My movie list
Current mood: bummed
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

Two years since my last blog and I come out here with a Movie List. Not exactly a grand reentry of sorts. But I need help here, guys!

Okay, so below is a list of my favorite movies. Not necessarily in order. I just hope everybody else likes this list as much as I do, and please feel free to add to the list. I'm really in a good mood for movie watching these days.

- Pulp Fiction
- Silence of the Lambs
- Matrix
- Thomas Crown Affair
- Kill Bill vol. 1
- American Beauty
- The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
- An Affair to Remember
- Summer of '42
- Mighty Aphrodite
- Braveheart
- Godfather
- Die Hard
- Terminator
- Lethal Weapon
- The Butterfly Effect
- Unforgiven
- L.A. Confidential
- The Deer Hunter
- Sleepers
- Face Off
- Leon (The Professional)
- The Untouchables
- Tootsie
- Jacob's Ladder
- House of the Spirits
- Sophie's Choice

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good bye for now
Current mood: crushed
Category: Friends

dear mypsace friends,

okay, i'm sorry if i havn't been able to give you love and comments lately, there are a lot of things happening and i just do not have the time i usually have for myspacing. with that said, my heart is fuckin broken right now.

yeah there are problems but these are not anything ronald, aka "the sexmachine", can't handle. right now work is a shitload and by my estimate i should be busy for at least two months. now don't enjoy yourselves too much here on myspace so you can save some for me when i get back.

thanks a lot and i love ya all!

gazillion kudos to all of ya!

love,
ronald

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i'm a superhero! (edited)
Current mood: devious
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers

just last year, toward the end of august, our accountant in the office who is by the way also one of the technical staff in our company newsletter, asked each of the birthday celebrants for the month of september by email to write a short narrative for the company paper of at least one paragraph. the topic would be, "which superhero you would like to be and why?".

i know a lot about DC and Marvel and all those hero stuff in comics, but i have never associated myself with anyone of them. i wish i did as a kid, then it would have been easier. anyway, there i was thinking which superhero my personality most closely resembles to. i'm sure the other celebrants may have treated this trivially and may have just picked the first superhero that came to their minds, but not me. i regard superheroes highly. say something against spiderman and i'll shoot you with my batarang! (but don't throw a kyrptonite on me or i will surely die.) i'm so serious about the whole narrative it took me a considerable length to finish it, about two minutes i remember.

but that was before i decided who i really want to be, which was really the more difficult part. i would have wanted to be capatain america but there was a problem, i'm asian. that really pissed me. i mean, how many people do we have in the whole asia continent? we probably have over two billion people and no one ever thought of creating a super-duper character named captain asia?

you could say i was having some sort of identity crisis (not in the homo sort of way, okay?) with this as i could not identify myself, or even remotely relate myself, to any particular superhero character. so since i cannot decide which hero i like, i decided i would invent one. i will call him the Sex Machine! that's right, you read it right, Sex  Machine! so this is now what i wrote for the comapny newsletter:

IF I AM GOING TO BE A SUPERHERO, I WILL BE THE SEXMACHINE. MY POWERS INCLUDE X-RATED VISION, PORNOGRAPHIC MEMORY, AND THE ABILITY TO GROW TO AN ENORMOUS LENGTH. MAXIMUM POINTS IN AGILITY, DURABILITY, AND STAMINA! I WILL FIGHT FOR TRUTH, JUSTICE, LIBERTY, AND SPREAD GOOD LOVE TO THE WHOLE UNIVERSE.

needless to say, they didn't include it in the final print.

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love and relationships
Category: Romance and Relationships

if you ask me if i am a romantic, i would say hell no. but my naivety to romance is only a secret. i am really a pleaser when it comes to relationships. i give roses and chocolates, i send sweet little notes, i am always thoughtful and caring and i'm not ashame to show it. i whisper sweet words before sleeping and plant kisses first thing in the morning. my partner thinks i'm the most romantic guy in the whole world. but i'm not. going through these motions is a recipe for a good relationship to the point that it all becomes an obligation. with anything, when you fail to do your obligations that's when things gets out of hand.

what i would admit is that i have biological, moral, and social needs; and in order to maintain that i will have to act accordingly. inside me is an objective heart that has liitle space for romantic emotions, which is really the heart of this whole blog. now this is just a personal opinion and i'm putting it here for the concept of sharing. the truth is this is still an ongoing thought exercise that either needs a lot more refinement or would probably be thrown to the bin and into oblivion when the fog clears.

recently, i have been a confidant to a very dear friend. her problem is she fell in love with her boyfriend's best friend. their love triangle is not the topic here so i will leave her anonymous. what strikes me is the evident propensity of people to be attracted to the opposite sex in ways like only eros' arrow can do to make them instantly declare that they are in love. notwithstanding that they met only two weeks ago, they practically do not know anything about each other, there only time together were some phone calls, sms messages, and some emails. how can you be in love?

is love a tingling sensation you feel for the person you want? you're bones become brittle and you're like melted butter floating in the clouds. doesn't it need reason at all? really? does love have to precede realationships or can love be born out of a relationship?

i know a couple, they're of chinese descent, who were forced into marriage by their parents in their late teens. prior to their marriage they didn't even know the other exist. they're very old now, probably in their eigthies. there love is legendary in the whole neighborhood because they never separated even once. their respect and commitment to each other is unrivaled. eight children, all successful in their own professions. in a small town each family's life is an open book and their story is not so different than ours. they had their own share of tribulations but they stucked together no matter what. they're a picture of a happy family and a wonderful love story.

i know a guy, a very close friend. fell in love with his college classmate. they wed and had two children. it didn't worked out well for them so they separated. only a few months later he fell in love with another girl and they decided to live together. they had two children of their own but they constantly clash all the time so they had to separate too. then came another girl, and guess what? he fell in love again. he's a love factory because he never seems to run out of it. i never heard from him a long time. the last news i know of him is that he's got five children in his house and no wife.

i know a guy, me. in college i had this girlfriend for three years and i loved her. why? i do not know. probably because i miss her when she's not around. we enjoy being together. we shared each others dreams and aspirations. whatever the reason, i know i love her, i just do. but that was along time ago, i havn't seen her and i wouldn't probably see her anymore. am i still in love with her? no. but i used to. if you ask me now i do not even remember how it felt. time moved on and i didn't stay to linger. once upon a time we were so in love, and so i thought. but today it's all just memories, and very faint memories if i might add.

this brings me now to my postulate. i believe that if love is a feeling, then there is no term for real love. because real love is a product and not merely a feeling. it is a product born out of respect, faith, persevarance, loyalty, and the unwavering commitment to keep it alive. it is not some magic that you would just feel all of a sudden like some rush, only to lose it just as fast as it came. real love is a posteriori to a relationship and grows like a seed to a full and sturdy tree. it needs nurturing and caring. experiencing things together and always being there for each other. many memories of pain and wonderful moments. when you're both old and you can still say "I LOVE YOU" to each other, there's the love.

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The Truth About God
Current mood: contemplative

fuck!! how would i know?!?

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the cebu vigilantes
Current mood: gloomy

Friday, April 28, 2006
Vigilante murders spread to the towns

Two separate shooting incidents that bore similarities to vigilante attacks in Cebu City left two dead and two injured in Cebu Province last Wednesday.

One of the fatalities was a former convict while the other was facing a carnapping case when attacked.

The first incident happened in Barangay Tag-bubunga, Asturias, Cebu at 9 p.m. Wednesday. Barangay Captain Carli-to Sandag reported the incident to the police.

The victim was identified as Geronimo Papaya, 55, allegedly an ex-convict from the place.

In carrying out the attack, three unidentified men used a handgun.
[Full story...]

-o-

the cebu vigilantes had been iconic figures here in the city lately. their mission is to bestow death to criminals and ex-cons alike. they are methodical, quick, and mercilessles with their executions. their targets include petty criminals to big time robbers,  rapists, drug pushers, and murderers.

i was in part a witness to one of these summary executions late last year. i was in a local bar with friends around 2am partying our guts out with tons of beer and a lot of karakoe. then there was a bit of a commotion, the waiters and the other guests were scampering to get outside. apparently, some dude in the street was shot and was lying there dead on the spot. people who saw said the assailant was on a motorcycle and wore a helmet. he rode toward the victim and shot him at the back point blank range. obviously, this vigilante doesn't give a shit about code of honor. after that he rode off in no particular hurry. speculations that night has it that he is, or at least one of the vigilantes.

until that evening, the cebu vigilantes had been mere stuffs of legend to me. similar executions beacame publicized and all of a sudden they were the talk of the town. apparently nobody knows them, not the police nor the press. they are very organized and totally arcane. given their targets, you could say they definitely have their own intelligence machination.

the opinion in the city is divided. some vehemently say that it is not for the vigilantes to put the law in their own hands. some approve their actions as an acceptable means to purging the evils in the society. i personally could not say i approve of the vigilantes. but the question is what if somebody close to me, a friend or a love one, is a victim of a violent crime, what would then be my opinion of the vigilantes?

regardless of anybody's opinion, the truth is crime rate is down in cebu city.

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my top seven favorite blogs
Current mood: impressed

for lack of anything to blog about, i decided to compile my own list of top seven blogs from authors i am subscribed to. the criteria for the selection is simple, i fuckin' like them.

i've been here in myspace for three months now and i'm subscribed to a lot of bloggers out there. there are a lot of super bloggers i really admire that didn't quite make the list. that's not because their blogs are inferior, this is not about comparisons. just think of this list as my personal favorites, nothing technical or formal.

amazingly, my fav blogger mark (the artist formerly known as hasbeen), didn't make the list also. but it's becasue the new mark's blogs lately 'hasbeen' unselfishly more focused on promoting other bloggers, which is an entirely cool effort on his part. before that, we've already lost all the links to his other blogs from the old HB days after the account was deleted. i'm sure there would have been enough material there to fill any top seven list.

i'm blabbing long enough now, so here goes the list in specific order:

[it's ordered from 1 to 7. if you don't like it and you prefer the countdown and the suspense crap, just read it from bottom to top. :-)]

1. pope john ska III - "part 1"

this is an incredible blog-fiction from an incredible writer. the story is mainly in the first person view and the main character, ian bendis, is an englishman who takes you to a tour of real and unreal proportions. bendis was angsty and was on his way to jumping off a bridge when he met a thirteen (or fourteen?) year old girl crying because her pet died, which turned out to be just a toy pet afterall. the whole setting is dark and gloomy, like the scenes from the sandman series.

2. ryu - "the kevin scale"

this blog was originally an article written for a canadian magazine that presents a scientific method of measuring your girlfirend's hornyness. this works by answering a series of questions on varying sexual subjects where you appropriately select the answer that represent your girlfriend the most. at the end you cumulatively add all your scores and compare it against the kevin scale. you'll be laughing your ass off when you see the result. check this guy out, he's an an excellent writer and an equally excellent cartoonist.

3. weapon of mass destruction - "the common cure for the deadly hiccup "

this is one of the first blogs i ever came across to here in myspace. this blog is about a man who accidentally shot his nephew to death while trying to cure his hiccups by pointing a revolver at him to scare him. weapon of mass destruction is incredibly witty and funny, i was lauging all through out here despite the bloody accounts of the characters involved.

4. perriwinkle the evil - "via lactea"

this chic blogs about the origins of the universe, star formations, and galaxies. she takes you to a wonderful adventure in and out of the milky way with dazzling pictures of nebulae, balckholes, constellations, etc. the selling point here is she doesn't talk nutty rocket science jargon to you, but just everyday plain english.

5. jacob bennett -  "broken goal shatters little brother's dream"

this blog is about a little boy's dream of becoming a professional hoopster someday and how a reckless brother shattered that dream to oblivion by recklessly backing his car to the basketball goal in the garage. jacob works as a columnist and is one heck of a writer- but a reckless driver.

6. briguy - "cigarettes, reporters, and fishbones"

this blog is about the author's futile attempt on putting up a blog that is completely unblog worthy. but everyday something eventful happens to destroy the intent. a very enjoyable read from a very interesting (bri)guy.

7. pop goes the girl - "creative non-fiction writing"

this is a delicious read and a brilliant blog. this blog deals with relationships, friendship, growing-up, and more. the characters are so vivid they're just like next door neighbors. however, this is rather long; and most of the time i don't dive much into long blogs while at work. (the boss could come any time and i wouldn't want to be caught myspace-ing when i'm supposed to be combining 0s and 1s on my programming work.) but pop has her way of serenading you with her written words to make you read them until the end. i was charmed and i fell for it.

-o-

so there goes my list! i would be happy to know yours as well. if you have any favorites, it doesn't have to be seven, tell me about it and i'd be happy to check it out.

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i got tagged by the pope
Current mood: tagging

The first player of this game starts with the "6 weird things/habits about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things, as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read yours.

this is the first time i got tagged here in myspace. i supose the pope must really hate me a lot, because now he wants me to reveal my darkest secrets to the world. but this should be fun, so here it goes:

1) i am asthmatic

ok, i know that isn't weird at all. but my problem really starts when i'm sleeping - i can't sleep with the windows closed. if i do that i will have trouble breathing, and that's like a death wish for me. i really don't understand why so, may be i should make an appointment with the good doctor, dr. sanjay gupta. anyway, i suppose i need new air every time in my room. the last time i closed the windows to sleep was when it was raining heavily. that night i had my worst asthma attack ever, where i thought i saw the light for a moment.

2) i sleep naked

this is probably related to my asthma. (i really have to make that appointment with the doctor.) i itch with anything on my skin while asleep. this is also why i cannot share a room with anyone, unless she's a girl and that we're going to have sex.

3) i hate ketchup.

if i eat a buger and i put ketchup there, my palette will fail to discern the burger and whatever else is in their except for the ketcup. this goes with everyrthing i put ketchup on.

4) i hate anything that has sugar in it

i don't drink coffee with sugar. i don't drink coke. i don't eat ice cream nor chocolates. my brain detests sweets. add half a teaspoon to a beef stew (asians like to do that) and i will know.

5) i only drink water and beer.

i drink water because my body wants me to. i drink beer because i want to. all my beer buddies don't go with me anymore now. i can drink for 24 hours non-stop. the pace would vary depending on the hour of the day, but when i get sober without stopping (can you imagine that?) i just can't stop anymore.

6) i don't believe in ghosts but i imagine them in my bathroom

i'm agnostic so i only have science to believe in. but being alone in the house, sometimes i get goose bumps walking to the bathroom at night. it's like spiderman when their's danger, the spider sense tingles. in my case all the hair in my body just rise crazily.

now, i tag my friends bloody rainbow, gagong gupit! tae., harold, godess of chaos, and g.

i also tag weapons of mass destruction. this guy is one of my fav bloggers here in myspace. let me also take the opporunity here to endorse this dude, he's really cool!

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pacman is back!
Current mood: confused

i want to do a lot of things. there is a list in my mind of things i need to do plus things i want to do.

for one i need to start reading this accounting book i bought last year as preliminary to a personal software project i've been dreaming to do. it's something for the retail industry and if i'm correct it should make me as rich as bill gates.

but may be i should prioritize finishing the song i promised ruell. he's in a band and they need some original material. i told him that i'm half way already to finishing a song that i'm writing and that if they like it, they can play it as their own provided that they acknowledge me as the original writer and that i could publish the song in my myspace.

then g and i talked about going on a vaction together on some island. cebu is an island and is surrounded by several others. the beaches are great, and i'm definitely not staying here forever so i might as well go around and see all the places.

did i mention i also want to sky dive? no?

ok, i want to sky dive! i figure i should try it at least once before i die. although, the irony here is that there is a real possibility that i could die if i try. but let's be optimistic, it's going to be a thrill of a lifetime, right? only it costs a lot, so i have to figure out how to ek it out somehow.

and then i have this work that demands a minimum of nine hours of my time everyday. i am working as a software engineer for an IT company here in cebu, doing mostly internet and telephony applications.

"the axeman series" next installment is long over due now. but i'm not in a hurry there, i don't think anybody is reading it here in myspace anyway. but i know i will finish it all somehow. no reason. i just love writing about it, and i have a few friends who expressed positive remarks already.

the list really goes on and on. so many things to do, so very little time. now, to make matters worst, pacman is back!

back in the days of atari, where i didn't have one and would never have one, me and my friends where completely addicted to playing pacman. if you remember, that's the video game where the player maneuvers the pacman, that adorable flat yellow circle with a mouth, to navigate a maze while eating pills and prizes.

over the years newer and more sophisticated video games  would emerge, and while i have reinvested some part of my video gaming interest to other games i.e. starcraft and warcraft and others, my passion for playing pacman has never wavered. so much so that in college, i would spend extended hours late in the night pretending to study, when i was just playing pacman in one corner of the computer laboratory where nobody should see me. 'playing video games' is the number one rule in the lab's never-to-do-list.

after college, i've been working as a software engineer. i have been in many companies, but is now mainly in cebu. i have since forgotten pacman, until i found this free java midlet that you can freely download from the net and install on your cellphone, and bingo you have pacman running on your cellphone! yes, a dimunitive little toy gadget that can run pacman; where it really used to run over a coin-op(erated) vending-like machine.

that day was like a reunion of sorts for me with my classic buddy. now, i'm not doing anything else except play pacman.

so much for my list of things to do.

what i really need to do now is get out of the pacman funk.

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the infinity of infinity
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Blogging

i havn't posted any blogs for a while as i'm still mulling over after reading Perriwinkle the Evil's own blogs. in case you havn't read any of her work, i recommend you check her out. she talks about scientific stuffs and the origin of the universe. what could be more important than that, huh? so i suggest you take a break off your dish washing chores and take the inter-galactic tour with her.

"singularity!" whew!

no one word has affected me like any, except of course for "supercalifragislisticexpialidocious". (but that's a mighty long word for anyone to not even notice.) coming across the word singularity, my ignorance would have been enough to make me stop reading at that point, but i was already H, O, O, K, E, D, i wouldn't have been able to stop myself even if i wanted to.

according to perriwinkle, singularity is mass without volume. okay, i didn't get that either so don't fret now. but she would later suggest that everything in the universe, all the planets and all the stars, and yes, including your dogs and cans of beer, all originated form one singular object that went kaboom when the universe was born. ever since then all its pieces have been flying about in constant motion. now, several billion years later, here i am writing this blog.

there is a lot more meat there that is worth reading so i really suggest you read them yourselves. i could easily get lost in the details and make the wrong explanations here; and besides hearing it from her is way cooler because she can elaborate the more complex detail with so much ease.

we all probably did come from that one singular object that went big bang crazy, i can believe that. but after reading her blog my mind started to go twilight zone on me and now i think i'm ready to become a mental patient any moment soon.

there are two things i'm trying to connect to the big bang. first is the human conciousness. granted that each cell in my carnivorous body and everything else floating in the universe did originate from one infinitely dense matter that randomly exploded in the beginning of eternity, how is it then that men posses the faculty of thought? i can close my eyes now and picture the whole universe in my mind. and while i could not doubt that i am part of the existence of the universe, i doubt it very much that our conciousness could originate from that material singularity. but what if i am wrong? and what if all our conciousness did in fact originate from that very singluar matter as with everything else? if that is the case, the conciousness (the spirit or the soul, whatever you call it) could probably have its own empirical nature like all other scientific phenomennon and can be explained by way of systematic experimentation. 

the second thing that is bugging me is the idea of infinity having subsets of infinities and so on. atom is supposed to be the smallest particle where the concept of division does not apply, right? but we already know now that the atom in fact is composed of other elements more infinitesimal than itself. and i bet this would go on and on to infinity (and beyond!) the further we learn more about it. now think of the singularity as the size of an atom. one day out of boredom this atom exploded and started its own universe. and how many atoms do we have in our own universe? think about that. i was looking at a drop of water that dripped of my leaking faucet and could not help wonder if there exist a universe in that drop of water whose lifetime would end the moment it splats to the sink. in its own space-time continuum that universe would have lived a very long life time. but in my universe, it was barely a split second. were there sentient beings there? is my universe a drop of water where another imbecile is contemplating over it somewhere out there? if that imbecile is way bigger than my universe, then where does it all end now?

i know you're ready to pick up the phone now to call the doctor, so i'm not giving you my address in case you ask for it. but you know what, i don't really care about the infinity of the universe, as long as there is beer in the fridge.

-o-

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