Last night I had a wonderful time, let me tell you all about it. I went to sleep at the normal time for me around 2:00 am as my legs and back pain had calmed down enough for me to finally sneak in some regular sleep, so exhausted I drifted off. Drifting in the dark velvetness of the black all about me, no longer aware of the pain of my body, I rested.

I became aware of a soft flutter behind me and a familiar scent surrounded me. I noticed a light that shown all about me was a vibrant electric green and seemed too throb and buzz in the dark ebony space where I drifted. I felt someone behind me as I was surrounded by the softest white feathers with lavender tips.

A voice whispered in my ear in a peaceful tone, the base of his words vibrating into my soul, "Relax Joy and let me take your pain. Let me heal you, accept what I give you and fly with me."

I did not turn or look behind me for I knew who was there, it was Raphael and he was there to heal me. I relaxed in his grip as his arms took me closer to his body and I could feel the current of the green light enter my entire essence. I swayed gently to the wondrous pulsing of the light as I could actually hear it breaking up obstacles in my body and flushing them out. This went on for what seemed hours, as I lay blissfully in his arms and he sent such powerful energy through me, in the dark of the vastness of space I was awash in his healing pool of energy.

Then the energy changed as did the color and the vibrant green became a more spring forest green. This energy was bold, saucy and flirtatious. Begging me to stretch, as I hadn't in years from the pain of my muscles. It urged me to reach out on my own and walk, nay run. To leave the safe comfort of Raphael's arms and fly on my own. It did it.

I cautiously lurched forward, waiting for the crippling pain to shoot down my back and my legs to hear my shoulders and spine cry out, STOP! To feel my neck cramp and not allow me to turn. I waited…and waited and still I waited; yet it did not come.

A golden light shown all about me, but then I realized it wasn't just around me, it was in me. Looking behind me I noticed everywhere I went I left a twinkle of starlight behind me. It made me think of Faery dust and I laughed. Still giggling with wonder at pain relieved after years of it, and I flew forward in this dark womb of new life and I soared on my own!

I did dives and circles and figure 8's. I somersaulted and cartwheeled and even sat cross-legged in mid air. I swirled this way and that and I felt alive with no pain.

Then beside me I saw the tip of a wing, its unmistakable Lavender glittering in the light that shown from me. A hand reached out for me and said "Come, let me share the wonders of the Universes with you."

So off we went, and soon I found us entering a portal that held the most amazing place. There was a huge bluish planet with soft reddish spots. It had sparking white and blue rings about it, and it hung in the sky. Such a thing a beauty it was and I who almost always have something to say stood agape and in awe.

Below was a mountainous area of tan and black and a sea of glimmering and light emitting green and red sparkles as it sloshed and pushed against the beach and cliffs. There was forest like areas of deep green and I could hear hoots and cackles and screams of creatures talking back and forth.

The planet itself was alive and I could actually hear its heart beat as it throbbed with life and love at the creatures that lived within and with on it. It was an remarkable sight and I looked in awe for hours.

After sometime I noticed that we were sitting on pinkish purple clouds above this world, they reminded me of cotton candy and I told Raphael so. Laughingly he took a piece of the cloud and popped it into his mouth. I did the same, it melted right away, the sweetness was wonderful and indescribable. It was not cotton candy that I was tasting it was something else, something long ago forgotten but still something that brought me comfort and elation.

What was it I asked my mind, what is this long forgotten taste. My brain replied with a memory: I was small about 3 and it was a cold and rainy day, even then my legs hurt but how did I tell someone. I heard my mom call me to the kitchen, she has made me a cup of hot chocolate with whipped cream on top and baked cookies. She helped me to sit in the chair and I was all a giggle at getting to sit with her and have cookies and hot chocolate. I was a "big kid" and I was feeling very loved. She gave me a sugar cookie, still hot from the oven and I dipped it into my "big kid" cup. We both laughed and talked and had fun. That was the memory that was the taste, sugar cookies and love on a cold rainy day. What a gift what a marvelous secret of the Universe I was given, a reminder of good days long past. I took another bite.

Raphael plopped down beside me his normally short brown hair in need of a trim, his tall lean body looking a bit worn. He looked at me with his hazel eyes and I could see he was tired, tiredness not just from helping me but days of weary work.

He said, " This is one of my favorite worlds, the place I come and rest and pull these paradise energies into me. I thought you might like it here as well."

"Oh I do," I said. "Where are we anyway?"

"This is a unspoiled planet out side of your solar system, it is still untouched by any negativity and it is a celestial home to many divisions of the Angels. It is light filled but balanced by the dark and it works in equal balance neither taking too much or giving up to much. Your own planet could be like this once again, when the actual accession begins and each being in your world has to make a choice. To lift up from the darkness to the Light or to keep the world as it is, steeped in unbalanced energy allowing negativity to feed and win. "

"Ahh," I said "and that is what you all have been doing? I haven't seen Michael in the longest time, I thought he was still dealing with the angel wars and the war against the oncoming darkness. Is that why you look so worn out?"

Raphael laughed a warm loving laugh that made you smile no matter how you were feeling and rocked back and forth. Throwing his arms around me he said, "Do I look that bad Joy? Yes, I guess I am a bit worn and tired, so many in our ranks to help not to mention the many lightworkers on the ground I must protect and keep well. Yes Michael is very busy, he is a great general and works without rest until his work is done. I will tell him you miss him if you like."

"Oh yes please, tell him I miss him and I send him all the positive energy I can, I know he will win, I have unwavering faith in him and all of you. I know the Lady and Lord will scoop us all up out of this when the time is right."

Blushing a bit I said, " Oh and no you don't look that bad, just kinda tired. Angels or not I can worry about you too as well, ya know."

He tightened his arm about me and unshed tears welled up in his eyes, "That's about the nicest thing I think anyone has ever said to me, thank you Joy, thank you very much."

I was kinda shocked that an Angel would react that way, like it really mattered to him that I cared. Wow I thought that's really neat, they like me as much as I like them. I am not just a job to them…cool!

Raphael swallowed back the unexpected tears, cleared his throat and asked, " So what do you want to do now?"

I knew right away what I wanted to do, my passion!!! "Can we explore and look for rocks, maybe swim if its OK?"

"Sure we can, see that rock tower sticking out of the sea there, I'll beat ya there on Three. 1..2…3"

Off we went flying to the tower of course I won but I know its only cause Raphael let me. We had a wonderful day; I saw such things I haven't words for. Creatures that were part this and that, and things I couldn't even recognize or describe. The food from trees we ate was luscious and amazing.

The water was warm and smelled of my beloved oceans. The sun although not like ours, for there was a large one and a tiny one, was still warm and dried you off nicely. The wind carried the sweet scent of flowers, trees and such, so softly that was just an unprecedented blend of life and creation to the nose. The rocks were amazing in color and size and I only wished I could have brought some home.

Finally once more as we sat on the pink clouds resting and watch this world turn in its beauty. I got to wondering as I looked at the beauty of this pure unspoiled world why it seemed so many good people in my world were hurting and in pain, so I asked Raphael about this.

"That's a hard question Joy with many reasons behind it all, in many cases the answers are as individual as the person feeling the hurt and pain, but I think you are asking for a general answer and so I will try to give you one. See your world (the material state) is in the realm the negative spirits it is their playground if you will. They prey upon many of you and feed off your emotions and energy. The stronger the emotions the better the feed and connection they have. They best like pain, fear and hurtful emotions for they are strong and easy to draw on. They gain power from these emotions. The more negative your reactions the more they can steal from you. They can't make their own life energy and yours is like a bee to honey to them. That is why you are stronger then them in any situation but that's not what you asked about is it." His eyes sparkled as he taught me more.

"See they seek out the sacred and the untouched because it's the best tasting, the most choice energy. Now why prey on those who already belong to them for their spirits are twisted and rotten and so is their energy; tainted and unpure. No it is those who are innocent, lightfilled or dedicated to the light that have the strongest choices energies. Their souls would be a huge victory and causing them pain and hurt and even death at times is like feasting on the very best you can find. You would pass up a hot-dog for a prime cooked steak wouldn't you Joy?"

I nodded my head in agreement and looked with anticipation for him to go on.

"Well that is how negative energies work. The followers of darkness are drawn to the purest energies they can find, they attack those that shine in the light the most and they oppress those that they feel most threatened by that may awaken the worlds people at what it is the darkness is doing. Do you understand so far?"

"Oh yes," I said, "Please continue."

Their mission is to rid of world of all who are awakened to the Light (Light Workers) and then feed as they will on the living energies of those left behind. The more depraved, fearful and twisted these souls become the more power the darkness has over them. The darkness craves power because in truth it has none of its own, it steals all that it has and tries to trick you into believing otherwise. As a Lightworker you already know this and as you spread and share what you know you become more and more of a thorn in the side of the darkness. It wants to wipe you out, take your strength, energy and soul and it picks at you with all forms of hurt and pain and deception. That's about it in a quick nutshell."

"Wow I kinda thought that was true, but its sure another thing to hear you say it." I said. I sat quietly thinking over what he had told me and looking at what was possible for us all if we just woke up and beat the darkness back.

Raphael then said, "Can I ask you a question Joy?"

"Sure anything," I replied.

He rustled his wings a bit, "Why haven't you ever called me for help in your pain, I would have come."

"I know, I replied "But I always figured I could handle it that there was someone else somewhere that needed your help and intervention much more then I did, so I didn't want to bother you. Why did you come now anyway?"

"Oh let's just say a friend of yours was worried and he said he hadn't got to see you much as of late. He wondered how you were doing since he hadn't been around to kick your chair and would I look in on you and do what I could for you, but he made it clear not to give his name to you. Wouldn't want you to think he was worried or such."

I grinned, it was Michael and he was thinking of me how nice to have such a great big brother. I thought ya know since my parents died and I had no real family to speak of no brothers and sisters. My extended family really could care less about me, yet I had gained a wonderful family. They may not be right here beside me in the physical everyday but they did care about me, they loved me and they were a wonderful family. Oh how Blessed I am I thought, how very Blessed by the Lady and Lord, no one could ask for more.

We sat a bit longer and soon Raphael stood up said we had to go back. I rose up from the pink cloud and hugged him tightly once more. "Thanks for a wonderful time Raphael and thanks for the healing." He looked down into my eyes and said, "Sweet precious spirit do not ever be shy in calling me, I am here to help, it's my job and I do it with love. Now back to your world and Thank you Joy for a wonderful time as well."

Next I was enfolded in his wings, the green light once more pulsing through me as I rocked ever so gently to its beat. I felt him let go as I drifted once more in that place of velvet blackness, that place where sleep and the etheric soul meets and astral souls dance and swirl through the waves of energy. That place where pain ends and I sleep, the healing sleep every one seeks.

No kicking chairs this time, no kisses the forehead and being tucked in, just more healing energy to flow through me until I awake and rise to do my work as a Lightworker once more.

LWM