May 2, 2008 - Friday

imlame

Breathe in right away.
Nothing seems to fill this place.
I need this everytime
So take your lies, get off my case.
Someday I will find
A love that flows through me like this 
this will fall away.,fall away  
This is getting old.
I can't break these chains  I hold
My body's growing cold
There's nothing left of this mind or  soul.
Addiction needs a pacifier, the buzz of this poison takes me higher.
This will fall away, this will fall away.

You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge
'Cause I'm a loser
And sooner or later you know I'll be dead.
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall.
'Cause I'm a loser.



thx

3DD

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January 6, 2008 - Sunday

dancing

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In the white light of the morning -
Dancing in the morning
Are you there - are you there?
And a shadow - like a sadness
Falling all across the garden
Dancing in the garden
Are you there, are you there?

Shine on, friend. goodnight
Why then then darkening of the light

And the leaves at my feet
Whisper sounds so familiar -
Are you there? are you there?

Where the clouds pull apart
And the moon changes faces
In the quiet secret places
Are you there? are you there?

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Concrete Blond

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January 5, 2008 - Saturday

low man
Category: Life

My eyes seek reality
My fingers seek my veins
There's a dog at your back step
He must come in from the rain
I fall cause I let go
The net below has rot away
So my eyes seek reality
And my fingers seek my veins

The trash fire is warm
But nowhere safe from the storm
And I can't bear to see
What I've let me be
So wicked and worn

So as I write to you
Of what is done and to do
Maybe you'll understand
And wont cry for this man
cause low man is due
Please forgive me

My eyes seek reality
My fingers feel for faith
Touch clean with a dirty hand
I touch the clean to the waste

The trash fire is warm
But nowhere safe from the storm
I can't bear to see
What I've let me be
So wicked and worn

So as I write to you
Of what is done and to do
Maybe you'll understand
and wont cry for this man
cause low man is due
Please forgive me

So low the sky is all I see
All I want from you is forgive me
So you bring this poor dog in from the rain
Though he just wants right back out again

And I cry, to the alleyway
Confess all to the rain
But I lie, lie straight to the mirror
The one I've broken, to match my face

The trash fire is warm
But nowhere safe from the storm
And I can't bear to see
What I've let me be
So wicked and worn

So as I write to you
Of what is done and to do
Maybe you'll understand
And Wont cry for this man
cause low man is due
Please forgive me

So low the sky is all I see
All I want from you is forgive me
So you bring this poor dog in from the rain
Though he just wants right back out again

My eyes seek reality
My fingers seek my veins
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Metallica

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November 24, 2007 - Saturday

cash and prizes
Category: Life

seems funny to me...
i play alot of texas holdem for enjoyment..
as I now have 2 main sites I play at....
I see a definite pattern of wins and losses...
to me it seems that the sites you play for only
points and/or prizes  your  good play
IS   rewarded.....thats brick and mortar play...
when there are $ amounts at stake....seems
like very bad play is given the edge...
here is a summation
it seems as though after a cash out on poker stars
ive been blacklisted to loose  to some extreme bad play...
yet after only a week at a site where no real $$$$ to
loose I hold a rank site wide that suites my ability??? top 100 of ???  how many players...
im so happy to realize this as the real cash i play with at
poker stars was won by my abilities....
and they must realize this...cuzz since ive cashed some funds out
ive  lost a major portion of my original stake to
some awful play...   and realize that im being ass fucked and i still am a damn good playa!!!!
so fuck  "river stars" aka poker stars

sincerely silenthedges

.-.
from  a1500$ stake im at 800 $   and cashed 135.40$

this is some major  "bad" loss in my book
considering the way i've lost the majority of this stake.
but on the other hand it was free $$$$.

._.

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November 11, 2007 - Sunday

bush sucks much ass

Bodies fill the fields I see, hungry heroes end,
No one to play soldier now, no one to pretend,
Running blind through killing fields, Bred to kill them all,
Victim of what said should be,
A servant 'til I fall

Soldier boy, made of clay,
Now an empty shell,
Twenty one, only son,
But he served us well,
Bred to kill, not to care,
Do just as we say,
Finished here, greeting death,
He's yours to take away

Back to the front,
You willdo what I say, when I say,
Back to the front,
You will die when I say, you must die,
Back to the front,
You coward,
You servant,
You blindman

Barking of machinegun fire, does nothing to me now,
Sounding of the clock that ticks, get used to it somehow,
More a man, more stripes you bare, glory seeker trends,
Bodies fill the fields I see,
The slaughter never ends

Soldier boy, made of clay,
Now an empty shell,
Twenty one, only son,
But he served us well,
Bred to kill, not to care,
Do just as we say,
Finished here, greeting death,
He's yours to take away
back to the front


I cant remember anything
Cant tell if this is true or dream

Deep down inside I feel to scream
This terrible silence stops me

Now that the war is through with me
Im waking up I can not see
That there is not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please god,wake me

Back in the womb its much too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But cant look forward to reveal
Look to the time when Ill live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please god,wake me
Now the world is gone Im just one
Oh god,help me hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please God help me

Darkness imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

Landmine has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my soul
Left me with life in hell

Suspicion Is Your Name
Your Honesty to Blame
Put Dignity to Shame
Dishonor
Witchhunt Modern Day
Determining Decay
The Blatant Disarray
Disfigure
The Public Eyes' Disgrace
Defying Common Place
Unending Paper Chase
Unending

Deafening
Painstaking
Reckoning
This Vertigo it Doth Bring

Shortest Straw
Challenge Liberty
Downed by Law
Live in Infamy
Rub You Raw
Witchhunt Riding Through
Shortest Straw
This Shortest Straw Has Been Pulled for You

The Accusations Fly
Discrimination, Why?
Your Inner Self to Die
Intruding
Doubt Sunk Itself in You
It's Teeth and Talons Through
Your Living Catch 22
Deluding

A Mass Hysteria
A Megalomania
Reveal Dementia
Reveal

Secretly
Silently
Certainly
In Vertigo You Will Be

Shortest Straw
Challenge Liberty
Downed by Law
Live in Infamy
Rub You Raw
Witchhunt Riding Through
Shortest Straw
This Shortest Straw Has Been Pulled for You

Pulled for You
 This Shortest Straw
Pulled for You....

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October 3, 2007 - Wednesday

that time of year
Current mood: anxious

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September 20, 2007 - Thursday

stone dead
Category: Music

Get on!

You think you see me
In the glass
You think you hear me
Better listen fast
I think I see you
Gone to seed
I hear your reason
Is your guilt and greed

You're out there on your own
Your face turned to stone
What ever happened to your life?
Stone dead forever
All right

You're a financial wizard
Yeah, a top tycoon
You're a sweet long lizard
With a silver spoon
You know you've never had it
Quite so good
And you didn't know
That you even could

Your time has come to own
Your touch turned to gold
What ever happened to your life?
Stone dead forever
All right

It's been a long time
It's been a long long wait
And you caught your fingers
In the pearly gates
You better leave your number
And we'll call you
You know your problem
Ain't exactly new

Your time has come today
Your face has turned to hay
What ever happened to your life?
Stone dead forever
That's right


._.

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September 9, 2007 - Sunday

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Category: Pets and Animals

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August 24, 2007 - Friday

fair play
Current mood: hungry
Category: Life

Like a lot of folks in this state, I have a job.
I work, They pay me.
I pay my taxes and the government distributes
my taxes as they see fit.
In order to get that paycheck. I am required to pass
a random urine test, which I have no problem with.
What I do have a problem with is the distribution of my
taxes to people who don't have to pass a urine test.
Shouldn't one have to pass a urine test to get a welfare
check, because I have to pass one to earn it for them?
Please understand, I have no problem with helping people
get back on their feet. I do, on the other hand, have a
problem with helping someone sit on their ass.
Could you imagine how much money the State would
save if people had to pass a urine test to get a public
Assistance check? Pass on if you agree.

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July 16, 2007 - Monday

"Bizarro!"
Current mood: bored
Category: MySpace

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July 3, 2007 - Tuesday

Beverly Sills dies
Current mood: awake
Category: Music

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NEW YORK (July 3) - Beverly Sills, the Brooklyn-born opera diva who was a global icon of can-do American culture with her dazzling voice, bubbly personality and management moxie in the arts world, died of cancer, her manager said. She was 78.
Weeks after being diagnosed with inoperable lung cancer, Sills died Monday evening at her Manhattan home, her family and doctor at her side, said her manager, Edgar Vincent. She had never been a smoker.

Beyond the music world, Sills gained fans worldwide with a style that matched her childhood nickname, Bubbles.

Long after the public stopped hearing her sing in 1980, Sills' rich, infectious laughter filled the America's living rooms as she hosted live TV broadcasts, conducting backstage interviews for the Metropolitan Opera's high-definition movie theater performances as recently as last season.

Sills first gained fame with a career that helped put Americans on the international map of opera stars. She graced the covers of both Time and Newsweek magazines.

Born Belle Miriam Silverman in Brooklyn, she quickly became Bubbles, an endearment coined by the doctor who delivered her, noting that she was born blowing a bubble of spit from her little mouth.

In 1947, the same mouth produced vocal glory for her operatic stage debut in Philadelphia in a bit role in Bizet's "Carmen." Sills became a star with the New York City Opera, where she first performed in 1955 in Johann Strauss Jr.'s "Die Fledermaus."

"She was one great lady," New York City Opera chairwoman Susan Baker said. "She was just a life force - brilliant, witty and warm, funny, exquisitely talented. ... In addition to being an icon of the American opera world, she went on to become a great leader in the world of the arts."

But it was not until 1975, when she was already famous, that she made her Met debut in Rossini's "The Siege of Corinth." In her memoir, she said longtime Met general manager Rudolf Bing "had a thing about American singers, especially those who had not been trained abroad: He did not think very much of them."

Abroad, Sills sang at such famed opera houses as Milan's La Scala, the Teatro San Carlo in Naples, The Royal Opera in London and the Deutsche Opera in Berlin.

She retired from the stage in 1980 at age 51 after a three-decade singing career and began a new life as an executive and leader of New York's performing arts community. First, she became general director of the New York City Opera.

Under her stewardship, the City Opera, known as the "people's opera company," became the first in the nation to use English supertitles, translating for the audience by projecting lyrics onto a screen above the stage.

In 1994, Sills became chairwoman of the Lincoln Center for the Performing Arts. She was the first woman and first former artist in that position.

After leading Lincoln Center through eight boom years and launching a redevelopment project, she retired in 2002, saying she wanted "to smell the flowers a little bit."

Six months later, she was back as chairwoman of the Met.

"So I smelled the roses and developed an allergy," she joked. "I need new mountains to climb."

Citing personal reasons, Sills bowed out as chairwoman in January 2005, saying, "I know that I have achieved what I set out to do." At the time, she had recently suffered a fall and was using a wheelchair.

Still, the word around New York was that if you needed to raise several million dollars in one night, you could turn to Sills, whose name drew donors in droves.

Sills raised money not only for Lincoln Center but also non-artistic causes such as the Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center and the March of Dimes, a job she called "one of the most rewarding in my life."

She also lent her name and voice to the Multiple Sclerosis Society; her daughter, Meredith, has MS and was born deaf.

Sills' nurturing extended to her autistic son and to her husband, Peter Greenough, a former journalist who lived with her at their home as his Alzheimer's disease progressed. He died last year.

For most of her life, she had balanced the challenges of her private life with the joy of singing, stepping onstage and transforming herself into characters that made her forget her troubles.

She was acclaimed for performances in such operas as Douglas Moore's "The Ballad of Baby Doe," Massenet's "Manon" and Handel's "Julius Ceasar."

Her 1958 appearances as Baby Doe would become among her best known, in a rags-to-riches tale of a silver-mine millionaire who leaves his wife for his sweetheart and eventually dies penniless.

"I loved the role," Sills wrote in her 1976 autobiography. "I absorbed her so completely in those five weeks of studying the opera that I knew her inside and out. I was Baby Doe."

A coloratura soprano, Sills was for years the prima donna of the New York City Opera, achieving stardom with critically acclaimed performances in Verdi's "La Traviata" and Donizetti's "Lucia di Lammermoor," among dozens of roles.

She is credited with reviving musical styles that had gathered dust, such as the Three Queens - the trio of heroines of Donizetti's "Anna Bolena," "Maria Stuarda" and "Roberto Devereaux" - in which she starred as Elizabeth, a role she called her greatest artistic achievement.

Stage fright was foreign to her. Before curtain time, she would make phone calls or munch on an apple, then sweep on to deliver her roles with exuberance.

She spoke like she sang: words poured out, sprinkled with good-humored gossip and insights, cheeky jokes and probing questions.

She grew up in a "typical middle-class American Jewish family," as she put it. As a child, she took voice, dance and elocution lessons and at 4 appeared on a local radio show called "Uncle Bob's Rainbow Hour."

When she was 7, her name was changed to Beverly Sills - a friend of her mother's thought it was a more suitable stage name - and she won first place in the "Major Bowes Amateur Hour," going on to sing on the radio, at ladies' luncheons and at bar mitzvahs. At 16, billed as "the youngest prima donna in captivity," she joined the touring J.J. Shubert operetta company, starring in Gilbert and Sullivan productions.

Her opera debut came in 1947, in the role of Frasquita in "Carmen" with the Philadelphia Civic Opera. She also performed in the Catskills and at a Manhattan after-hours club.

Sills' artistic pinnacle may well have been her 1966 City Opera performance as Cleopatra in Handel's "Julius Caesar."

"When the performance was over, I knew that something extraordinary had taken place," Sills wrote. "I knew that I had sung as I had never sung before, and I needed no newspapers the next day to reassure me."

Besides Greenough's three children from a previous marriage, the couple had two children of their own, Peter Jr., known as "Bucky", and Meredith, known as "Muffy."



Mom' loved  her voice..."La Traviata was her fave
she always listened to it

._.

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June 13, 2007 - Wednesday

happy birthday... mother's love
Category: Life

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and Id think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when I needed you 
you came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
Id stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday  - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
Id wanna hear you say - I remember you

I said Id give my life for just one kiss
Id live for your smile and die for your kiss

Remember yesterday -  -
Through the sleepless night and every endless day
Id wanna hear you say - I remember you...

 

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
cause youll always be my dream come true
I love you

Remember yesterday -
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
Id wanna hear you say - I remember you

Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
Id wanna hear you say - I remember you

 


I miss you mom

._.

thx skid row
there is a story behind this
feel free to ask

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Release date: 03 November, 1998

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May 7, 2007 - Monday

owl jolson
Current mood: nostalgic
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

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April 19, 2007 - Thursday

a good cry
Current mood: estranged
Category: estranged Life

for what ever circumstances
*one thing on my mind*
I pissed alot of people off at work
today....  and ya know   .... they needed it....
work day 4/18/07.....


shows to go ya  ...

dont piss around at work....
and let my mind travel...

._.

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