A survey because I haven’t done one in a while
Current mood: content

Yeah they're silly but I haven't done one in a long time... Nothing says "getting to know you" like a bunch of random a$$ questions cut and pasted from a friend's bulletin. :-P

How did you and your number 1 become friends?:
My actual 1 is my friend Tobias's band.... I met him working at my summer program. My "true" 1 I met about 16 years ago at a Boingo concert and is one of the coolest people I know.... even though he'd vehemently deny that he is cool. :-P


How late did you stay up last night and why?:
11:30. Needed to go to bed early for my training. Couldn't sleep before that.


How did you meet the last person you talked to on the phone?:
Well, I'd say sometime during gestation or shortly after birth depending on what you believe.


Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a D?:
Nope.


How's your life lately?
Great and crazy and a little stressy.


What time is it?
8:35 pm


Do you think that you're a good person?:
I try to be. No one is perfect.


Have you ever flirted with a friends crush?
Not if I knew it was their crush...


Do you believe in love at first sight?:
Sorta... but my most successful loves took more than one look.


Do you hate the last girl you were texting?:
Why would I text someone I hate?


When is the last time you took a nap?
Last week?


Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?:
You can't guess? :-P


What was on your mind mostly today?:
Learning all about ABA.


Ever kissed anyone 18 or older?:
I don't think I've kissed anyone under 18... at least not romantically.


Do you miss anyone?:
Yes... so very much... phone calls are great but no real substitute to being in the room.


What are you listening to?:
TV... watching "Click" because it's reasonably okay noise.


Have you held hands with anyone recently?:
Yes... kids count right?


Do you like winter time?:
It's okay... but I'm not a big fan of the end of December... too stressy.


What was the last movie you watched?:
Actually watch? Mmmmm.... Not sure.


What are you doing tomorrow?
Game tomorrow. Hopefully it will go better than last week. :-)


Name a high point of your day?:
Today? Getting my ID for work.


What are your plans for the weekend?:
Well, I had my training... vegging now... game tomorrow.


Suppose you see your bf/gf kissing another person?:
What kind of kiss? A "real" kiss? Yeah, um, WTF?!? Guess it's time to move on...


Did you ever lose a best friend?:
Yeah, but it just didn't make it from childhood through adolescence.


What are you doing right now?:
Uh, isn't it obvious?


Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?:
Probably too much... :-P


Are you currently in a relationship?:
Hmmmm good question...


Have you ever had your heart broken?:
Yes... but haven't we all?


Been in a long distance relationship?:
What do you call long distance? Not out of state....


Has anybody on your top friends ever admitted to liking you?:
Well I hope they all like me. :-P But if you mean "like me"? Yes. ;-)


When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?:
Hmmm... I guess my ex this morning when I ran out the door to my training.


Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?:
Definitely! But I'm not going to kiss and tell on my blog. >;-)


Do you have a good relationship with your parents?:
It's okay.


Has anyone disappointed you lately?
Yeah... but I'm a big girl and it wasn't "that" bad.


Whose the last person you talked to in person?:
Toni


What was it about?:
Life, work, whatever...


Are you social or content?:
Depends on the situation.


Do you have a good relationship with your siblings?:
It's okay.


What are you going to do after this?:
Drive Toni home.... maybe talk to a person or two.


Are your toe nails painted pink?
Ewwww.... Not a bloody chance.


Have you put your arm around anyone in the past 5 days?
Yes


Has someone ever called you beautiful?
Yes. :-D


Are you wearing short shorts?
Yeah right...


Is your bra pink?
Nope red


Ever turned a boy down you shouldn't have?
Yes.


Are your fingernails painted black?
My finger nails are rarely painted at all.


Do you straighten your hair often?
Never.


Is it cute when guys kiss girls on your forehead?
It's okay...


What would you do if you received a long love letter?
That would be AWESOME!!! You don't see that often anymore.


Do you wear collared shirts?
Sometimes.


On a scale of 1-10 how much do girls confuse you?
Depends on the girl...


In the last 48 hours have you hung out with girls?
Yes


Do you like to hold hands?
Yes very much.


Who do you tell everything to?
Toni


What color is your hair?
Brown


Where were you an hour ago?
Checking my e-mail.


Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Maybe not everyone, but most people most of the time.

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Woohoo!!!!
Current mood: ecstatic

It looks as though I am now officially a working woman! I am so happy!!!!

THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! to everyone who sent me good thoughts on this one...

Is it "perfect"? No. But what is? It surely is damned near perfect though. I can even start working on my education in Spring 09 and work towards my teaching credentials...

The universe has spoken.... I am apparently *not* supposed to be an office slave for the rest of my life. I am supposed to be an educator. Wish the universe had been a little more plain with me on this point 14 years ago... but oh well... As I keep being told (often by people who got their credentials "later" in life), it's never too late.

The pay is better than I expected, benefits, and I may even be able to keep my summer job!

I'm trying to not get too over excited. I want to get my assignment first. But it sounds like I will be starting next week! I have a mandatory training tomorrow morning... ugh! I think it looks good that I'm willing to come in (and drive an hour BOTH ways) on such short notice...

I am doing the happy dance..... wanna dance with me? LOL :-P

Again, thank you for all the good thoughts. I think it helped a lot. :-D

My love to all.... now to have a small celebration... who's in? I'm going to really party after my second paycheck. ;-P

Have a great weekend all!!!

XOXOXO

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Wish me luck....
Current mood: excited

I don't want to go into much detail... but I have an interview tomorrow....

PLEASE think good thoughts for me on this one....

I need every bit of mojo out there. I really want this one.

Trying not to get my hopes up, but I could be working Monday morning....

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE....

Love you all!!!!

XOXOXO

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Brendan @ O’Brien’s Irish Pub
Current mood: bouncy

Hey all... well as usual, I'm going to tell you about what you missed because you either live too far away or didn't come down for various reasons.... which of course some are better than others. :-P Do you have a note from your doctor or mom? Please excuse (your name here) from Brendan's show because he was ill... or whatever... Did I mention that Brendan is a early education teacher for his day job? :-P

Anyway.... speaking of moms... Brendan's mom was there. :-) She was so nice. Told me a great story about Brendan and Bear at a Boingo concert. Gotta love moms. Hehehe It was a lot of fun sitting with Chad, Brendan, and his mom.

Now these shows are usually one or two performers. Just a low key acoustic sort of thing. Something that while I adore seeing Brendan with the whole band, it really suits him because he has plenty of energy to captivate an audience all by himself.

The first act I saw was a reasonably talented guy and his girlfriend who apparently has trust issues because other than very clearly stating "he's mine!" I didn't see a point to her involvement. Not trying to be mean.... just calling it as I see it. If it were me, I'd just be the adoring girlfriend on the sidelines. Let them lust.... as long as he comes home with me at the end of the night. :-)

The next act was a girl by herself that I can only describe (and again, not trying to be mean... just calling as I see it) as a pissed off woman who's been screwed over by too many men and is thinking of switching teams because of it...

Anyway, after over an hour of whiny melancholy "music" (sorry), I think all of us were begging for something better. Thankfully, we had Brendan. :-)

Was this Brendan's best performance? No. If you asked me, he seemed kinda off that evening from the time I got there... but he pulled it off and like sex with someone your *really* into, even when it's "bad", it's still damned good. ;-P He had the audience in his hands as usual and it was a lot of fun mistakes and all. :-)

Then after Brendan there was a couple of guys that were ok but nothing to follow...

Brendan has asked me to get as many people out on Halloween as possible.... so if you are in the area, GET YOUR BUTT DOWN TO THE MINT OCTOBER 31ST AND TELL THEM YOU ARE THERE TO SEE BRENDAN!!!!! Don't make me come over there and drag you there myself....

Have a great week!

XOXO

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I know where I’m going to be Halloween!!!! YAY!!!!!
Current mood: jubilant

I know where I'm going for Halloween!!!! ::doing the happy dance::

CHECK IT OUT!!!!!!

Brendan at the Mint!

This is the best news I've heard since the Boingo show got canceled! Betcha they play a cover or two.... ::big grin::

Now.... what am I going to be for Halloween? Hmmmm....

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Random a$$ "motivational posters" 'cause I need a laugh and wanna share
Current mood: silly

I'm bored... made all my calls and sent out a bunch of resumes so it's time to goof off.... Why? Because otherwise I'd go nucking futs! :-P

Here are some of my favorites.... Enjoy! :-)

























Hope you got a giggle... Love to all!

(oh yeah, and I can't spell for sh*t.... :P)

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Wanting and Waiting....
Current mood: horny

There is something I want.... BADLY.... yet, I have to wait...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

It's interesting... kinda like Christmas used to feel. One problem... I don't have a date for which I can tick off the days until I get what I want.

I'm good... I'm waiting patiently... well, as patiently as I can... I'm not usually patient in this way.

F*ck this feels so good and so bad at the same time.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Ok, anyway, in other news...

I have my CPR training done. :-) Even learned about the defibrillator machine they have all over the place now. Please, oh please say that I never *EVER* need it. It's not that I don't think that I could do the right thing if the situation arose, it's just that I may need to be resuscitated after I'm done saving the "victim"... And gods forbid that the person didn't make it... can you say therapy? Really.

Got my game tomorrow. :-) Hope things go well. Last time was not the restful game I was hoping for so I'm praying that everybody is in a better and relaxed mood.

Anyone wanna give me a massage? I could use one. Oh, and a hot bath or a hot tub.... and some chocolate covered strawberries... Yummmmm. ;-)

I just want to jump out of my skin right now.... the upshot of this is that it has me distracted from my current problems for the most part. Not completely mind you, but some which is cool. :-)

Brendan has a show on Tuesday! YAY!!!! And it's free... YAY!!!! Except for parking... Boooo... but you can't have everything I guess....

Yes, yes... it is good to want things... but sometimes you need to get what you want. It's good for the soul. >;-P

Hugs and kisses to all...

Oh ya, and it freaking ROCKS to wear clothes from 12-14 years ago.... :-D I rescued some old clothes from storage (including some awesome Boingo t-shirts from back in the day) and they fit sooooo nice! And wearing t-shirts that are the right size makes me look thinner too... who'd have thunk? LOL

XOXOXO

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Happy weekend all!
Current mood: frisky

Hey all... I've been kinda crazed.... Looking for work is not fun.

Anyway, lots of prospects... will probably start as a temp teacher's assistant at a school for autistic kids next week when school starts. :-)

I'm also trying to figure out if there is a realistic way that I could go back to college and get my teaching credentials. That would solve a lot of my problems... Always a shortage of teachers and I would have my summers free for teaching which I love... still thinking. Feel free to talk me into or out of it. :-P

The holiday weekend is coming up. No real plans here... I have a CPR class tomorrow morning and my usual game, but other than that, I'm just hanging out. Unless someone wants to invite me over... ;-) :-P

I'm hoping that you all have an excellent weekend!

XOXOXO

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Yeah well.... you know....
Current mood: bored

August.... yeah... I don't know why I thought August would be a good month. It's not been *bad* per se, but it hasn't been good either.

I've found out that wearing my heels a lot makes my a$$ hurt.... It never occurred to me that wearing heels would make my gluttes work harder. But there you go... I'm not one to wear heels very often. I'm hoping that the job I get doesn't require wearing heels all the time. But I guess the bright side is that my a$$ will get a good workout each day if I do. ;-P

I am getting more and more in touch with the fact that I'm a natural born caregiver. Someone says they don't feel well, and I'm ready to get in the car with meds and food and anything else... No wonder everyone wants me to be a nurse. It's not that I can't be a nurse. I just don't really want to be one.

Anyway.... life is here, wish you were beautiful.... :-P Wait, strike that and reverse it.

Going to see a movie tonight because the game got canceled. Should be fun anyway. :-)

I'm going to play more Guitar Hero because my file got messed up so I have to reopen a bunch of stuff... should keep me busy until it's time to go.

Hope all is well with all of you.

XOXOXO

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And now for something completely different....
Current mood: bored

If you got the Monty Python reference, Congrats!

Anyway....

So I've been doing temp work to help bring in a little cash while I look for work... but the "jobs" I'm getting are (thus far) being a paid audience member for TV shows. A weird gig to be sure.

So Thursday night I head down to Culver City for a taping of Deal or No Deal. And got paid to wait.... and wait.... and wait.... and get told we were going to go in, just to not get in.

Here is a picture of the freaky a$$ staircase that I had to look at for 3 hours....



Have I ever mentioned my phobia about stairs? Yeah, even at the bottom of the stairs they kinda freaked me out.

Wow, TV is just *so* glamorous. :-P

It's not that I really cared that I didn't get in. I got paid either way. But you can not imagine how mind numbingly boring it was to sit there. No idea if we were getting in or not. No idea how long it would take.... and I was one of the lucky ones. I brought a big fat book. The only problem was that even that didn't distract me the whole time.

I had another interview... unfortunately it wasn't what I was hoping for. I have to get a physical and a TB test (oh boy! she says sarcastically) but I *know* they want me. The only thing is that I really want more hours than they are offering. But if all goes well, I will start with them in a week or two. Something is better than nothing, right?

Had my usual Friday... I'm getting the hang of spending my Fridays alone. It's not that I don't want company as much as it's just how things have worked out for the last few weeks. My interview was out by LAX so I found a gym nearby and did my usual workout. I'm up to 3.21 miles in 35 minutes on the elliptical! I'm doing a mile in just under 11 minutes which has me getting ever closer to my goal of a 10 minute mile. :-) If I keep up my pace in improvement, I should be there in a couple of weeks.

After the workout there was no sense getting on the freeway during traffic, so I hung out near El Segundo. I used to live there for a little while so I feel pretty comfortable there. I did a little window shopping and ate dinner. I passed on the movie this time because there was nothing I was really wanting to see. I also read a bit more.... it's nice to be able to read again. :-) I haven't had the time to just sit and read uninterrupted in a long time.

Finally, I ran out of things to do (after being a bad girl and eating a chocolate cupcake with a Chai Tea Latte...) and headed back home.

I have discovered a few things....

- I really love the lights coming over the 405 into the Valley at night.
- I really hate the Valley and want to live somewhere else.
- I *really* hate where I live and I have to admit that I was thinking of outlandish things to keep me out tonight.

Ever wonder why the gym takes me 2-3 hours? Or why dinner can take 3 hours? It's because out is better than in... I really do workout, but the actual workout only takes me about an hour to hour and 20 minutes. The rest of the time is spent vegging out in the hot tub or the shower (or both).

It's not that I don't love my family.... well, my kids anyway. :-P I just *need* to be out and any chance I can get, I take.

Well, I guess I should get to bed. I wonder if I will ever remember what it feels like to be well rested. Not that I'm totally complaining as some of the reason is something I truly enjoy, but still....

Night all! Have a great weekend! :-)

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TV taping and I’m not goth enough....
Current mood: frisky

Wow... well, this is an interesting day...

First, my appointment got canceled and I was bummed...

After that, I called the employment agency to see if they had anything... and ended up going to a TV show taping tonight. One of the most tedious 5 1/2 hours of my life... but I'm getting paid for it so I don't care. :-) My prediction, the cute blond guy will be written off the show fairly soon because he out shone the "lead"....

Then I grew a pair and cold called for a job that I was told about last week.... Which got me an interview. I feel good about it. It's not perfect, but I think I can make it work. :-) I should hear by the end of the week.... ::crosses fingers::

So I come online and I'm chilling out before bed and I get a message from some dude in a band... something to the effect of: You aren't goth and you should read up on it before you claim to be goth.... WTF? I'm not goth enough for some punk who probably isn't even old enough to know what goth really was before the emo BSers got a hold of the term? And the little punk felt the need to e-mail me about it...

How is this for everyone? "Oh, I'm sooooooo depressed..... I cut myself regularly to ease the pain.... I need to listen to more moody music because the Smiths are too happy for me....."

Look, maybe that is what "goth" means to you, but please.... I know *MANY* goths and we all are different people with different interests but we have the things in common that bring us together under the umbrella of goth. We are not all vampires, we do not all worship Satan, we do not all self mutilate, we do not always act depressed, and there is a term for goths like me.... Children, can you say "perky goth"? I knew you could....

Not to mention that even for a perky goth I'm not *THAT* perky. Spend some time with the real me... I can easily have the 3 "M"s covered.

But kids alas... I'm not just a goth. I am many things. I am a geek too.... and damned proud of it. I am also a gamer (both RPG and video), and a music fiend, and movie nut. So the f*ck what? I have to be one and only one thing? Wow, talk about black and white thinking... people aren't binary... it's not all ones and zeros friend.

But who cares.... the little boy is probably young enough that I could have changed his diapers when he was a baby.... new goths... sigh... You see them at Bat's Day too... cute but a little pesky to those of us who have been around for 20 years.

Well, I'm off to bed and hoping for some sweet dreams... like bats.... kidding. :-P But I did have this awesome vampire fantasy.... >;-)

Night all.

XOXOXO

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Clone Wars and whatever else is in my head...
Current mood: horny

I saw Clone Wars last night.... go ahead, call me a geek...



:-P

Was it my first choice for how to spend my Friday night? Not so much... but it wasn't the worst thing I could have chosen either.

The short version is, that it's brilliant and painfully stupid at the same time. If you are a geek you will probably want to see it, but if you are having trouble with timing or funding, don't worry about waiting to see it when it comes out on DVD.

The visuals were alternately stunning and distracting. And for once I would actually say that the ratings board gave it too low a rating which nearly never happens. I would have made it PG for sure but they apparently thought it only ranked a G.... After all the clones you see getting taken out and the battles, I'd think that it might be a little intense for the more timid audiences... not my kids, but as Trek and Wars were staple viewing since they were in utero... well, ya know.

Oh and I can kinda understand why.... but WTF was up with them altering one of the most recognized themes in all of movie history? I think that set me up on the wrong foot from the get go.

To be totally honest, if I had gotten a better offer, I'd have left the movie theater before the movie ended by about half way through and wouldn't have felt even a tiny bit bad. But alas, I did not and stayed though the cheesy ending.

I'm in a funky place today... I know I haven't been sleeping well... and I'm ridiculiously horny... and stressed (of course)...

Added a bunch of music to my iTunes and iPod's favorites list... is 582 favorite songs too much?

I'm just hanging tonight and then tomorrow it's off to my normal game. :-) I'm hoping for a low stress day which can not be counted on.

Have a great weekend! :-)

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Random boredness... and a little rant...
Current mood: bored

So it's been a week.... not in a passage of time way so much as lots of things (good and bad) have happened....

I've had to have some long and not very comfortable conversations lately. I'm a little worn out psychologically from it all. I *think* everything is okay between me and these people, but I can worry a bit more than is warranted at times like these. Just a personality trait that you have to be cool with, or just not have me around. Sometimes I swear I want to say to some people "I'm sorry, did I give a crap about you? My bad..." but I never do because that would seem like throwing salt on the wound which I'm not likely to do.

I want to just sprinkle fairy dust on all my relationships and make everything good so I don't have that end of my life to worry about for a while. I'm stressed and many of them are stressed and goodness knows that stress brings out the best and worst in people. Then there are misunderstandings because someone thinks you have a "tone" or infers something from what you said that you didn't really mean.

Sigh....

Can I tell you how f*cking sick and tired I am of paying for others mistakes?!? I will freely admit that I do dumb a$$ sh*t sometimes. BUT.... I nearly *NEVER* mean any harm to anyone. If I do mean harm, it's only after being pushed well beyond most people's tolerance to cope before I get there... and even then, it's usually a quick flash and then it's gone. I don't see this as weakness or being the "better person"... it's just who I am as a person and I don't often give into hate or anger let alone let it consume me. I guess I'm just Jedi like that. :-P But seriously, when I'm paying for the dumb or mean a$$ sh*t some other c*nt did to you or someone you know.... ARGH!!!!! Judge me for me! *Not* what some other stupid c*nt did!

Ok, I get the whole fool me once, fool me twice thing... but if *I* didn't do it, *I* should have to pay for it!

Anyway....

Oh ya, I actually told someone that I was like a vampire in that I have to be invited to come.... kinda silly huh? But it's true. I don't go anywhere I'm not invited to or have direct business at. I'm borderline phobic about it. Makes me feel really creepy to go anywhere without a direct invitation. Even my best friend's house and she has a "Mi casa, su casa" attitude about it. I also don't like inviting myself anywhere.... I feel weird calling or texting "Can I come over?". I will send a "What are you up to?" or a "I might be in your neighborhood soon..." but I really need that "Hey, cool! Come on over!" to feel good about it.

Watching swimming at the Olympics. I do love swimming. They are about to do freestyle. That was my second best stroke when I was a kid on the swim team... makes me want to hop in a pool and swim a few laps for fun. :-)

Oh I got two more leads on jobs... if you have any good mojo to spare, I could really use one of them to pan out soon... I'm not in "danger" yet, but I will be breathing a lot easier when I have a steady job and paycheck.

I'll be doing my thing for a little while and then off to dreamland. I'm having weird dreams too...

I was thinking of things I want. (I will keep a few quiet but these are the things I can share...)

Ice cream
Chocolate (maybe as hot fudge with the ice cream...)
Some time in a hot tub (probably tomorrow at the gym :-) )
A massage
A good cuddle
Some good something else.... ;-)
A good full nights sleep in a real bed
A job that will get me what I need

Let's hope some of those happen soon. :-)

Have a great night/ weekend all! :-)

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