seeing is believing. and vice versa???
Current mood: curious
Category: Life

attached are the links to two seemingly unrelated articles i found to be curiously related.
while reading the second i was reminded of the first. an article about visual perception i had read months ago. 
apparently people, in general, form opinions about each other within a tenth of a second (second link). yet what we actually see in that first tenth of a second is a visual "assumption" we generate to compensate for the lag time in our brains ability to receive and process what we see (first link).

what does it all mean? you can't judge a book by it's cover? beauty is in the eye of the beholder? seeing is believing? you tell me.....

http://www.eurekalert.org/pub_releases/2008-05/rpi-cb051508.php

http://www.livescience.com/health/060822_judge_people.html

one last point... people's exhibit three (a visual aid:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I8tjQso7fBg

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infection (boo boo update)
Current mood: contemplative

unfortunately shortly after my last blog i had a set back. my wrist grew more and more painful and swollen every day. impossible to sleep. unbearable. i kept trying to convince myself that perhaps it was a result of bones mending. when i finally went back to my doctor i found the cause. it had become infected as a result of surgery. i found out the hard way that the pain medication they gave me had zero effect on infection pain. in fact when they asked me if the morophine they gave me helped i said "it was like a volkswagon colliding with a freight train. the morophine was the volkswagon". so the infection required additional surgey and another 3 day stay in the hospital for iv antibiotics. that was last week.

i am happy to report that the infection is nearly extinguished. i have been home taking oral antibiotics. in about two weeks i will be going in for my 4th and hopefully final surgery. then the battle to regain whatever mobility i can begins. sadly it is looking less and less likely i will ever play guitar again. oh well...i was never that good anyway.  

ciao for now

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visiting hours are never over (a boo boo update...and more) revised
Current mood: thankful
Category: a little sore tonight. tg it’s pill time Blogging

well, you may at least find the "p.s."  interesting reading....and it's true

just a quick update. last wednesday's(7/16) surgery went as well as can be expected according to my surgeon. and if you knew him you'd know that that is pretty  hopeful indeed. he took off the external fixator and put in a plate and a few pins. so now i am wrapped up in a splint and about 5lbs of bandages. hopefully i will be rid of the splint and stitches and wrapping in 3 weeks from now. then i can get to work on my mobility. i'll know more after i meet with my surgeon next tuesday.

i went home the next evening. since coming home i have had days of excruciating pain and some of surprising comfort. mostly the latter thank god. my friends suzanne and reverie have been amazing. going shopping for me. picking up after me and bringing me groceries for meals i could make with one hand or rev's amazing made from scratch vegetarian lasagna and chocolate cake. yum. dana and karin dropped off a wonderful video care package and baskin robbins rocky road and caramel praline ice cream. my neighbor kathy has been so sweet and generous with her time. arriving home from her vacation in poland just in time to rescue me. running me to doctor's appontments and the hospital on 3 seperate occasions. she is so special.

i also want to thank my myspace friends who have been so supportive. all of your messages and comments... (and "musical cards" lisa :) have really lifted my spirits. cybernetting truly is a beautiful thing in the hands of beautiful people.

so in closing, i went to my regular gp doctor day before yesterday as is required after a hospital stay. he told me i have lost 20 lbs and my blood pressure is back to normal. cool. i told my dad this and he said "maybe you should break the other wrist". thanks dad. i think i'll just keep eating right and, once my bones have healed, exercising.

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thank you
Current mood: loved
Category: Blogging

i am leaving for the hospital in 15 minutes. arcadia methodist.

i really want to thank all of you who have given me so much love and encouragement through this challenging time. your thoughts and words and humor have kept me in a positive perspective. you are my inspiration and guiding light.

so, i'll see you on the other side of the recovery room.

ron

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ron’s shattered wrist (day 5)
Current mood: hopeful
Category: nervous but resolved Blogging

the external fixator device bolted to my hand and arm is losing it's battle against the powerful pull of my muscular forearm . which means my damaged wrist joint is sliding down towards my forearm. the doctor equated it to one of the flying butresses on notre dame. he said it's as if the convex arch at the top has cracked off and is being pushed away by the weight of all it supports.
so tomorrow, wednesday at 2pm i will be going back into surgery. this time for 5 hours. the surgeon will be placing a plate on the side of my wrist just below the joint. that and a few pins should shore up my "flying butress" and stop the erosion and joint slippage. he will also smooth out and repair the shattered bones in  the joint as much as he can. i have weighed the options and have chosen this course of action.
please keep me in your thoughts, prayers or meditations. wishes are good too.
much love,
~ ron
p.s. once again i appologize for the lack of caps

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Seeking a Wet Nurse (typed with one hand. not why you think :^)
Current mood: determined
Category: bent but not broken (well a little broken) Blogging

i am typing with one hand (reason to follow) so excuse the lack of caps. because of my limitations i will also be brief. bottom line is i need someone to come over and bathe me or at least wash my hair. here's why....(like i need a reason :)

thursday evening (7/10/08) i went out for a bike ride. i lost control of my bike and slammed onto the pavement. hard and with catastrophic consequences. lying in the street i felt my head swelling as i looked over at my left wrist which now looked more like a smashed accordion than a human appendige. my hand was out of allignment so i grabbed it and my wrist to keep them from contracting any further. a woman walking by asked if i was allright. i said "no. i've broken my wrist and have a pretty big bump swelling on my head. can you call 911?"

before she could get her phone out two pasadena motorcycle cops were on scene. "do you need an ambulance?" "yes". one then commented that at first he thought i was a drunk in the gutter. i responded that i wished i was.

the paramedics came and scraped me off the asphalt. loaded me in the truck and headed to the hospital. on the way i got my first of many to come doses of morophine.

long story short i arrived at verdugo hills medical center at 5:30 pm thursday. it is now sunday. i just got home about 90 minutes ago. during my 68 hours at the hospital i had many x-rays and cat scans. diagnosis: deep bruises to my left femir and rib cage, a mild cranial hemotoma and the most horribly fractured/shattered wrist that the er and 3 orthopetic surgeons have ever seen. i had two surgeries and am now at home with an extendor bracket screwed onto the outside of my arm. holding the bones in place. tuesday i will see the first of two hand surgeons i will be consulting to determine my next course of action.

the orthopedic trauma surgeon who worked on me said i will likely not regain movement in my wrist. i told him i need my wrist to move to play guitar. so not moving is not an option. he said "there are a lot of amputees who want their limbs back but they aren't going to get them."

he then said i should try some of the hand exercises he was showing me to at least get my fingers working. "i already have been " i responded "since the moment i arrived" i then started touching my fingers to each other rapidly in varying sequences and doing full grip and flex motions. his eyes got as big as saucers. "i'm rather amazed that you can do that ron. with the amount of damage you have that's incredible progress".

"i told you doctor. i play guitar and piano. i need my hands and wrists working. not moving my hand is not an option"

so here i am. with my cyborg looking arm in a sling. it's gonna take a few months but i will mend. but for now, i really need someone to help me take a shower. or at least wash my hair..... any volunteers?  

time for my percoset.

much love

~ ron

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Gossamer (high brow musings of a reluctant Idealist)
Current mood: thoughtful
Category: Brotherly Religion and Philosophy

Gossamer

It All Happens for a Reason

We are All Connected

Thoughts, Intentions, Words and Actions,

Resonate through Ethereal Strings

Strands of Energy that Create, Compose and Bind Everything and Everyone

Honesty and Integrity

With Ourselves and those We Touch

Guide and Define our Mutual Destiny

A Life of Love, Laughter, Beauty and Truth ~

Trust and Acceptance equal Strength and Happiness

Open Minds and Open Hearts

Penetrate the Veil

Revealing and Releasing a Universe of Joy 

~namaste~

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Tiny Waterfalls (inspired by the bright and beautiful Dahlia aka.....)
Current mood: inspired
Category: Music

Tiny Waterfalls

(a lyric)

She knows

It's time

She knows

It's over

But she can't help looking back over her shoulder

Her heart

Still burned

While his

Grew colder

And she struggled for so long with ash and smolder

So she checks once more in the mirror

For the One she left behind

And she bangs her head on the window

For the forty-second time

Then she turns to see her reflection

In the world that's passing by

Tiny waterfalls in the cliffside

On the road to Reno

Tiny waterfalls in the cliffside

On the road to Reno

"We know

His kind"

Her friends

All told her

But they never knew the kindness of his soul

He ran

Through waves

And sand

To hold her

And she never thought he'd ever let her go

So she checks once more in the mirror

For the One she left behind

And she bangs her head on the window

For the forty-second time

Then she turns to see her reflection

In the world that's passing by

Tiny waterfalls in the cliffside

On the road to Reno

Tiny waterfalls in the cliffside

On the road to Reno

Why do they always run away

Run when the Ball begins

He was the one who should have stayed

Stayed 'til the very end

She's driving her load

To the end of the road

Where nobody knows her name

Tiny waterfalls in the cliffside

Tiny waterfalls in the cliffside

Tiny waterfalls in the cliffside

On the road to Reno

Tiny waterfalls

Tiny waterfalls

Tiny waterfalls

On the road to Reno

Tiny waterfalls in the cliffside

On the road to Reno

She knows it's time ~

She knows it's over. . . . . .

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armonia (aka armonica)
Current mood: romantic
Category: Playful Writing and Poetry

Just reposting some old stuff for some new frinds. I hope you like it too :) (some previous comments were accidentally deleted during the reposting of this. I am so sorry. I greatly appreciate all of your wonderful feedback)

ARMONIA

The skin soft sound of glass and water poured over me

The light warmed gently by her naked body as she played

Oh what love like breath she breathes, of sun sweet cream and full white breasts

Oh what sense of joy she breeds when fingers touch their tips to glass

Full the ether fills my ears with rapturous song on laughing wings

         The skin soft sound of glass and water

               to my earthbound soul doth sing

@Ronald Andrew Hurst

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Sometimes (a rambling admission)
Current mood: nostalgic
Category: Just to let you know Romance and Relationships

 

SOMETIMES

(a rambling admission. . .just because it's how I feel. . . sometimes)

 

 

Sometimes I miss you oh so much

Mostly when I'm here

I touch your face and trace your lips

So cool against my finger tips

Imagined for so long 

What might have been but never was to come

 

And for a time, I still believe,

Though now that time has come and gone

We shared a special bond

The joy of seeing your "on" light on

And smiling with delight

Telling you my favorite words

Were "Unread" and "Replied"

And that the words I hated most

Were "Goodbye" and "Goodnight"

 

Sometimes I miss your writes, you know?

Your magic prose of love and truth

They filled my mind with hope and fear

And made my spirit soar

But I can't read them anymore

What once felt real now seems pretend

So easily you turned your pen

To musings for another man

 

But still sometimes I miss your words

In time they'll make me smile again

Just not the ones you write for him

Well maybe.... I'll know better then

Sometimes I miss our plans for life

Before that scattered, crazy night

That followed days of you being gone

A manic "fish in shark filled ponds"

You wrote "Friends yes but moving on"

You'd made the choice I asked you to

I thought it would be best - "for you"

And though I miss you so so much

And sometimes feel the fool. . .

I still think that it's true

Now you're with him and I'm alone

Our dreams of lust were dust not stone

How quickly they were gone

I envy you your fickle heart,

Your fearless zest for moving on

I knew that night I'd be replaced

Just not before the dawn!!!

Still sometimes I miss you oh so much,

Your words, your laugh, your silly thoughts

Sometimes I miss you so so much

No ifs, no ands, no whys, no buts,

No wheres, no whens, no hows

Sometimes I miss you way to much

And Sometimes sometime's ...now

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giver (inspired by wind's "rescue me")
Current mood: oral
Category: oral Romance and Relationships

giver

Sweet-Sultry-Sexual-Surrender

How rare it is

to have someone truly  

deeply

completely

Devoted to your pleasure

Sans any need for reciprocation

Save for the gratification of watching,

hearing, smelling

and tasting

your orgasm

Ron Hurst 3/20/2008

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PRIMARY AXIOM
Current mood: Enlightened and a little Horny
Category: Enlightened and a little Horny Religion and Philosophy

A~X~I~O~M

~ Perhaps ~

TO THE DEGREE WE ARE SPIRIT

AND NOT FLESH

WE ARE CAUSE

AND NOT EFFECT

OF THE PHYSICAL UNIVERSE

The above was in response to an Astrologer friend who made the observation, "I’m not sure why, but you don’t seem to fit your astrological chart". Hmm. Now that I think about it, maybe I just gave him the wrong time of day ) 

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Uncharted
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Strangely Sad but Inspired Life

UNCHARTED

I am become the mourning star

Fading from view

Praying for dawn

Only one question remains

Will my flickering soul be coaxed back to flame?

or;

Vanish completely beneath the far plane ~ never to rise from this ocean of pain

These are uncharted waters for me

Adrift on a southern most Vertigo sea

Darker than coal in a moonless sky

Where the only One lost is the One who won’t try 

(: ~ You picked one hell of a night to come sailing ~ :)

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OMISSION (or Self Pity)
Current mood: determined
Category: DEFIANT Writing and Poetry

OMISSION

                                                                          or "Self Pity"

I've got no enemies

I've got no friends

I've got no ways or means

To an end

I find no comfort

I feel no pain

I have no point of view

To defend

I stand as witness

To my own crime

I see the truth

Yet act as if blind

I've cut the future

Out of the man

The blood of promise

Drips from my hand

I've got no enemies

I've got no enemies

I've got no enemies

. . . but me. . .

 

(NOTE: This is an older write. Yet some habitual "heads" do rear from time to time. I do have friends. I absoloutley know they love me. And I couldn't love them more. It's called "dramatic license" ;^)>

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Angry Words (excerpt)
Current mood: Stupid and Draumatized
Category: Stupid and Draumatized Writing and Poetry

Angry words

I never should have said

Angry words

Betray me in the end

To crucify

The fragile hearts of friends

On angry words

I never should have said

Promises

Were never to have been

Promises

How can I ever mend

What never was

Was ever there a cure

To heal the Saint

Who never was to pure

(excerpt from "Angry Words" by Ron Hurst)

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