Army Wife
Current mood: loved

Well, now I am married, and so far I am loving it.....well....the little time I have spent with my new husband I have loved so far. We have been married a little over a month now, and out of this month I have seen him only 2 weeks. He is at LDAC for the Army. I guess as an Army wife I will have to get used to him being gone. So far it hasn't been TOO hard. I will admit though, that as a newly wed couple, him being gone really sucks!! I really miss him. It's funny how before he left I was preparing myself for his absence, and telling myself "oh a month is no big deal," but so far it has been a lot harder that I expected. I know that as an Army wife I will have to endure a whole year of him being gone, and that this month is just a small taste of it, but there is no way you can really prepare yourself. I think that right now it would be a lot easier if I had more supportive friends. I love my friends dearly, but it seems like they do not really understand how it feels to be away from your significant other. I am hoping, and I have been told that once you are actually "in" the Army, that things get better because the other wives create a support group. I am only wishing that I had that support now. There is only so much that your family can do. I love my family, don't get me wrong, but being around friends just gives me a whole other kind of support. I am hoping that as an Army wife, I will experience this kind of support, and that things will get earier down the road.

And God has really been doing his part too. I have been praying every night since Josh has been gone. I am getting reaquainted with prayer, and it is soooo comforting. Before I felt awkward praying all the time, but now I see why it is so important. I mean, I know why it is important all together, but now I actually think that it is comforting. I don't feel like I am talking to space anymore because I am praying for something so important to me, and I know that God is listening somehow. I know that he is protecting my husband, and that he won't let anything happen to him or me without his permission, and for some weird reason that is so comforting to me. I feel like I am praying for something important. Before I just talked to God like he was out of reach, but now I feel like I am his daughter, and that I am talking to my daddy and asking him to keep my love and I safe. I know that he is protecting me somehow, and I am growing ever closer to him.

Anyways, that is enought serious talk. I love you all,

~Amanda Marie Butcher~

Currently listening : Feels Like Today By Rascal Flatts Release date: 2004-09-28

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