first blog in a long blipping while.
Category: Life

        Well to all you whom maybe familiar with mua, I had not been around much lately and I know I should apologize for neglecting my myspace as much as I have been. But with much dismay I am only here to say that I have been away because I have been in and out of the hospital.

       Doctor’s don’t know what is wrong other than I have a virus that is carried through the blood and attacksthe immune system. If I had a way to get my own computer I woul be living my dream of writing again but as it is I am unable to afford something like that.

       So I am here to say that until further notice... This butterfly must put down her pen and step away from the dreams that were her wings carrying her away from hell. For I hhave forgotten that hell too has demons that can fly and I am under siege and they are taking me down...

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Innocent Child
Category: Writing and Poetry

A child is brough into this world not by it's own choice,
A father turns his back on the child, his plague he shall avoid.
A child that cries in the middle of the night
a father who walked away from his parental rights
The screams of abandoned innosence
And a mother who must deal
while constantly hit with rememberance.

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Twighlight Ache
Category: Writing and Poetry

In the depths of my heart once lied emotions that I would have waisted on you,
On humanity and this wicked, tormented world too.
I had a heart but you took that then sent it to the ground only to meet the souls of your feet,

Together we were, but forever you'll never keep.

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His Hello
Category: Writing and Poetry

His Hello was the end to my endings
My smile was his warm awakening

His glance was a promise eturnal
And My heart was a gift

His soul was a question
And my answer was

"I do"

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Butterfly’s News
Category: Writing and Poetry

Well to all those out there who have been patient with me I would like you to know that I am now a married butterfly and living a much better life. I am a proud new mommy to A sweet 11wk old labradoodle named Baby Axel Rose and working slowly at a book to come out sometime next year.

Wow... I think this is one of the smallest blogs ever in my blogging career lmao.

I love you all!

~{Butterfly}~

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My Wedding Announcement to the World

I am getting married October 14th and if you have anything you would like to say to me about this I would like to hear from you ! Also I am announcing this because there are a few people I need to get ahold of to get their addresses for the invitations.

Anyways I am getting married it is official.

Drop me a line some time.
Peace.
~{WIcked Butterfly}~

Currently listening : Metamorphosis By Iron Butterfly Release date: 14 December, 1993

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Happy Birthday To Me...
Category: Life

Well here is a shocker! I am writing again! I know I have been away for like months but life has been chaotic to say the least but I found some time to write to my family through this blog to say that today has got to be one of the most heart breaking...

Where are you all and why could you not at least tell me happy b-day? I am 22 today and I have not a single family member who has remembered me...

Only Donald's family... I love and charish them to death... it's sad though that my own family had no clue what today was... I am getting older and older and I am just passing through your minds... guess I am not in your thoughts anymore am I? You forgot all about me...

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Story Of Little Miss Nonchalant
Category: Writing and Poetry

Little Miss Nonchalante sat in her room reading her books, drawing her picture and listening to her radio. She paid no mind to the fact that her family was down stairs living a life without her. She was merely 10 years old and life was perfect in her pink and grey world. (her bedroom) Little Miss Boredom took over and Nonchalant vanished. The little girl flipped over on her bed staring at her ceiling wondering about life outsider her little box. She always wondered but knew that there was nothing out there in the real world other than pain. All the joys she would experience would end in pain and all the pain she would feel? It would over come all the good times she had in her life. So little miss bored walked around and then decided to trust in her family at the least and become social with them.

Years and years went by and little miss boredom has become little miss determined. Little miss determined would often become little miss deflated, and then soon she became, little baby suicide by the time she was 17 years old. Her family never loved her and she was resorted to that room she once loved, but now looked to as though it were the very caskette she would be barried in. Little miss suicide packed her bags when she turned 18 and left behind that family and found that she was 100% correct in thinking that the real world was full of nothing but, pain, drama, and unnessecary nerocies. All those around her ended up hurting her.

Now that she is 21 little miss suicide looks to her books she has spent her life bleeding out with her pen and still she can't remember why her life ended up the way it did. All she ever knew was pain and being unloved. She looked to the mirror and asked her reflection, "Why is this happening to me? Why is it I am so unloveable?" Of course her reflection said nothing back to her and she sighed as she walked out of the bathroom and into her bedroom to once again look to her ceiling and recollect her life... as she would only call failure. She closed her door and locked it tight, saying only one thing as she pulled the gun out.

"I hope this pain ends tonight."

Currently listening : Blessed Deviant By Killing Miranda Release date: 14 May, 1999

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Bloodstream
Category: Writing and Poetry

I'm in your bloodstream
Tonight it's draining me
I can't take the pain
I hear the ghost, the silhouette
Screaming out my name.
I turn on the radio
Giving up all my hope
Knowing the room is filling up
with the acceptance of enough.

He's in my bloodstream,
the heroine that intoxicates me.
I took a shot in my arm,
Now I'm lost in the dark.
Surrounded by love,
that turned to scars.

Currently listening : Saying Sorry By Hawthorne Heights Release date: 05 June, 2006

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Can You...
Category: Writing and Poetry

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To Scotty
Category: Life

OK here goes, I am not going to write a poem this blog entry. I am just going to say this... Scott is my friend. He never really was anything less than that. I love him to death and it kills me to see him down or to hear of him thinking low of himself or his situation he is in.

I know how he feels.

Like the whole world is taking a shit on you and your parade that very seldomly comes along. But you know Scott...maybe you need to stop and look at what's right infront of you... You got some one who does love ya, Doll and would do just about anything to see to it that you are happy.

If there is anything I can ever do for you, let me know. You are very precious to me and a wonderful friend. I don't know what I would do without you sometimes. You always brought a smile to my face and that means alot.

Keep your head up and always remember, I love ya.

Peace out
~{Wild Butterfly}~

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Death of me
Category: Writing and Poetry

Currently listening : Memorial By Moonspell Release date: 25 April, 2006

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Pain Without Love
Category: Writing and Poetry

You can't feel love without bleeding just a little.
You can't smile without having shed just one tear.
You can't say that life is wonderful,
If you have not yet journied through the depths of hell.

Pain is the key to happiness
For once you feel your heart yanked from your chest
You know that love is real in that instant.
Love is the pain that kills us inside.
The pain that drives us to the grave.
The one drug that got us wanting more and more,
and while we were on it's high it was the best thing.

Love without pain just is not worth
the time of day.
And pain without love is just a waist of feeling.

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Love
Category: Blogging

Myspace Love Survey Take This Survey at Quizopolis.com Have you had a crush on someone you met on Myspace? Actually, yes I have. Have you fallen in love with someone you met on Myspace? Yes, I was inlove with Steve .."Wicked.." Have you kissed anyone you met on Myspace? Yes Have you dated anyone you met on Myspace? Yes I was planning on marrying Steve Do you think you would marry anyone you met on Myspace? Dur! Read the above answer dipshit Have you ever had your heart broken by someone on Myspace? Yes... Do you have a crush on someone on Myspace right now and they don't know it? I think he knows it. Do you think someone on Myspace has a crush on you right now? I don..'t know I never asked anyone Who on Myspace would you most like to kiss? Um... Can..'t say cause he might read this. Is there anyone on Myspace you would have a 1 night stand with? No, I don..'t do that kind of thing. Is there anyone on Myspace you could see yourself falling in love with? Oh yes Is there anyone on Myspace you would marry? Yes Have you cheated on anyone because of someone you met on Myspace? Never Have you ever been cheated on because of Myspace? I don..'t think so Do you think you can find true love on Myspace? Sure why not? Have you ever left a flirting comment for anyone on Myspace? OMG thousands of times with friends and others. Have you ever sent someone on Myspace a love note? Yuppers Have you ever taken a picture of yourself just for someone on Myspace? Yes Do you come to Myspace specifically to hook up with people? Nope Do you think Myspace is easier to find dates than bars? No Take This Survey at Quizopolis.com

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One Man's Devotion
Category: Writing and Poetry

In the late night hours
we give in to each other's powers
loving tender
playful surrender
Yet as she sleeps
I can see
she thinks of him
Not me.

She doesn't say a word
she's a faithful girl
I wish she'd say those words
so I could free her
With me she's lost in loneliness
she won't say what's on her lips.

She's a love of wonders
So I sit and ponder
Ad she sleeps
I pack my things
I can't keep her heart
It's tearing me apart.

She's inlove with him
In a way I can only imagine
I'm not looking out for me
For them, I up and leave.
She'll never be one that I will hate,
I want her to be in a happier state.

I kiss her cheek before I go
And I did, my heart just broke.
He surely is a lucky man,
I let go, freeing her hand.
I promised her everything,
Even if it means I leave.

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