50 things you MAY or MAY NOT know about me

0. I am currently 140 lbs. and 5'6
1. I am 16 years young

2. I have an anger problem but I have gotten ALOT better at it, I HAVEN'T thrown a desk all year long. XD
3. I'm stronger than I look
4. I love fighting, but I hate hurting people.
5. People think and tell me I'm mean, truth is I'm just honest.
6. I often say the one thing everyone in the room is thinking but wont say.
7. I think I have insomnia, it takes me freakin forever to fall asleep.
8. Spaghetti O's and meatballs are a direct gift from God.
9. I take pleasure and excitement in eating squid (calamari)
10. I'm extreamly afraid of heights greater than 10 feet.
11. I'm hairy
12. I crack and pop my neck, back, and knuckles waaay too much.
13.I'm an artist
14. I actually know how to treat a girl/ woman
15. If I offend you, I don't care, grow up get over it, it's life.
16.I talk too much.
17. I write poetry.
18. I have a caffeine problem, really I do.
19. I'm not vegetarian, vegan, or anything like that. EAT MEAT!! It makes you strong.
20. I have good conspiracy theories, and completely ridiculous ones that I believe whole heartedly.
21. If I ever see a man hitting a woman I will do nothing short of beat him within and inch of his life.
22. Don't talk about my mom, SHE will kill you.
23. I love Gumbo
24. I hate television, but watch it when bored.
25. Both current politicians in the run for Prez...SUCK!!!!
26. I'm a Republican
27. I despise Homosexuality, I don't hate those who are gay, just the acttion of being gay.
28. I don't care who you are or where you come from. Abortion is wrong. End Story.
29.YES I did have a Mohawk, it was 8 1/4 inches tall.
30. I have bad comebacks....they suck pretty hard
31. I wave at people I don't like with my left hand......
32. I support the troops.
33. This war should have been finished when Bush Sr. was in office
34. I don't ever want to go into a plane.
35.I work at a shoes store called Journey's
36. I want to do vocals for a hardcore band one day
37. I'm in love and not telling you who.
38. I want to marry her.
39. I'll wait for her as long as I have to.
40. When I'm married I want to have kids.
41. I'm going to be a graphic designer, and possibly a sound tech for a record label.
42. I love Christ Jesus, if ya don't like it.. I don't care.
43. Insult my God and I'll say something
44. I'm far from perfect.
45. I know what I want in my life, and I plan on getting it.
46. If you think you can stop me go ahead and try.
47. If you break into my house I WILL shoot you.
48. I plan on getting tattoos, snake bites, and gauges.
49. I can roll my eyes into the back of my head, make a clover with my tongue and do many various imitations of famous, infamous, and not so famous characters.
50. I love classical, pop punk, punk, reggae, REAL hip hop, metal, hardcore, jazz, blues, techno, industrial, experimental,Russian rap, Japanese Rock, and Classical Japanese.

yup there ya go all done =D

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The Lord Of Flies

Your arrogance is only complimented by your ignorance
You are engulfed in its' black decadence, you breath lies
You are the reflection of the lord of flies, in due time, you will die
You will be ensnared by the earth, and you will decay along with
All your blasphemy
These are the words of prophecy, the sixth seal is broken
And your punishment falls on us all, this is the day of judgment,
This is the day the lord of flies......dies.

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My Life is Gold.....Kinda....

I'm only 16 years old
I think my life is solid gold
When really it's like fresh mold
I try so hard to be bold
To stand shirtless in the winter cold
I shiver and I freeze
And people always ask me if im cold
Of course I am its 12 bellow
And I'm only half clothed
But I desirve it all
The peace of fall
The excitment of summer
The joy of spring
And the torture of the winter cold
But still I will smile, and I will make my life gold.
I decide how my life is, so I will strip away the mold.
I will strive, I will survive, i will make my life gold.

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Can’t You See That?

kindness has always been at your finger tips,
but your bound by pride and arrogance,
we must try to live a life of selflessness,

it's not about you, it's not about me,
it's about the God that we...

try so desperately to ignore
from shore to shore
and all we want is more and more.

never giving always taking
a slapstick shot at faithless praying

but you can't see anymore than that
and you will call to Jesus when you have your heart attack

and maybe then you will realize
death is standing at your side

and what awaits you
you do not want

unless you know the father
unless you no longer make him distraught

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The End Times

O Lord please hear me in my cry that on this day, some how at night, that the Moon stained in the blood of the unborn, will drip upon my head. For I will know Then, that I'm on my way to Heaven. So let me climb the stars like a mountain Tall,majestic.

Let me climb the stars past the clouds into the heavens.
I can not wait to see my Father awaiting in the Heavens.

I look down upon the earth, where I did once live, I see the chaos and Destruction, that I left behind. I see the demons and the seven headed dragon, With the crowns upon it's heads.This is the beginning of the end.

Let me climb the stars past the clouds into the heavens.
I can not wait to see my Father awaiting in the Heavens.

Broken I stand, awaiting your command, to charge the angles onto the new battle Field. Struggling along with all thats going on , the seals are broken, and you O Lord meet the Beast head on.

Let me climb the stars past the clouds into the heavens.
I can not wait to see my Father awaiting me in the Heavens.

A collision is made and there is a great explosion, the box that held back good And evil has been broken. I call upon my master, as he fights the one he banished. And then it all is still.
The silence is broken ,by the clink of chains, whispers are exchanged in this Transaction. Angles gather round , I unable to see, hear the scream of the fallen Beast.

I sense now, my friend, an endless time of peace.

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Sometimes....I feel....Lazy

We all somehow thought,
Or hoped it would all just get better.
And we sit by and by do nothing to help it along.
We pray and strive and hope things will change.
All while sitting around doing nothing,
and feeling no shame.
The stones do more than we do.
We seem worse than dirt.
Your "O' So Casual" way of thinking,
Has caused you to start sinking.
Into laziness,
You pray and hope, and wait for change
Or for it all to just get better.
Sorry honey, but this isn't like the weather.
Some things take some effort, some things make you strive
But all you do you lazy fool is sit around and cry and cry

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And Lord If I.....

And Lord if I were only a flower
In a garden of  your grand design
I would only ask this.
Lord let the wind be your spirit,
And let it move me so I may worship and dance for you.
For Lord that is all my heart desires, to worship you.
So Lord if I only be a flower, grant me that desire, to pour my love on you.
My leaves and petals lifted to the sky, this is my surrender,
And the wind makes me sway, this is my dance and my song.
Lord if I be like a flower, let my request be granted.
Please Lord, I can not wait for too long.
For without you, and the ability to praise and worship you,
I will surely wither away, and die.
O Lord , O Lord, if I.....

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why look for fish?

why do i feel so empty inside?
why do i feel like wanting to die?
every breath i take is a new misery
but a new chance to find out what is really me
i don't understand but i don't really care
always a new miracle always a new tragedy
oh why oh how can they not see?
there has got to be more than just fish in the sea
i'm tired of fishing, why look for a fish?
when you can find and have a human, a wife
to love and care for
forget the fish, just let them die
take my hand darling and together we shall fly

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A Way Out Of Here

Hendrix once said that theres got to be a way out of here
Too bad I don't want to leave
I haven't had a chance to share
My heart with you, so do not believe
I do not love you, when in fact I do
There may be some way out of here
But it's not my destiny to be out there
I make my own destiny
This I know
So I will choose to stay here and love on those
Those that choose to come
And those that choose to go
Yes there is a way out of here
But it's up to you if you want to go

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Do you...?

Do you believe, do you think?
i don't think you do.
The words that escape your lips
Are those of ignorance.
Not of real decadence.
Think before you speak.
And understand the truth.
Be slow to anger and slow to speak,
But eager to love and listen and understand.

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She Is Like A Storm

This storm is beautiful. Can't you see?
The rain falling like love onto my window pane.
The sky she is dark, but full of wonder.
The majestic clouds cover her, the sky begins to cry.
But still is the rain like love on my window pane.
The thunder is her declaration her introduction, to show that she is there.
To ignore her presence would prove yourself a fool.
When she is acknowledged lightning bolts flash to get the door.
She steps into the room, and the wind blows strong,
Just to server her beauty justice.
When she enters all know she is there.
The storms' beauty can't be compared .
The trees bow in her majesty.
The clouds protect her innocence.
The surface accepts her love.
Few can see it, but she is a precious jewel.
The storm, she can't be stopped.
She is too majestic and beautiful.
I wish to stand outside and receive her lovely tears. 
O' beautiful storm won't you please linger 'till morn'
Oh! Sweep me up into loves storm.

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You Seem So Naive

Oh wake you fool
Give up this act, this fake jewel
You are behaving like a moral less fool
Don't you understand life is like a pool
You must dive deep and take a lap or two
Learn a few things, take a walk in another's shoe
We've been bullied, hated, and treated like you
But you see we learned a thing or two
It's not about me, and it's not about you
It's all about the things we do
We decide what we do
No one else, just me, just you


And do you believe
That you can deceive
All your friends who receive
Your so called love and who grieve
Over what is to become of of thee, O tis' my greatest peeve
You have acted and transpired like a thieve
O please understand, you must know that we've
Sat here and tried to help you believe
That your life is not over it has just begun,how can you be so naive
You have yet to truly live so take a chance and try , do , achieve

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Me vs. Me

Thoughts of thoughts run through my head
Tired and lonely I lay down my head
Arise In the morning only to find a new day
No new surprises
Not a new drop of change
It seems to me that it needs to rain
No prevailing thought
Just a lack of interest
Unhappy with waiting.
But to scared to make change.
I go home and think again.
lay down my head.
Arise in the morning only to find a new day.
But I am joyous to find that it rained last night.
Here we go a little bit of deference.
A little bit of change but thats all I can handle.
At least for today.
The process continues and more change does come.
But why do I feel that I am the only one left undone.
No change for me.
Just a new look a new lie.
Perhapses a change will come in time.
I wait and wait as the process rolls on.
And I think, No I Know.
I must meet this head on.
I make the change, it's in my hands.
I like an atomic bomb.
Will bring change.
For better or for worse
Change will come.
But if it comes from above.
There is no such thing as worse.
Just change for the better.
This is my heart.
This is my verse.
Contemplative and confused.
But learning all the more.
Philosophy and thought will get you out the door.
Determination and ideas bring your plan to life.
Bur bravery and courage will let you plan take flight.
A plan of change for better or for worse.
I will stand by my plan and I will brave this fight.
This fight of flesh .
This fight of mind.
Spirit and Soul deliver hard blows.
Mind versus Heart.
Its a tough fight to win.
But all in all .
Change will win.
And I know for the better.
Because i don't like the old me.
I know that I'm so much better than what I was.
So change I will in the end.
Because all in all i just can't let my flesh win.

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Talk, Scream, or Shout

Come talk to me with your heavy heart.
Come talk to me cause I’ll understand your troubles.

I’ll listen when the world shuts you out.
I don’t care if you scream or shout.

This is my cry out.
To say I care for you.
With every breath I’ll love you.

We can talk the talk
And walk all day on the beach.
With your hand in mine
We’ll walk the shoreline and make our own sunshine in time.


So let me speak my words of wisdom
and know that I’ll love and care for you.

I listen when the world shuts you out.
I don’t care if you scream or shout.

This is my cry out.
To say I care for you.
With every breath I’ll love you.

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Run On Home Kid, As Fast As You Can

Hey little boy
Wanna hear a story
About how your not supposed to be here
How your mom left and your dad died
About a man who brought you through that
Just so he could tell you that
He loves you

Run on home kid as fast as you can
Run on home kid, like the gingerbread man

Hey little girl
Wanna hear a story
About how your supposed to be dead
How your dad used to beat your mom over the head
About a God who brought you through all that pain
Just to tell you
He Loves you
And he wants you home again

Run on home kid as fast as you can
Run on home kid, like the gingerbread man

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