So the guy at Budget said "I have a ford Focus for you here. . . unless you want the mustang."
Current mood: fabulous
Category: I am going in STYLE; Travel and Places
so i am off to see the wizard. in my RED MUSTANG. man, it SO rocks to be me, sometimes.
my son, Valentine, Really cleaned up at his Christmas/Birthday. he got about 3 of everything on his list. like, we had 4 little kids sitting around the tree, with about 50 billion gifts. you could not even get close to the tree because of all of the stuff. he was SO excited. it was wonderful. and we got to have evan there, which was great. he is a fabulous guy.
so one quick bitch: Ricky has been working overtime and weekends and being really crabby for the last 2 months to buy kids christmas presents. but then he misses our christmas party, which was also valentine's birthday party.
you know, the kids like the presents, don't get me wrong, but what val and evan Really would have liked is for ALL of us to be together to celebrate and open presents.
i just wish he would remember what is really important.
merry christmas, everybody. i love you all, and be careful during your new year celebration. don't drink and drive.
(RED MUSTANG) (YAY!)
Currently
listening
:
Amplified Heart
By
Everything But the Girl
Release date: 19 July, 1994
Rest In Peace, Christopher Jensen, my Brother.
Current mood: distraught
Category: Too Sad to be Borne in Life
I am sorry to be the one to have to post this, but my brother, Christopher Jensen, killed himself on Monday, the 10th of December, 2007.
he did not suffer, and we are all devastated by his death. i am sorry to all of you out there that knew him, i hope tthat this is not the first that you have heard about this horrible, horrible thing.
he is survived by his wife, Kelley (Bracamonte) Jensen; his mother Susan (Jensen Becker) Rowe; several grandparents, aunts and uncles: and two step sisters, betsy and Cady. he was loved deeply and he will be sorely missed by all of us.
his service is tomorrow, Dec 15th, in Greenfield, MO. he has been cremated, and his ashes will be scattered in the mountains in Utah (where his heart lived) at some later date.
please pray for his family, and especially his wife Kelley.
may he rest in peace.
he was beautiful. he was a great and trustworthy friend. he had a HUGE heart. he was a good husband. he was a great driver. he was kind and compassionate. he was a great listener. he was a dab hand with fireworks. he was fun to drink with. he was a fabulous playmate. he was a brilliant mind. he was a hysterically funny troublemaker. he was a hard worker. he was a big dreamer. he was a great buddy first, and a great brother later. i will always love and miss him, and i hope that somehow i will meet him again someday.
Old-Home Week
Current mood: grateful
Category: Happiness can be found on MySpace
so it has been just one thing after another.
old friends popping out of the woodwork everywhere i turn, and they all say, "what have you been doing? where have you been?" like i was the one who went away.
i swear, if i get much happier, i might explode.
Currently
listening
:
Room for Squares
By
John Mayer
Release date: 18 September, 2001
may your daylight savings accrue much interest.
Current mood: good
Category: it seems like all my blogs are about Romance and Relationships
so i met the mom. she was really nice...... i think she liked me. she said that tom needs someone cheerful like me. lol. all of this bouncing around and laughing that i do must be faking everyone out. lol.
a story for you: i recently ran into an old friend when i went in to the courthouse to take care of a ticket (they were going to lock me up and take away my driver's licence because of a "dog at large" ticket.). but the point of this story is not the ticket, it is the friend. this is a friend that was one of my best friends ever, and that i lost becase of a situation with my husband WAAAAAAY back before we were married. i mean, it is narly a decade since i have had this friend. and she was happy to see me! she hugged me! and she just sent me an e-mail, and we are gonna go have a sit-down soon.... if i am lucky, sometime next week. and i am so excited that i am almost peeing on myself. so THAT is exciting.... i love it when things come back around full-circle and you can see the used-to-be in the now.
so everyone is all excited about getting an extra hour of sleep tonight, but not me. i get an extra hour of work, and i do not even think that i am getting paid for it. i am pretty sure that that should be illegal. lol.
so the mom thing........ i guess tom was upfront with her about me and all of our.... differences:.. she knows how old i am, she knows that i have a kid, she knows that i am divorcing, and after today, she knows that i am madly infatuated with her son. and tom's stepdad was pretty interesting, too... i really liked both of them. Tom says that he likes them, too, since he does not live with them. i guess being rebellious when you live with your parents and starting the war is just what happens when you are a kid: it seems that everyone i know did it. but it looks like tom is already mostly recovered. which is awesome. i know many people who can never put the home-war behind them, and it always seems that they are the poorer for it.
Tom even said that he thinks that they like him better with me around. i thought that that was a wonderful complement. i guess i am an interpreter. lol. and then he said that one thing (you know)...... and .... then i went and took a nap before work. lol.
so i have maternal approval, i have a lunch-date with the old home guard, and i work an extra hour tonight.
things have a way of balancing out in the long run, but it sure is good to be flying right now.
(oh, and my mom said that it is a good thing that i did not leave school to pursue the job of teaching the new computer systems to st. john's employees. she said that the environment is deadly oppressive, and that we probably would have gotten fired the first day for inappropriate commentary. thank you, spirit guides, for steering me true through that one. as my mom says, "No One does Torture like Mercy!" i love her. lol)
so that is all i have to say at the moment..... but i have an extra hour to spend blogging, so i might be back. thank you to all of my faithful friends and constant readers. you guys rock my socks off.
sleep well (for an extra hour)---------------> betsy
Currently
listening
:
Graceland
By
Paul Simon
Release date: 27 July, 2004
i sure do LOVE that picture.
Current mood: nervous
Category: People think i am Hot on MySpace
i had to change the profile picture back to the naughty picture.
i needed a reason to feel scandalous.
maybe it would take my mind off of my nerves...... in 8 hours i am going to meet my sweet Star-Shadow's mother. i have chewed off all of my nails. what if she doesn't like me? what if ......
oy. the things that could happen are bad to contemplate. on a happier note, i spoke with my mom today and told her that my boy moved in, and she thought that sounded like a fun idea. she liked tom a lot. she said that he seemed really sweet and intelligent and pretty and stable. lol. just yesterday i was telling tom that i thought that he was amazingly well-adjusted-- and then my mom calls him stable. lol.
so the visit to the doctor went well--- i talked shop with my nurse. she went to St. John's nursing school. she had 3 home-births and delivered one of her grandchildren. she really interesting. and so there is no news to report on the epidemiology of betsy for 2 weeks. keep a happy thought for me.
oh my gosh...... HIS MOTHER. i'm SCARED. and i have been doing so well with NOT biting my nails..... and then i went and bit them all off tonight. to impress her, maybe. lol.
so tom and i went and played pool at Billiards yesterday before i had to come in to work.... he bought me a pub-burger and we played pool. i had a blast. the first game i played really well, and my performance was all downhill from there. lol. i think i have completion issues, because that 8-ball always stays just out of reach : i scratch on the 8, put it in the wrong pocket, or drop it prematurely EVERY TIME. if pool is a metaphor for sex, i just might be in trouble.
i am so happy i could just vomit. i bet all of you are nauseated, now, too.
love is boring to everyone who is not in it.
but...... . . . oy. wow. happy.
lovelovelovelovelove all of you--------------------->
so friday is test-day. i have an appointment to go in and get tested for all of the creepy-crawlies and germy-beasties.
do you know how to get rid of pubic lice? first, shave 1/2 of your pubic hair off. next, with rubbing alcohol, you set the remaining half of your hair on fire. as the crabs run out of the underbrush in their mad dash to escape the flames-- stab them with an icepick.
i hear it really works.
and just so that my fan-club people out there in T.V.-Land know, i am not experiencing any symptoms-- hopefully everything will be running smoothly and it will just be an event for routine maintenance. but still----- better to know than to not know, in my humble opinion.
so i have just acquired a new live-in lover, and things there are hunky-dory. i just helped him move out of his house (he lived on the 4th floor-- it was my job to navigate stairs while carrying heavy crap. my calves are gonna suck tomorrow. lol) well, and any of you who know me knows that i like the live-in situation. it is usually my favorite scenario.
but since i am going in for routine maintenance, we have been abstaining from high-risk behaviours. oh, dear.....-----------
yes, me. abstaining is not my strong suit.
lol.
so i am exhausted and nodding out every time i stop typing ---- so i need to go take my 5-hour energy drink. maybe that will he enough to carry me through the next 5 hours until i get to go home. for a minute. on my way to school.
grrrrrrr.
and it is spanish, too, so i REALLY NEED TO GO! (that made it sound like i had to go pee. lol)
anyway................. if you know me and you are up, call me.
i need the awake-assisst today.
but if i ever find the time, i am gonna dye my hair red, again.
much much much much much love from your sleepy friend, Betsy the Red.
p.s. tired, hunkapiller. need sleep. might settle for
energy. must find energy.
love and light, dears
Currently
listening
:
Exile in Guyville
By
Liz Phair
Release date: 21 December, 1999
Radiskull and Devildoll. it is true love.
Current mood: exhausted
Category: oh, my. maybe i should get more sleep. Art and Photography
"once upon a time, there was a young girl named betsy, and her best friends in the whole world were stephanie, ricky and eli. stephanie and eli did not get out of the house much (the had two small children, twin girls), but they had a computer that was equipped to go onto the information superhighway, the internet. it was cool.
sometimes eli would spend hours playing and poking around on the internet after the girls had gone to bed and after stephanie had gone out to play at denny's with betsy and ricky. so eli would have all sorts of tricks to show them whenever everyone would hang out at the house.
the most favorite thing that he ever found was a little "series" on shockwave video. it was called "Radiskull and Devil Doll" and it was badly animated, and badly sung. but the characters were so lovable and engaging that everyone in the house became addicted to their antics. we would all gather around the computer and wait for the video to finish downloading at dial-up speeds so that we could all watch the next episode. we were united as a family, we learned the songs together, and they were a sort of password to our universe. without the Devil Doll rap, we were nothing.
and shortly after our little "family" blew up in our faces (a story for another night, my darlings, for it is a dark and meaningless tale of heartbreak and betrayal) shockwave, the host of our little Radiskull and Devil Doll addiction, removed these characters from the web, but not from our hearts.
and so when i was wandering aimlessly about in the storied halls of youtube, i decided that throwing out a search for those old animated friends (Radiskull and Devil Doll; not stephanie and eli. i do not figure i will find them on youtube) would be a worthwhile search. and while i had no real hope, i did dream that all 15 episodes of the saga of Radiskull and Devil Doll would be revealed there. and no such luck. there was only one episode, the Original Episode as written and illustrated by Joe Sparks and originally hosted by shockwave.
it was more than i had dreamed. and so i decided to attempt to share it here, with you, my loyal friends and faithful readers. may it bring you the joy that it did for me Once Upon A Time, A Long, Long Time Ago, When Everyone lived in the forest and noone lived anywhere else.
Time Folds
Current mood: awake
Category: -- --Atwood-- -- Writing and Poetry
Time folds, he said, meaning that as time goes on and on it buckles, in the extreme heat, in the extreme cold, and what is long past becomes closer. You can demonstrate this by pleating a ribbon and sticking a pin through: Point Two, once yards away from Point One, now lies just beside it. Is time/space like an accordion, but without the music? Was he making a statement about hard physics?
Or was he saying: Time folds its wings, at long last? Time folds its tents and silently steals away? Time folds you in its folds, as if you were a lamb and the lack of time a wolf. Time folds you in the blanket of itself, it folds you tenderly and wraps you round, for where would you be without it? Time folds you in its arms and gives you one last kiss, and then it flattens you out and folds you up and tucks you away until it's time for you to become someone else's past time, and then time folds again.
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