The 10 Year Anniversary

I'll be honest, everyone else is going to write about 9/11 and the two towers and New York . . .

But I'm a Leo and I was really mad when they decided to take my day away from me.

It was Thursday, September 11th, 1997 when I first met my soulmate, yes, the one from the original how I awakened to my psychic abilities story, and the one that died of Lukemia 2 years later.

Sad day all around I guess, just always feel like I have to remember today it's like of all beginnings, this one comes every year and no matter where I am or what I'm doing I always remember that day.

This day and December 6th, 2003. the day I was reunited with my soulmate.

:)

In respect of the dead today, I'm choosing to remember Lee, the boy from Castleford, England that I met at Typhoon Lagoon 10 years ago to the day.

Blessings,
Rhiannon

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Cloak and Dagger
Current mood: ecstatic
Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping

Second hand stores carry the greatest things. I milled around the Value Village today, Savers for you American folks, and I was somewhat filled with an energy I couldn't describe. I wasn't quite bored of seeing the same old things, but I wasn't quite excited to be in the store. I browsed by a cute pair of slip on pink runners, the maryjane style ones. I slipped one on, it was comfortable, surprising for a second hand shoe. But, my foot slid around too much and it was just a tad too small for me. I put them back on the shelf, cute, but no.

I continued around the clothing section and stopped, my eyes were on a winter jacket, it was longer, and it was similar to the one I have that's becoming rather beaten up. I touched it and looked at it, subconsciously knowing there was something in the area I would find. I had looked extensively in that area for what I wanted for months, and never found a thing. The long costs look funny on me with the padded shoulders, and the ones that might have worked were too long. I wanted to buy a winter jacket and have it embroidered with the Celtic Tree of Life symbol. All I needed to find was the perfect coat.

Well this coat was too big anyways so I continued around the other side of the rack and a velvet hood caught my eye. I was idly browsing at this point, spring is on the way, what could I possibly find now? I'll look for another winter jacket in the fall when the time comes. But this time I stopped. I had to just out of curiosity look at the coat with the velvet hood. I put my hand on it, and it felt charged. I went looking for a sleeve, but I didn't find one. "Is this really a cloak?" I asked myself as I pulled the piece off the rack. It was squished tightlty between heavy wool coats, and it had been hung up backwards so it took some extra effort.

But there it was, a barely ever worn, european style, velvet black cloak. It's about  quarters body length, but it was absolutely beautfil. I got chills just holding it. I immediately sped off to the chage room area, and seeing the line up and the massive amounts of clothing, I decided, I couldn't wait. There was a mirror there, I would try that first. I quickly ripped off my winter jacket and slid the cloak around my shoulders.

Perfect fit.

I did the first button up and left the other 2 available buttons, it was missing one, but a cloak really only needs a clasp and if anything, I'll get rid of the bulky buttons later.

The cloak was great, it fit, it was long enough and it looked spectacular on me.

One more thing . . . the hood. It was a modest hood, not the huge druid style hoods that go over the head, but it was big enough that it looked both modern and mystical at the same time.

Then a woman behind me gasped, and I turned around giving her almost the same look I am in the picture and she says, "Wow, that suits you so well. You look like one of those, like one of those people in the forest, around a fire or something, what in the heck are they called?" and I said, "Oh, you mean a witch?" "Yes! a witch, sorry I know absolutely nothing about this, but you just look so stunning in that cloak, really, it suits you and you should get it."

I took the cloak off and spent some time chatting with the woman, told her I was a Druid, which is a form of Pagan and that we worship nature and the elements and the divine. I told her the stereotypes are myths, usually when we're around the fire we're channeling energy to heal the earth or something. She was impressed and glad to meet me and she was going to go research Pagans online when she gets home.

It was the first time in my life I've put on a piece of clothing and made someone gasp. That cloak has a lot of energy and I was meant to find it today.

Oh, and the cost? Get jealous . . . it was $10.00.

Blessings,
Rhiannon

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About Me (moved from front page)

Greetings,

I am Rhiannon, intuitive energy healer, psychic medium, channeler, and metaphysical teacher and guide. I am a natural psychic, having abilities that have been passed down to me through the generations. My family is part Irish, part Celtic, and mixed in every other aspect, but from this comes a deeper understanding of where my gifts originated from, and why I have been chosen for this line of work.

I have had my abilities since birth, like many of us do. What is unique is the ways in which our abilities awakened, and under what circumstances. For myself, I awakened due to stress as a child, criticism, misunderstanding, insults, and ignorance. I was not a very liked person, others often thought I was weird, and after suffering a concussion at 7 this title only grew.

Psychic Ability traditionally awakens at the same time the pituitary gland begins to secrete hormones that cause puberty. Due to my sensitivity, this only increased my psychic awareness. At the time I had no guides, or anyone who would believe in what I was experiencing. I wrote most of it down in a diary, and frequented the guidance counselor's office due to harassment at school.
I entered high school, and found a friend by accident, she knew about telepathy, and from that point on, we became each other's support, and experimented on the psychic realm together. We learned about the basics, clairvoyance, empathy, telepathy, astral projection, mediumship, telekinesis and held seances, learned meditation, awakened out past lives.

Spirit guides began coming to me with messages. Everyday, middle of class, before I went to sleep, in dreams, they were literally everywhere. I listened, wrote down what I had learned, and half the time, didn't care to believe them.

In sophomore year I made a major mistake. My abilities were awakening too quickly for me to understand them, and I accidentally channeled a spirit, it was the soul of an ex boyfriend's little sister, who was handicapped when she was alive. I don't think they could have handled the truth, but regardless, the people she had e-mailed during the time I was channeling her was enough to have me committed. I found out that according to the entire school, "I had pretended to be ******** 's sister."

Pain ensued the next time I saw him. Hs aura was black, and I could feel his hatred every moment of the day, and even saw his astral body, which continued to say, "I hate you." I had a panic attack a few nights later, and renounced my abilities. I couldn't handle it, and I couldn't make them believe that I was psychic.

Summer came, and I made new friends, and I pushed the abilities away and what I did experience I put into my diary. I pretended to be very normal for a year, but the awakening process continued. When I graduated, my abilities were almost back to full steam. I would never channel again until I was ready, but I was in need of understanding. This time I was on my own, my best friend had forsaken me and agreed with the rumors, and the friends I had stopped talking to me.

For me, I needed to analyze what was going on in my mind when I had psychic experiences, therefore, I began to write down what I had learned, theories, techniques, exercises and more. I learned from people in forums, and began to build courses on psychic ability.

In addition, I began doing test readings for people on past lives, future lives, clairvoyance and empathy. I soon decided to move this outside of myself for further understanding, and worked at a metaphysical shop called The Haven. I was asked to do tarot readings, and continued to explore astrology, numerology, dream interpretation, and intuition on my own. I also started doing readings for people without divination tools. The Haven closed up a few years ago and I moved on to working in retail.

While working at The Haven, I moved out of my house and met my soulmate. I don't know how else to put that in here, but when I first met him, I was his roommate, and we fell in love because he had abilities too. After we had dated for about four months, my mom sent my stuff to me, and I found my old diaries in the boxes. That was when everything made sense.

In the diaries I found that all my fantasies had come true. The name of my husband to be, the gender of my first child, the color of my house, the traffic levels on my street, the field across the street, the stairs to my main level, even the flowers at my wedding were forgotten, and we picked fresh flowers, and the only ones in bloom for a 2 block radius, were the ones written in my diary. So many coincidences, I had no idea I was a natural psychic until then, my mother was closed to her own ability, and afraid of mine, and I thought I was living in a fantasy world.

This drove me to become tested and certified, and to learn more. I decided to obtain my degree in Usui Reiki, and I was opened to many other healing modalities that I have found beneficial to my practice. I believe the grand total of healing modalities I am attuned to is around 45-50, and I am constantly seeking out new modalities that strike my interest. I have been certified in Usui Reiki, Reiki Grand Master, and Lightarian Reiki to Master Level.

During this time I also sought professional training in metaphysics. I took courses in tarot, astrology, personology, spiritual coaching, and dream interpretation.

My mentor saw great potential in me and asked me to submit the courses I had written over the previous years, and I had written 18 courses by this time. I also wrote a synopsis of the creation of the universe, which tied into my past life and how my soul fits into this world. My intentions were to receive a degree in Metaphysics, but due to my experience, I was given an accredited Bachelor of Science in Metaphysics. This was a good start, but not enough. I also received Psychic Certification, Tarot Master Certification and Spiritual Coach Certification from the World Metaphysical Association.

Recently I learned about the Association of Certified Psychics, and obtained my Certified Psychic stamp of approval.

I began thinking about what kind of business I would do in 2005 and in 2006 I found Kasamba and began working there. I found my skills easy to incorporate, and therefore perform energy healing as well as empathic, clairvoyant and telepathic readings. I also opened to my channeling abilities again in a safe and productive way.

I will always be learning and expanding my knowledge, and I hope that my clients and friends can grow with me, and together we can build a better future, and better world. Somewhere along the lines I also became interested in Druidism, though I have always had a love for nature, and my religious path is another story altogether.

I hope I have inspired you to reach your own goals, or at least ask yourself some of the more important questions about life. If you need someone to talk to, just send me a message, I'll be happy to answer almost anything, just remember that I'm happily married, and have a beautiful daughter, and growing family.

Deep Peace and Blessings,
Rhiannon Evenstar

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Kissing You
Current mood: nostalgic
Category: Romance and Relationships

I was 13 when I met him, and I didn't know. Thought about and told this story a thousand times, always the long version, but here's the short version for once.

I was at a waterpark with my family when I met him. I hung out with him and his sister all day. I didn't see it then, I didn't know, I thought he was a day person, someone I'd leave and never think about again, and it didn't bother me. But when I walked away that day, I actually thought about running back to him and asking him if I could come to England with him, if I could see him again or call him or something, and instead I paused, looked back at him, he winked at me, I waved, and then he left.

A month later I was rewriting my trip journal, and came across the day I spent with him. Suddenly something opened up, and everything came flooding through. I made a list of all the special things he did, stare into my eyes, give me a goofy smile, hold my hand, ask me for my phone number, ask if I would be at another waterpark on the weekend, play with my hair, mention the dream he had about me before he met me,, stand up to my mom when she yelled at me, tell me I'm not ugly . . . the list went on and on . . . but I realized something that day . . .

He loved me, and I missed every sign

It was too late, I was 13, unable to tell a parent or counselor because, kid love, it comes and goes, it's not deep, and they would have made fun of me. So I bottled it up, and prayed he would find me, looked online to see if I could find his e-mail, I found nothing.

I kicked myself time and time again for missing it, and for not even getting his picture, or phone number, or address while I had the chance. I cried myself to sleep everynight because, of all the people I had known, he didn't look at me the way they did, he saw something more, and I wanted to be in his arms, and feel loved.

Six years went by, and I moved out of my parents house and into a shared accomodation. I had a boyfriend and I was finally trying to forget. It was futile, but I had to give it a shot right?

My roommate was a special person, worked 80 hour weeks and we hardly saw each other. Finally we got a chance to talk, usually late night 4 hour conversations about everything, and I told him the long story about the boy I had met as a kid. He was the only person I ever told that said he would try to do something about it.

And he did. A week later he had a file on the computer with his name on it. I clicked on it, and there it was, the boy's name, address and phone number. I paused, took a deep breath, picked up the phone and called the operator. I always told myself if I ever found him, that was it, I would go to him no matter what. The phone rang, and I asked for him. I got his sister instead. She was surprised to hear from me, and after refreshing her memory on who I was, I asked about her brother.

In short, she uncomfortably and awkwardly told me he had died 4 years ago . . . of leukemia, and that I was too late.

I cried, oh hell, I fell into a depression, I didn't want to do anything with my life, frankly suicide would have been nice. But, then I did remember that when I was 15, I used to metaphorically say to myself that he and I would only be together in death, and I remember worrying that he had leukemia because of a dream I had. At the time, I prayed I was wrong, and put it out of mind as completely not possible.

My mom sent me my stuff soon after the call, and my roommate spent many nights talking with me, and taking me out. We were "seeing" each other as the saying goes, but I didn't know where my heart was.

In my stuff I found my diaries, and the entries about death, and the dream, and everything else I ever wrote about him. Then I found one very interesting entry. It was half a page, and it said that the boy I left was dead to me now, that he wasn't my soulmate and that my soulmate's name was Michael and I would marry him.

My roommate's name was Michael . . . and it all just made sense. I was in love again, had been holding myself back and as soon as I read that it was like a blessing from the universe to continue on with my life with Michael and allow the memory of the boy I met to be just that, a memory.

I married Michael, and we got our second chance.

Makes me wonder though, about everyone else who let it pass them by, and then spent their time worrying about that person and being afraid of what they could have with them. I wonder how those people could live so unenlightened, when the best thing to ever walk into their lives is right in front of them and they barely take notice. Has society really become so self centered that connecting to and listening to our souls is foreign and scary?

I always ask people 4 questions to prove if they're in love, and they're quite simple. Ask yourself these questions, I dare you.

1) Do you care about them? By care, I mean do you get a warm feeling in your heart when you're around them, want to do things for them, or make sure they're not in any trouble?

2) Do you worry about them when they haven't been around? Do you feel nervous and anxious when you know it's been too long since they last called you or saw you?

3) Does the thought of seeing them make your heart race? When you do hear from them do you feel the adrenaline running through your veins, and feel a thousand emotions all at once, and does curiosity take you over to the point where you need to know everything they did while they were gone?

4) How much of that do you push away and not pay attention to?

If you answered yes, and if you supress more than 40% of what you feel, then I got news for you, you're in love . . . 

I hope nobody ever has to face what I had to in that phone call. I wish I had the opportunity to be with him before he died, even to talk on the phone with him, to know how much time we really had. We wasted so much time, and all because I missed the signs, was too shy, was too afraid.

:) I still wish he would have kissed me that day, I wouldn't have missed that sign ;)

Blessings,

Rhiannon

P.S. Our song was always Kissing You by Desiree from Romeo and Juliet, listen to it, it's a good song.

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You know you're married when
Current mood: satisfied
Category: Romance and Relationships

I just finished off a reading for a rather intense couple who are very much in love. Of course problems always abound henceforth the need for the reading. I saw the end of the problems and the male in the situation, for once, turning into Mr. Fabio. It was, stereotypically charged, I mean the whole idea for candles, wine, rose petals, and the words, "I want to make love to you." his ideas had just about everything needed to make a woman swoon, oh and to make a psychic feel very very physically hot, (no you sickos get that part out of your head, I blushed, and my body temperature physically heated up a few notches, but the energy was so strong and pure.)

Anyhow, got me to thinking about my own marriage and how that was pretty well exactly how it was in the beginning, "Let me show you how fantastic love can be." and of course I'm married to my soulmate after years of pain of not being with him so you can imagine ;) Okay seriously, nobody is ALLOWED to actually watch my personal life from a psychic perspective, but refer to the above, it was something like that in the beginning, all lovey dovey romantic, and high energy.

Then we had kids . . .

So, you know you're married when, you both become bumbling fools at flirting, and things like, "I wish you didn't wear pants to bed." actually turn you on. I think the greatest line I heard was "The baby is asleep, are you in the mood?" I mean it gets a lot more pathetic than that from, "Are you still awake?" to "Mmmm, it's 6am, guess what I want." and the ever famous, "What do you want me to do to you?" I mean, after 3 years of sleeping with the same person, trying out many different things, that's a really stupid question . . . "You know what I want, so stop asking and just do it."

At least in my case the passion never gets lost, but the turn ons get weirder . . . "I had some pineapple juice today . . . " "I soaked myself in a lavender bubble bath . . . " "La Senza had a lingerie sale . . . " of course, we can never forget the classic, "I'm not working tomorrow," or "I got the weekend off." or "I cleaned out the "insert grossest household duty that nobody wants to do here""

At the end of the day you have to accept that "I want to make love to you." only works once, and so does, "I love how you feel inside me." "I love it when you're on top." "I feel so close to you right now." "I never want this moment to end." "I'll love you forever." "You're incredibly beautiful.", "I love you." and "I want to make love to you all night long." so enjoy it while it lasts, that ought you get you through about 3 months of fun, and then you'll be searching for new words to say what you've always been saying from the beginning . . . "I fixed the toilet and the sink doesn't leak anymore . . . and I want to make love to you."


Blessings,
Rhiannon

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Ethics and Morals
Current mood: calm
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers

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Ethics and Morals

1) Nobody is ever 100% accurate about the future, and to be honest with everyone, reading the future is a much more complicated art than one could possibly imagine. It takes time for me to analyze the present energies and to then follow them to see which energies will become dominant in the future. 2) The best guarantee I can give a person is my honest opinion. I don't spend my time sugarcoating the truth and making things sound better than they seem. If the energy is strongly positive, I will say it is, but I will also take the time to state the possibles blocks and factors to be considered while walking the path. Just because something is positive in the present, doesn't mean it won't hit a road block, and I find that I am very levelheaded about the blocks we face in our lives, and therefore, I make sure to read not only for the positives in the situation, but the negatives as well. 3) I don't do health concerns, lottery numbers, or impossible to answer questions like, "Will I get pregnant?" or "When will I meet my soulmate?" Questions like this don't carry enough of an energetic pull, or the results are too sporadic to pin point an actual answer. 4) I only work online now. No in person readings, no 1-900 number readings, I only work on Kasamba. 5) I take myself very seriously, if you don't, then please don't speak with me, I don't take well to testing, I've been there, done that, by many people agencies and organizations, if you come to me with an honest question, I will respond with an honest answer, simple as that, but I don't do cheap side show tricks. 6) I don't often refer to myself as a Psychic Reader. I find the term rather degrading to be honest with you due to the stereotypes behind the name. Right away people get the wrong idea about what I do. I prefer to call myself a Metaphysical Consultant, someone who has the ability to read intricate energies, balance and weigh those energies, describe personality types, feelings, thoughts, and patterns into the future. This is something that for me is more scientific than it is esoteric, the energy will speak for itself, it is my job to tap into it, to present it to you, and to help you understand it better. If at the end of the reading you understand more about yourself, and more about those around you, then I have done my job. 7) I don't perform spells. I find spells to be a fancy term for "let me change the energy for you so you get what you want." I don't mean to be cruel to those who do spells as I have found people out there who only perform them with good intentions, but for myself, I do not do spells. The reasoning behind this is that a spell always costs extra, and when there are extra costs involved, I myself become skeptical and upset. I would rather send reiki healing energy into the situation, which I can do while I'm tapped in, and I can even see if the soul or psyche is taking the energy well, and then see where they will take the energy into the future. This is also something I do for people, I not only read the energies, but I assist with removing blockages, old patterns of thinking and negativity. I find that if I allow a person to continue feeling rotten about themselves, it makes me feel rotten as well, so I always perform some form of healing during my sessions to help the person on their path. 8) I like listening and helping where I can. If I'm not able to tap into the situation for you, I'll at least give an insight for you if I can. Blessings, Rhiannon

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Disappointment Abounds
Current mood: disappointed
Category: Romance and Relationships

When it comes to clients, I happen to know that not everyone can walk their path straight and make everything work out perfectly like it should. But hey, that's life right, and we all have to accept it and learn from it, and move on from it. Free will is stronger than any psychic energy, and in the end you have to do what feels right to you.

This week was a horrible week of sorts. Note to self: Never read for someone if you're friends with them and really want them to succeed, chances are, you'll help them screw it up worse than it was in the first place.

*shakes head* I wasn't exactly wrong, I read the energy many times, could feel what was going on on the inside, and knew how he felt. I felt a lot of blocks from his end of things so I sent energy to remove the blocks, so that he could move forward. In the long run it would have worked, but I sent too much energy and attempted to remove all the blocks at once, and scared the boy half to death.

OOPS.

I didn't mean to to do that, I just wanted a friend to be happy for once since she deserves it.

Anyhow, not the only disappointment of the week. I've been attempting to help my mom with her own potential and personal power, and at first she was fine with the healing energy but then her mind rejected it, she was afraid of it, and she wouldn't allow herself to accept that she has abilities just  like mine, sometimes stronger even, and so I decided there was nothing more I could do except to give up. I can't help but be emotionally attached to my mother, and I know for a fact that I could have helped her to safely accept it and use her abilities, find her own personal power, and be the best she could be, that she wouldn't feel chest pains in public, or have massive headaches, or be sick all the time if she just accepted it instead of fighting against it. I was also benefitting from her awakening, because I was getting reference to where some of my abilities generated from. The trouble is, she didn't want any of that and didn't want to be different from other people.

Somehow, I can't help but feel that in her own decision to disregard her ability, she was attempting to lead me down the same road, forsake everything I have learned, and be "normal" like the rest of the family. Stupid thing is, rest of the family isn't normal, and they all have abilities. I'm just the first generation in many generations to actually awaken it and use it.

I just wish she would realize that she'll never just be normal, and that no matter how much you renounce your abilities, they are always there.

So there's my spiel of the day, disappointment abounds, some people never reach their true potential, and being pregnant and empathic really has its downside.

(more on that later)

Blessings,
Rhiannon

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Program Leader?
Current mood: excited
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

Greetings,

Every city has a Leisure Guide right? The little book that has activities in it for children, adults and seniors? It usually has dance classes, swimming lessons, arts and crafts, sports, cooking, and all the like.

Anyhow, you usually need to work for Parks & Rec to be what they call a Program Leader, but I noticed that they've been offering Reiki, just under the title of reiki so I imagine it's Level 1 Usui Reiki since it's only a one day course. They also offer Crystals, and Tai Chi, and Yoga now as well.

Either way, I phoned to ask how to get a program offered in the Guide, and the woman was very rude saying I have to submit resume, and IF they have a NEED for me, they'll call. It sounded really horrible, but maybe she was having a bad day. She said she would send me an application form, and that was it.

I got it in the mail yesterday. It's actually not bad, it describes how to get a course into the guide, what you need to send in, and thankfully I have all the general stuff, CPR and Emergency First Aid training, and all I need to do is send in copies of my certificates.

I thought about offering Psychic Development, Tarot and Astrology as in person courses in my city. This would be very progressive for Manitoba. In years passed the only experience this city has had with psychics is a Psychic Fair, which due to skepticism no longer comes to our city anymore, a fraud that was working at The Forks Market (historical and popular.) and a Cult Leader that was doing Tarot readings at the Flea Market. All three stories hit the papers, and since then this city is skeptical at best. I managed to do my readings in a shop at The Forks (they had plenty of shops) BEFORE the fraud got there, but come on, she wore Gypsy clothing, had a crystal ball and you had to go through the beaded doorway to get to her! You'd think anyone would have realized! I remember thinking of going to see her once, but felt weird energy from her so I didn't go.

This would be something completely different though, the programs are offered by the City, not by private business owners, and they could review my courses all they want, and phone all my references. I have been so worried since the bad press to come back out and do things in person again, but I should remember that I am me, and they're going to have to judge me in my own league. Maybe I'll have to be certified by the City, who knows, but I'd be willing to do that so long as they don't give me the worst people in the city to read.

So we'll see what happens. I have to rewrite my resume, and get photocopies of all my certificates, and write a course proposal and outline, but thankfully, I almost took a Bachelor of Education, so I can explain what kinds of useful training one is getting by learning Tarot (problem solving, symbology, deeper insights, etc.) and so I can explain the value of learning Metaphysics, and possibly change the way this city thinks of Psychics.

:)

I'm kind of exicted now, I just really hope it works and that they don't throw out my application form as soon as they receive it.

Wish me luck,
Rhiannon Evenstar

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