Yoda quotes

Words from my mentor and hero, Yoda.



"Do or do not... there is no try."


"Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering."



"Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter."



" Always in motion is the future."



"Named must your fear be before banish it you can."



"Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the Force. Mourn them do not. Miss them do not. Attachment leads to jealously. The shadow of greed, that is."




whatever...

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a year and a day

a year and a day after the night that changed my life forever.
I think of my friends, the good ones and the bad.
The ones that I hope will be with me forever,
and the ones that fell behind.

I try to see the future and I see endless possibilities for myself,

but some friends are still treading water exactly where they were before my life
changed forever, and where it looks like they will be forever.
I do CPR and save lives, but not on anyone that will remember my name.

Do people really want to have their lives saved?
I can't tell, but I'm trained to go for it unless they specifically tell me not to.



A friend I used to have once said "If you see a guy sitting on the curb crying, and you sit down and try to comfort him, pretty soon there's two guys on the curb
 crying."

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Xmas

i work on the machine for 14 hours a night.
so that manhattan can forget that the most expensive holiday is about the birth of the christ child in a donkey garage.
i put the lights on the trees
in front of big office buildings
people exclaim
oooh! it's christmas already,
I just grunt 'yeah' but in my head i think 'no'
sometimes there isn't enough room in between bracnhes for the machine to get in the tree

i feel her scream as i tear branches off of her.
leaf from limb, get out of my way!
it's horrible
it's beautiful

and at 6 am, i have one last cup of coffee and climb in to the truck and head for queens, sleep.
sometimes i forget stuff, like driving for a mile with the emergency brake on. headlights are a big one, it's light enough in the city that i don't notice the diffrence.

we get back to queens, as the sun rises i can see a few stars and i am amazed.
nobody ever sees the stars in new york city, except for me.

i smoke as i walk home, i know it's bad and that i've quit, but after ten twelve fourteen hours i feel that i've earned it.

i drift off to sleep as the sun comes up outside my window, and i sleep untill the next night, as i live in the semi night of the city.

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certification and birthdayand stuff.

So I'm a New York State certified EMT and I'm very fucking proud of my accomplishments, because I busted my ass for like 3 months and read that thousand page textbook cover to cover and then some. I practiced taking blood pressure untill Tanya's arm fell off. I rode along on an ambulance and chewed tobacco with more experianced EMT's. I put on and threw out hundreds of  rubber gloves BSI. 
I DID IT!!!

And my birthday is coming up, and I think I deserve something for living another year. I want expensive boots (ten and a half) and a new deck of tarot cards.

Thank you.




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I'm In!
Current mood: bl@tz

I did it!

I'm going to CUNY!!!

I got the highest score out of anyone on the pretest to get into the EMT class and start next week.

Went and got the last copy of the textbook from the bookstore, I don't know what everyone else is going to do, but who cares? it's not my problem.

this is all very cool, but I also need to find an apartment because I feel like I'm overstaying my welcome sleeping on this couch...

We're going to get a place with Hillary, who I think is the #1 person to live with right now.

also need a weekend job, I don't know where, but I work hard and you can trust me, so hire me!

Life is allways rough, but I think it's all going to work out.

oh yeah, and no smoke or drink for a while, feels good. you people should try it sometime.

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HELP WANTED!!!
Current mood: I wanna work.

O.K. I've been out of work for too long, I owe money and I'm getting nowhere fast. Craigslist isn't doing me any good, and when I accually hit the street and go into stores to fill out applications people are all smiley and let me sit there for 20 minutes filling out an application but never call back. I just need someone to hook me up, as soon as I have $900 I can go to EMT school and start making $15 an hour saving lives.

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where in the world was carmen san diego?

I wasdown in New Orleans, it was fucking horrible. East Orleans is a neighborhood that's not there any more, and the only people fixing anything are pimply white kids from acorn who aren't any more welcome than the army guys that are allways crusin' around.  I tried to get a job thru mardi gras to make gas money and head out west, but the only job I was offered was construction work that indirectly killed my friend, and my ride flaked out on me, leaving me stranded watching a dog that couldn't walk. This shithole is filled with "gutter punks" who come to disaster areas like fucking cockaroaches. Fuck that shit.

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7soul

governments fall form sheer indiffrence
authority figures/vampiric evergy/constituents/seenforwhat they are/dead empty mass/manipulated by computers/what's behind the computers/remote control of course, look at the prison you are in/we are all in/this is a penal colony that is now a death camp/place of the second and final death/desperation is the raw material of drastic change/only those who leave behind everything they have ever belived in can hope to escape/don't intend to be there when this shithouse goes up/nothing here now but the recordings/shut them off/they are as raidoactive as an old joke/

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corruption at the dmv

To whom it may concern,

            My name is Zachary Exxx, client ID 42042xxxx. Today I took my final road test with examiner #704, with the Department of Motor Vehicles. In my humble opinion, I feel I was treated unfairly.

            At 1:52 pm I took my road test in Red Hook, Brooklyn. We were using a driving school car, which of course comes equipped with a break peddle in the passenger seat. I only needed to drive thirty feet before my examiner used the pedal and cut the test off. He stated that I was impeding the flow of traffic as he failed me on his personal computer before he ever had the opportunity to fairly gauge any of my abilities. I was obviously shocked and angered at this but when he reassured me that I could in fact complete my test and pass and then insinuated his desire for a bribe. He did this by winking at me and rubbing his fingers together.

            I don't know if corruption is common practice, but I very much hope it isn't. I've spent a good amount of money, time and energy taking driving lessons. My instructors could definitely corroborate that I was a good driver and that was why they set me up for a driving test. Was I a waste of this examiner's time? I thought it was his job to administer road tests! Before I could do anything at all, everything I worked for was taken away. After all of that I was solicited a bribe!

            I want this rectified. A government official soliciting bribes is a serious offence. This is not a city, state or country where this should ever be condoned.

Please respond back in writing with your intentions to rectify this situation,

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how do you got to the bronx.
Current mood: magazine

and why did I trade adventure for hard work? there must be somthing that I need to do.
and why is it that just now that I realize that smoking is going to kill me and I don't want to die? Jews quit when they're manic and everything is going swell, but I quit when I'm nervous about the future.

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