This Wednesday, September 17th, Steve-O will be joining us for the hour of whatevs that has since come to be known as jackassworld live. This is Steve-O's first appearance on the show, so we hope you all can skip work, dodge the family, or shirk responsibility to check it out here on the homepage. I think our record number of viewers to date was on either Bam or Pontius's appearance a while back (around 245, according to ustream's numbers), but we're hoping to surpass that amount tomorrow. So tell a friend. Spread it like herpes. See you then.
I've been out of the looney bin for a few days now, still completely nuts, but feeling much better. I was talking with someone today about God, and shared something that I think makes perfect sense. Our parents are our creators- we are all a part of our parents. They are all parts of their parents, and so on. If you follow everyone's family tree, each one has to lead to the same source, which would, logically, be called "Prime Creator", or "God". I want to be careful not to offend anyone, but, I see this as irrefutable. We are all God's Children. Beneath this video clip is some very interesting text from the Keylontic Dictionary which, in terms of The Freedom Teachings, defines "God" (and indicates that "God is not a far-distant, or perhaps "dead", patriarchal authoritarian creator that "once upon a time created us".) I really like the idea of a God that is very alive, that I am connected to through my conscience- which makes me feel good when I do good things. I felt very good on my mission to go ride this whale! Enjoy! I Love You All,
Steve-O
God Source
Last update: September 20, 2006 (God - God Mind - ONENESS)
The Eternal Force, Heart-Mind of God, is an unquantifiable construct of energy, consciousness, cognition and identity. (See: Yunasai)
Pure, sentient, creative force. This force perpetually expands through new manifestations of itself though it remains perpetually the same. (See: Krist Code)
This is so, since the perpetual expansion of creation is balanced eternally by reciprocal contraction - eternal stillness, the Great Void.
The Force contains within itself, as a natural attribute of its being, a balance between stillness and motion, expansion, contraction, order and chaos, darkness and light, creation and the void... within which creation takes place.
Together, these attributes represent the eternal state of "Is-ness"; without end, the very Beingness of God.
Through this state the Cosmos is kept in perpetual balance, eternal stillness, eternal motion, and unending creation.
In the process of perpetual Evolution, particularly in relation to human consciousness, the intended path held within the Seed of Consciousness, is the reintegration of identity for the eventual return to At-One-Ment and co-creatorship with God Source.
(See: ManU, Yunasai, Law of One)
(The Tangible Structure of the Soul - Lecture Transcripts. Page 8)
God-Source expresses ALL Creation WITHIN ITSELF, the framework for manifestation of Time Matrices and Universes is NOT EXTERNAL to God-Source, it is INTERNAL.
ALL Creation resides WITHIN God-Source and God-Source resides WITHIN ALL Creation.
(See: God Worlds)
All Creation takes place WITHIN the consciousness of God and thus separation from God can only exist as the illusion of limited perception and forgetfulness of our original Source.
God-Source sets creation in motion through perpetually engaging part of its awareness in Vibrational Downstepping, by which the Cosmic Eternal Life Creation is formed.
On one level Source manifests as electrical expanding, oscillating currents and on the next level the currents of Source deflect to become opposite magnetic contracting or vibrating currents. (See: Deflection Field)
(The Forbidden Testaments of Revelation. Page 23)
When an individuation of God-Source experiences itself in a certain set of dimensional frequency bands, we say it is Phase Locked.
(Azuritepress.com)
Through the 8 Hova Body structure Microcosmic and Macrocosmic life fields are intimately interconnected and intertwined, forming a Universal Unified Field of Consciousness expressed in the form of aware-ized energy, through which consciousness can perceive itself in objectification.
In the manifestation process of Stair Step Creation, the entire Primal Substance of the universe itself is a conscious, living manifestation of the Omnipresent identity of God-Source, expressed in the form of energetic thought constructions, and thus all things manifest are living expressions of the Identity of God.
Scientific understanding of the universal physics inherent to the Stair Step Creation process allow us to spiritually comprehend that God is not a far-distant, or perhaps "dead", patriarchal authoritarian creator that "once upon a time created us".
The living fields of specifically ordered energy, through which a central God-Source expresses ITs consciousness in the form of manifestation, show us that God is a living Omnipresent Spirit that perpetually manifests as it moves through all things at all times, and that creation itself is continually and perpetually occurring.
God is both manifest and non-manifest simultaneously; IT expresses as spiritual reality of consciousness and simultaneously this expression exists as the true natural laws and eternal dynamics of energetic Creation Physics.
The scientific dynamics of Stair Step Creation imply the spiritual condition that God resides within and expresses directly through the human being, and exists within every manifest and non-manifest form in the exterior and interior worlds.
It also implies that the worlds of external perception and finite beings are not the "real" reality, but rather thought-form constructs that appear to be real to individuated portions of God's eternal consciousness that are ensconced within them.
In truth, these objectified worlds of form represent a holographic playground, contained within the creative mind of God-Source, which is the only real reality, through which God-as-living-consciousness expresses its desire to know and explore ITself AS infinite forms of creation.
God IS all things. Through demonstrating the spiritual and scientific union of all things, the Stair Step Creation model also implies that everyone and everything belongs, and has a rightful place of honor and due respect, within the ONENESS of Creation.
Things and beings that appear and behave in ways which appear most evil and ungodly are the portions of God-expressed that have most fully forgotten the true nature of their identity within the ONENESS that is God.
(Kathara Level 2-3 Foundations Manual - Page 13)
Knowledge becomes Wisdom when aptly applied. When we become "wise of the God Presence Within," we will be joyfully surprised to discover that in the Eternal Rapture Domains, God has no "wrath" but only "allowance," that in Its Perpetual Joy God LOVES, LAUGHS, DANCES, and SINGS... and in this way creation is perpetually reborn.
I can best describe the depression that led me to check into this looney bin as "a feeling of uselessness". I was finding it impossible to forgive myself for horrible things that I've done in the past, feeling like I couldn't live up to my new expectations of myself, and like I was stuck being someone that I wasn't proud of being. Depression was kicking my ass, so I went to my doctor for help, and he told me I'd better check into this funny farm. I believe that the best treatment for just about every disease of the mind is to be of service to others, and in order for addicts to stay in recovery from addiction, they must do things that make them feel useful. I've stayed clean for four months now, but, judging by the depression that brought me to this nut house, I need to do much more in the way of being useful. What I'm getting at here is that I think I might just be able to stay clean, and live a happier, fuller life, if I come up with lots of silly little ways (or big ones) to "live usefully". One day, not long ago, when I was deliberate about thinking of others and being useful, it turned out to be a really great day for me, Ryan Simonetti, and a whole bunch of little kids. I turned my birthday into a SKATEBOARD RAGE-O-RAMA! Check it out!:
Just writing this has made me feel much better, now I think I'm going to write up a whole bunch of ridiculous ideas to usefully and ridiculously try to make the world a way radder place. I Love You All, Steve-O
After seeing "Dr. Drew's Celebrity Addiction Special" on VH1 News, I figured it was time to put something out there for you all. I expected my part on that show to be much harder to watch than it wound up being. It made me want to explain a little bit of what I've been going through since I got clean, to help some of you understand how much damage drugs and alcohol have really done to me. I've now been clean for 115 days, and I'm, again, in a mental institution. I did so much cocaine, ketamine, pcp, nitrous oxide, and all sorts of other drugs, that, quite simply, my brain is fucked up. As you can probably tell by the way I'm writing this, my cognitive skills are alright, but, I frequently suffer from horrible mood swings and severe depression. Those of you who have followed my warped mind's trail on the Internet for a significant amount of time have, I'm sure, been very aware of those attributes, but, I just want you all to know that four fucking months (almost) of not touching a damn thing that a psychiatrist didn't perscribe to me hasn't changed that shit. The medication that is prescribed to me doesn't do the trick every day, let's just put it that way. I'm back in the looney bin trying to get that shit right. The bottom line is that doing drugs fucked my ass up and I'm going to be paying for it for a long time, probably for the rest of my life. Everyone's going to make their own decisions in life, but nobody needs to make the same mistakes I made. I love you all,
I really do love this thing, way to put me in my place, PCoffin! Comment away, everyone! Thoughts on 2012? Religious discussions open. Steve-O bashing extravaganza!
Lets try to make this the number 1 blog on MySpace!
When the alcohol and drugs were taken away, it was clear that they were not the problem- just a symptom of the problem.. The problem is me. If alcohol and drugs were the problem, then my life would surely straighten itself out. Well, it hasn't. What getting clean did was made me realize why I was killing myself with alcohol and drugs- because I've got so many problems going on with me. There's no denying that I am completely powerless to defeat these problems without some serious help, so I've got to do a whole lot of thinking about God- as I understand God. What I have been doing, that caused me to have horrible-ass nightmares last night, is "thinking out loud" on the Internet and, especially in that last blog, I feel I was disrespectful to the God of other people's understanding. That is why I took down those blogs. Someone asked what "Namaste" means, it means "I honor the God that is in us all". For being disrespectful, I sincerely apologize. I'm going to go ahead and take a break from being too deep on here for a while, I'll be back soon, and with a banger!
I Love You All,
Steve-O
P.S. Here's some footage I shot a couple weeks ago:
Ryan Simonetti has been put under more pressure than he's ever had to handle in his professional career. See how our brother from another mother handles Dave and a truck that the producers insisted move faster than we've ever taken on. The show starts at 11:30pm on CBS.
