that really so bad ? lol) Some even say that the charlies angels movies were also hit by curses and im not just talking about Bill Murray walking off the set over the stupid script.

2006–Fawcett,  has anal/intestional cancer . – (originally cast in Farrah's role was Suzanne Somers, who also had breast cancer.)(Farrah has been divorced twice….does Ryan o'Neal count ?)

2006–John Forsythe – Has colon cancer.

2002–Jaclyn Smith had breast cancer.

2000–While filming and producing the Charlies Angels remake movie…Drew Barrymore's boyfriend at the time Tom Green was diagnosed with cancer during the production schedule.

1997 David Doyle got lucky and died of a quick and painless heart attack.

1987, Kate Jackson had breast cancer.( also had open heart surgery)

(Jaclyn Smith and Kate Jackson both had 3 failed marriages)

Spelling died of a stroke in 2006 but was diagnosed with oral cancer in 2001.

Cheryl Ladd, Shelly Hack and Tanya Roberts  next ?? ( insert Angel's segue music here …)

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60 second hollywood rap -up

Paris Hilton gives up sex for a year not even for a fee,
Hear that sigh of relief from the CDC ?

Hey Mel Gibson over there on the Titanic,
Learn from Robin Williams.. its ok to be a drunk just not anti-semantic.

It used to be, nothing could hurt a marriage like the need to be free,
But ask Jess,Nick, the Barkers and others the ultimate ruin could be MTV.

Screech scuffled with a chick in a Nebraska hotel,
Both claim rape and attack before being saved by the bell.

How can she deny the ring she has carried ?
truth is Jennifer Aniston- no one gives a shit if you get married.

Fresh from saving the soul of Kate Moss,
 the Pope and his cult begged Madonna not to get on the cross.

Where's baby Suri - its the hot talk,
Maybe we dont see her because she has a face that can stop a clock.

Jenna Jameson and Dave Navarro ...for this you give up Carmen Electra ? How bizzaro !

Richard Hatch meets the slammer,
and his new cell mate the velvet hammer.

Now no one wants to see our troops under attack...
yet we consider sending Lindsey Lohan off to Iraq ?

Who ever thought that sweet Diane Lane...
Was the total inspiration for Bon Jo vi's- You give love a bad name !

Fans of  Ellen Burstyn I feel your elation....
But 38 words in 14 seconds deserves an emmy nomination ?

Poor Michael Jackson the victim of a global conspiracy to make him go broke,
But isn't it his own actions... really what makes him a dope ?

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My new theme song and set

Play this short song while reading the bottom

http://home.comcast.net/~fablush/Join-rhoda1c.mp3

My name is Alex Palermo I was born in Lowell Mass in 1967 I like to think my conception was the prelude to the summer of love -but who am i kidding it was more like the result of a box of wine.

I first thing I remember liking that liked me back was television, i had a long painful puberty in fact im 38 and I still get zits.

I'm a high school graduate, i studied mediumship after i found out dead people were the only ones that actually werent afraid of me.

When i was 19 years old my mother threw me out of the house for being gay, the next week she let my brother move back in for the same reason.

Eventually i ended up in Revere and Somerville where the people were cold and uncaring and I figured I could hide in my house forever.

But now I'm back on Meridien Street.... East Boston this is your last chance !

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The first week after my breakup with Joe
Current mood: bitchy
Category: Blogging

Well one week ago this past Tuesday my partner of the last 7 years left our home and moved to New York. There something to be said though for being left for 8 million people as opposed to say one guy heh. Seemed like one day we made the decision to grow seperately and then faster than you could say Saddam left the palace he was gone in a flash. He paid some guy off craigslist like 450 bucks to bring him and all his shit down to New york . But to joe's credit he kept his word about not leaving the state until he was sure i had a place to go when our lease term was up aug 1st. The day before he left he took me for lunch and to look at an apartment in East Boston (see ya later somerville!!) which we both agreed would be an excellent home for me and my newly products of a divorced home 3 dogs.

So like Rhoda, Mary, Alexis and so many other Divas of television before me ...off into the world i go like a white winged dove.

There are times i am sad , times I am angry and times I have to listen to people say stupid shit to me like :

1. You will find someone better.

2. He will be back

3. Time heal all wounds.

Ok i'll say this here cuz im like really afraid I may like kill the next messenger of stupid shit said to me..... He's not coming back you stupid f*cks ! Least not to me ...we had  7 years together  7 wonderful years I dont and wont ever regret... 7 of the best years of my goddam messed up sitcom of a so called life.... I may love again -although right now that seems as possible as George Bush being elevated to King - But get this straight all you purveyors of pop psychology/Dr Phil daytime TV self help vomitariumn subscribers- I will never find anyone better.  Sure time heals all wounds- and just how the f*ck is that supposed to make me feel better now ? lol whew ok i feel better already :)

I have good days and bad days in this grieving process high moments and low moments. ..... and yeah maybe now I'm in that healthy anger stage after being sad and eating everything in sight for a week ...I still have to stay in this place until the end of july and i still see him everywhere I look and you know what ? It sucks ...it really sucks.

I wont go into the other shit bothering me like how it always seems the other person is never as affected as you are when you tear each others hearts out ...or the fact that I hear from him  about  his dates  and new friends/encounters etc.  I say this i love him and a part of me always will and its been one week without him and it still sucks.

i leave you with the immortal words of Oliva Newton John - yeah ok shoot me but im gay and im a drama queen and im a psychic so im sensative, emotional and a sucker for a somebody hurt me and now im fu*ked kind of song ....

Everyday the pain dies a little

I'm not at the end but I'm way past the middle

I know when I'm all healed up

I'll be back with a heart and ready to love



Good as new or maybe better

So glad to know the tears aren't forever

Tears dry and soon enough

I'll be back with a heart and ready to love



Doesn't mean that all my hurt is through

But more and more I think of me

And less and less of you



Oh you're hard to forget but I'm gonna do it

Thought I would die but I'm living right through it

I won't give up so don't call my bluff

I'll be back with a heart and ready to love



No, it doesn't mean that all my hurt is through

But more and more I think of me

And less and less of you



Everyday the pain dies a little

I'm not at the end but I'm way past the middle

I know when I'm all healed up

I'll be back with a heart and ready to love

I know when I'm all healed up

I'll be back with a heart and ready to love

Ooh ready to love

http://www.fortunecity.com/tinpan/rap/887/bakheart.mid

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Sharon Stone finally gets Head !
Current mood: accomplished

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6 Reasons to Watch TV this Summer by Alex Palermo
Current mood: amused

Well, May sweeps have come and gone, a new Idol was crowned and Lost got even weirder. But don't turn that new HDTV flat-screen plasma high-tech thingamajiggie off just yet. Ive scoured the summer viewing choices and have compiled 10 good reasons to watch TV this summer.

 1 The Closer The 2nd season kicks off Monday June 12th with a guilty, pleasure-filled commercial free hour of what is probably the summers best returning show.When it debuted last summer it broke all records as the highest non-season debut for a cable network series.

            Kyra Sedgwick effortlessly plays LA Deputy chief Brenda Johnson  a former C.I.A. trained master interrogator who heads the High Priority Murder Squad; shes a high strung southern girl that wears bright pink lipstick and speaks in a Georgia honey soaked drawl. Whether she is fumbling for her keys in her purposely and brilliantly played oversized handbag or sneaking a snack cake moment born out of her sugar-fueled borderline eating disorder, Brenda shows us that she can be smart, frail and flawed all at the same time and who among us human salt-bags cant identify with that hey Im human and I have faults but dammit I can do my job modern day mantra that echoes everywhere, whether it be the Apprentice board room or an undersized work cubicle at Fidelity Investments that some of us call our summer house.

           Brenda prizes her work above everything, much to the chagrin of her FBI agent boyfriend. But spend two minutes in any show watching her carve confessions out of suspects in the interrogation room as effortlessly as Rosie O'Donnell can make an ass out of herself after a two minute rant in her online blog, and you too will see why the Closer is one of the best reasons to watch TV this summer.

2. Big Brother 7 Allstar Edition Personally, I am hoping this is the Big Brother that makes the last six years of unswerving dedication to 3x a week shows and all night Internet viewing with other rampant online voyeuristic insomniacs worth it. Hell, how could it not? Will it matter? Big Brother has one of the most dedicated Internet intensive core audiences of any reality show, this is the edition the fans have demanded, requested and ultimately got. One other person has wanted this to happen for a long time now as well  CBS morning show anchor Julie Chen who moonlights as BBs mistress of ceremonies and purveyor of randomly stupid and often irritating interview questions and comments. The diehard Internet spawned BB fans have had a long standing love/hate relationship with as they have dubbed her The Chen Bot whether it be her body glitter soaked Versace pantsuit appearances or her ability to completely miss the mark in interviewing newly booted evacuates from the hamster-like compound at CBS Studios lot, Julie Chen returns to once again prove that you can still be a mediocre host and be welcomed back of course being married to CBS President Les Moonves should have some kind of privilege other than always having hemorrhoid cream available at an arms length.

Look for Ms Chen to announce which producer picked villains and internet cult chosen ones will enter the house in a live announcement special around June 20th and then the regular season debuting right on or after July 4th.

3. Hex BBC America proudly imports one of its Sky One hit tween/adult romantic fantasy mystery drama-esque hits to our tawdry TV sets here across the pond. Its like Buffy meets Veronica Mars on the way to Charmed with a lesbionic flavored hint of the Ghost Whisperer. Knowing that this has been on the air for a couple of seasons in the UK, I downloaded the 1st and 2nd season on Bittorrent and dare I say with complete humility Im hooked. Truth be told it starts slow  give it a few episodes, it really picks up and shows much promise. It reeks of a vibe as if Anne Rice took ecstasy with Sandra Bernhardt while watching back to back marathons of Charmed, Sabrina, and Queer as Folk.

        Sure, at times it could be viewed as being guilty of pretentiousness and slow moving, but hey its British after all. But if you envision a high school where Carrie could date Angel you should watch this show right after of course getting some time in with a trained professional. Im sure its no accident that the lead character is played by an actress that could have been Buffys stunt double but hey this is our karma for turning Robins Nest into Threes Company

              The Buffy-esque head witch has a dead lesbian ghost for a best friendeat your heart out Anne Hechethat looks like Kelly Osbourne but acts like Patsy and Edwina except with potato chips and a wardrobe fresh out of the nearest Hot Topic store at your local mall substituting for pharmaceuticals and booze. Together they unravel the mystery of their school, the witches lineage and all the secrets in between, including a sanitarium-bound mother and a high profile surname absent father. It moves slowly at first but frankly Im glued to it. More to its credit, "Hex" isn't afraid of the dark. Just as it indulges in comedy, it can be at turns erotic and twisted.

4. Rescue Me Written produced and co-created by Dennis Leary, on any given week this summer Rescue Me could be televisions brightest, smartest, grittiest, and darkest hour. Which in case youre not keeping score, translates into goddam good television. This season could be called A Tale of Two Brothers, as most of the pivotal arcs center around Learys character and his brother, played brilliantly by Dean Winters of Oz and Law and Order fame, although I admit its hard to accept an actor in any role after seeing his flaccid penis on Oz. This guy must be good because 10 minutes into it I forgot all about it.

           The brothers play tit for tatso to speakby bedding each others respective ex-wives and Marisa Tormei gives one of her best performances as Winters conniving beauty school-esque dropout type Brooklyn infused heavy accented ex-wife. But Tormei isnt the only Oscar nominated Star on Rescue Me this season, Susan Sarandon goes above and beyond playing an older woman lover to a young male characters highly impressionable and apparently horny firefighter buddy of Learys.

             The strongest suit of Rescue Me is at the core crossing point where the central characters are most alike, for you see what they all need to be desperately rescued from is a machichismo-bravado type of self-loathing that is usually only evident in doomed-to-be-miserable lesbian characters in network television serials. Almost every episode is like a gothic journey to the darkest side of man with occasional light spots well-illuminated with the likes of the overly underappreciated Lenny Clarke and stodgy Charles Durning. Televisions finest hour this summer without a doubt.

5. Who Wants to be a Superhero? Premieres July 27th on the Sci-Fi network. Have fun as you watch grown men and other assorted geeks freaks and total dorks make the transition of fond memories of childhood games wearing towels and pretending to fly off the edge of your family picnic table to adults seeking more in life as they compete to be the ultimate superhero and have Stan Lee design a comic book based on their hero and its lore. Wait, put the remote down Im not done.

             The summer of 2006 brings you Supermans Returnand the final X-men Im sure after that you can squeeze in some time watching grown adults go through a reality show course of challenges and tests to prove their moral fiber and ultimately reveal their own true inner heroes. Besides the notoriety, the winner of this six-week competition will walk away with their superhero identity immortalized in a new comic book created by Stan Lee himself which will most probably it is safe to say mark the first time a former reality star actually cannot go anywhere in public for a while just a guess but hey who knows. 

6. Weeds This August marks the return of Mary Louise Parker as the suburban pot-selling mom that garnered her a Golden Globe award this past winter. The  main star is supported by a great cast that includes cherubic Kevin Nealon as the stoner accountant Doug and Elizabeth Perkins who in her own right should win an award as Parkers neurotic yet likeable friend Celia.

                   Aside from the shows obvious controversial theme and the fact there just may not be enough pot-selling soccer moms out there to identify with the newly widowed Parkers character. This is a flawless first class production which in two main ways is very surprising first, consider this show runs on a premium cable network with a subscriber base of 14 million (half of HBOs 28 million) second, this is also the same channel that insulted our intelligence with Kirstie Alleys Fat Actress.  That being said, the strongest asset of the show remains the writing and Mary Louise Parker. Like a pot-selling Mary Tyler Moore with a dirty mouth, she plays a well dressed, slightly unhinged, believable attractive woman the likes of which we TV viewers have not seen  since Emma Samms on The Colbys. Parkers relationship with the African-American family that supplies her with the product may at times border on racism but before it goes completely over the line it ends up teaching us the difference between these familieslike with all raceslies more within where they are the same than it does from where they are different.

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Faye Dunaway Stretched and pulled

whoa

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