Epiphanies
Category: Life

life has been a strange dream since I got back from Rome... Im not sayin that I got totally culture shocked, cuz i went there expecting life to be the way it was there, somewhat... But I guess in the middle of being hit on by hot italian women and peoples Moms alike, I realized that I am desired... People in America are so caught up in the social aspect of dating that we forgot about the importance of searching for someone to complete our lives and enhance our day to day experiences. Even I have been found guilty of this... i guess the craziest thing about my feelings for people is that i never truly get over anyone... If i like you, its because im attracted to something within, it goes beyond how "hot" you are... dont get me wrong, I am a guy, i am human and i do have my moments of weakness where i just wanna get down with the get down... I love checkin out beautiful girls, but i found that when it comes to being with someone, my definition of beauty differs from that which societal standards have placed for the masses. I have my eyes which see the beauty in everyone(no matter how busted some think they are) and i see thru the eyes which society judge with... The more I think about it, the more i realize that i like these "rejects" because they are the ones who will add to the quality of life and not try and leech at my happiness... I guess what im tryin to say is how can i expect someone to take a chance and be with me if im worried about other peoples opinions, i need to get past that and be the Man im meant to be for ME and not others...

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voluntary schizophrenia
Current mood: random

so I think that everyone has split personalities, despite their denial... we are the person that everyone sees from day to day, and the person we see in the mirror. now, not everyone is like this, only like 92% of human population(myself included... but only sometimes) for the most part... the change is very small in detail, but apparent within yourself... I have a theory that if everyone brung the person from behind the mirror out everyday, then there would be a lot less hate and confusion/ drama... etc( you fill in the blank) most of the problems we face, start from something within ourselves that we dont like, and cant change... which leads to jealousy and envy... we need to accept ourselves for who/ what we are and learn to deal with the faults of not only ourselves and others... once we can ascertain the truth that no one walking this earth is perfect, only then will perfection be granted clouded sight.  my challenge is simple:  everyday when you walk out your door, try and bring another part of the reflection( from the mirror) to your everyday lives and share it with the people you care about... and maybe it will catch on!  lets start a revolution!!!  and remember... you can lie to everyone, but you can never fool yourself...  so try it on for size... you might be amazed!

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eh
Current mood: cheerful

yo... im like home and tired, but i cant sleep... oh well... i had a good night show at valley view today! but i had some wierd marching ish... lol  i guess i can make it better next week.

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Evolution through self reflection
Current mood: touched

wow... its been a crazy year so far! just when you think youve got everything figured out, life steps in and tells you that you dont. I believe now that we are forever changing. the problems and drama in our lives define who we will mold into. no matter who, or what the situation is, everything must be dealt with in some way. Ive always been very open, so its been alot easier to control things in my life, but only recently have I come to realize that im not done growing... i mean i knew that there was still alot about life I needed to learn, but i now realize that there is alot about "my life" that ive yet to decipher. the mind is continually evolving, moreso when you take the time to listen to yourself. Ive had alot of time to reflect on my life and come up with a plan of action. from now on, I intend to be Drew... for those of you who really know me, you know what i mean. My best friend brought it to my attention that I hadnt been my "usual chipper self" partially because of recent loss, but also in part because I had let minuscule things affect how i was feeling. I have a very powerful mind, and for awhile there, i had become a slave to my emotions, and that almost destroyed some the things I cherish most in my life. im better then that, never forget that your mind is your most powerful weapon... use it

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to all it may concern...
Current mood: refreshed
Category: Life

as most of you who are around me all the time may know, I havent quite been myself lately. I think its funny how everyone has there assumptions about whats going on, but really had no idea. there is only 1 person who really knows what Ive been dealing with, and I feel its time I let everyone in. Consider this an apology for anyone whos feelings may have been hurt by my recent outlook/attitude on life. I recently found out that my cousin died of cancer... when I heard, I was more shocked at the fact that It wasnt bothering me. I was so heartless. after awhile, I began to wonder why I was so indifferent about this. then I started to think about how I would feel if any of my friends passed on. For some reason, that I dont know why, death doesnt bother me. I guess Im just "understanding" of that whole little life cycle thingy that were all so fond of. Thanks to the words exchanged with a friend about the subject, Ive come to terms with the ordeal, and now feel much moreable to be myself again. Im sorry to everyone who knew something was wrong and asked and I lied, it wasnt a girl, I just felt it easiest to go along with that instead of trying to figure out a way to explain what I was going thru. so, again, sorry. Just know that im alot better now.

10:40 AM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

out with the old...

so like you ever wake up one day and feel like you wasted so much of your life away?  no?... me either... sometimes i sit and think about all the mistakes ive made in my life... not neccessarily out of regret or to wish i hadnt made them, but to think of how much of a different person I would have turned out to be... i regret no choice i have ever made... i may feel at times a little uneasy, but its quickly offset by the image in the mirror.  its the dawn of a new age... time to keep going, move on... ive decided to become the person i was meant to become.  i thank all of my friends for there continued support and love, i wouldnt be who i am were it not for there compassion... so again... thx and i love you guys!

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