She...
Current mood: blessed
Category: Romance and Relationships

May 23, 2008

By: Xw Lauj

"She"

I was walking one day through the streets

On a warm sunny perfect day

When I heard someone crying softly

A girl with her eyes glistening tears,

Her hair, a golden brown, and a bit nappy, I noticed,

She was wearing some mismatched clothing,

A bit oversized for her small body,

I lean down to her and said, "Excuse me pretty girl, are you okay?"

She dried her eyes and said "Yes, I'm fine."

But from the look of her eyes, I knew she wasn't and so I said,

Dried your tears and look up in the sky,

 Think just for a moment,

That even though the sun may shine and light up brightly in the sky,

Even it has its gloomy and rainy days,

And if it does rain, run outside and play,

It's never easy growing up,

It hurts having someone you love hurt you in ways you never thought they would

You walk alone thinking in life,

So stress out, you just want to run away many times

Coming home, you lock yourself in your room,

And the communication seems to become more less with those near you

There's nobody you can really turn to

Your friends are they really true,

They stand by you through good times,

And you think they are your best friends

But when you're crying inside, you can't even turn to them

That smile on your pretty face,

And the energy you used to make everyone around you smiling

It's become something you've perfected at

But really you just want to run and hide

This perfect world they see you in

No, they don't know the real you

You get nervous, you're shy, you stutter, and you fall,

You try your hardest to prevent your flaws,

Your imperfections and maybe your great at it all,

Because they still don't have an idea, no they still don't,

But it's okay because what doesn't kill you will only make you stronger

You go on day by day, realizing that, "Hey, maybe I can live on",

I'm your guardian angel, and I'm here,

Everyday I go through what you go through,

I've always been there and even though I can't promise you anything,

I do hope I make a difference,

I'm going to tell you a story that someone once told me.

 Let me pass it to you and I hope you can pass it along also,

Once upon a time,

There lived a wonderful lady who had two beautiful sons,

  She cared, nurtured, and loved both of them deeply,

Then one day, she passed away all of a sudden,

A huge impact, it create on both of them,

  As the years went by and the boys grew older, they grew apart and distant away,

  One day an old friend that was a good friend of their mother's decided to catch up on the two brothers and see how they've been,

On his first visit to the first son,

  He lived in a shack, was in poverty, a gambler, and an alcoholic,

  He asked the young man why he's become the person he is today and his responded was this,

 "I was a good person, but after my mother passed away, I had nobody to turn to,

  I wanted to do many things, but I couldn't,

   It was because of my mother, that's why I am the person I am today,

  Afterwards, the man decided to go visit the other son and see how he's been,

  The other son was a very wealthy person,

  He owned two companies,

 Lived in a beautiful huge house and had a lovely wife who respected and loved him truly,

  The man asked the young man why he's become the person he is today and his response was this,

 "I was a good person and my mother raised me well.

  After she passed away, it hurted badly and it changed my life completely,

  If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be the person I am today,

 If she was still alive, I would want her to be proud of me,

  And after that, the man thanked him and walked away,

  You see, anyone can make an impact on you, but it's up to you to decide what you want to do with it,

So put your head u up high and don't cry no more,

There will be times in your life when the world's turn their back on you,

When your family, friends, and those you though cared and would be there with you no matter what aren't going to be there,

  You will get your heart broken, lose someone you love and never see then again, but stay strong, and think positive,

  I'm always going to be by your side, and let's ride this life together.

The little girl stood up, dried her eyes, and said,

"Let's ride this life happily together"

Xw Lauj

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I cant wait.....
Current mood: bouncy
Category: Romance and Relationships

I CANT WAIT

May 1, 2008

Xw Lauj

I can't wait…

To meet him, to meet that special someone,

The one I've been longing my whole life,

The one I've been searching and still searching,

The one I've lost on my way to earth from heaven,

I can't wait…

Until we meet, until we embrace each other,

And make up for all the times we've lost,

It's been twenty-one years that we haven't seen one another,

It's been tough, but we've been strong,

I can't wait…

To share with him what I've done new and what's change,

I can't wait to show him places he's never been to,

Feelings we both can only share together,

In the depths of my heart I've long too long and I've missed him too much,

I can't wait…

For him to hold me close,

And tell me everything's going to be alright,

"Baby, I'm here now and you will shed a tear no more", he will say,

"Baby, let's make up for all the time's we've lost", he will whisper,

"Baby, sorry that I haven't come sooner…"

I can't wait…

To finally say I've met him…

And when I am weak and can go no more, I can still...

All the while, those lonely nights have made me stronger...

Until we meet, we are each other's weaknesses and strength…

Until we lay eyes upon one another because when we do….

I will be who he thinks of first, everyone morning and every night,

It will be me, who he can't wait to see,

And laugh and make jokes with, who loves teasing with,

It will be him that I will feel, and think, and do the same with…

I can't wait,

To meet him….

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Yea, I’m the good and the BAd!!!
Current mood: excited
Category: Parties and Nightlife

Wednesday March 12, 2007

2:14 p.m.

The Good and the Bad

Yea, I’m the good and the bad,

You be hearing my name all around, so what?  And?

I got people saying I’m the shit

Then I hear people saying Im sweet

Got people saying that I’m this and that

And I got people trippin out that Im a …you name it!

Yea, I’m the good and the bad…

Get to know me, you might like me and you may not

People talk shit, say shit, but I bet they’ve never even  
conversate with me

You be hating cause ur man’s on my back

Checkng me out, jacking off with an image of me naked in him

He dumped you foe me, bitch that ain’t my fault

Or is it?..haha..

No niga gonna stay with you if he don’t want you…

So what?  I’m harsh, listen the truth hurts…

You wanna run your mouth all around town, help yourself

Cause ur just another helpless, foolish, pathetic in love…or thinkin ur in love..

Just cause I’m feeling good, hea’s an advice,

Leave a niga befoe he leaves you,

Never love him more then he loves you,

The less you do, the more he will…

Nerds love me and I’m in bitches’ mouth all day, every day…

I be on his top screensaver and I’d be on her top hate list

I don’t go crawling for no niga unless they is unattached

When ya boy say he aint gotta girl, bitch, its too bad for you

So yea, keep hating cause I can care less

Keep talkn yo mouth cause when I hear it, I laugh….haha…

I just love hearin myself say.., "dang, I’m tat good!"

Yea, I’m the good and the bad….

So was it worth it, hating foe a niga that aint feelin you?

Making yourself look like a fool?

Hoeing yourself to him?

Thinking he’ll stay, trust me, no doubt, no matter what,

If he aint into you no moe, he aint cuming through…

Get and go, you make yourself a fastfood..

Hating cause I look too good in these shorts?

Or this miniskirt and top?

Maybe you is one of those fat ass mutha fuken bitche-ass hater

Who don’t look look in anything and loves to talk ya shit..

Yea, I eat hamburgers and frenchfries are my favorites…

I hit McDonalds, and Taco Bell, Jack in the crack, N and Out…

I look dis good but I sweat and I run ma shit off….

I don’t sit around wishing and hatin on good mutha fukas like mua..!!

High metabolism?..Bullshit…hey maybe..haha..

Calling me a slutty skinny hoe , going around town….

Just cause niga’s look my way, don’t hate…

That ugly monster on your back call jealously, keep carrying it..!!

Or you just another skinny, married, trapped biatoch..

You prolly stuck w/a baby..make it two….wait another one coming?...

Whos’s the baby daddy ??

Whos sits her ass at home all day, looking at ma pix….

I’m making you a favor, I don’t even make my myspace page private…

So you can check me out all day, coming every day to check what I got new…

Don’t be too nosy, why’d chu think I hide my friends and comments section?..

Wishing you was me, styling your hair like mines..haha..

If you want some beaty tip, message me or sumthing,

And if yo’re nice, meybe I’ll hit you back with some tips…

Yea, I’m the good and the bad…..

xw lauj

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NCZ and Team Voltron Video I made!!!
Category: Friends

Hey everyone!!  Guess wat?  Here's a video i made of my crew NCZ aka Night CrawlerZ and one of our great homies crew Team Voltron (aka now a seperate crew Team Hypestars) having a great ass time together!!  It's almost been a whole year so ya would prolly figured that these memories is awhile back, but it dont matter, it's the memories that matters..right?...fo sho!!  Anyways, I hope Team Voltron and my NCZ chicks and everyone else who watches it will enjoy it as much as I do in the process of many it.  No matter what, these memories are one to not forget.  Most of them is in the bay area right at this very moment that I am posting this up so it'll be a surprise for them when they hit town again...lol.... I know they'll be mad at me for putting in sum parts they might ...ahem..cough... not like?..hahah..wait, wat's there to not like?...right..hahahha.aniways....hope ya enjoy everyone! 

w/luv

xw lauj

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Poem: Me and You

Saturday 20, 2007

5:30 p.m.

Me and You

Is it my luck or is it you…

I couldn't ask for more when you walk into my life…

The tears on my face vanished completely…

Thought of you puts nothing but smiles on my face…

Being sad was something I couldn't remember when I thought of you…

Is it my luck or is it you…

Holding hands every second, everyday, every moment…

The morning breeze of spring was you and the feeling of Christmas Eve was still you…

Coming out to see your smiles, Did God made me that lucky child?

How does it happen that I long for your touch when you're gone…?

Is it my luck or is it you…

We chose this path together, could it have been forever or will it still…

The tears on my face falls like the rain in a storm…

This room so huge but I find myself standing alone…

Then from far away I see your back as you walk out the door…

Is it my luck or is it you…

An empty hole now becomes a part of my heart…

A beating heart now beats so slowly…

The morning breeze becomes a cold rush of coldness…

And the Christmas Eve feeling has shattered away…

Is it my luck or is it you?

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Summer to do List:
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

June 5, 2007

Hmm… haven't been in here for a while now.  Well, anyways, thought id put in some thoughts foe today…actually, I've been thinking and trying to summarize it foe a minute now…I guess, I've been bored lately that's why I've come up with a to do list foe this summer.  Sounds boring to think up of it but I think it'll be fun to accomplish it all too!

My to do list for the summer:

1. Go roller-skating
2. Watch a funny movie and laugh my ass off
3. Watch a scary movie and laugh my ass off too!! Nothing frightens mea..haha..
4. Play on the swings
5. Go to the beach
6. Paint my nails all red
7. Shoot some balls
8. Have a new make-over
9. Train cupcake to listen to mea
10. Accomplish my number four on my new year resolution (run three miles)

Okay..tatz it foe now..kinda tired..ima hit the sacks…bouta yea….bouncin out!!!

Luv,

xw

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This last moment and what you mean to mea...
Current mood: lonely

May 1, 2007

By: Xw Lauj

This last moment

How can I explain my situation?

I don't want to go, but I want to follow my heart

This lonely road I was going and out of the blue, you suddenly bump into me

Then I felt the black curtain being lifted away at once

It was only a minute ago

U were laughing and I was too,

Nothing felt wrong at all,

It was just all of us laughing and smiling,

And at that moment, I thought we couldn't be any happier,

You took my hands and told me not to worry,

Everything's going to be alright because this feeling won't ever go away,

I trust this feeling of yours; I truly do, but …

This last moment

I've got no choice, but to leave what I've started,

I never intended for it to go this way, not at all,

If I can say 'yes I do' I would, to take this pain away,

But this last moment, I must walk away…

What you mean to me

You are the cause of my smiles,

The laughter in my days,

You're the sun on my gloomy days,

The rainbow on my rainy days,

You're the bandage on my booboos,

And the medication to heal my wounds,

When you take a step to the left, I take one to the right,

Together we step back and unite once again,

When you rock me to the side as the music takes us away,

I am leaning by, not following because it's you who is guiding,

When I get step down by other's words,

I think of the happiness you've given me, and it's all that matters, all that matters

Every time I say I miss you, it's meant from the depths of my soul,

It takes energy to say it, thoughts to think it through,

And courage to speak it and not lie to myself

Every time I ask if you miss me, I want you to remind me

Of the wonderful person in you that I adore and love so fully

And it's not from a lack of forgetfulness, but a sign of thoughtfulness

Every time you take my hands and kiss them,

Baby, I've already melted, because somehow, someway,

You take my breath away, away…

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dude, i did not dissed yo ass!!!
Current mood: weird
Category: Parties and Nightlife

Okay..so, hands up anyone who went to Aldo's last nite!.....oh shit, tat's a lot of hands i'm feelin....lol.....

But anyways, this ain't no goody innocent bulletin message I got posted up foe nothin, oh, it's something...ight....but chea

This goes out to he know who he is, and eve if he ain't got a myspace, learn aight guys....so....

I was enjoying the moment, dancing away with my lovely sister Sunsparkle and her bf on the dance for....well, me loving the turns that i b doing, I noticed this guys from my right side, a couple of feets away kept looking at me...then finally he came up to me and lik ask foe ma name..so i told him... well, then he asked if i came wit anyone and if i was wit anyone..i was lik, uh, i came with ma sister and her bf and no, im not wit anyone....so obviously, it opens the door foe him rite?..

so, later as i was sitting next to my sister, jus relaxin from the floor foe a minute he came and sat next to me and talked to me....askn me a couple of questions (note: a couple)....he wanted to get to know me more and all that bullshit..u know...so, i told him straight out that I wanted no more then friends or watever....i'm not gona go beyond that...And you know whats funny, he jus kept lookn at me and actin iono, lik dumb and shit, like he didn't get wat i was tryin to say...well, I aint the stuck up type either but if you act dumb, i will act dumb wit chu too....ahahaha....but anyways...

he wanted to dance with me and he told me tat befoe he leaves or until the club ends, he wants a dance with me....and well, anyone knowing me, I will dance with you because i ain't stuck-up like that (note: unless i' takin the sorry)...so i was lik..
i-yi-yii....ight then, so ma sister, him, and I went to the  dance floor and we started dancing..well, i get dumb and goofy somthings so im lik, dancin lika dumb ass and if anyone saw me on da dance floor, they'll agree....he was like a couple of feets away from me but in front of me and ma sister was behind me....And foe som reason he then says to me that he doesn't really wanna dance lik crazy, jus two steppn and he wanted to talk wit me while dancing so we can get to know each other moe..i was lik, okay..kool, but hopefully you can hear me  cause dis ain't the best spot to get to know each other at the moment...well, dancing and talking,  he even told me he  appreciated me dancing with him...then when the song ended, i was lik okay..ima dance with ma sister and ma other friends now so i moved away from the middle to the side and was trying to form a circle, rite?..wrong...cause all ma other friends came up and dance with me.....we jus all having a good time rite.....but no.......

After like a gazzillions of songs have gone by and i was relaxing more, the same guys comes up to me and said dis to me  "You know, I've never been dis dissed before!"  he said some otha shit too..and well, anyone knowing me, if you get straightforward asshole wit me, i won't get straightforward asshole wit chu, but i'll get plain out , uh, jus mea...haha...i said to him, you know what you cant think and say whatever you want but I already did the honor of dancing with you...you wanted to dance with me and I did that...I danced with chu, but only to one song....I'm not gona fuken dance the whole nite away with you and I didn't dissed you..ight...he jus stood thea and lik..iono, took off and shit....

wow, tat shit pissed me up..fuk....but i was lik ever...i ain't gona let him ruin ma nite..i mean come on, i fuken danced wit dis niga already, and how's he gona come up to me and have the guts to say that he's never been that fuken dissed in lik life before?...lik i had hella friends thea tat nite, and they wanted to dance wit me too..gosh!....not only that but it wasn't lik he was dancing anyways....fuken jus stood thea and lik ..not even two step, one step...tat's rite....but wateva...if you mad at me , get mad and be mad at me...lik i give a shit....but anyways,

last nite was still kool...i had fun..met a lot, a lot of ma old friends..omg...haha....i saw ma old neighbor David from lik but in the fifth grade and shit....long time no c, huh?..it's been lik nine fuken years and i used to have a crush on him..hahhaha....anyways..saw old friend from highschool also...last nite was no regrets though, probably only the part when i actually agree to dance wit tat guy..but wateva.....ight then....this is lik an "A" paper..ahahhaha..sooooo long...but ya enjoyed it rite?..rite!

k....luv ya lotz..kiss kiss
bye bye

xw lauj

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My BOYFRIEND MAKER:
Current mood: tired
Category: Romance and Relationships

My boyfriend maker:

Hmm…..if I can create or make my future boyfriend, here are the fifty-five things that he's gona have and it equals to: the description of how I would want him to look like, his qualities, the little details in him, what he can do, and what his heart is made of: 

1. Attractive

2. Tall

3. Strong- can carry mea

4. Spiky hair

5. One pierced ear with a crystal earring

6. Cute smile

7. Shaved

8. RESPECTFUL

9.HONEST

10. RESPONSIBLE

11. CARING

12.  UNDERSTANDING

13. GOOFY

14. INDEPENDENT

15. OUTGOING

16. FITTED

17. Is patient ( you c my new year resolution: it equals one year)

18. Athetic-is capable of playing basketball and/or football

19. Cook good food

20. Good hygiene

21. Love J's and nike's with mea

22. Watch love movies with me anytime

23. Protects me- is not afraid to fight for me

24. A MAN- not afraid to fight for himself and not afraid to speak for himself or for other's

25. Give's me piggyback rides

26. Stands me name calling him for fun

27. Have jokes

28. Have a Funny and Good sense of humor

29. Is a night crawler like me- able to stay up until sunrise

30. Good dancer-which equals=hip hop and hyphy

31. Travel- take long roadtrips with me

32. Lies down and watch the stars at night with me

33. NEAT/ORGANIZE

34. Knows his way around a car engine.

35. Skates

36. Non-smoker

37. Drinker but not a drinkaholic

38. Keeps it real

39. Takes care of me when I'm all fuk up.

40. Still have a kid inside him-still plays at the playground

41. Have a tattoo of pride on him

42. Wears pink, purple, green, red, and blue with me

43. Hugs me tight when I'm mad, sad, crying, and when

I'm trying to fight him off.

44. Takes me shopping…woo hoo!!!! A boyfriend dat does tat!

45. Read with me: including love novels, scary stores, funny jokes, and horoscopes.

46. Loves roses, flowers, and plants- we shall create a beautiful garden together!

47. Computer literate and English literate.

48. Competitive

49. Puppy lover

50. Thinks only of me

51. UNJEALOUS

52. Gives me good sex…..hahahaha

53. Loves bobas, smoothies, and jamba juice

54. Plays pool

55. Calls me Baby and Boo.

So, I guess it ends here for my boyfriend maker…hahahaha…There's way way more, but these are the tops I would want in a guy if I can create one…hehehehehe….I know, dreams are just dreams but you never know, they can come TRUE!!!!!!

Luv,

Xw Lauj

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THIS IS FOR MY BABY..!!!SORRIE!!!
Current mood: pissed off
Category: Life

THIS IS FOR MY BABY!!!! SNIFF….

HEY BABY, sorry for hurting you. I didn't mean to at all… You're the only one that I have and for what happen earlier today, I can't forgive myself at all. That bruise that you got on your right cheek by that bitch, I'm soooooo fuken sorrie…okay! Forgive mea k….I had to keep my kool at tat other bitch…and I almost lost it too!...... I know you're in pain because it'll probably be awhile before u get betta…but it wont be long, I hope.. This is for my 2000 red civic…I knoe rite! Okay, yea, I got into an accident today..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH…. that bitch didn't c mea back out and decided to back out and hit my car…..!!!!!! I was in such a good mood too! Who does she think she is, saying that we both back out at the same time…hell nah! Thea was even another car waiting for me to back out so she can park on ma spot, and that lady knows it too….dont fucken b turnin the story around shit….fuk..im jus mad cause now I gotta drive around wit a fat ugly dent in ma precious baby, gotta find a time to go get it fix, and pissed off, and ma insurance will probably raise too..sniff..but still, fuk….watch whea u backin out of next time stupid lady….!!!!!! But shit, foe the moment, if ya c a red civic wit a fat dent at the back, u know what happened…ight..peace.!!!!!! Xw lauj

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MA 2007 NEW YEAR RESOLUTION
Current mood: hungry
Category: Life

Wassup ya!!!  Check out ma 2007 New Year Resolution…..ight, hea it is:

1. Stay single foe a whole year!

2. Break at least two hearts! (and get mines broken too)...!

3. No moe late payments on ma babie…gosh!  I'm alwaise procrastinatin and always gettn charge extra, dammit!….

4. Run three miles…haha…

5. Not fail any of my spring and fall courses foe college.

6. Hit L.A. cause, sadly, I have to admit…I've never been thea…ahhhhhh!!!!! I noe, rite!

7. Do ten generous things for others….(not tat I don't do it on ma own)..hehe….

8. Learn how to swim!

9. Save up to 150 a month for something special and personal in a couple of years (shh..it's a secret)..

10. Save up for a little poodle for myself…it'll gonna be a bestfriend!

I know I'm an ass foe havn sume new year resolution like breakin hearts, but maybe, I might change my mind and heart during those 365 days until 2008.  Okay, so ya can hate..but chea, dis is ma resolution..!!!  Uh, deaz moe but foe the moment, these are the only one's in ma mind rite now..ight…catch ya laterz!!!! 

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FUK DIS SHIT!!!!
Current mood: pissed off
Category: Life

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK dis shit..i'm tire of everything and all the bull shit tat's fukn bustin into ma life, now, before, and in da future when it comz....!!!!!!!! UHGGGGggggggggggg!!!!! fuk christmas too...!!!!! i mean i still luv it and all, but fuk!....

and to all ya late christmaz shopper, i hate ya!!! hear mea! cause ima be workin in a couple of hours and thea's gona be sum peepz who are assholes....waitin in line and trippn cause it's too long, or jus being plain mean with no manners cause ya procrastinators....!!!

and to people who's hearts been broken...!!!  fuk ya too!...shit, just tell em you love em and can't let em go....damn it!....make up or somthin and fuken be happy...i'm jus tire of all dis bullshit....!

and to people who ain't ready foe shit....fuken be a man about it....be honest, tell the truth...dont fuken run and hide....cause tat shit ain't kool....if you hurtin, you ain't ready, or you jus ain't interested, fuken let mea know....(don't hate mea foe sayn dis, i'm jus more upfront about it), i hate self-centered people, always thinkin about emselfz! I'm fuken hurtin inside too!...damn it!  and dis goes out to anyone!

and to lovers, I hate ya!..haha..playn...i love ya...i love seeing couples together all the time....it makes ma day brighter! make it last, ight!!!!!

and to ma family.....i'm not in a good mood rite now..but i still love you guys...from the depths of ma heart to the very inner core...!!! without ya...shit!..tat means without mea too!..haha..luv ya!

and to maself....ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!  Still....i know...i noe....i guess, and it ain't tat time of the month either...i guess too much bullshit going on in ma life....It's great to not be me ya...and it sucks to not be mea too..hahaha...!!!! If you like me, too bad, cause I won't want to get to know you anymore...but if you don't, let's get down to fun....crack eggs at someone's car....iono....wanna do sumtin crazy wit mea?..holla dis way!!!!

p.s. man, hit mea bac wit a message that you don't fuken care..cause guess what, i don't either...cuzz mea out..yea yea....watever..!

-xw lauj

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"Only Time will Tell"
Current mood: sleepy
Category: Romance and Relationships

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; happiness, sadness, knowledge, and all the others, including love.

One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help.

Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?"
Richness answered, " I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere."
Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel.
Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please."

"I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."
Next, Love saw Sadness passing by.
Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you."
Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now."
Then, Love saw Happiness.

Love cried out, " Happiness, please take me with you."
But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry.

Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?"
"It was Time", Knowledge answered.
"But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked.

Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered,
"Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

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Expressing my feelings!!!!
Current mood: hungry
Category: Romance and Relationships

This is for the one's who hate me, dislike mea, like mea, and love mea....

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Those Sad Steps in Life.......
Current mood: depressed

Aye thea everyone...I guess I"m back in here...Well, I jus love to write to express my feelings...and well, here I am again.  I guess I haven't been this depress in my life..honestly..There was one point in my life where I was, and here I am again, worst.  Can anybody tell me how it feels like to be heart broken? Lost?  Days, weeks, and months of excitement, happiness, angerness, stubborness, joy, laughter, and soo much more, now it all comes to an end.  I've never really been in a relationship that I had to fight soo much for, give in so much for, be soo patient for, give in all my happiness for, and now, see it now, all comes to and end.  I thought that if I waited patiently, if I just give in time, if I still stand strong and hide my tears, and be the one here still, everything will be just fine.  Everyone tells me it's going to be fine, it'll turn out okay in the end, I do agree with them, but deep down inside, I knew it wasn't okay.  I knew it wasn't going to work out just fine.  I was the strong one from the outside, but deep down inside, I am afraid, my hearts been filled with too much pain, too much tears, it can't no more.

As I hug you in your room, I knew it was the end,

I knew that me and you, was to be no more but friends,

As I kiss your right and your left cheeks,

I knew that I, wasn't the one you'll continue to seek,

I can feel your tears coming and then mines start to fall,

I hate to be the weak one here, when I'm trying to show you that I'm not,

I try my best not to cry, and tell you that it's okay,

We will move on, into our own lives, I say, as you'll find someone new, and I'll find someone new also,

I guess I wasn't the one you were looking for, and I hope "she" two? three months? one? two years? from now, be the one, who.....

Will take care of you as much as you'll take care of her,

Have the patience, the heart, the need to.....

Like you just as much, love you just as much, understand you and be with you through all the thick, the thin, and hardship times.  For, I won't be there no more.  I wish I can still be there to hold you tight when you need someone who cares truely and deeply about you, but I guess I wasn't the one you were lookin for after all...

Those times that I cry, yes, they were for us, for now, but especially for our future, because we won't have one together like we did before.  We won't ever get to see how our future could have been like together.  But I bet it would have been sooo good..I bet...I guess, we won't ever no more. 

I hope the best for you, your life right now, and your future.  Love your future women to the best, for she'll be the only one who'll dry your tears until the very end.  I know you'll choose one who'll be there, who understand you and give soo much more then what I have given you.  I won't hate you at all.  I'll just thank you for making me stronger, giving me the strength to feel this pain, and I'll take it with me. 

Remember, life is full of regrets, so many people say, but I say, life is full of memories....goods and bads...don't let this be one to be sad about, but one to learn from.  We had our goods and our bads, but remember the goods because I want you to look back one day and think about us, and see all the happiness that there was, and have no regrets to the decisions that was made in life. 

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