Christmas Eve’!
Current mood: jubilant

AAAAAAHHHHHH, The eve' of the birth of the Babe who would as a man choose to die so that we may live. I know its easy to  get caught up in all the materialistic aspects durring this holiday season. but lets not forget the real reason we should be gathering at Christmas.  God gave us a wonderful gift. He gave us His Son. The Word. Jesus! So that we might accept Him, and gain salvation. So while its fun to share our gifts with each other, let us share the greatest gift that was ever given. Let us share The Word Of God. Let us share Jesus Christ with someone. And if you havent accepted Jesus Christ as your personal Savior, please, take an opportunity to find out more about Him. I welcome anyone who wishes to know more to send me a message, or even call, and we can talk. I Love You All!!!   HE LOVES US ALL!!!!!                  I pray you all have a Merry Christmas, and a safe and happy New Year!

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Clarifying My Pardon Date
Current mood: determined

For those who dont know, my brother wrote the first half of this blog as a separate blog, and what follows is my response, not just for him, but for all who would benifit of it.....

Jesus Wrote:

September 17, 2007 - Monday - 8:17 AM 
jumbled thoughts about Arkansas
It was a cold night in Darmstadt germany and I was fast asleep on the couch after watching some late night TV...Phone rings and I get the same feeling I always get when the phone rings in the middle of the night...the same feeling I got when the phone rang in Ketch Key and the nurse lady told my mother that my grand mother had passed away (I was on a different phone and no one knew i was listening)...Your stomach drops and the blood rushes fast from your face. It was Mimie on the other end and she was crying. All I could think about was that the old man or mom had bought the farm and all emotions turned off for what seemed like an eternity. She said Eddies name and accident which was all I really heard and we had to talk it over a few minutes for me to guage what had happened. Normally I tend to think my sister exaggerates a lot of stuff as is the tendancy in some of the women in my family...but this seemd genuine...she was afraid and very sad and it just wasn't cutting in to my emotons as i thought it should. Ed was hurt...big ed was hurt...this dump truck of a man with the grizzly bear hug was hurt....no way. I called beck and the stories were confirmed by more sniffling in the back ground...(Beck is one tough cookie!) Within hours my whole family was on a plane to Memphis and then rented one of the dumbest cars ever made by anyone...a PT Cruiser...to go to the MED.                  Walking through the hospital and into the ICU and seeing my way dwn the isle to his room and seeing Beck...then looking down at the mass which was but wasn't ED was like walking into a time warp...I didn't see Ed I saw Eggie from my child hood...He was banged up and swollen but he was there inside...and that was all that matterd to me. He wasn't gone...he was inside himself and looked surprisingly better than i thought he would. People who don't see this everyday or have weak stomachs see injuries and fear the worse...he was alive, barely...but Ed is a tough guy and between All the family in there harrassing him and each other...he was gonna pull through! yet I can't lie...I was afraid for him everyday i saw him...everyday they said infection, or kidney failure, or organ failure was another scar being ripped through my very being. Seeing Rick who reminds me of my dad stand in silence with a lip quivering added scars...watching Mom and mimie doubt that he would pull through added scars...or the old man my dad who when he was there before me made me almost cry like a baby...he neevr leaves Florida...Becky's tired face and strength...my kids confused looks as emotions became evident...Yet I am Jesus...the eldest of the Rosario clan...i must be strong...i thought back to when i saw my father talking to himself about his father dying and how he knew he wasn't dead...he just knew. he didn't cry. i've never seen my father cry...he is my rock. the story within the house is so tense and filled with emotion that i leave it to those inside of it...all I can say is Beck, Mom, Pilar, Damaris, Nelly, Letty, Mimie, Rick and Lotus...You all kept me so busy that I didn't have time to feel much of anything until it was time to leave and that was needed...Ed at the end of my time there did what i needed him to and that was to wake up...he did...I will never forget that hospital or it's hallways or the little house we stayed in which is my brothers home...those dogs we fed or the christmas we had with friends and family i had not seen in years...i will never forget any of it as it is burned into my mind...my wife asking if i was ok...knowin that i would never tell even if i wasn't...she knew i would be...i will never forget my time outside in the cold alone talking with God...I will never forget the Pardon he gave my brother and his family...he heard my prayers...i will never forget. Upon leaving and driving away from Ed's house and Arkansas my wife leaned over and asked if I was ok...I said yes as a tear rolled down ...I didn't want to leave...my family had once again pulled together in a time of crisis and separated once the crisis was over...one day...in Arkansas...we will meet again. END.
 

I wrote in return:

To All Who May Benifit.....

Hey Big Brother, Yes its the "DumpTruck". lol
   Since I can remember, and by no means am I bragging, I have been a person that others have come to for moral support, when they were feeling down, confused, depressed, or just needed a laugh. I even had a girl I didnt know one time as i was getting off of work at The Magic Kingdom, I was waiting for the bus at the back lot to go to my car, she was sitting on the bench and I sat beside her. and she started breathing heavy like she was going to cry. So I asked her if she was ok? She turns to me and says,"I was ok till you sat down and for some reason I feel like I need to tell you...." , and she proceeded to tell me about a situation in her life that I will not discuss here, but suffice it to say we sat there for about two hours and became friends from there on. My point is that I have been leaned on a lot in my life, and I have felt honored to be able to be that kind of person.
   If you dont already know, Jesus you are that person for me. you always have been, even in times you didnt know, I have always been comforted by you. Often I sit and think back to our nightly meetings at the window and just smile. Prior to, and durring Grampa's veiwing and funneral I was swamped by crying women and MEN. And I was fine till you pulled up at the church as we were getting ready to pull him out of the hurse. I dont think I had cried once till that moment. but then seeing you I hit that comfort zone and became a blubbering fool, for a short moment, sniffle sniffle.  Thank You. I Love You.
   But I do want to tell you that you have been relieved of duty. see there is another Jesus that has taken the roll of comforter in my life. His name is Jesus Christ! and he was with me even before the accident. I asked Him to come into my life on August 13, 2005. He has been with me ever since. He was with me while I sat in that car and prayed for over an hour waiting for them to pull my bent and broken body from the wreckage. He didnt let the damage touch my soul. He was with me while my body had to sleep for three long weeks while my mind drifted to terribley realistic hellish nightmares, to which when I awoke, I feel I should have fallen into a sorrowful depression due to the severity of them, but i didnt. He didnt let them break my spirit. And He has been with me thru out my recovery, showing me his Blessings thru the Family and Friends who have supported us continualy, financialy and spiritualy. I know what you mean when you say , pardon, but I want to make it clear that he gave me that Pardon back on August 13, 2005. What he did on December 12, 2005 was give me an extention on this Earth, and while I know I would have been O.K. with being called home to Heaven, I am thankful to God that He allowed me more time here to talk to others about Him and to be able to share with them all the Great things He has done. Several of you have expressed a positiveness and Loveingness emanating from this small town when you came together here. That the people you met here were wonderful and kind and careing, I promise you its not from the well water we drink. Most of the people you met here have found a Personal Relationship with Jesus Christ. And because of that Love of God they have thru and with Jesus, they are able to share it with others. you dont have to be here in Arkansas to experience that wonderfulness. You can be anywhere in the world. All you have to do is accept Jesus Christ as your Personal Savior. Pray to Him and tell him that you know that you are a sinner,                   Romans3:23 For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God.             Then ask Him to forgive you of your sins, and ask Him to come into your heart and save your soul.              Romans6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ, our Lord.              Romans 10:9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
Even the devil believes in God, But he is still going to be in hell when it is said and done. But those who have believed in Jesus and asked Him for Salvation will Enjoy an Eternal Life in Heaven!
    To everyone reading this, Not just Jesus(my brother), I pray you take time and consider this that I wrote, and know that God loves every one of us.         Romans5:8 But God commendeth His love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.
                    John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perrish, but have everlasting life.

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Somber Awakening
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Life

I was sent this today. I cried for several minutes after seing this. to know that i could have affected someones life in such a severe way, I was blessed that the only injury in my accident was me. i wasnt drinking but none the less i was irresponsible. and i pray that this will open some peoples eyes to see that when you are behind the wheele, litteraly within seconds your life, and the life of others can be changed forever! so dont let distractions interfere with your concentration while on the road, cell phones, makup, radio, lack of sleep, anger, asthma, droping something on the floor, friends, and many more things. remember, it only takes a second of bad judgement to cause a lifetime of suffering. And for the love of God, PLEASE DONT DRINK AND DRIVE!

If you are faint of hearted, please take caution if you proceed. this is very disturbing to see.
here it is.

This is Jacqueline Saburido on September 19, 1999.































This is her and her Father, 1998.























This is her on Vacation in Venezuela.



















Birthday party as a child.























At a party with friends.



















The car in which Jacqueline traveled. She was hit by another car that was driven by a 17-year old male student on his way home after drinking a couple of hard packs with his friends. This was in December 1999.











After the accident Jacqueline has needed over 40 operations.































Jacqueline was caught in the burning car and her body was heavily burnt during around 45 seconds.























With her Father, 2000.



















Getting treatment.























Three months after accident.



















Without a left eyelid Jacquie needs eye drops to keep her vision.



















Now 20 year old, he cannot forgive himself for driving drunk on that night three years ago.







He's aware of devastating Jacqueline Saburidos life.



















Not everyone who gets hit with a car dies. This picture was taken 4 years after the accident and the doctors are still working on Jacqueline, whose body was covered with 60% severe burnings.















I know most of these bulletins say "pass it on," but most of those are stupid. This is real, and if you dont re-post this, you're a jerk, seriously. Please send this to as many people as you can to make them aware of the consequences of drUnk driving.















PLEASE PASS THIS MAIL TO EVERYONE YOU KNOW

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Expect The Unexpected
Current mood: grateful
Category: Religion and Philosophy

Well I had a most uplifting experience about a month ago.

    We had a toyota corola that wound up needing some work to it, which we could not afford. we had also recently put four new tires and an axle on it. so we decided to sell it for $250.00 in order to get the money we had just put in to it back.

    So Becky went out front of the house to put the sign on the car, and as she did a man pulled over to check it out. He asked her what was wrong with the car, and she explained everything to him, and added that it had been a great car for us over the past year. she explained how she had driven the car to and from memphis many times because of her husband,,,,(that would be me),,,,had been at THE MED. for a while and still had weekly and monthly appointments up there to keep. (Memphis is about an hour away from where we live.) He asked her what had happened to her husband and she told him that he,, (I),, had hit a truck head-on about a year ago. Then he asked, "Was his accident on December 12'th 2005?" And she said, Yes."  Then he asked, "Was it by the pinch a penny gas station?" she said, "Yes." He then proceeded to tell her that he was the person who came up to me after the crash, and that he told me that he had called emergency services and they were on their way and that i should try to stay calm , that it would be ok. he then told her that he was the person who i had asked to call her in order to inform her of what had happened. he stayed with me the whole time, till i was loaded into the ambulance and taken to the helicopter.

    He had been behind me at the light, and watched the whole thing happen. I had swerved to the left and just missed hitting a pickup head-on, went off the road, then swerved back to the right, and hit the semi-truck head-on. It spun me completely around and then left me sitting on a driveway in the ditch area of the road, as perfectly as if i had parked on that driveway on purpose, facing the road, perfectly perpendicular.

    I believe that everything happens for a purpose under Gods plans. This man came in my house and talked with me for almost an hour. It would have been longer had he not had previous engagements. But we spoke of different christian experiences in our lives, both past and present and it was one of the best days i have had in over a year. I only pray that I may be such a blessing to someone as he was for me.     

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An Account of God's Grace Part II
Current mood: jubilant
Category: Religion and Philosophy

Ok, sorry it took so long, as most of you know im recovering from an accident so i cant always do things when i want to.     never the less....

if this is your first time here i would advise you to read part I  first.

   when i left you i had described our reason for leaving Atlanta. i resigned from FedEx of which i had been an employee for seven years and moved on over to Arkansas in early July, 2005. Rebecca was finishing out a resignation commitment at her Medical Assistant office, as she had agreed to train a replacement prior to leaving. so i came first.

   Brother Rick gave us the opportuinty to rent his house because he had purchased a new one. he would rent it to us at the mortgage rate witch allowed us to accept it due to the low rate. i came and started finishing up the place. he had had new drywall put up in the hall, bed, and living room. all i had to do was paint. then i started looking for a job, but not having very much luck.

    ofcourse i was looking forward to going to Church though this was definatly a new feeling for me. and every time i went which was every chance i got, i felt this strange thing which i compare to a pain caused by emptyness. and it seemed to get worse as time passed.

    i was staying at our house some nights and at Rick's house others, depending on what i had to do the next day. and Beck hadnt come yet. i didnt realize it at first but i began falling into a deep depression due to being away from my wife and child for so long. Rick and Beth went on a trip for a few days and allowed me to stay at their house since it was close to job prospects. now i hadn't realy prayed in my life prior to this but one night i was at Rick's house watching a movie and it reminded me of becky and i finaly hit bottom, i was crying uncontrollably, i missed her so much. i felt lost for the first time in my life, or atleast it was the first time i realized it. and i know it sounds clishe, but i litteraly hit my knees and began to pray like i had never prayed before, with sincerity, with purpose, with reason. i prayed for guidance to help me out of this dark place i had found myself. i prayed for strength to do what He wanted me to do, what i needed to do to provide for my family both physicaly and spiritualy. and i tell you the conviction started to feel as if it were doubbled.

    Becky soon came and while the depression eased, i still had the conviction on my heart, and one day durring services, more specificaly, durring invitation i came forward to the pastor and i told him something that had become clear to me durring the sermon. i told him that for so long i had been affraid that i would not be able to live up to a "Christian Standard" and would therefore fail. but that i finaly realized that by being affraid, i had already failed.

   then i was invited to a men's fellowship breakfast where Brother Ira gave a devotional. he said that he had planned on giving it on love but when he got there he had it on him to do something on faith. so he started giving different accounts on faith both in the Bible and in aspects of his life. now faith was always a problem for me, but this morning something snaped in me. i understood faith for the frist time and boy let me tell you that conviction was like an elephent sitting on me.

    later that day Rick and i were running around together, as he was helping me with some things for my house. i had Ira's devotional in my head and heart the whole time, and several times i wanted to cry. but i hid it as much as i could. then i finaly asked him about Salvation, and he started to explain. and i thought i was about to die when all of a sudden i said to him, "i want it, i want Salvation, im ready now" , and he told me all you have to do is pray to him. pray to God thru Jesus and tell him that you know you are a sinner and ask him to come into your heart and stay, and to ask him to forgive you for your sins. and i did. I was Saved that day. August 13, 2005. My life has not been the same since. even thru the many trials i've been thru since turning my life over to God, He has continualy provided for me and my family and my faith gets stronger with every situation as i learn about the Lord and the Word of God. and i pray that this account of the Grace of God will in some way touch someone that is out there that either has not come to know the Lord, or who has and has needed some kind of encouragment to get them back on the right track. Thank you for your time and may you all come to know the Love that i have been blessed with.

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An Account of God's Grace Part I.
Current mood: rejuvenated
Category: Religion and Philosophy

    Although I can honestly say that I never realy felt a spiritual presence within the Catholic Church, I know that the moral and spiritual guidance I recieved from my parents as well as other family members definatly aided in the longing and continual search which has resulted in my Salvation thru my acceptance of Jesus Christ as my Personal Savior.

    Rebecca and I used to do a lot of traveling together, mainly on the weekends. We would usualy either go to Florida or Arkansas to visit family. I had, years earlier, thought that i had given up on my search for God, as i had been to several different denominational churches including a nondenominational church, some baptist churches, several catholic churches, and a kingdom hall of Jehova's witnesses. I spent two years studying with Jehovas witnesses and while they had a lot of answers for my questions there were to many questions i presented which seemed to be most important that i didnt get an answer for. in fact most of theese questions were replied to with, "ours is not to ask how or why we are simply to follow". I remember one telling me that i was sinning by asking so many questions. But my feeling was how am i to learn and understand or even to teach others if i didn't have answers that made sense to me. not to mention that many of the people i met at the kingdom halls i already knew and they sure didnt act very Christianly outside of the halls, the number one thing i heard from them was, "do as we say not as we do". so that came to an end and so did my searching a short while after.

    A few years had passed and i met Rick, who is now my brother-in-law, as well as brother-in-Christ. and i had already heard of him thru his brother Bobby and sister Becky,Who is now my wonderful wife. and I wont dragg him thru the mudd but sufice it to say he reminded me of me, although i was definatly worse than he. Then one day we got a call that he had decided to turn his life back over to the lord, and that he was going to church and so on. Everyone seemed skeptical at first but then we took some of our famous weekend warrior trips to Arkansas and you could realy see the difference it was making in his lifestyle. And then he did something that changed my life for Eternity. see we usualy stayed at his house when we visited and this time was no different except he requested that if we stayed at his house that we would go to Church with them. it made me a little nervous but out of respect for him in his house i agreed.

    the next day we went to Church with Rick and Beth, and I think that for the first time ever i was actualy able to make sense of what the Pastor was saying. now thats not to say that the others were uncomprehendable, but i was actualy understanding what was being said, but not just that, at the same time i was shown where to find the scriptural backing for what was being said, and everyone was participating, not just ritualisticaly sitting and standing, but responding  and giving accounts of their own lives when aplicable. and so i was starting to look forward to those trips for a new reason.

    we were living in Atlanta at the time and we were both making good money and we were spending good money as well. we were already living outside of our means but then my hours at FedEx were slashed drasticaly and we had our daughter Kaylee to think of as well. and when Becky came to me with the option to move to Arkansas im sure she expected me to say she was crazy, but without hesitation i said yes and at the time i wasn't sure why, but i knew it was what needed to be done. and now im sure it was conviction that was placed in my heart to do the Lords will.   

    I will continue this shortly, and I appologize for the interuption of such an important account.

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Car Accident
Current mood: accomplished
Category: Blogging

on Friday, Dec9, 2005 i left work to go cash my check. i got to to bank only to realize that my check was missing. i went back to my job to see if i had dropped it there and searched the interior of the building but the parking lot for employees had already been locked so i couldnt get in there to look. so i had to wait till monday to see. when i got there monday i looked all over but to no avail. i had all but given up but as i left work that afternoon, as we in the back of the warehouse are generaly the last ones out, all the other cars were gone and there it was laying up against the parking curb where a car had been parked earlier. so i picked it up and rushed to the bank to deposit it before they closed. this was of course Monday, December12'Th, 2005. now mind you i didnt know the events of that afternoon till somewhere around june '06. up till then i couldnt remember stoping working to go home that day. i only realized that these events had taken place on that particular day because i was going thru my wallet while laying in my hospital bed at home for the first time since the accident in june and found a deposite reciept dated the 12th of dec. even now it feels like a memory that is out of place because i cant remember leaving work, going to the bank, or even driving. since then i have remembered bits and pieces here and there and i have accounts given me from others around. i was told that after passing thru the stoplight (which was green) i veered off to the right into the ditch and then back to the left, popping dack up onto the road and into oncoming traffic. i was in a ford tauras, and collided headon with a loaded semi-tractor trailer carrying a full load of grain.i have been told that the estimated speed of both the vehicles was 60 mph. for a combined colision speed of 120mph. now as i said i remember bits and pieces, and some of it is fuzzy or just dosent make sense, but i do remember the impact. i dont remember the force of it, but i do remember the sound witch to this day i still cant describe. it is definatly unique. and i pray you never hear it. from here its like a filmstrip that is missing cells. the next thing i remember is the smell of steam and burning oil mixing in the air. the first thing i remember saying, or rather yelling was,"God Help Me!". and i started to pray. i dont remember feeling any pain at this time. the next flash was a man comeing up and saying that help was on the way, and i noticed the cell phone in his hand. i asked him to call my wife and gave him the number and her name and my name. he called her and told her about the accident and i think he said you better get down here, its pretty serious. the next flash was of a voice comeing from behind me in the car, Sue, one of the medics on the scene. she was telling me everything that was going on. this is when i realized that the dash was crushed into my legs, and i tried to lift my left arm off the window to unbuckle my seatbelt. when i lifted it i saw that from half way down my forearm on was limp and a medic put that arm in a medical stablization box to secure it. the next flash they cut the door off but i dont know if they did that before or after they cut the roof back. still no pain that i can remember and i was told that i was in fact awake and alert the entire time, and that i was praying when i wasnt answering questions. then they started to use the hydraulic separators to remove the frontend of the car from my lap. this was where i began to feel the pain, the first was, as they were removing the dash i felt heat as if my legs were on fire and i remember starting to yell from the pain. by this time Sis.Carmen from the church of which i am a member, was ther standing in front of the car. she had been passing by and recognized the backend of the car and stoped. the car was so crushed that she could have reached in over the front of the car and touched me. now from here on i was concentrating on what they were doing because they were now trying to pull me out of the car. it was now about an hour and fourty-five minutes to two hours later and they were puling me out. the pain was so excruciating that i can only remember yelling uncontrollably and the next flash i got was as i was being put into the helicopter the next flash was waking up in the hospital somewhere around January6'th 2006. soon i will give an account of my stay in The Med. and of the dreams i had while in a drug induced coma. 

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Short Description
Current mood: tired

Yea yea, I know, Finaly, this Rican/Redneck started a Blog. Well, I'm here now, so lets have some fun, shall we?.

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