Swiped from one of Human Evolution's comments in his blog The End of Christianity, in a discussion about why the burden of proof is on the person making the extraordinary claim. In this particular case the assertion, "souls exist."
Bill Nye explains the scientific method, and the difference betweeen Science and Pseudoscience, using as an illustration the claim that the Earth is round.
I was reminded last week by my brother-in-law, Tim, that the curse of having an analytical mind is always needing to know WHY something works; and further to have it demonstrated in a tangible, practical way. We were talking about how some people (I among them) are unable to comprehend certain abstract concepts unless they're able to test them in a real situation. Algebra made absolutely NO sense to me (and was the very first class I ever got an "F" in) until I was in my early 20s, and as part of my job in a financial institution I was required to create a complicated spreadsheet report (In Lotus 123, back in the Jurassic era!). I was working on a rather involved formula in a cell, and realized what I was looking at... I asked myself, "When the hell did I learn Algebra?"
So I guess when someone can come up with a scientific experiment that demonstrates the existence of souls, gods, demons or any other supernatural forces to the extent that it becomes a scientific fact, I'll be able to treat the claims as worthy of closer investigation. To date, I've been offered nothing in the way of "evidence" save circular reasoning, logical fallacies and personal anecdotes. It just doesn't work for me... and I've outgrown wishful thinking.
7:10 AM - Too much stuff!!!
Current mood: drained
Category: Life
I'm still trying to offload enough of the stuff I've dragged along with me, so that it's not so blatantly evident that I'm stuffing a house-full of whatnot into a small apartment. I've got shit everywhere, although I'm doing my best to keep it somewhat organized... I'm down to mostly tubs, and a box here or there; but it's still overwhelming. There are a lot of things that have some sort of sentimental value, but I just don't have room for them; and then there are things that might have some actual monetary value, but until I can sell them they're just taking up space.
I've been donating a couple tubs/boxes full of stuff, pretty much every week for the past couple months, to the Salvation Army store a block away. On some level it sort of irks me, because I give the shit to them for free, but then I see the prices they charge inside their store - they're making a pretty penny. Yes, some of it goes to help people here in the community, but there's also a share that goes toward their mission to save "souls" -- and we all know how I feel about THAT, right? At any rate, my being too lazy to figure out how to sell some of this crap without being able to just have a yard sale or something ends up being a victory for Jesus, which probably makes my Christian friends happy.
Sorting through the detritus of my past is hard work. I get sidetracked a lot, and every now and then something or another sends me into a bout of nostalgia or some emotional issue that demands immediate attention, and I'm forced to work it out with myself somehow. Last night, I was backing up my photos, and ended up making a Flickr account just so I could upload some of the cool pictures of flowers I took during the past few years. Check them out.
Someday I'll live in a house again, and I'll be able to have flowers, animals and bugs to take pictures of and interact with. It may be a long time until that'll come to pass, though... so in the meantime I need to resign myself to the fact that I live in an apartment, with no storage to speak of, no yard, no privacy, no parking for visiting friends, and no place for stuff I don't really need anymore. I have to be satisfied with keeping memories, because mementos take up too much space.
If you're in the neighborhood, come by. We can share a drink & a smoke and you can rifle through the belongings I no longer have room for... Giving my extra stuff to friends and family is far better than giving it to strangers, that's for sure! At least when I'm dead there'll be something to remember me by. I don't have room for so many mementos, but if they get split up amongst the people I love, their "footprints" will be significantly reduced! :-)
Flame away if you will; I couldn't care less. I have very strong opinions about some issues, and Sex Education/Teen Pregnancy are right up there.
I am a staunch supporter of organizations such as Planned Parenthood and Advocates for Youth, whose mission is to provide reality-based, comprehensive sex education in hopes of lowering the incidence of unplanned pregnancies and sexually transmitted diseases, while also providing access to low- or no-cost contraception and reproductive health care to women of all ages who cannot otherwise afford it.
Planned Parenthood takes a beating from the bible-thumpers for also providing access to safe, legal abortions for those women who decide it's the best choice for their own situation. Me, I give them a million kudos (and when I still had disposable income, thousands of dollars) because their services - not just abortions, but all services - have saved girls' and women's lives, including myself and many people I know personally. But I digress...
Yesterday I was in the grocery store, and right up front as I walked in was a display of OK! magazine, with this cover:
Jamie Lynn Spears, Patron Saint of Teen Pregnancy
As the mother of a teenager, and a lifelong activist against teen pregnancy, this shit just infuriates me! Not only have the Fundamentalist Christians managed to set back sex education 50 years with their insistence on the abomination that is abstinence-only sex ed and worthless "pledges" of "purity" or virginity by the teens whose minds are polluted with superstitious nonsense, but the media's treating Jamie Lynn Spears' teen pregnancy as though it's a good thing, rather than the tragedy (and stellar example of the Spearses' shitty parenting, if Britney wasn't already sufficient) that it truly is.
Unfortunately, this dangerously stupid, irresponsible young tart is looked up to as a role model to many a teen girl. Their youth makes them vulnerable to the delusion that having a baby before they're out of their teens is anything other than a tragic decision that will ruin their lives. Yes, I said it, RUIN their lives! They fail to realize that Jamie Lynn's got the benefit of having far more resources today than most teens will have over their entire lifetimes. Hell, what OK! paid Spears just for those baby pictures is quite likely more than any other teen ignorant enough to opt for motherhood will make in her chosen career as a Welfare Mom for the 18+ years she & her doomed-from-the-getgo progeny will be on the public dole.
It's true I have no moral problem with abortion; which is not to say that I condone the multiple abortions of those stupid, irresponsible tramps who rely upon it as birth control. The availability of information and resources today means there is NO excuse for unplanned pregnancy other than the failure of one's contraception (it happens). In fact, there are several instances where I personally believe abortion should be the only choice that can be characterized as wise & responsible. Here are just a few off the top of my head...
If you find yourself pregnant and are:
under 21
still in school
unemployed
without health insurance
unmarried or otherwise without a man who'll step up to be a real dad - like make a decent living to support you, not be on welfare
a failure at properly and consistently using contraception
relying on the generosity of family or public assistance in order to have a place to live and/or feed and raise a kid
...you should drag your ass to the nearest abortion provider with all due haste.
If my teenaged daughter had a tumor that was going to kill her, I'd take her to the nearest surgeon to remove it without a moment's hesitation. Am I supposed to get all emotional about a similar collection of cells that won't necessarily kill her (although that IS a risk of childbirth, for every woman), but will pretty much end any chance she has at a full, worthwhile life while simultaneously bringing ruin to the lives of both a child and the hapless boy stupid enough not to wrap his pecker? Well, call me callous, but I won't. The way I see it, even if I was delusional enough to consider a clump of cells to be a "life," I'd still say it's worth sacrificing that one in order to save three from utter ruin.
Pretending for a moment that I believed in "souls" and "God," isn't it the more merciful thing to send that unborn soul back to God than to consign it to the veritable Hell on Earth of growing up desperately poor with ignorant, uneducated parents whose prospects of being successful are nearly non-existent? It's bad enough when mature adults can't make a better life for their children than they themselves had, due to a lack of opportunity or education... having a child when you're a child yourself is nothing more than sentencing yourself and your kid(s) to a meager existence, most likely growing up in shitty neighborhoods because it's all you'll ever be able to afford. Would your God really want you to live that way, and to bring your child up in poverty?
Lastly, if you're not mature and responsible enough to do something so simple as make sure you're protected from pregnancy (if not diseases) before you go fucking someone, you're certainly not in any position to be a parent!
Oh, and if you're a parent or any adult to whom a pregnant teen turns for advice and you're not telling her to save herself and have an abortion rather than ruining her own life and so many others because she's just too fucking young and dumb to truly understand the consequences, you're part of the problem. Jamie Lynn Spears' family can afford to "support" her decision to be an ignorant slut; most other teens' families cannot. It doesn't seem to stop a lot of them, however, from putting themselves in a position whereby they make it easy for these girls to populate this country and our world with yet another generation of children who'll no doubt grow up as ignorant and uneducated as their parents... after all, "Mom had me when she was only a teenager... so it's not so bad, right?" Wrong.
I used to think it was cruel of a parent to throw a pregnant teen out of the house. I've changed my mind. I think it's more cruel to enable a pregnant teen by creating an environment where she'll have all sorts of help; it only serves to uphold the delusion that having a baby is a wise choice. It's not, and if it's the one she's going to make, against all sane and rational advice to the contrary, she should be thrust into the real world, all alone... where uneducated, ignorant and irresponsible people pay dearly for their bad decisions. Rewarding stupidity with empathy, financial help and any other enabling resources is insane. And it's likely the reason why there are still so many teen pregnancies and welfare moms in the 21st century, when there's no fucking excuse for it!
So yes, I am PRO-ABORTION for teenagers (and really, anyone who's too poor, alone, or otherwise unfit to raise a kid)... it's part & parcel of being pro-choice. I just have balls enough to come right out and say the politically incorrect things some other people wouldn't dare to, in a culture where we've fetishized children to a ridiculous extent. Pregnancy and childbirth aren't some sort of divine miracle, and in fact they're all too easily attainable for damned near anyone with a vagina. Let's stop treating these biological functions as though they're sacrosanct, especially when they serve to destroy the lives and potential of young women as well as the children they bear.
Check out my recordings and let me know what you think!
This is just a great friggin' song! I recorded it a couple months ago, for the express purpose of sending it to a few friends who'd like nothing more than to see me convert to god-belief... just to show that my tongue didn't fall out or I wasn't struck by lightning whilst singing the lie, "I've got a friend in Jesus..." :-) Enjoy!
6:50 PM - The humans are ok, but kitty’s in need!
Current mood: worried
Category: Pets and Animals
As I've lamented, bitched and blogged about previously, our house was foreclosed upon. Everything and everyone in it has been moved now, so it's now relegated to the dustbin of failed ventures. The people who lived there are all moved into other temporary or permanent quarters, going about starting the newest chapter of their lives.
However, there's one last, beloved, inhabitant who's still in transit. Her name is Lakshmi, and she's one of the sweetest, most loveable kitties I've ever known. I rescued her about 3 1/2 years ago, nearly dead because some asshole put a puppy collar on her... she'd gotten one paw through it, and it had cut into the flesh of her chest/shoulder joint and become embedded there (along with a horrific infection). It took 3 surgeries and almost $2000 to finally get her fixed up and healed, but it was worth every penny considering the love and joy she brought into our household.
A friend of mine recently agreed to take her, and another of my kitties, to live with her out in Lake Elsinore. Unfortunately, after less than a week, the friend realized that she was allergic to Lakshmi... so she brought her back to me. Unfortunately, I'm not allowed any pets in my apartment, so I need to find another good home for her as soon as possible. In the 6 months I've been in this apartment, it's been a crap-shoot every First as to whether I'll be able to pay-and-stay one more month; so the last thing I need is to get evicted because I'm just too damned compassionate to refuse harboring an "illegal" when she's got nowhere else to go.
No, I will not take her to the "pound," because I'm unwilling to leave her somewhere knowing that if no one adopts her she'll be killed. I wouldn't do it to my daughter, so I sure as hell won't do it to an animal that's just as dear to me as the fruit of my womb!
I have calls in to some local (Orange County, CA) kitty rescue places, and have spread the word that she needs a good home; but I'm blogging/bulletin-ing this in hopes of reaching even more people, in hopes that someone can either offer her a loving home or provide additional options I should check out.
"Shmi" is an indoor/outdoor cat, spayed and current with shots through last year. She is extremely affectionate toward humans, has lived with other cats & dogs, but is truly the bane of any prey animal unlucky enough to cross her path! She'd be a great addition to any family, especially if they live in a place where she has room to roam outside and provide vermin extermination services. Here she is in "Killer Kitty" mode:
All I want is for my kitty to have another home where she'll be as loved as she was at our house. Please get in touch with me if you can possibly help in any way. Thanks.
Some people see Memorial Day (and Veterans Day) as merely a day off of work; an excuse to gather with friends, "eat, drink and be merry." To me, in my godlessness, they're probably the closest thing to "sacred" of any holiday. While so many Americans may take a moment on Monday to pray or thank their God(s) in memory of our fallen warriors, I am ever mindful of how many men and women throughout our history have shed their blood in defense of this country, our Constitution and our Freedoms. THEY SHALL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN!
Many people, whether in ignorance or plain denial, claim they don't exist - but they do and always have. For their service, sacrifice and dedication to keeping America free, I am forever in their debt.
ATHEISTS IN FOXHOLES
Atheists in foxholes, some say they are myths, Creations of the mind who just don't exist.
Yet, they answered the call to defend, with great pride. With reason their watchword, they bled and they died.
They took Saratoga from the British crown, Secured America's freedom at the Battle of Yorktown.
From Sumter to Appomattox, fields flowed with their blood. When the cannons grew silent, the flag proudly stood.
From the Marne to the Argonne, in trenches and tanks, They defeated the Germans -- the whole world gave thanks.
They were bombed at Pearl Harbor, fought on to Berlin. Many freethinking women served along with the men.
Still war keeps erupting -- Iraq, Bosnia, and Kosovo. Where is the peace that eludes people so?
It is broken by tyrants who bear crosses and creeds, That overshadow reason with hate and cruel deeds.
So atheists prevail until your work is complete. Mothers mourn, children cry, and bigots plan your defeat.
By air, land, and sea, you answer freedom's call. Without god or faith, you seek liberty for all.
-- Alice Shiver, in commemoration of the monument's dedication
Later today, I'll be packing all the rest of the furniture and belongings at my old house into a trailer and hauling it down to my new apartment. It's sad knowing that after this weekend, most every trace of our having lived there for the past 8 years will be gone, and all that's left is the as-yet-unknown amount of debt that'll get added to the list of things that I'll be on the hook for... the last remnants of my epic failure as a responsible homeowner.
Between now and next Monday, the most important thing I MUST address is finding homes for my 3 kitties. I wish I could keep them myself, but there are no pets allowed at my apartment complex, and I can't risk getting thrown out by trying to sneak them in (as if you can EVER be successful sneaking a cat anywhere!). I'm still hoping that by some stroke of good luck I'll find homes for them with people I know; people who'll love and care for them the way I have, but no longer can.
So, if you happen to run into me within the next week or so, I apologize in advance for any bitchy behavior or shortness. I'm off any meds that might help me get through the most depressing event I've had to endure lately. And as hard as I try not to be angry at the situation in general; or at the people who benefited from, or took full advantage of, my having been "on top" in the years before my life fell apart, but found it beyond their capability (or desire) to go the extra mile in order to take up the slack when I couldn't keep the ship afloat; the fact is, I am angry. And disappointed.
But I think I've finally learned a lesson I should have a long, long time ago: No matter what they might say, NO ONE ever cares as much about the things that are important to ME as I do; and with that in mind, so ends that aspect of my personality that has always made me do everything and anything I can to help out a loved one in need. From this point on, any assistance I may be able to provide will be limited to things that are short-term and within certain boundaries. In other words, I'll be minimizing the risks and doing my damnedest to limit the amount of damage I'll take when I ultimately, and undoubtedly, get fucked over.
And here's a great big Thank You (well, actually a FUCK YOU) to everyone who bailed out and left me and my sister, Liz, holding the bag. I sincerely wish you well, but can only hope that one day you find yourselves in the position we are: responsible for the last tasks involved in clearing out what remains of the lives of others... lives they wouldn't have HAD or ENJOYED if not for your generosity and kindness. I can only hope that one day the shoe's on the other foot, and you'll stand among the ruins of your fondest dreams, cleaning up the mess left behind by people who were supposed to be on your side, but couldn't be bothered to help you rescue your dreams and couldn't get the hell away fast enough, before they might have to help bury the dead.
Have a nice life... I'll be paying for it for years to come...
6:06 PM - Check out this video: Piano’s 5 new kittens
Current mood: amused
Category: Pets and Animals
We were too broke to have Piano spayed last year, and unfortunately she went and got herself knocked up when she escaped during her first "season." Doh!
But the little buggers are so freakin' cute it's impossible not to just love them!
11:08 AM - Myspace.com Blogs - REPOST: What did Martin Luther King know about the origins of Christianity?
Current mood: geeky
Category: Religion and Philosophy
Most people know little, if anything about the history of the religion they profess to follow. Everyone should read everything they can about their chosen belief system; especially its evolution throughout history.
2:03 PM - Churchill said it a century ago; now Pat Condell reiterates!
Current mood: vehement
Category: Religion and Philosophy
"Fitna" - the controversial anti-Islam video by Geert Wilders
(By the way, I don’t care what your book of hocus-pocus says - regardless of the version you subscribe to - if you want to believe in things/beings for which there is no evidence, have at it; but don’t bitch, whine or issue a fatwa when you spout your Bronze Age "truths" and end up having to defend yourself against people who know your books better than you do, and reject them as a life guide for civilized people living in the 21st century. Your magic books call for the murder of those who refuse to embrace the bigotry and violence within their pages and fails to convert to your belief system. Why, then, is it a surprise that so many people are ready to die defending their countries from an influx of religious nuts? It has gone too far, and people of reason must fight with everything at their disposal to expose these death cults and morality police for what they are.)
As one of those people our detractors have branded "New" or "aggressive" atheists, I’m quite proud to be in the company of Pat Condell. I take a lot of flack from people for my rants against religion; primarily from Christians of course, because Christianity receives most of my scrutiny, skepticism and criticism. It shouldn’t be that difficult to understand that my motivation stems from the fact that here in America Christianity is politically powerful, illegally endorsed by our supposedly-secular government and has spawned our own homegrown Christian fundamentalists who would institute their own brand of theocracy in place of our secular laws if they were given the chance. This must not happen!
However, at least Christianity underwent a reformation and (sort of) purged their religion of (a few of) its more violent and hateful doctrines. This is not true of Islam. Watch "Fitna," the video that was yanked from LiveLeak.com because offended Muslims threatened the LL staff. The video was reposted after LiveLeak took some security measures, but the fact that some followers of "the religion of Peace," resorted to threats over a video that does nothing more than show some of the verses in the Koran that call for the destruction of non-Muslims, juxtaposed with images that show all too graphically how these verses are used to justify the horrific acts of a group of people whose insanity (religion) commands them to dispose of anyone who will not submit. Someone posted the following in comments on LiveLeak, and it demonstrates how little progress we’ve actually made in understanding what the Koran has to say about non-Muslims.
Over 100 years ago, Sir Winston Churchill knew how dangerous Islam was to a free world, yet Europe has allowed the immigration of Muslims on a scale enormous enough to give them sufficient power to demand "tolerance" and be given immunity from prosecution when they commit heinous crimes and then justify them as being simple adherence to their own religious beliefs. Sorry, but if your religious beliefs are such that you’re beating, mutilating, killing or otherwise oppressing or doing violence to your women and children (or any other human being), those beliefs are INSANE and unworthy of even one iota of respect by any civilized person.
Even Churchill saw it coming over 100 years ago
Below is a short speech by Winston Churchill, delivered by him in 1899 as a young soldier and journalist. It expresses current views of many but presented so eloquently by Churchill whose turns of phrase and use of the English language set him apart. One of the great men of the late 19th - 20th centuries, he was a brave young soldier, brilliant journalist, extraordinary politician- statesman; a war leader and Prime Minister the Western world should remember forever. He was a prophet in his own time. He died January 1965, aged 90.
THE SPEECH:
"How dreadful are the curses which Mohammedanism lays on its votaries! Besides the fanatical frenzy, which is as dangerous in a man as hydrophobia in a dog, there is this fearful fatalistic apathy. The effects are apparent in many countries, improvident habits, slovenly systems of agriculture, sluggish methods of commerce, and insecurity of property exist wherever the followers of the Prophet rule or live. A degraded sensualism deprives this life of its grace and refinement, the next of its dignity and sanctity. The fact that in Mohammedan law every woman must belong to some man as his absolute property, either as a child, a wife, or a concubine, must delay the final extinction of slavery until the faith of Islam has ceased to be a great power among men. Individual Muslims may show splendid qualities, but the influence of the religion paralyses the social development of those who follow it. No stronger retrograde force exists in the world. Far from being moribund, Mohammedanism is a militant and proselytizing faith. It has already spread throughout Central Africa, raising fearless warriors at every step; and were it not that Christianity is sheltered in the strong arms of science, the science against which it had vainly struggled, the civilization of modern Europe might fall, as fell the civilization of ancient Rome." -- Sir Winston Churchill; (The River War, first edition, Vol. II, pages 248-50 London)
[emphasis mine]
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Celebrities in Hell
By
Warren Allen Smith
Release date: 25 April, 2002
2:16 PM - How I spent Saturday night - food, fun and good music
Current mood: tired
Category: Music
I was planning to spend Saturday night just hanging around and chilling, decompressing from an extremely stressful week. But late in the afternoon Tony called and said Alma was cooking up some ribs, and that there was some jamming to be done!It was my good fortune to have Tony as my writing partner back in the late 80's when he, I and Brendan, along with Curtis James, performed as Poverty. 20 years later, Tony's solos are better than ever! Check out this video: Tony Lombardo, Guitar Solo
Add to My Profile | More Videos The food was fantastic (as always), and the guys were all pretty pleased that even though they hadn't played together for at least two months, they dropped right back into the groove and rocked the joint!
We even had a sing-along, but I only got about 15 seconds worth before I ran out of memory. Next time, the mini-DV cam comes with me!!!
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Vacancy Release date: 14 August, 2007
1:29 PM - Who’s REALLY got my back...
Current mood: grateful
Category: Friends
A good friend of mine was interested in some of the stuff I've got for sale, and contacted me today to ask about it. In the course of the conversation I gave her the lowdown on my being thisfuckingclose to being evicted, and my disappointment at realizing (once again) that when push comes to shove, it's the people I should have been able to count on who demonstrate that I should never count on anyone - least of all those who've proven more than once that they'll disappoint me every time I put myself in a position where I have no choice but to rely on their help.
At any rate, my friend offered to lend me the money I need to get out of the temporary-but-significant financial trouble I'm in; even before hearing that I can promise to repay her quickly because I've got more than enough money coming within 30 days to cover the loan (and documentation to support that fact). It's interesting, to say the least, that someone who's only known me for 10 years or so has more confidence in me (and more concern for my well-being) than someone who's known me since birth and shares my blood.
So, to my friend who's going to save my ass: Thanks for caring and having faith in me when it seemed all was lost...
And to my relative who left me to get fucked in the ass, metaphorically speaking: Your previous generosity IS very much appreciated and I still love you, but with regard to helping me get out of this particular bind, Thanks for nothing. Oh wait, I lied! It's not exactly "nothing" after all... I forgot about the unnecessary drama, the vote of no-confidence and the fear of losing my place to live (one more time) that was created by all this bullshit. Yeah, thanks a million for that!
To everyone else who'd have gladly helped if only they had the means to do so: Money isn't everything... your sincere concern and your confidence in me means the world... thanks for always being there. If not for your support, I'd probably be in the looney bin.
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Sixteen Candles Release date: 06 May, 1998
2:57 PM - F*cked six ways to Sunday, or CURSED?!?!
Current mood: infuriated
Category: Life
If I believed in that sort of bullshit & woo, I'd swear I'm cursed!
Here I am, well and truly fucked; no kiss, no grease - I've got about $2000 worth of bills to pay right-fucking-now, so the $4000 or so that's coming in the next couple of weeks is of NO help whatsoever. I'd go to the loan sharks and put up the title to my car to get some cash, but of course, I don't have the title... Like a fucking idiot, I never followed up and got the lien release from the finance company when I paid the bitch off back in 2006. It's just as well, I suppose, since I'd likely have borrowed against it over the past year anyway (and probably lost it just like everything else), in my desperation to hang on to the house that's now in foreclosure. I've lost or liquidated everything I ever had, or probably ever will have, just trying to keep the family afloat for the past two years. Losing that high-paying job AND being blackballed from the company ruined my life, and led to right where I am today: in foreclosure, nearly divorced (if we can ever afford to file the fucking papers), about to get kicked out of my apartment, with a shitty FICO score and a mountain of credit card debt. THANK YOU, WB!!!
My chiropractor put me on disability leave today, for at least a month, because my neck/shoulder problem isn't getting any better and if I don't take care of it I'll have permanent nerve damage that will end all hope of ever being employed at any sort of job that involves using a computer ("Would you like fries with that?"). On the bright side, I'll get paid more from Disability Insurance than my weekly paychecks have been for the past several months - and it's non-taxable. Unfortunately, those checks won't start coming until at least two weeks from now, and the one relative who can afford to help me out (he's spent more than I need today just playing one hand of poker in Vegas) isn't returning my calls.
Oh well... it's down to either finding a loan shark or maybe swapping my formidable sexual skills for cash. In hindsight, that's probably what I should have been doing all along, since the traditional sex-in-trade-for-financial-security arrangement colloquially known as "marriage" didn't work out at all as it should have. Wheeeeeeee!
I don't have a pot to piss in, and if I had the proverbial window to throw it out of, I'd be jumping out of the goddamned thing today.
Oh, and to all of those who've told me, "I'll pray for you," over the past couple of years - JUST STOP! Although I truly do appreciate your concern, your prayers have done nothing at all and are much better spent on someone who believes that shit is real. At least they'll be comforted by such delusions; to me it's a waste of your time, your energy and your breath - for even if your God existed, I highly doubt that divine intervention for a godless heathen such as myself would be high on his To-Do list!
4:20 AM - No sleep aids == No sleep!
Current mood: awake
Category: Life
I have no more sleeping pills, and since I'm so broke I can't even pay attention I've got nothing herbal either, dammit! I'm too old for this shit... I need my beauty sleep. Eh, so today I'll be exhausted; but I have an appointment with the shrink this afternoon so I'm hoping she'll give me some more sleeping pills.
This sucks. I have a lot of crap to do these days, and it's difficult enough for me to stay on-task when I do sleep... never mind when I pull these all-nighters!
Good thing I'm not a crackhead or a tweaker, I don't know how they do it!!!
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