So, I totally believe in karma. Except now, I've been shat on pretty constantly for three months in a row. In that show My Name is Earl, Earl gets shat on, hit by a car, then wakes up and karma is rewarding him. Does this mean that before I get rewarded by karma, I have to get hit by a car? Because if that's the case, tell me where the car is. I'll make it easy. I'll step right in front of it, I'll stalk it and jump out when the driver's not paying attention, I'll even hijack the breaks on the car. Point is, I'm tired of the being-shat-on thing. Hell, I'm just tired.
Hello!! Karma!! I've been trying to be a good person here!!! PAY ATTENTION TO ME!!!! Turns out being good isn't reward enough by itself!!!
So, it has recently come to my attention that the only time I write in my blog is to compain about studying. And, with 8 days to go before the end of bar exam hell, instead of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, I would like to voice my loudest complaint.
This is without a doubt, the single hardest academic exercise I have ever attempted to complete. At no point while studying for the LSAT did I study this hard. At no point during law school did I study this hard. At no point during interviewing did I study firms this hard. And you know what all this studying has taught me? NOTHING. My brain is leaking. At this point, I'm not studying to learn. I'm just doing damage control. I'm simply trying to prevent stuff from leaving. All I ask is that when I wake up in the morning, I'm not noticably stupider than I was when I went to sleep.
And I love everyone for putting up with me because this experience has clearly made me a crazy person. But I would also appreciate it if people would stop saying to me - you're going to pass, look at X (name some stupid person they know), s/he passed the bar exam. This DOES NOT MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. I get it. Stupid people pass the bar exam. Guess what, when I don't pass, I'm going to feel AWFUL. It also doesn't help that I feel incredible stupid and all you can do is tell me that some idiot passed the test. That only makes me feel stupider than stupid.
That's all for now. I'm going to bed, and I hope that when I wake up, it is July 27th and this hell is all over.
Maybe I'm jinxing myself by creating this kind of list. Fuck it. I like complaining:
1. It is DAY TWO of the bar review course. I have ALREADY lost the DVD we're supposed to watch as part of today's assignment. This can't be a good omen. 2. And clearly it wouldn't be a running list if there were only one item on it. Day Three came as did disaster two. Rather than do the correct 33 intermediate level multiple choice questions, I did the introductory ones that we are never actually supposed to do. So not only was that more of my precious time flushed down the f-ing toilet, but also that pat I gave myself on the back for doing decently - I have to take it back. 3. I hate everything. Yes, I know, I always hate everything. But I really hate everything right now. 4. Went to class on Friday really really hungover. In fact, I may have been so hungover that I was still drunk. Really bad idea. But I don't hate everything anymore, so...you win some, you loose some. 5. Ahhhh, the first time I bent over and grabbed my ankles for bar preparation. I'm getting used to spending my whole day having homework tell me how stupid I am, but this took it to a whoooooole new level of stupidity. 6. Possible stomach ulcer. 7. running....out....of....steam. don't....know...how....much....longer....i ....can ....last..... 8. I really miss my friends :( 9. First assignment - fail, fail, fail, pass: overall grade - fail. AWESOME! 10. Second assignment - let's just not talk about it. 11. Number of nervous breakdowns = infinite 12. Seriously considering giving up, maybe I can be a crab fisherman instead? Looks easier... 13. Apartment is decimated. Pretty sure this counts as a fire hazard. 14. Got denied for health insurance - ummmm, I didn't know they did that. 15. Officially out of money. 16. DRUNK DIALING SOMEONE WHO IS PREPARING FOR THE BAR IS UNACCEPTABLE. 17. Hello emotional roller coaster, my name is Soo. You have been holding me hostage for weeks now. I would appreciate it if you would let me go. As much as I enjoy panicking, followed by complete apathy, followed by tears, followed by irrational, well, irrational-ness, I would like to go back to my regularly scheduled programing. Thank you.
It's 2am on a Saturday night. I'm sitting at my dining room table where I've been for the last week minus last night when I watched softball and drank beer and this morning when I went to dim sum. I'M ALMOST DONE BITCHES!!! AFTER THIS WEEK I AM NEVER PAYING TO DO THIS SHIT AGAIN. DO YOU HEAR ME?? I AM GETTING PAIDTO WORK ALL NIGHT LONG. THAT'S RIGHT - I'M NOT GONNA TO BE BROKE ANYMORE!!
Okay - I've had too much caffiene. And the procrastinating is kind of out of control. I'm soooooo bored...
I've been meaning to post these for awhile, but I've been too busy. Of course, 3 days before my first final, I have tons of free time. I would just like to preface these videos with the fact that Koreans are hilarious.
Thursday was my last day of class EVER. So I went out, had an adult beverage or two and went to sleep. Almost EXACTLY 24 hours after my last class, I had to get my hungover ass out of bed, actually put on some pants, find my keys and get a package from the UPS guy. And what was this package you ask? It was a TWELEVE pound box of bar exam study books and cds. Not for the 6 week class, but for the THREE DAY class. I am screwed.
So, once upon a time, I was sad and complained a lot. Oh wait, that's me right now. Whatever. The point is...so so soon I will no longer be sad or complain a lot. That's right, ALL THE GIRLS ARE COMING HOME TO HANG OUT WITH ME!!! Literally the very one thing I would have asked for for Christmas, is actually happening. Sometimes...life is gooooood.
Now, back to your regularly scheduled programming...ie, Soo complains about finals.
