One of the dumbest things i can ever do to myself, I pray for the strength and an occasional encouraging word from friends in my first thirty days. I have done it before and I can do it again!
After hiking many miles in the back country I have found the monkey to heqavey to carry any longer. On top of my ashma it creates problems that can only becomes more hazardus to myself...no more! On the 15th I quit...Happy birthday to me...I want more life...On the 15th I quit!
Bouncing around Till sept...see when i see ya...ta ta
Current mood: awake
Category: Life
From now until mid Sept I'll be bounceing around the territory camping and fishing and stopping back into the cabin for resupply and paying the occastional bills, and of cource keepiong with with ya all. Some occational dentel work has been keeping me pretty much around here lately until now. So tmw and over the weekend i'll be in the park (goggle earth this 46°44'6.53"N 121°34'7.60"W) I'll be at Ohanacoposh campground and back Monday. But gone again Tuesday somewhere else lol....I'll be taking pictures along the way, though with REAL 35mm it will be a bit till I can publish my wanterings....It's so cool! So many placesto see and just be me....Tally hoo all!!! I can still remotely connet to my desktop, though it costs and arm and a leg to do so, I will be limiting my connections and responces to when i'm actually here...just uinderstand i'm not actually around here very much at this time...Technoly is great to be able to connect, but costly...love yas all.
As we begin to truly understand that the world outside of us is a reflection of the world inside of us, we may feel confused about who is to blame for the problems in our lives. If we had a difficult childhood, we may wonder how we can take responsibility for that, and in our current relationships, the same question arises. We all know that blaming others is the opposite of taking responsibility, but we may not understand how to take responsibility for things that we don't truly feel responsible for. We may blame our parents for our low self-esteem, and we may blame our current partner for exacerbating it with their unconscious behavior. Objectively, this seems to make sense. After all, it is not our fault if our parents were irresponsible or unkind, and we are not to blame for our partner's bad behavior.
Perhaps the problem lies with the activity of blaming. Whether we blame others or blame ourselves, there is something aggressive and unkind about it. It sets up a situation in which it becomes difficult to move forward under the burdensome feelings of shame and guilt that arise. It also puts the resolution of our pain in the hands of someone other than us. Ultimately, we cannot insist that someone else take responsibility for their actions; only they can make that choice when they are ready. In the meantime, if we want to move forward with our lives instead of waiting around for something that may or may not happen, we begin to see the wisdom of taking the situation into our own hands.
We do this by forgiving our parents, even if they have not asked for our forgiveness, so that we can be free. We end the abusive relationship with our partner, who may never admit to any wrongdoing, because we are willing to take responsibility for how we are treated. In short, we love ourselves as we want to be loved and create the life we know we deserve. We leave the resolution of the wrongs committed against us in the hands of the universe, releasing ourselves to live a life free of blame.
Daily OM
Currently
listening
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No Angel
By
Dido
Release date: 01 June, 1999
Purities in one essence An extacey's in night rainbow shine Eons rarity...in full indigo blaze Love ties, undulations in rip tide Of this moon...and her wolf
So enter a time in gallery mind, De-twirl these sprung love spins, In essence dreams life begins... Hearing the whispering winds... As clouds clear the fear... Dreams in fired loins draws near...
As far away as three little words... Assures our heart to always be part. An " I love you" in C'est la Vie' Mean so much more than my life given to me, These little words falling from thee.
Essence of an Eternity's view
accomplished
anxious
awake
calm
cheerful
contemplative
bouncy
