breece d’j pancake.
Current mood: breezy

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who even irons?

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you never understood what we loved you for.
Current mood: bored

today's list of things to be grateful for:

smell recall (can i get a proper name for this?). i'm not sure if this is a blessing or a curse, but it never gets old for me. like how my house smells like wood this time of year and it reminds me of my first lovely summer in philly. or how the cleaner i used to remove the dog's stains on the carpet is supposed to smell like fresh laundry, but just evokes a gag response in me because i associate it with dog smell.

the song "smoke without fire". the part where m. ward busts out. nothing like that voice.

books for twenty five cents.

the ability to look at pictures of graffiti in budapest and warsaw and sao paolo. thanks, internets. thinternets.

last weeks 'south philly review' crossword puzzle and how i'm killing it because the answers are out there...

the old men in the park on tenth street. they gather there some afternoons to chat about the news and have time away from their wives and keep themselves alive. this is the scene that movies and books like to recreate. it's the life that art imitates.

keeping hanging, friends.

love.

a.

Currently listening : Four Winds By Bright Eyes Release date: 06 March, 2007

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friend or foe.
Current mood: confused

there's a mouse.

in my room.

what do i do?

Currently reading : Love in the Time of Cholera By Gabriel Garcia Marquez Release date: 07 October, 2003

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i did a survey. get over it.
Current mood: mellow

9 lasts:

Last movie: "is this the new green day?"                                                                                  

Last phone call: el called. we're cool.                                                                                          

Last kiss: kim hall. jealous?                                                                                                             

Last song played: album of the year. i'm like, so three year ago.                                          

Last bubble bath: a couple months ago. there was a blue razz fizzy bubble ball involved.   

Last time you cried: every day when i get to work. allergies.                                                      

Last thing you ate: free cheese plate.


8 have you evers.

Have you ever dated a best friend: yeah. 3 out of 4 times proved bad idea. but there was that one time...

Have you ever skinny dipped: no. what kind of life am i living?

Have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: no way.                                                  

Have you ever lost someone you loved: i lost someone i didn't love.                               

Have you ever been dumped: my favorite pasttime.                                                                    

Have you ever been drunk and threw up: bummer.                                                                 

Have you ever ran away: i was 9. i had rollerskates. it was an hour.

Have you ever wanted someone u thought u couldnt have then found out they liked you: what?


7 states you've been to.

california, oregon, washington, pennsylvania, new york, vermont, maine.


6 things you do every day.

open all the windows, make sure i have my keys, drink coffee, think about my brother, push my bangs down, ride my bike.


5 of your favorite things in no order.

reading a good book, eye contact, organization (physical and emotional), the chocolate chip cookie candle, a friend/a snack/a talk.


4 people you can tell [almost] anything to in no order..

greg, rog, mikee, rebecca.


3 things that make you smile.

babies, puppies, reunions.

sunlight.

Currently listening : Album of the Year By The Good Life Release date: 10 August, 2004

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fragments, even those split in two.
Current mood: hopeful

so apparently this tangle of tubes finds things i like and makes them obvious to me each time i access it so it can make lots of money off my subconcious. so why am i seeing banners that suggest i click to find out the day of my death?

today, a good time meant cleaning the house with the dog in tow.  i've been rewarded with dirty paw prints on my mopped floor and a pinesol high. i truly can't complain. i like knowing there's another breathing body near more than i care about my mop job. i wish there were more crumbs on the counter to collect and toss.

what's up with reflexology? seems like a lovely idea. just support for the fascination of the body systems and for the idea of the intentional design. someone said it was a farse. i want to believe it.

spring feels bumpy this year. in the past it's brought on a pretty smooth upswing but maybe that's just true in my memory of it. yeah, wait. that's definitely not true at all. maybe it's just what i want to be able to say? light and air bring love and life but won't do the work without me. participation required.

who's up for a collective project? any ideas?

Currently listening : Cassadaga By Bright Eyes Release date: 10 April, 2007

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i'm gonna call g in minnesota now.
Current mood: bored

options for a tuesday:

brunch with friends. note strummer's (rather stunning) klein-esque brow over home fries and break jamie's heart when i say i don't want kids. it's not personal.

flip that switch that warms up this empty house. await the day (soon!) when it's bodies and not natureplustechnology that does it.

battle the inner urge to find something to spend money on because creativity is lacking and i can't settle myself enough to read a good book.

suffer through an incessantly skipping documentary because the every other word is interesting enough. take the hosts advice and measure my face using the golden ratio. discover my nose to mouth ratio is indeed golden.

watch the light through the curtains go from headachebright to coldnonexsistence.

search popular internet profile site for high school classmates. find common threads including, "married!", "babies!", and themes of palm trees and SUVs. happen upon first boyfriend and thank god it didn't work out. happen upon later boyfriend and wonder why it didn't.

make burritos for dinner and include the jalapeno. choke through dinner and decide it's good for me.

it's still early.

Currently watching : The Human Face Release date: 28 August, 2001

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at least i've got my mom's skin.
Current mood: okay

birthday weekend has me hung up in bed before ten two nights in a row. looks like age+friends+food+drink+timeoff+shiatsu+winternights+acreepingbordom equals a stuffy head and achy joints and not a single letter to my brother written or a load of laundry washed. but there are lilies. and sunflowers. there are greetings from grandma and books and cake. there's the occasional advantage to being the older one. and the disadvantage. there's the hope in my continued disinterest in showering tonight and the pictures tacked up in a bedroom who's age feels illusive. (there's the keeping reminding that I Am Not Old. or i'm not acting like it anyway...). i feel the lack of importance of a non-milemarker year and yet the creeping of that next milemarker. i tell younger friends of the older friends that i look to for reassurance that keeping living is not necessarily dying. so 27 it is.

Currently watching : Radiohead - Meeting People Is Easy Release date: 18 May, 1999

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every time i open my eyes i see tetris...
Current mood: cold

i dreamt that i was walking around outside amongst what i think were rolling green hills (a common occurance in dreams for me) and there were many friends around, laughing, getting all up in my face, like i was looking through a fish eye lense. you were beautiful, but i can't make out who you were. it was so sunshiny bright out that i was going blind. so every face got washed out by the light and pretty soon i couldn't see anything. i woke up and the sun was beaming in through my window right into my eyes.

i dreamt that the broken table and the broken bikes and the garbage bags of broken pans in the back were all being swept away by a horrible wind and i knew that all the pieces of all the broken things would land right on top of the house and i'd have to put everything back together. i woke up and the construction workers next door were throwing pieces of the broken house from the roof to the ground floor.

...

so the house plays tricks on me. it turns out that my quest for cleanliness and organization leads to just that, and mental comfort that everything is just so. however, a sparkly refrigerator and a hanging plant aren't roommates, and as happy as i am knowing exactly where the measuring cups are when i need them, i know where they are all alone in this wide open first floor where i spilled paint on the carpet and the scary neighbor knocks too late. just a testament to the fact that pretty things aren't love and i am not my perspective.

...

so without a guilt trip, just an honest longing, i'm ready for my roommates, and other friends who've been out for awhile, to come home and warm this winter up.

i'll see you soon.

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they crawl from the oceans to paint in the caves...
Current mood: productive

big projects underway make for busy and less lonely winter days.

the work i set out to do on the house felt overwhelming just a few days ago. today, with much of it out of the way, i'm on the downslide.

painting and priming and painting the entire first floor. cleaning every dusty thing on the first floor. outfitting the first floor with some new and pretty things including red clock. check. (and big ups to stapes, mattie mcmattmatt, and the e! for just showing up and helping So Much).

cleaning the Entire bathroom with bleach. painting the bathroom. outfitting the bathroom with new fixtures and orange clock. check. (p.s. i live with Three boys).

moving everything back into the house from the apartment. including the white clock. check. (dan. matt. just being amazing dudes).

making the house feel somewhat cozy while jady and i are moving out and in and our crap is all over the place. check(ish). (jade, we're doing great).

left to do: get said crap into the tiny, somewhat slanty, bedroom this weekend so i once again feel At Home and have a cozy space all my own. The Kitchen Cabinets. spend as much time with jady as possible before she heads out. or up. take one thousand showers, get in pajamas, put on a movie and Relax Already.

come over in like, a week. we'll cozy up.

for now, this back. it's achy.

Currently watching : Amlie Release date: 16 July, 2002

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