Upcoming Events =)
Current mood: busy

So, the rest of the year is going to be a busy one for me....here's what my tentative schedule looks like:

August 23rd, 2008: Happy 1st year in the Army for me! (if you can believe that)

August 29th - September 1st: Labor Day Holiday - going to Cloudcroft, NM for the weekend with the hubby for an early 7th year anniversary celebration...WOW we have been together that long...

September 29th - My 28th b-day...no idea what's planned that day....

October 4th, 2008: Trinity Open House at White Sands Missile Range

October 10th - October 13th: Columbus Day Holiday - going to Carlsbad, NM to check out the well-known Carlsbad Caverns with the family

November 8th - November 11th: Veteran's Day Holiday - might be going to visit my parents....this is tentative though...

November 27th - November 30th: Thanksgiving Holidays with the family of course! Trying to get my in-laws to visit around this time...

December 20th - January 4th, 2009: Block Leave before NTC...plan to visit family, friends, EVERYONE! Plan to come home to my folks again for a few days since I might not see them before we deploy!

December 28th: My Wedding Anniversary - planning to celebrate in Ruidoso, NM for a few days and nights

January 12th - February 7th, 2009 - NTC FORT IRWIN!!

BTW, we are still scheduled for deployment at the end of April or beginning of May 2009. I will keep all of you posted!

Currently watching : Cars (Widescreen Edition) Release date: 2006-11-07

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A Thought That Warms My Heart...
Current mood: happy

My oldest son, TJ, picked me up from work today and it was kinda late due to training and the field...

He saw I was tired coming out of our Company office so he met me basically at the door and carried all of my field gear for me. I am still limping around a little due to my hip unfortunately. When he was asked by someone what he was doing in our "AO" aka "Area of Operations", he said that he was waiting for his "mom" to get off work.

The thought that he considers me his "mom" instead of the technical "stepmom" warms my heart. He now knows the sacrifices I have made for him over the past several years and that I will do anything for him. I love him and his brothers as much as I would love my own children. Right now, until I get back from deployment and have my biological children, they are my kids and I love them with everything I have.

Thank you for reading....that is all....

Currently listening : Anjunabeats 100 By Above & Beyond Release date: 2008-04-08

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I’m Broke....Physically Anyway....
Current mood: sore

So, Tuesday morning was eventful for me....

We go on a regular PT run as we usually do and I was feeling pretty sore from running twice the day before and wearing my full battle rattle for training all day. I come back and I hurt like hell but I suck it up and drive on....ya know typical Army ego.

I get in my car and drive to my house to shower and change as usual on the other side of the base and then I can't get out of my car when I get there. My right leg is numb and completely dead weight to me. My husband, bless his heart, met me outside and helped me get out of the car. He then proceeded to help me shower, get dressed, and take me to the ER. He was freaking out at this point as much as I was.

12 hours in the ER, ALOT of drugs, a CT scan, etc...they are boggled by my leg and what happened to make it go numb. I was there from 0900 to about 2100. Needless to say, I was pretty freaking high off the drugs I got and crashed when I got home. However, it is hard to have good drugs when you are highly allergic to codeine like I am...

I go to my follow-up appointment yesterday and basically my unit doctor thinks I have damaged my hip joint or have possible hip fractures.

I doubt the latter but I guess we will see...I have to go through a Bone Scan which I find to be amazing cause I will be radioactive for 48 hours  Hopefully I will get that scheduled in the next week or so.

The only possible cause he can see has to be all the road running I do during the week and I haven't given my body the time it needed to rest. I was so focused to be in good shape that I broke myself in the process...and that does hurt alot to know that.

I guess we will see what the outcome is...

In the meantime, I will walk around with my pimp cane they gave me and make good use of my husband's permanent handicap parking plate...lol!

Anyway, time to drug myself and go to sleep...thank GOD for Valium! Have a good weekend all and I will keep you posted. 

Currently watching : National Treasure 2 - Book of Secrets (Widescreen) Release date: 2008-05-20

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My List
Current mood: tired

So, due to all of the music I hear every day on XM radio, I have compiled a short list of some of my favorite but SAD songs in country music.

It is a preferred genre at this time so here my list goes:

1) "I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry" - Hank Williams, Sr. - A classic!

2) "He Stopped Loving Her Today" - George Jones - He could have his own catagory!

3) "Hello Darlin'" - Conway Twitty - The most depressing ever!

4) "Hurt" by Johnny Cash - I was left speechless the first time I heard it...

5) "Whiskey Lullaby" - Brad Paisley & Alison Krauss - You can't drink away heartache...

6) "Remember When" - Alan Jackson - Yeah, I remember when...

7) "I Still Miss You" - Keith Anderson - I hear this song every morning...and every morning I remember...

8) "Another Try" - Josh Turner - One of my favorites for sure!

9) "What Might Have Been" - Little Texas - Another classic song...

10) "Like We Never Loved At All" - Faith Hill - Yeah, I have felt this way too...

11) "Every Light in the House is On" - Trace Adkins - Sometimes you can't give up on love...

12) "One More Day" - Diamond Rio - Sometimes I wish for one more day....

13) "I Will Always Love You" - Dolly Parton - This song hurts the ticker something serious for me...

14) "Anymore" - Travis Tritt - Cause sometimes it's so true...

15) "Trying to Stop Your Leaving" - Dierks Bentley - Sometimes you don't want that person you love to go...

16) "If You're Reading This" - Tim McGraw - Cause death is a chance we take when we put on the uniform...

17) "Alone and Dying" - Hank Williams III - He sounds just as sad as his granddad...excellent song...

18) "Arlington" - Trace Adkins - Cause when I die, it would be an honor to be buried here...

19) "I'll Wait for You" - Joe Nichols - You can only hope the one who loves you would do this...

20) "Everywhere" - Tim McGraw - Sometimes, everything reminds you of the love you lost...

21) "I Breathe In, I Breathe Out" - Chris Cagle - Life goes on when you lose the one you love..but you hope they would come back...

22) "Settle for a Slowdown" - Dierks Bentley - One of my Top 10 for sure....

It's not a complete list but some I have heard lately. I believe that these are some of the saddest Country songs. Anyway, time to relax for my long day tomorrow!

Have a good one!

Currently listening : Up in Smoke By Cheech & Chong Release date: 1991-01-29

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My Poor Baby
Current mood: sad

Yesterday morning I get up to take my dogs outside as I normally do. This has been a routine with them since they were puppies. Sophie came out of my oldest two kids room with no problem but Jager wasn't with her.

I go to look for him and he is trying to walk towards me dragging his back feet. I went to pick him up and woke up my husband. We got dressed as soon as possible and took him to Banfield, the pet hospital at Petsmart.

We have taken him there since he was a puppy and they are a great vet.

The prognosis wasn't good. Jager had a Stage 2 back injury and we had two options: medications or surgery. After x-rays and about $250 later, the vet advised two weeks minimum of crate rest and medication and to wait and see.

Hopefully, he will recover...

He is still the happy puppy he has been for the past 5 and a half years I have owned him. Unfortunately, he hasn't shown much recovery just yet. My husband and I are beside ourselves worried about him. Regardless of everything, he is my baby and we love him like he is one of our children. He tries so hard to be his regular self but it makes me cry when I see him dragging his feet around.

Has anyone else experienced this with their dogs?

I know dachshunds are prone to back injuries but this is definitely a first for me.

I think I will go to church this morning. God and I have alot to talk about....

Hope everyone has a great day!

Currently listening : Heart - Greatest Hits: 1985-1995 By Heart Release date: 2000-06-27

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A Love Reborn
Current mood: happy

So, here is the first of several blogs that I will call my "therapy sessions"

Please feel free to comment or shoot me a message after reading.

Around the Summer of 2006, I was getting really fed up with my life and my job. I was about 100 pounds overweight, working 12 hour days, and not spending any time at home with my husband, dogs, or kids when they visited for the summer. I recall just going home and crashing...even sleeping all weekend to catch up on the sleep I missed during the week. Then again, I wouldn't sleep during the week cause I was so highly caffeinated that I wouldn't calm down enough to get rest. I recall my "crashes" every Friday night about 8 pm on my couch.

I loved my job until my co-worker Tommy quit. They would not replace him due to "lack of funds" and I recall working a WHOLE BUNCH of overtime. Then, they wanted me to stop working overtime and work regular hours but do the job of two people. I started to hate life tremendously at that point. All the working took a toll on me as a person and definitely on my marriage.

It was time for a change...

So, in September 2006, I decided to join the Army as one of my good friends brought it up. As most of you know, I did everything I had to do to lose enough weight and ended up joining in August 2007...well going to Basic Training anyway. I quit my job and left my whole world to Fort Jackson, SC.

There I went through 10 LONG WEEKS of torture to become a soldier. I remember calling my husband crying because of the stuff I had went through those first 48 hours and him telling me it will be okay. I wasn't supposed to graduate due to a bout with pneumonia but since I passed my APFT and made up a road march, they let me. My parents showed up and my husband drove there in less than a day. I was so detatched emotionally that I was happy to see them but didn't know how to act around them.

I had forgotten how to show them that I loved them more than anyone in the world and how happy I was to see them. Trust me, when you go through the training we all go through, you would lose your emotions too.

Then, I go to Fort Sam Houston. I found myself once again being subjected to the same torture and "locked down" feeling until we got back from Christmas. Oh and going home for Christmas was quite an experience. I was still so detatched emotionally from my spouse and family that I did enjoy my visit but not to the fullest that I could have.

I did enjoy the time off but there was still a "love restrained" between myself and my spouse. There for a little bit, I thought we were heading for divorce. I thought we were past the point of repair. But, I still hoped for the best.

Tom is the love of my life...I would do everything I had to do to not lose him.

I graduated from Fort Sam with no major issues. My husband and I knew we were going to Fort Bliss instead of Fort Bragg. I was slotted for Fort Bragg initially but since there was a "mix-up" with another female Oliver in my company, I came to Fort Bliss. I knew that if our marriage was going to work, we had to start somewhere completely new anyway and Fort Bliss is a pretty "remote" base.

After a two week break at home with the same feelings between us, I come out to Fort Bliss via train. I was out here for a month by myself before my husband came out here. We did a LOT of talking and even more arguing on the phone but for the first time, I saw us in repair.

He missed me a whole lot but didn't know how to show it. I had been away almost 9 months from him. We had a few days and nights in between but no way in what we were used to. I had been by his side since September 2001.

I remember my first "sign" of repair between us was when we were driving home for my two weeks home before I went to Fort Bliss and hearing our song on XM radio. Our song is Aerosmith's "Don't Want to Miss a Thing" and he held my hand like he never wanted to let it go.

When he drove out here with his Harley in tow, it took him 14 hours to get here. I remember waiting and calling him a hundred times that day in anticipation of his arrival. I remember the first time I saw him coming through the door with our dogs following and him picking me up and holding me like he used to when we were first married.

Not to mention what else followed....

Since he came out here, we have made a home for ourselves and our children here at Fort Bliss. We have worked through our issues and I still get confused whether we are "newly-weds" or if we just have a stronger love now.

My husband is here for me literally hand and foot.

When the day has been too long, he is here to pick up the pieces of me and gives me a reason beyond all others to be a soldier. He is proud of me and what I have accomplished. I know he will be here for me when I deploy. He will not bitch and complain if he can't hear from me when I am in the field training or those other lovely Army moments when I won't be able to reach him. He was in the military as well...he knows what happens and I know he will always be there for me regardless.

Our love has been "saved" by my decision to join the military and becoming a better person. I can't wait until I come back from deployment and we have babies!

I can't wait for what the future has in store for us.

Thank you for reading...more to follow...

Currently listening : You Never Even Called Me by My Name By David Allan Coe & Johnny Paycheck Release date: 1996-01-01

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Myspace Therapy
Current mood: Caffeinated!

So, I have figured out the other reason I came back to Myspace....

It has to be the "Blog" option.

Two Reasons:

It will be cheaper than therapy 

AND

I won't take away from my everyday job working at the Batallion Aid Station taking care of soldiers that actually need my help. Trust me it is why I joined the military to take care of them and put myself last...

More to come...family time now...

However, I will be divulging some crazy shit so stay tuned.

My mind, memories, and dreams have been going crazy lately 

Currently listening : Better Off Alone Release date: 1999-11-23

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What Goes Around...Comes Around...

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So I came back....
Current mood: tired

After about a month hiatus and deleting my profile, I came back to Myspace...

Just had to get some stuff together on the homefront and also decided that keeping up with my brothers and sisters that are deployed is definitely where my priorities should be...

They need all the support they can get really!

Anyway, I am back! Missed you guys! If I don't make sense, it was because I was on 24 hour duty last night and havent had much sleep today....

I shall remedy that tonight...

Currently listening : Everything Is Fine By Josh Turner Release date: 2007-10-30

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