Gay Bars 1-5

1. The creepy old man.
2. The average joe-blow who nobody really wants because they come a dime a dozen.
3. The cute/hot trendy one who's so obsessed with himself he dosen't even acknowledge that anyone else is there.
4. The 30-something or 40-something you feel sorry for because he still regulars the bar.
5. The desirable, cute, intelligent, trendy, non-obsessed-with-himself type who is ideal but doesn't want you because you most likely fall into category 1-4.

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Im ready....
Current mood: cold
Category: Life

            So I'm near graduation and of corse a swarm of questions arise. What will I do after I graduate? Where and who will I work for? Where will I live? The truth is that I haven't gotten any of the answers. The mere thought of having to figure all this out causes me stress. Just writing about it makes my head ache. I've thought about moving back home…but at the same time I don't want to because I feel as if I would be crawling into a hole that might be harder to get out of then I imagine. AHHH

            The next thing on my mind is love; yes as cheesy as it sounds it's something that I strongly desire. I don't think I've ever had a relationship that was real…I'm ready though. Blah…I can't even meet guys anymore with out them seeming so disposable to me. I can't seem to stay engaged for more than a month and on top of that I feel as if guys today don't share the same wants and needs that I do. I want a person that can share life experiences with me. Do the simplest tasks with me like cooking dinner or cleaning the house. When I was younger I felt as if that was the last thing I needed and wanted. I'm not old but I'm not 17 anymore either and having one night stands and hookups just isn't suffice at this point in my life.

            What confuses me the most is that I see people around me that are in relationships and some of them are so fucken worthless. People with out any motivation or sense of direction are the people that take the arms of individuals with so much potential and beauty. I hate to sound like some jaded fag but I just don't know what else to do.

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New York City (Spring Break 2008)
Current mood: adventurous
Category: Life

New York City!!!

This spring break I decided to go to NYC with my friends Greg and Cesar. Visited with my friend Ryan Green, that lives in Queens. We stayed in Manhattan on 86^th and 3^rd street with Greg’s sister. During our trip we also commuted out of the city to visit Greg’s family in Stamford Connecticut, which is very beautiful and solid "all American" country.  Family gatherings are always fun, filled with good food, wine and funny stories.

My visit Consisted of:

Museums:

Guggenheim

Metropolitan

Museum of Modern Art

Museum of Natural History

Parks:

Central Park

Bryant Park

Tourist Traps:

2 hour cruise around the city

Ground Zero

Times Square

Gay Clubs/Bars:

Duplex

Stonewall

The Monster

XES

G-lounge

Splash

The trip was a lot of fun. Took some taxies, ate some hot dogs, rode the subways and even got my little Celebrity moments when I ran into Andrea Fimbres of Danity Kane near the MOMA. She was very sweet and beautiful as she looks on TV.

Best Spring Break so far.

Im Out

-Vic-

Currently listening : Welcome To The Dollhouse By Danity Kane Release date: 18 March, 2008

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Merry Christmas...
Current mood: pensive
Category: Life

Merry Christmas

Well it's Christmas Eve and I'm stuck at home alone watching Leo play with his early Christmas gift and listening to Sasha Sacket. It's my first Christmas eve/day alone. Why you ask? I recently was offered an assistant manager position at Buckle and of course after weighing my options I decided to give it a try.  This is a position that requires a lot of your time, and so far it has consumed my life almost entirely. I guess I didn't realize it would be THIS time consuming… therefore I had work today and the day after X-mas. Not enough time to visit family hours away…Darn Retail hours!!!!

I've been kind of sad lately, perhaps its because I lack social stimulation. Its not the same saying the same robotic sentence to customers all day I miss meeting people at parties and going out for drinks with my friends. I think more than anything it's been difficult with having most of my friends gone and others slowly disconnecting from me. (maybe its due to work?) I am in an awkward solo stage of my life; I'm not sure what to make of it yet.

I have to move in a few weeks because of stupid reasons again and it's numbing because I've moved so much in my life that its become such an effortless process. Pack things up, throw shit out, give shit away…just to do it again a few more months down to the road for whatever reason that comes up….like always. I want to move somewhere where I don't leave for a while. With my boyfriend (that's doesn't exist) along with Leo. Happy little gay life. Blah.  

Anyway there is no point to this blog. I was just in a pensive state.

Merry Christmas everyone…

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SEATTLE 2007!!!!!
Current mood: drunk

HERE'S TO NEW FUCK UPS, DISSAPOINTMENTS AND ACHIVEMENTS! HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!

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To the deserving...and to the observer...
Current mood: restless
Category: Romance and Relationships

To the deserving...and to the observer...

To those who deserve love, relationships, and common human compassion...
Here is the honest truth. If anyone says this is wrong, they will feel guilty for saying so...Everyone deserves love. Everyone deserves common human compassion, and as far as relationships... It is everyone's own personal choice to be in a relationship.
(So, let's define relationships.)
A friendship is a relationship, a mother and daughter is a relationship, and two lovers, is a relationship Etc. etc. Who is to say, that any relationship is deserving, or correct? NO ONE! Except our own selves regarding our feelings in a "RELATIONSHIP."
So, here is to the OSERVER: who watches, predicts, and expects people to make the same "mistakes" they have made in the past. (Take a minute and recognize the "PAIN" that some may be suffering because of the past. Realize, and recognize that the relationships are some kind of substitution for all that was not fulfilled in someone's childhood. (So in the end, stop the angry bitterness that makes you less attractive, and start the "COMMON HUMAN COMPASSION" that makes you more like a beautiful Swan, and less like an ugly duckling.) Perhaps my perception is skewed, because I am writing this in a bitter stupor. Take it as you will... Everyone deserves love, and someone to lie down with at night. Calming all fears, and making peace with all that we are, because love in the end is only confirmation that we are a good person. Have faith in yourself as a person and believe that love will come to you in one way or another... Perhaps not as you dream love to be, but as you "DESERVE."
Karma is the only way to be truly satisfied. As I am a firm believer in Karma I do believe that others may "CHEAT", "LIE" or do other vindictive things to manipulate others... Well, be patient and know that karma comes around to take its toll on others lives. So, those dissatisfied with how little someone else suffers, know that everything comes full circle, and it is not your place to judge, make light of, or try to destroy what someone else considers happiness. Everyone, no matter how "SILLY" you think that they are needs and deserves some kind of affirmation in the way they feel. We all think that our feelings are justified, but don't believe that others are reasonable. Well, they are. Don't take what anyone says, feels, or expresses, as something petty. It is real to them, and should be treated as such. Unless you really don't care about the person and you are an evil bitch.

Currently reading : A-List #6, The: Some Like It Hot : An A-List Novel (A-List) By Zoey Dean Release date: 05 April, 2006

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