Just an update...

This is just going to be a jumbled mess, so if you don't want to read it, I don't fault you.

    Since the last time I wrote in here, I'm a year older but no wiser.  Thinking back and realizing that I am now 26 has left me with nothing but regret.  You can argue that I have had a pretty easy life, but the more I go on, the more I realize that easy is not really what I want.  Easy gets boring.  I'm training to be a worker in the indy wrestling scene... and before you all dismiss pro wrestling as "Fake" it is honestly the hardest thing I've EVER had to do.  It is the most difficult challenge I've ever had to face.  Hence why I am finally realizing that easy is not what I want.  Regardless of training being hard, I've never had more fun.  Unless you have a lot of respect for the sport (Yeah, I said sport.  It is, and you can't change that.) I could never fully express to you how truly happy it has made me to be a part of it.  I cry those pussy-ass happy tears a lot thinking to myself "Wow, I'm actually doing this".  Some people that I have tried to explain this to don't get it though. Some don't even like the fact that I have chosen this lifestyle, but at the end of the day, it doesn't change the fact that this all makes me feel like I'm doing the right thing.  To those who oppose this decision, I do apologize for upsetting you, but I will not apologize for doing something that I feel fits me.  That sweater you get every christmas doesn't even fit me better, it's that good.

    The band is doing awesome!   I can't wait for the halloween show.  We are still recording our CD, but damnit it has to be PERFECT!  Look for it at a show near you.  The band has also given me a chance to reconnect with a friend who I didn't exactly lose touch with, but wasn't in my life like they used to be, and for that I am also thankful. 

    All in all, the moral of this story is things are really looking up.  health-wise, I feel better than ever as the whole wrestling thing has definately given me motivation to try and get in shape.  I do 100 free squats, 50 push ups, and 50 jumping jacks a day.  Then I go and walk a bit if I find time.  This has also helped with my music stage show as I don't feel like I'm going to die by the end of our set lol.

I love you all.  See you on the flipside...

Tommy Horror

Leave me comments, and I promise to reciprocate!

Currently listening : The Black Parade Is Dead By My Chemical Romance Release date: 2008-07-01

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This is the way I should have done this...

Sometimes everything gets the best of you. a lot of times, especially in the last week or so, I look back and believe I made a few wrong decisions.  Maybe I'll learn from it, but I don't know.  Whether or not I regret it remains to be seen.  Lately my past has been haunting me and I'm making the people I love and cherish suffer for it. I didn't want to hurt anybody, and whether or not they say it didn't hurt them, I know it has.  So many times I have felt so paranoid about history repeating itself that I've pushed away the wrong people, and for that I'm sorry.  Now I am worried that it is happening all over again, and no matter how much I try to stop it, there is just no way of controling myself. that is probably the part that scares me the most.  In 2 weeks I'll be 25. and what the hell have i done?!  I've let myself get so far yet never have I gone anywhere. I'm still here and all I want is to make myself an actual life, but to do so would mean to cut out so many things that I enjoy. and then I think "Why should I?"  We only live once, and when did it become acceptable to live your life completely numb yet uncomfortable with how life turned out?  People hate their jobs, but we are forced to work them anyway.  It's fucking ridiculous.  I always wanted to work hard at something I love so I wouldn't have to "settle for mediocre" but what if, in the end, it gets me nowhere?  It's a really scary thought. I'm really not sure what this is all about, but I type what I think, and here we are.  This is what makes me tick.  Everyday I wonder what I am really doing, and I'm confused as to why I don't just accept things. some may say it's good that I don't just settle, but they do settle, so what do they know?  Didn't you people ever have dreams?  Of course you did!  We all wanted to be something and then just said to ourselves "Bah!  I can't do that.  Fuck it.  I'm going to work at Wal*Mart". I'm not knocking it, it might be a good job, but I doubt anybody growing up as a child really wanted to stack shelves for a living. I can't work 9-5 and be happy with myself. I'm just not cut out for a job where I have a boss. and within that statement lies the problem. gah!

Currently listening : Greatest Hits By Social Distortion Release date: 26 June, 2007

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Chris Benoit: 1967-2007

If you know me personally, it is no surprise to you that I am a HUGE wrestling fan.  I've watched since the age of 4 and there are those wrestlers who I consider my favorites.  Chris Benoit was def on that list.  Today, him, his wife, and his child were found dead today.  For those of you who know even a little bit about wrestling, this guy was one of the greats, and he will be missed.  I'm kind of at a loss for words about this, so there is not much to write... I will, howvwer, copy and paste this for you...

FAYETTEVILLE, Ga. - WWE wrestler Chris Benoit, his wife and son were found dead Monday and police said they were investigating the deaths as a homicide.

Lt. Tommy Pope of the Fayette County Sheriff's Department said the three were found at their home about 2:30 p.m., but refused to release details.

Pope said results of autopsies on Benoit, his wife Nancy, and 7-year-old son Daniel were expected Tuesday.

Benoit, 40, was a former world heavyweight champion, Intercontinental champion and held several tag-team titles over his career.

"WWE extends its sincerest thoughts and prayers to the Benoit family's relatives and loved ones in this time of tragedy," the federation said in a statement on its Web site.

Benoit was scheduled to perform at the "Vengeance" pay-per-view event Sunday night in Houston, but was replaced at the last minute because of what announcer Jim Ross called "personal reasons."

Benoit, a Canadian native, maintained a home in metro Atlanta from the time he wrestled for the defunct World Championship Wrestling.

The WWE canceled its live "Monday Night RAW" card in Corpus Christi, Texas, and USA Network aired a three-hour tribute to Benoit in place of the scheduled wrestling telecast.

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Great question!

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This was a question that was answered by Yahoo! experts... this is GREAT! Dear Yahoo!:

Who "invented" zombies?

Brain Lover

Dear Brain Lover:

Filmmaker George Romero turned zombies into movie icons in his epic "Night of the Living Dead" horror series. But to say he "invented" them is giving the guy too much credit. The truth is, these lurching, brain-crazed creatures have deep roots in Haitian folklore. HowStuffWorks explains that Haitian zombies are quite different than the American pop-culture version. According to Haitian legend, dead bodies are brought back to life by sorcery. They aren't self-aware and are relatively harmless unless they're fed salt, "which restores their senses." A 1945 article titled "The Story of Zombi in Haiti" goes into further detail. Apparently, in remote areas of Haiti, some people were believed to be more "fortunate in their undertakings" because they were assisted by beings who stole for them, traveled at fantastic speeds, and flew through the air. The article explained, "These are supposed to be former dead men and women who were brought back to life" via a special powder. Over the years, scholars have attempted to prove or disprove the existence of zombies. Today, folks are still obsessed. Many cities have zombie parades where fans dress like the living dead. Additionally, zombie movies like "28 Days Later" and video games like Resident Evil are extraordinarily popular. All these take some artistic license, but the essence (people caught between life and death) is still there. And it's still terrifying.

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Thank You Pens!

You know, you can argue back and forth about how the penguins blew it tonight, but hey they gave us our best year in a long time (not to mention our first playoff run in a LONG time) and I just wanted to say thank you to those guys. Lets get 'em next year! Sit back, enjoy some beers ad enjoy the off-season fellas!

-Tommy Horror


P.S. I just realized a good bit of the team is under 21... enjoy your apple juice!

Currently listening : Machine Gun Etiquette By The Damned Release date: 11 November, 2004

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Black No. 1

All the people you have ignored in times of depression were absolutely right.  Things do tend to get better.  In the past few days, I've felt a lot better about myself.  Over time, I've lost a good bit of weight (30 lbs to be exact), I have a killer band in Meaning In The Static, my confidence is at an all time high, and I'm feeling like I've finally growing the hell up for a change (Or perhaps not).  There are other things lately that have made me really happy, but for fear of blowing my chances, I won't mention that :p.  We can only keep our fingers crossed.

So what else is new?  Our CD, Discordance For The Graceful, is really close to selling out of the first batch, so if you haven't bought it yet, it's probably a good time to do so because I dunno if we're going to make a 2nd pressing or if we are just going to wait until we release the full length.  We've got a lot of show opprotunities coming our way, so we may be heading to your town really soon, so stay tuned!

We're going on tour this summer!  We're doing a weekends only tour through June and do a straight week out at the beginning of July and back to weekends only in August until September.  I'm excited!  We got a van, courtesy of Eric Worthing, and we are currently decorating the big green bastard. 

So um... yeah... abrupt ending...

Currently listening : Sundowning By This Is Hell Release date: 16 May, 2006

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Here we go again...

I'm doing it again, and I don't know why.  I'm pushing away anyone who has the slightest bit of interest in me.  I thought that maybe this time I wouldn't act this way. Things are going good and all I can do is pick at the things that are uncomfortable to me now.  It's ridiculous.  Nobody is perfect, yet I guess I expect them to at least seem perfect and it's stupid... I think I need to bash my head off of something hard... the bookshelf looks like a good place to start...

Currently listening : The Marrow of a Bone By Dir en grey Release date: 20 February, 2007

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Thank you...

I just wanted to take the time and give thanks to each and every one of you who were down Club Octane tonight, January 19th, 2007 for giving me the biggest rush of my life and allowing me to play possibly the best show I've ever played in the 10 years I've been performing.  It was incredibly stimulating, and if I could name you all and thank you individualy I would.  MUCH thanks though does go to my band for taking my creations and molding them even better than I could have hoped.  MUCH thanks to the 2 people who help me out every day: My lovely Sara, who was up front singing every word with me (I <3 you baby), and big Jim for being a lot of help morally and physically. Best roadie ever that Jimmy is (I'm such a hick).  LAST BUT NOT LEAST, HUGE thanks goes to Donald, Evie, and Derek for putting on such a crazy show and Nothing Unexpected, Hope On A Rope, and Mark This Day for all the positive feedback.  You guys all rock!  See you on Feb 13th with Karate High School!  

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Part 2

OK, so everything is a go and we'll be cleaning on tuesday to get the place ready for April 13th.  I need some suggestions from my friends though, so comment this blog.  Here is what I need...

1. What shall I name the venue?
2. Who should play opening day?

Thanks everyone :)

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MAJOR ANNOUNCEMENT!

Big News!  I'm opening my own music venue in Donora, PA.  I start decorating and fixing it up on the 16th of this month (January) and shooting for an April 13th (friday the 13th) opening day.  More details to come sooN!

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