Forget it
Current mood: curious

I really was ready to go to work on only an hour and a half of sleep last night, woke up on time...and then the stomach revolted.  I said "But people need to pick up their bikes today, I have to go"  and my stomach replied "The fuck you do."

So I called in for the first and probably last time to TRU.  And slept for three glorious hours.  Now that I have my four hours of sleep it's time to do something productive...but what should I do...ha, who am I kidding I'm going to end up grabbing the acoustic and sitting on the beach for a while today.  Collect my thoughts and figure out what the hell I'm making for dinner since my brother is coming over.

After much internal debating and a little bit of discussion with others I have decided that my friends that haven't seen it need to be schooled in one of the greates series ever.  So I'm taking suggestions on a weekly Firefly night.  There's only 14 episodes and with the movie we could easily do it in 8 weeks or less.  I'm free most nights so whatever's good for anyone else that's interested.

I think I've known it for a while now but...

iGods says:

"Same"

Maybe somewhere else
Will not be half as cold as me
The curtains drawn the winter sun
Makes patterns on your face
It looks like some kaleidoscopic breathing exercise

It's the same [x6]

Baby won't you breathe

Hold me in your freezing arms before we have to go
Bent a little but it's not because I know the truth
The windsheild of your little car is frosted through the glass
The clear heart of air appears as we shiver on the seats

It's the same [x6]

Treat it as a test [x2]
Baby wont you breathe [x2]
It's the same [x6]

Oh great and mighty BoB what are you telling me. 

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New music

So I started sending out friends requests for my new band(Conclave Shadows).  Please add us.  And if you didn't get a request yet or don't accept them from bands it's in the bottom left corner of my top friends, add us now.

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Concert help

So I know I'm the only one who remebers them but Local H is playing the bug jar on the 22 and I need people to go with me to it.  There's some other big shows coming up that I need crews to go with, but this is the first and most pressing, I'll list the rest when I get some more free time. 

Iron Man was incredible.  Matt and I did Hooligan's for dinner then saw it yesterday.  I remeber when my whole family could go to a movie for the price of a single ticket now...I never thought I was that old.

MSI lyrics today.  They don't usually make a whole lot of sense when you see them written out, but it's fun screaming along with them while driving around blasting it with the windows down.

There is nothing you can do that I have not already done to myself,
There is nothing you can do that I have not already done to myself,
There is nothing you can DO that I have not already done to myself,
Oh no, there is nothing you can do that I have not already done to myself!

Never wanted to dance with nobody, not you!
Never wanted to dance with nobody but you,
Never wanted to dance with nobody but you--
wouldn't take "no" for an answer, you fucking bitch!

Be nice!
Be nice to me,
Don't ever be--
Be nice!
Be nice to me,
Don't let me go! (don't let me go)
I am too cool for the second...GRADE!
I'm amazed!
I'm afraid!
I am too cool for the second..GRADE!
There is nothing!--
You can do!--
That I have not already done to myself...HEY!

There is nothing you can do that I have not already done to myself,
There is nothing you can do that I have not already done to myself,
There is nothing you can do that I have not already done to myself,
No, there is nothing you can do that I have not already done to myself!

Never wanted to dance with nobody, not you!
Never wanted to dance with nobody but you,
Never wanted to dance with nobody but you--
wouldn't take "no" for an answer, you fucking bitch!

Be nice!
Be nice to me--
Don't ever be,
Be nice!
Be nice to me,
Don't let me go (don't let me go)
I am too cool for the second..GRADE!
I'm amazed!
I'm afraid!
I am too cool for the second...GRADE!
There is nothing...
You can do...
That I have not already done to myself...
Hey... hey... hey... hey...

Never wanted to dance with nobody but you--
wouldn't take "no" for an answer, you fucking bitch!

Never wanted to dance with nobody, not you!
Never wanted to dance with nobody but you,
Never wanted to dance with nobody but you--
wouldn't take "no" for an answer, you fucking bitch!

And one more cause it really is a great album.

I know I'll feel this way forever
I know no one will beg to differ
Goodbye, so long, it's been a pleasure

Repeat this when I say that
I don't want you to hate me, I want you to want to hate me
I don't want you to date me, I want you to want to date me

I wanna pay for it, all this shit
I wanna pay for it like a god damn son of a bitch

Never gonna be perfect
(No, never gonna be, never good enough, not for me)
I know I'll feel this way forever
(No, never gonna be, never good enough, not for me)
I know no one will beg to differ

Repeat this when I say that
I don't want you to hate me, I want you to want to hate me
I don't want you to date me, I want you to want to date me

I wanna pay for it, all this shit
I wanna pay for it like a god damn son of a bitch
I wanna pay for it, all this shit
I wanna pay for it like a god damn son of a bitch

Never gonna be perfect
(No, never gonna be, never good enough, not for me)
I know I'll feel this way forever
(No, never gonna be, never good enough, not for me)
I know no one will beg to differ

Too much of one thing never hurt me, baby
It is aggressive, that's the message we send

I don't want you to hate me, I want you to want to hate me
I don't want you to date me, I want you to want to date me

I wanna pay for it, all this shit
I wanna pay for it like a god damn son of a bitch
I wanna pay for it, all this shit
I wanna pay for it like a god damn son of a bitch

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Yeah...I blew that shit up

I have to state it again cause I thought I was crazy and I knew you did too...I've been listening to nothing but Strata in the car for the past week, I went to put in the new MSI disc(amazing by the way) and what do you think I heard..."I went walking with my mama one day, when she warned me what people say".   Every time....

So I listened to it then listened to half an MSI track cause that's my entire commute. 

Got a paid half day today cause we are flying through this job.  Went out to Merchents Grill to get lunch and a few drinks with the guys afterwards...and was geting paid to shoot darts and drink.  I'm learning lots and trying to absorb everything that's happening around me the way I normaly tend to do. 

Started hiking with some friends every week.  It's cool cause I can get out and get excercise and I'm not doing it alone for a change so I'm more motivated to stick with it. 

I'm not having coherent thoughts right now...been up since I went into the first job at 2AM.  I can't wait to quit TRU, I'll miss the discount but I could use some more time to work on other things I need to get done.  And I won't get cool shit anymore(I have a Joker figure waiting for me to go in for my shift tomorrow). 

Anyone want to play Euker?

I'm going to go download another episode of Reaper(great show) and probably pass out now...

No music today...no wait.  I heard a country song at work the other day that reminded me how much i hate the current state of country...so we'll go with that.

She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

1st Chorus
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby

(Sing lullaby)

The rumors flew but nobody know how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night

2nd Chorus
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby

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...I didn’t do it

I can't go through with it.  I feel like Samson.  If I cut my hair I lose all my powers.  Anyways, we got band photos coming up and I don't want myhead shaved for that.

Band is coming along nicely.  I have two demos that I need to mix down and get on the site when I find time, one more finished demo we need to record, and something like three others we need to shore up then record.  We still haven't found a voice but the three off us are coming up with something very different.

I work with a bunch of guys that act like there in middle school, the work is dirty and hard, I've come home feeling like I got hit by a truck everyday...work is awsome.  No really, I like what I'm doing and I'm having fun.  I don't wake up and go "Fuck, do I really have to go there again today." 

Last thing for the day...I'm being stalked by Mika.  Everytime I turn on WBER "lollipop" is  in the first three songs I hear.  What the fuck?  I like the song, but I hate it when they put great songs in heavy rotation.  If I want to hear a song that much I'll play it on repeat all fucking day Collective Soul style.

So anyways in my frantic dash to hide from Mika I've been listening to Strata, awsome CD, and here's the song off it that really seems to get my attention:

"The New National Anthem"

O' Say, can you see? By the dawn's early light -
we get 'em young, give 'em guns and ship 'em off to fight.

While the rocket's red glare is keeping everyone scared they say,
"just relax -
put your trust in me and you can sit back and watch the war on your screen."
The country's run by lunatics, they're picking up their pens,
writing themselves into Revelation, "this is how it's gonna end!" -

Well, I tried hard to bite my tongue,
like a good American but they recruited my little brother
and they're shipping off my friends.

Broad stripes and bright stars through the perilous fight,
you know those who stand to gain are not the ones who sacrifice -
watching bombs burst in air from a comfortable chair, they just say,
"in God we trust, and God trusts in greed,
yeah as long as they never show real blood on TV." -

I'm not sorry if this makes you mad, in fact I hope this wakes you up -
'Cause you'll never see what's going on with your eyes so tightly shut!
There are too many unanswered questions,
from the towers in New York to the lies leading up
to another corporate sponsored war -

Well I'll support the troops by asking what they're really fighting for -
and I think that's more patriotic than flying a flag from my front porch.

Come on, let's go out and start a fight!
'Cause you know two wrongs always make a right.
Come on, let's go out and start a fight!
'Cause you know two wrongs never make a right

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Samson

So three days in and I think I can finaly say I have a career path.  It's a good comapany and the people I work with are cool.  I don't even mind that the first few days have been doing shit jobs.  I'm learning a lot in the field and really hope that I can get that apprenticeship program started this year.  Now all I got to do is wait my eighty-seven more days and quit TRU.   Coolest thing is that the current sites we're doing are about a quarter mile from my house, so I'm spending nothing on gas.

I've been thinking about it for a few weeks now and after spending the day clibimg around in the mud I've decided it's time to cut my hair.  I wear a bandana and hard hat all day so I can get away with doing whatever color I want as long as the hair is short.  Maybe I'll try cotten candy pink.

Speaking of hard hats....anyone want to come over and rub my neck.  Carrying that extra weight is going to take some getting used to.

So...new career, new hair, and a healthier diet...what other changes should I make in my life.  I seem to be on a good kick here so I'm open to any suggestions.

Time for a wake them it's up to Johnny's for the Dady's.

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The Company

So me being retard numero uno...I burned the shit out of my fingers last night.  I was cooking a pork loin to go with my homemade tortillas and as soon as I pulled it out of the oven, without thinking(obviously), grabed the thermometer out of it.  I then proceeded to sit with my fingers in ice water for the remainder of the night.

On other news, I really like adjusting to get back to a nine to five(or 7:30 to 4 if you want to be technical).  I can go out and do shit and watch shows when they are on tv...and I can sleep till a normal time. Fucking rocks.

This weekend is some structureing and maybe a bit more writing Sunday morning.  Hopefully we'll have at least one more demo up by Tuesday.  A week from Saturday we're auditioning a drummer/vocalist team.  Should be interesting.

As has become a tradition over the past few years I have once again made my spring mix.  It's that first CD of the year that begs to be blasted while driving around with the windows down.  For the first time I feel like sharing this mix with the world and encourage the idiots...fine people that read this to go out and make thier own copy and drive around blasting it.

1) "The Only One"                              Ra
2) "The Queen and I"                          Gymclass Heroes
3) "Seatbelt"                                       dEAf PEdESTRIANS
4) "King of Pain"                                Mudvayne
5) "Sledgehammer"                            Ten Masked Men
6) "Bump"                                          Rehab
7) "Superpower"                                KMFDM
8) "Oh My God"                                Mark Ronson feat. Lilly Allen
9) "All Wrong"                                   God Lives Underwater
10) "Poughkeepsie, NY"                    Strata
11) "Bullet the Blue Sky"                    Sepultura
12) "Crazy"                                        Mushroomhead
13) "Typical"                                      Mutemath
14) "I Miss the Girl"                           Soul Coughing
15) "The Collector"                            Nine Inch Nails
16) "Paint It Black"                            Deadsy
17) "I Suck"                                      Mark Ronson feat. Rivers Coumo
18) "Love Will Tear Us Apart"          Moonspell

Sounds a little strange but I swear all the transitions are pretty good.  I would use the versions of any covers I stated and can't be held responsible if it sucks cause you substituted the original.  In all honesty if I weren't using it for a loop in my car I would have added a bonus track and if it's something you want to make for a now and again listen I would finish it off with "Into the Mystic" by Glen Hansard & Markéta Irglová.

Finally for the day...DO NOT, I repeat, NOT watch Highlander the Source.  I love the Highlander franchise and have since I was a wee lad.  Even the second and third movie that made no sense were well made and had a gripping(although stupid) story.  This piece of shit had a cheesier look than the old Hercules TV show.  And the story didn't make any sense in any of the Highlander continuities.  Even the fight scenes were crap.  Probably the worst movie I have seen in the past year and I've seen some bad ones.

Come on, can I dream for one day?
There's nothing that can't be done
But how long should it take somebody
Before they can be someone

Cuz I know there's got to be another level
Somewhere closer to the other side
And I'm feelin' like it's now or never
Can I break the spell of the typical?

Now I've lived through my share of misfortune
And I've worked in the blazing sun
But how long should it take somebody
Before they can be someone

Cuz I know there's got to be another level
Somewhere closer to the other side
And I'm feelin' like it's now or never
Can I break the spell of the typical?

I'm the typical
I'm the typical
Can I break the spell of the typical?

Because it's draggin' me down
Oh, I'd like to know about when
When does it all turn around?

Yeah I know there's got to be another level
Somewhere closer to the other side
And I'm feelin' like it's now or never
Can I break the spell of the typical?

Break the spell (of the typical)
Break the spell (of the typical)
Can I break the spell of the typical?

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Threehundred Seconds

Real quick before I go in for what may be my last early morning.

I hate dolls that are made these days.  I’m stocking the shelves looking at these little sluts going, "Who the fuck is going to buy this for thier little girl."  But people do.  It’s like they want thier eight year olds to be sexually active.  But anyways, I was stocking the shelves in the Barbie isle a few weeks ago and...this one doll is kind of hot.  Not slutty and she has pink hair with purple bangs.  Now I’m not some kind of freak that’s into dolls, but it got me thinking.  If some chick with hair like that showed the slightest interest in me I’d ask her to marry me on the spot.  ...um... I’ll shut up now.

New band member is working out pretty well.  We have two songs that just need vocals and a little tweaking. 

I was driving out to pick up James yesterday windows down and radio blaring.  As I rounded Maplewood I was flipping channels and ended up stopping on Ludacris.  I find it funny.  I’m not a Luda fan and years ago I would have given people shit for listening to that crap...but the music isn’t bad, and he actually knows the english language.

That’s all for now.  I have had a lot to say these past few weeks but have been in a bit of a funk.  Should be out of it what with the new job and the band making progress, but I’m not.  I’m feeling better, but something still feels off.

Seal sucks...but his song is fucking awsome when redone by Mushroomhead:

In a church by the face
He talks about the people going under
Only child knows
(We are lost and crazy, we’re lost, lost, crazy)

A man decides after seventy years
That what he goes there for
Is to unlock the door
While those around him criticize and sleep
(Lost and crazy, we’re lost and crazy)

And through a fractal on that breaking wall
Oh, I see you my friend and touch your face again
Miracles will happen as we trip
(Lost and crazy, we’re lost and crazy)

But we’re never gonna survive unless
We get a little crazy
No we’re never gonna survive unless
We are a little...

Crazy are the people walking through my head
One of them got a gun to shoot the other one
And yet together they were friends at school
Get it, get it, get it, yeah!

If all were there when we first took the pill
Then maybe, maybe, maybe, maybe
Miracles will happen as we speak
(Lost and crazy, we’re lost and crazy)

But we’re never gonna survive unless
We get a little crazy
No we’re never gonna survive unless
We are a little crazy

No, we’ll never survive unless we get a little bit

Crazy are the people walking through my head
One of them got a gun to shoot the other one
And yet together they were friends at school
Get it, get it, no, no
Take it, take it, no, no

In a sky full of people only some want to fly
Isn’t that crazy (crazy), crazy (crazy)?
In a world full of people only some want to fly
Isn’t that crazy (crazy), crazy (crazy)?
In a heaven of people there’s only some want to fly
Isn’t that crazy (crazy), CRAZY?

["Lost and Crazy" in the background:]
But we’re never gonna survive unless we get a little crazy
No we’re never gonna survive unless we are a little crazy
I know we’re never gonna survive unless we get a little crazy bit
No we’re never gonna survive unless we go a little crazy

Always dismissed, never been kissed, ran for Genesis, they led to this, my religion.
Began to walk back to the car.
I never said before, "walk it off," trying never, it’s said before.
we’re all lost and crazy. We’re lost and crazy.
We’re lost, lost, crazy!!!

Just to see if anything comes back
Just to see if anything comes back
Back, back, back.
You took any five that I had left
So look and comprehend the death
Seeking the quickness
Reasonally dismissed
Looked over the source so hard to swallow
Within your words I wallow
When wait and wait for the reason?
When wait and wait for the reason?
Coming to trees and trying myself
Sentenced, not knowing any difference
And pretending anything can’t help
Throw it all away
Just to see if anything comes back
Throw it all away
Just to see if anything comes back
Just to see if anything comes back
Just to see if anything comes back
Throw it all away
Just to see if anything comes back.


And then you see things
The size of which you’ve never known before
They’ll break it
Someday
Only child know
Them things
The size
Of which you’ve never known before
Someday

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Update coming soon

...maybe tomorrow after my meeting.

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Why

So...I’m a little bummed.  My brother isn’t back in town.  He had to push his flight back to Thursday night.  So that means no brother and his friends for St. Patrick’s Day.  Probably better for my liver that way.  Anyways, Dan said he’d meet me out as soon as I get out of class.  And Alan, Becky, and Nikki are finding us when they get out of work.  Anyone else is more than welcome to come out, call and find out where we are.

Party yesterday was cool.  Not insane like last year...in fact I ended the night compleatly sober.  We played some Smash Brothers and some Beer Pong.  It was fun.  Lots of Jello Shots.

Here’s how I did the shots:
Green and Orange layers are just Jello mix with one and a half cups of water and half a cup of vodka.  White layer is two packets of plain jello, one and a half cups of water, a can of sweatened condensed milk and half a cup of irish cream.

I want to believe in myself once again
So I dream of a man whose hopes never end
To kiss with a girl who’s as lovely as you
I’d give you my heart, if you gave me the truth

And for every tear that is lost from an eye
I’d dig me a well where no man could destroy
I want to believe in a freedom that’s bold
But all I remember is the freedom of old

Well I lost me a wife, so I found me a plane
Flew all the way to California
This mess in my head is a mess getting out
Ya drink too much coffee, I drink too much stout

But after a while, when my mouth’s not so dry
I’ll dance up a storm, sure life’s looking fine
But as darkness falls, I return to my bed
Don’t ask me more questions, don’t fuck with my head

I’ve been down in this world, down and almost broken
Like thousands of people, left standing in their shoe
I’ve been down in this world, down and almost broken
As thousands they grieve, as the Black Friday rule

The buildings they shake but my heart it beats still
Oh mother of Jesus, I feel pretty ill
I want to go home where my feet both feel safe
But there ain’t no jobs in the old free state

So I must remain in my new adopted land
I’m doing the best, Hell I’m doin’ all I can
So next time you see me, don’t ask for my name
For I am the King and sure long may I reign

I’ve been down in this world, down and almost broken
Like thousands of people, left standing in their shoe
I’ve been down in this world, down and almost broken
As thousands they grieve, as the Black Friday rule

I’ve been down in this world, down and almost broken
Like thousands of people, left standing in their shoe
I’ve been down in this world, down and almost broken
As thousands they grieve, as the Black Friday rule
.. --> Flogging Molly Black Friday Rule Lyrics -->

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