Wondering Man
Current mood: frustrated
Category: Writing and Poetry

Wondering Man
Walking the tightrope
You could call friends from all sides
The universal man, the universal friend you are
But what does it matter when you're left alone

Woeful mind so out of touch
Time has lead you apart from the past
You long for all the things that linger
Of times when freedom was never a question
And you loved life so much

All the time slowly slipping away
Chances for something to rise and save your world
All you can do is ponder about what was
And what it felt like to be in love with the day
When you were surrounded by people who gave you hope
And helped you see the light of the stars

A bottle of gin at a time
On the lonely weekends to ease your mind
You know you are not whole
But the liquor makes you forget for moments
The elixir gives you a chance to let go
To pretend that you are in the arms of a former love

Notes so full of anger in your mind
Of the times you had to regret
When you believed in someone who was once a hero
That let pride and cowardice rule the day
A simple truth to save was all it would have took
But the downward spiral is already in play
With no apology that you long to hear

Self medication by the unconscious mind
It picks up the fork in the road
And takes in all the pain
A one point concentration of a quick and fleeting escape
Your mother says she taught you better
But she's a compulsive liar anyway
Too busy to see the truth hidden behind her clouded mind

The seasons pass and go on
You use to hope for a heroine
A friend or fantasy that would lead the way from this low
But as you grow more bitter and skeptic
You just wish for something better to occupy your time
Than trying to avoid the mirror reflecting your broken life

The universal man you once were is now a ghost
A champion of the past long stripped of his crown
Living the shadow of his regrets
You pray you'll find your telos destiny in tomorrow
Even as you linger in your lovely yesterday

Currently listening : WWE Theme Addict: The Music, Vol. 6 By Various Artists Release date: 2004-11-16

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The Mythos of Sadness
Current mood: not so good :(
Category: not so good :( Writing and Poetry

The Mythos of Sadness
He's through, He's done
With this life
Take two coins and close his eyes
He shall journey on the river Styx
A seeker journeyman hoping to find a paradise
A thought to distant in this life

Loneliness is the god of tricks
It causes the mind to be blind to hope
The simple pleasures loose their complexity
And too much is never enough

He feels likes Aires has waged war in his head
With Discord and Strife as his generals
No peace to be had for this overwhelmed mind
Who wishes for Aphrodite to send Cupid on an errand
To find the soul long detached from his

Love is the exposed Achilles heel
Protected and vulnerable
It is the thing we need to be complete
When it is skewered we are deeply wounded
And we are never the same again

He sits and sighs
Tired of his sullen contemplation
To be the hero, the champion
Something where love can be synthetic
But enough to get the ego through
Just to touch another's heart

For now the dream haunts
It's dormant and barely alive
Here he sits and sighs
Thinking of the time when he'll be
A journeyman upon the river Styx
With two coins to close his eyes

Currently listening : How to Walk Away By Juliana Hatfield Release date: 2008-08-19

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Ocean Blue
Current mood: lonely
Category: Writing and Poetry

Inspired by a friend's picture of the ocean from Miami:

Ocean Blue
I'm not thinking of another care
When I see you
Nothing else is there
Dear, sweet ocean blue

Your waves rolling to my shore
Washing all the weighted worry away
To be embraced by your cool touch
A comfort beyond compare

The sun shines upon you in the day
The stars and moon light up at the glance of you in the night
No other body can be so wonderful
My perfect ocean blue

I just want to stay in your embrace forever
I just want to admire you as you shine
Nothing in this world can compare
To my love for you, my ocean blue

Currently listening : Songs for Polar Bears By Snow Patrol Release date: 2004-12-14

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I’m Gone (Out the Door)
Category: Writing and Poetry

I'm Gone (Out the Door)
I don't know why you think I do
But I just don't care anymore
I don't know why you can't see what I do in you
But I guess it's not my problem anymore
I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm gone out that door

Consequences for telling lies
Consequences for the divisive games you play
You could never see beyond your ego
I believed, I was a fool, I thought you were true
But I'm gone now, I'm gone, I'm out that door

Sleep covered eyes, I wake from the dream
Of what I thought we were, you were my everything
Perception of reality becomes right and I was wrong
You're oh so pretty but your eyes have become ugly and cruel
So I'm gone, I'm gone, I'm done with you

I spend my days now running through time
In the past when I thought you were mine
You had my heart, my body, my soul
You broke them, you wore them thin
I'm still hurt now, tending to my wounds
But I'm gone now, I'm gone, gone for good
But it doesn't matter because I still miss you

Currently listening : Volume I - Modes of Transportation By Spookey Ruben Release date: 1995-09-26

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Living Colour
Category: Writing and Poetry

This poem was influenced by the Living Colour songs "Type" and "Nothingness":

Living Colour
Everything you want you cannot perceive
Caught up in the concrete grey
Of capital gain and the standard way
You want to be king but you're stuck under thumb
Of the need to earn and put dreams aside
Your life passing by two weeks at a time

You want the life that is out of reach
Feeling hopeless you try to find something to keep you sane
A drink, a relief, something to forget the pain
You want to believe that anything is possible
But you know that nothing you dream is real

You look back on hopes and dreams
To see where things went wrong, a crack in the seam
What was the indecision, the wrong advice
Someone that lead you wrong, were you blind
Did you not reach high enough, did you miss your chance
When you're left empty with only one thought in you head
Nothing last forever
Nothing is real
And you want way to escape this mundane

You must try, you must achieve
Reach for those things that the gentry says are out of reach
Listen to your inner desire, never try to drive it out
When you let the drive go, you are no longer alive
You are just a cog trying to survive
Life without purpose is the ultimate sin
You must believe that anything is possible
And see that nothing is real

You must break away from your routine concrete gray
Find the desire from the world within
Life a life worth the breath in your chest
Try for more than the average gain
And believe me when I say that no matter how you feel
See that everything is possible but nothing is real

Currently listening : Time's Up By Living Colour Release date: 1990-08-20

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Touch of Confidance
Category: Writing and Poetry

Touch of Confidance
You hear me coming
I'm stepping out on that avenue
I'm ready, I'm coming for you
I think it's time, it's time you should be mine

I'm ready to get up and muster
Some courage and strength to luster and shine
I want to show you I'm the brightest star you'll ever find
I'm the one that can make you happy
And love you too
I'm here, I'm stepping out, I'm ready
I'm ready to make you mine

I see those others you want to kiss
But when you're with me, trust me baby that is it
You'll never need another, find another, when we kiss
Because I'll always be true, never to surrender or quit
At your beckon call when you say pretty please
And bat those sweet and tender eyes
So get ready baby because here I come

Currently listening : Come Clean By Mysteries of Life Release date: 1998-09-15

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Train of Thought
Category: Writing and Poetry

Train of Thought
Thinking about a sense of home I'll never see
Looking out the train window for destiny
Or at least a pleasant distraction

My hear, my mind, my body they ache
Tremors go through my being
When I have to go back
To the places where I feel so devastated
But the performance must go on

I can't sleep well at night
I have a problem rising to the day
My mind stretched in a million directions
I pray that the weekend leads to an escape

I'll travel far to get to friendly faces
I'll go wherever for beautiful scenery
Drain my pockets to feel happy and free
They're taxed heavy by my problems anyway
I need some relief

I wake up my mind, challenging my heart, and push my body to the limit
I need to rise to achieve
I need it to be as easy to say as it is to do
I need a reason to believe

So as I come back to this
This taxing mess I call my now
I feel a little better, but the sadness is creeping
I wonder if this week I'll be closer to achieving
Or is this another time to regret

Currently listening : L.A. Song By Beth Hart Release date: 1999-12-28

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What’s In a Kiss
Category: Writing and Poetry

What's In a Kiss
Sometimes you're pulling for me
Sometimes it seems I'm pulling for you
But it seems we're never pulling for us
Is this love or are we fair-weather
Will we ever put these pieces together
'Cause I'm confused and I just don't know

When we kiss I get this feeling inside
Should I run from it, should I hide
Who'll pull away first seems to be a contest sometimes
Is it just a kiss or is this it

Honey I just don't know, I'm a bit confused
What exactly do I mean to you
Are we friends waiting to uncover
A feeling between love and lust
'Cause I don't know, I'm a little confused

Will we ever get past this
These sweet sangria kisses
To a place that we know for a fact
I love you and you love me back
Or are we just a couple of friendly friends
Will this sweet runaround come to an end
Or are we doomed to be lost in indecision
I just don't know, what's in this kiss…

Currently listening : Cherry Marmalade By Kay Hanley Release date: 2002-08-13

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XQ
Category: Writing and Poetry

I wrote this one usuing my favorite tequila, XQ, as a prime player. I thought usuing spanish would add an epic/romantic vibe to the tragic of the poem.

XQ
Dos XQ por favor
I need to forget
Dos XQ seňor
To wash away my sorrow and regret
Leave the bottle behind to help me leave the pain
Dos XQ por favor
I need to forget

Seems I've been running for a long time
I can't find a destination, a home of mine
Father Time and Lady Luck don't seem to be friends of mine
Dos XQ para mi seňor
A sweet way to unwind

And when I look at this world
I wonder what I could do to make it right
Can I find peace, a sense of happiness
Someone to help me make better sense of this life
Dos XQ seňor, to help my tears dry
Dos XQ por favor, to help fill the hole in my heart

When the time comes, I'll have to say goodbye to this dreary night
Peel myself off this barstool and go back out to the reality of life
I beg you seňor, dos XQ uno mas por favor
One for the road, one for hope
That when I come back it will be a better day
I can say dos XQ seňor, lets raise out glasses high
Dos XQ por favor, do XQ in better times

Currently listening : The Bottle & Fresh Horses By The Refreshments Release date: 1997-09-16

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A Thought On Jesus
Category: Writing and Poetry

                  If

 He    loved    his   enemies 
 
                 this 
               much

              Think

               how
              much
                he
              loves
               you

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Ode to the Million Dollar Man
Current mood: optimistic
Category: Writing and Poetry

"Everyone got a price"
A phrase once proclaimed by Ted DiBiase
Truer words have never been spoken
Yet these words as true as they may be
Have always had the wrong connotation

You are a liar, you are blind if you deny it
From the most pious, to the most humble
There is a quantifiable price upon your very being
You say you can't be bought
Check again and you will find you have already been sold

What could it possibly be
DiBiase said "some people cost a little
Some people cost a lot...
And you will be bought!"

Do you value things in this life
What of the possibility of the great beyond
Have you good friends and family
Have you bonds strong and unbreakable
Do you desire freedom, life and love
If so you have been bought

A relationship is the price you pay for love
Knowledge is the price you pay for experience
Faith is the price of believing
Work is the price you pay to achieve
Risk is the price you pay for trying

Everybody, no matter who they are, has a price
But it's best to keep those prices good and true
Some take the darker road to being bought
Addiction to fulfillment, ignoring the void
They are the lost souls whose price is cheap and low

Ruin is the price of addiction
Ignorance is the price of hate
Regret is the price of fear
Madness is the price of suppression

Remember the words of the Million Dollar Man
Remember that the truth is far beyond the sinister
Some can be bought with all that is good
Some are bought with the false and fleeting
You must decide for what price you will eventually be bought

Currently listening : WWE Anthology By Various Artists Release date: 2002-11-12

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Beautiful Girl
Current mood: optimistic
Category: Writing and Poetry

Beautiful Girl
Sunshine hair, blue eyed girl
With the bright smile and warm heart
You draw us in, you make us feel better than anything
You're a dream in reality

Beautiful girl, so sweet and tender
Beautiful girl, the one I simply adore
So beautiful, so perfect and wonderful
You beautiful girl, I wish you were mine

I'd be a liar if I said I'm not jealous of the admirers of your world
I'd be a liar if I said I didn't want you be in mine
I can hope, I can dream
If only I was good enough, if only I was brave enough
To be your loving satellite
You could be my bright star
I'd be your anything if you'd shine on me

Oh you beautiful girl
You're so sweet and wonderful
A loving and honest heart
You beautiful girl, you lovely lady
I wish you were mine

I'd be a liar if I didn't say your smile lights my days
I'd be a liar if I said I could live without your light
I don't know perfection, but I know you, and that's all I need
If you could just love me
If you could be my one and only
Just smile on me, smile on my world
You lovely, beautiful girl

Currently listening : Only Everything By Juliana Hatfield Release date: 1995-03-28

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I Still Want to Believe
Current mood: stressed
Category: Writing and Poetry

I Still Want to Believe
I wish I could say those things
That I hear everyone else say
I wish I could feel the way
Everyone else feel when they say
That they are proud and grateful
But I can't because there's still the pain you caused
I still wear the scars

I wish I could say honesty
Was something that reminded me of you
I wish I could say
That trust is what I could expect of you
But I know your lies to well these days
Your fibs and tall tales have run thin
And I'm tired of being an alibi
And this feeling is a loss that hurts inside

Why did you have to lie
Why couldn't you be brave and tell the truth
Now I don't care what you do
But don't expect me to smile and ignore
When your lies fall on me

So many times before
I saw you as a hero, imperfect, but doing no wrong
You always came through when things needed to be done
But later you began to loose you halo
Fatten me up by feeding me lies
I believed and I was sure of your truth
Took me five years to learn it was a lie
Took me five years to see I was such a fool
I feel so sick for ever believing in you

Why did you have to lie
You could told the truth
You could have spared me the pain of that lie
I was fool who wanted to always believe in you
I could never believe you'd ever lie this way
My belief caused me to be blind
But now I see, I see that you were not what I believed

I may be scarred, but now I know better
I'll never fall for those lies again
I though I'd be able to trust you forever
But now I realize I could never trust you at all
But I still want to believe
I still want to believe

Currently listening : 16 Biggest Hits By Alan Jackson Release date: 2007-08-07

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One Night Review
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

This poem was written in reverse. You can start from the bottom line and read up, or from the top and read per usual. I wanted it to be able to be read either way. It was inspired by a contest I saw for stories with the end at the beginning and vice versa. I decided to do a typical TV/movie one night stand scene to do this particular poem. And in case anyone doesn't know, to die is used in the Shakesphereian sense, not the modern literal meaning (see the movie Class Act).

One Night Review
The death so sweet and poetic
And all of a sudden they died
The motions of passion where coming more and more
The desire went to the core

The sensation made them go wild
Unbridled passion was the cause
It felt like a compelling affliction
The pull was like an addiction

The language of lust displayed on the dance floor
Moving in a synced and seductive pace
The music drew them to the lights and motion
The time for talk now over

Both wondering what would become of this
You could feel the thoughts like heat
He so confidant and entertaining
She so wonderful and interesting

A wink and call a start of it all
Suddenly someone spied with an amorous eye
In the presence of good company and cheer
A drink to unwind the weekend

Currently listening : Villains By The Verve Pipe Release date: 1996-03-26

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The Tale of New Atlantis
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Writing and Poetry

A mix of mythology and history:

The Tale of New Atlantis
Poseidon came to reclaim his land
To below the level, it sunk like sand
And all they could say
And what failed to do
Didn't matter after that day

A new Atlantis consumed by Poseidon's Sea
The children lost, the earth turned blue
Man tried to go beyond their bounds
They challenged the rule of Poseidon
And seize his lands from under the sea

They built a great port, a new city
Constantly pushing back Poseidon's advances
They had become greater than the gods
They felt that nothing could break their grasp
Upon this city stolen from the sea

The sands of time passed for many and still the city stood
But soon man became hubris in their contempt for Poseidon
Constantly ignoring the wisdom of the Oracles of Orleans
A simple action was all it would have taken for a hero
A minor motion by those championed by the people
But they had become fat upon their bureaucracy
And relied on the people to be naive and sedated

Even with the final warnings in the tears of the Oracles
The heroes of the mighty city fled with tails tucked
They never tried to make right on their role of protector
And thus Poseidon laid his wrath upon the new Atlantis
The people swallowed into the cold bed of his kingdom
The city swept into a watery grave

As we sit here today man tries again to reclaim the city
Chasing the day where Poseidon will surrender and leave it in peace
The people left with moments scarred into their minds
We wonder how long can this city claimed from the sea survive
Can it ever rise to be as it once was before Poseidon's wrath
Or will Poseidon finally have the city that was once his

Currently listening : The Golden Dove By Mary Timony Release date: 2002-05-21

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