affirmations in life
Current mood: ecstatic

as most of you who know me best you may know that my headline...
"seek not perfection, yet seek to see all things perfectly"
 come out of a dream i had when i was about 18 or 19...well i found this on a profile that had a very mooving story to it.
if you know me well youll know why im so happy to have found this kind of affirmation.

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too nice?!?!?!?!?
Current mood: contemplative

   no this is not some kind of sex in the city rip off!  ........."its sex in the zoo"

 well this 2 weeks have been a very interesting study in love for me. as some of you know i was dumped for being to nice...yes thats right. any way of course it was a cover up i think an attempt to let me down easy but the point is why and for what reason does some one throw out 3 months of being treated quite well to get into a relationship where they will be treated just as usual.
    i was with this girl who had been in relationships where in the end she realized it was just for sex.this was upsetting to me and i was determined not to be that way to her and show her i wanted the relationship.upon meeting a friend of mine she decided to get with him instead with out even really knowing him. because i know this person very well (6 yrs.) i know he will cheat on,or dump her soon thats what hes always done he gets bored and something else comes along that and hes said to me and others that sex is all he wants. so in essence the long term out come is.......shes a sexual tool again.
   what is it in us to seek the familiar even if it is destructive? maybe she was scared and wasnt used to someone just wanting her to be happy with out expecting anything in return but the opportunity to be the one.
   maybe the feeling that something will be familiar and so its safe over rides what we know will be better for us and because its new were not used to it and thats scary. this would make us jumpie and would we jump to known ground even if it was caving in? in closing i hope she eventually finds the strength to be good with her self and others. and if shes reading this know i call you my friend in care and ill always be around i know your human and thats enough.

-the morning star

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blogg

THERE I BLOGGED.......i think some got on my shoes!

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