"Night that falls..."
Category: Writing and Poetry

There are those nights I so resist
The beckoning call of looming sleep
Though my body seeks to give in
My mind fights it with fervor
For once I have succumbed
There is no escape, no shield 
From the freedom of my mind
The one place I cannot evade
The ever lingering imprint
You left upon my heart
There is no restraint in thought
No defense left to raise
Only the raw emotions
Of a love I can no longer embrace
And in my waking moments?
I learn to live daily
Knowing...
Sometimes the thing
That appears most intangible
Is what your heart
Knows is most real
Even without the exchange
Of a solitary word...
That knowledge I cannot fight
When I have given in
Let down my shields
And closed my eyes at night

17aug08
~ess

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Melissa Etheridge and then some
Category: Life

Last night I went with a small group of friends to see Melissa Etheridge in her first tour since her battle with breast cancer.  I have spent a good majority of the past 20 yrs listening to Melissa's music and watching her evolve as a musician/writer and a public figure.  I have been fortunate enough to see her perform several times here in Austin.  And last night was probably one of the most moving performances I have seen her give. 

There was a day when breast cancer was a death sentence.  Today is no longer that day, though many of us still feel the sting of loss from a loved one who died from it.  Research and science are still working to improve the treatments available. Everyday there IS another survivor.  And ME's most recent album and her current tour are a testament to that fact.  I wish I could have recorded her words as she told of her experience and triumph...so I could magically press that button anytime someone I knew felt discouraged about life. 

But I am grateful I was sitting next to a very dear friend who was recently diagnosed and needed to hear those words more than anything.  Someone who needed to hear the many survivors' cheers when ME asked how many were in the audience. Their voices were proud and strong.  And my friend, the next time you need that gentle nudge? How about I pop in a Melissa CD and let's sing at the top of our lungs, laugh at what dumb asses we are, wipe away the tears we both try to hide from each other and know no matter what, we have each other's back.  Because that's what friends are for...

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ARTgasm Info 8/16/08
Category: Art and Photography

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How close...
Category: Writing and Poetry

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"Justice" ~ Today’s Tarot Card

Life is rarely subtle, no?

Sybille_rm's Personal Card:

Justice

This Deck: Morgan-Greer

General Meaning: Traditionally, what has been known as the Justice card has to do with moral sensitivity and that which gives rise to empathy, compassion and a sense of fairness. Since the time of Solomon, this image has represented a standard for the humane and fair-minded treatment of other beings.

Often including the image of a fulcrum which helps to balance competing needs against the greater good, and a two-edged sword to symbolize the precision needed to make clear judgments, this card reminds us to be careful to attend to important details. It's a mistake to overlook or minimize anything where this card is concerned. The law of Karma is represented here -- what goes around comes around.

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"Like It or Not"

Pulling out cd's and rediscovering certain songs.  Love this one.

"Like It or Not"  by Madonna

You can call me a sinner
You can call me a saint
Celebrate me for who I am
Dislike me for what I ain't

Put me up on a pedestal
Or drag me down in the dirt
Sticks and stones will
break my bones
But your names will never hurt

I'll be the garden
You be the snake
All of my fruit is yours to take
Better the devil that you know
Your love for me will grow
Because

[ Chorus ]
This is who I am
You can
Like it or not
You can
Love me or leave me
Cus I'm never gonna stop
No no

Cleopatra had her way
Matahari too
Whether they were good or bad
Is strictly up to you

Life is a paradox and
it doesn't make much
sense
Can't have the Femme
without the Fatale
Please don't take offense

Don't let the fruit
rot under the vine
Fill up your cup and
let's drink the wine
Better the devil that you know
Your love for me will grow
Because

This is who I am
You can
Like it or not
You can
Love me or leave me
Cus I'm never gonna stop
No no

This is who I am
You can
Like it or not
You can
Love me or leave me
Cus I'm never gonna stop
No no
no no you know 

I'll be garden
You'll be the snake
All of my fruit is yours to take
Better the devil that you know
Your love for me will grow
Because

This is who I am
You can
Like it or not
You can
Love me or leave me
Cus I'm never gonna stop
No no

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expression...
Category: Writing and Poetry

If my words do not find favor with your ear
Turn your eyes so that you may not see or
Cover your ears so you might not hear
For I am me, a spirit who thrives
In the expression of my thoughts
The sharing of the depths of my heart
Yet you would sooner remove my voice
Than allow me to express
And be...ME
I will not allow another being
To quiet my voice again
Nor would I try to quiet yours
Just because neither of us likes
What the other has to say

*words are not the only means of expression, but it has mistakenly been thought if you don't allow another to speak you have control over them.  So much change has been made when words are not even used.  Actions are the most powerful expression of truth.  And as long as our voice within is strong and faithful, our spirit is intact and hope alive.  Never let someone quiet THAT voice nor should you try to quiet another.  Even if you both see completely opposite sides of an issue, respect yourself and them enough to know they are equally as entitled to feel what they feel even if you don't agree*

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Standing Strong
Category: Life

My boss brought this to me the other day and it just hit home for a lot reasons.  Hope it strikes a chord in you as well.

Tony Snow in The Jewish World Review, 2005

The art of being sick is not the same as the art of getting well.  Some cancer patients recover; some don't.  But the ordeal of facing your mortality and feeling your frailty sharpens your perspective about life.  You appreciate little things more ferociously.  You grasp the mystical power of love.  You feel the gravitational pull of faith.  And you realize you have received a unique gift - a field of vision others don't have about the power of hope and the limits of fear; a firm set of convictions about what really matters and what does not.  You also feel obliged to share those insights - the most important of which is this -- There are things far worse than illness -- for instance, soullessness.

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Regardless of what happens to us, who loves us, who hurts us, who takes care of us, who betrays us, regardless of  our failures or our accomplishements, if you lose who you are, lose sight of the soul and passion inside...you are in essence already dying.  Never let anything or anyone cause you to lose faith in all that is you.  Feed your spirit and embrace who you are and learn to fight there first.  And then you can face whatver you have to and know you have the love and support you deserve and need.  And know those who are true are standing right there with you. And should your body not have the faith it should, know we will be there to encourage and help however we can. ~Syb

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Sometimes...

Sometimes no matter how much you believe in something, you just have to walk away.  Right or wrong...I give

And for those of you who have written concering this...thank you for those who showed grace.  For those who verbally attacked me and threatened me? Words become actions, be careful not to taint your own soul.  Karma deals with what needs to be dealt with, that includes me or whomever else.  Peace 

*compassion and forgiveness* Either live in it or don't.  I accept my faults and WILL learn from them.  And when people do things that hurt me, regardless if it was their intent...I will strive to live in compassion and forgiveness.  People will think whatever they want to think.  I can't change it and so be it

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my wish
Category: Writing and Poetry

despite the silence that has fallen
you are forever here within
may the sun rise on the day
we both are able to find
truth, peace, forgiveness
for ourselves and each other
where we can finally live
without fear, hurt or anger
and learn to thrive
in love and friendhsip
as it should have always been

11Jul08
~ess for k

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