insanity
Current mood: crushed
Category: Life

  Today is mine and Joey's one year anniversary.  I miss him terribly.  He sent me two dozen beautiful roses which I love so much.  My parents have come to visit me.  They came in on friday.  Ever since they have gotten here, its been utter chaos.  I havent seen my family in six months.  All that goes on is bitching and arguing.  I am so unhappy.  I just wasnt expecting things to be like this.  I can't be with my husband and it breaks my heart, because I love and miss him so very much!  Why just can't people get along?... and show respect towards other people.  I am so to the point now of just walking away and turning my back against my family, all except for my husband.  Joey and I have our times where things are difficult, but we always make it work.  I love you so very much sexy lover boy!  Please come home to me soon and safely.  Put my mind at ease like you always do.  It just seems as though I watch my whole family being torn apart and I can't do anything about it.  Baby, please tell me that everything is going to get better.  I am sure it will, I just wish it would happen soon.  Well people I am sorry for bitching and complaining, but I needed to vent.  There is only so much, that a person can take before they just finally snap, and I myself is almost to that point.     

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FUCK OFF BITCH
Current mood: enraged
Category: Life

FUCK OFF BITCH!  SIT DOWN ITS GOING TO BE AWHILE. LEND ME YOUR EARS SO YOU CAN HEAR MY THOUGHTS ABOUT YOU.  YOUR TRYING TO BEFRIEND SOMEONE TO DEAR.  YOUR STEPPING ON MY SHOES. SOMEONE NEEDS TO CALL AN AMBULANCE THERE IS GOING TO BE AN ACCIDENT!  KEEP GOING IF YOU DARE. IF YOU TAKE MY LOVER I WILL HAVE YOUR HEAD! I  SAID CALL THE AMBULANCE THERE IS GOING TO BE AN ACCIDENT.  IF YOU LIKE TO RUN GO AHEAD, I HAVE INFARED!  I CAN SEE IN THE DARK...BE AWARE! IM CALLING TO WISH YOU AN UNHAPPY DAY. SO ONCE AGAIN I SAY.........FUCK OFF BITCH!

7:04 PM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

FEELINGS
Current mood: indescribable
Category: Life

  baby i love you so much, and sometimes i feel as though i am breaking in half from being away from you.  it feels like you have been gone so long that i have forgotten what its like to be with you, thats when i stop and think about all of your memories together.  and what our life and future will be like together.  i feel as though my hands are tied and there is nothing i can do, to make things get better, till then i just wait for your return. and pray every night that you will return safely.  i cannot wait till that day comes whne i can look into your eyes and say i love you other than saying it over the phone or online.  i just hope and pray that you know i love you!  I LOVE YOU JOEY!

6:40 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

lost
Current mood: indifferent
Category: Life

  right now in my life, i am so confused about which to way to turn.  there are so many roads in front of me and i can't decide which one to take!  i feel as though i am becoming numb to everything that goes on around me.  im not sure of what to say anymore.  im not sure what to do anymore.  i just wish my life wasnt so complicated, and that everything would settle down and not overwhelm me all at once.

8:37 PM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

funny hahahahhahahaha
Current mood: hyper
Category: Writing and Poetry

  ok here it is.  i was sitting at home and got tired of beating my meat so the lady  down the street said hun if its true love hitter in the shitter!


written by the one and only LOUDTHUD!

6:46 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

stupid fucking bullshit
Current mood: infuriated
Category: Life

OMFG! im so sick of the fucking drama thats out here in this world. just someone please shoot me. please take this fucking pain away and let all the bullshit subside. fuck the god damn government! fuck doctors they dont know shit! fuck police officers, they are all crooked along with with our stupid ass president! who cant tell his ass from a hole in the ground! im so tired of being polite, when im actually thinking fuck you buddy. guess what mother fuckers. the bitch is back and im not tolerating anyone's shit anymore! you think im playing just fucking try me.

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sweetness is love
Current mood: loved
Category: Romance and Relationships

when you love someone, you find yourself doing everything you can to make that person happy.  the smallest things they do for you and say to you, puts a smile on your face.  to have them next to your side you wouldn't trade for anything.  when they sleep at night, you lay there staring at them admiring their beauty, and thinking to yourself, wow how did i ever get to be so happy, and you know in your heart that its sweetest love in the entire universe and wouldnt give it up for anything.  

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shit
Current mood: bitchy
Category: Life

  im so tired of the bull shit that life comes shit.  im sick of people telling me to hang in there, when i know damn well that everything is not ok.  im sick of hating my surroundings, and wishing everything would get better when it only gets worse.  why cant I be happy like i was when i was little kid, with no troubles and worries

4:14 PM - 1 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

my love
Category: Romance and Relationships

  when i look into your eyes i see a love that will never die for me.  and i am blessed to have you in my life.  when i am around you everything negative in my life disappears.  i cant wait till we are together again till death.  at least the next time you come in it will be for good. and i pray that i make you happy and that when we are together i make you weak.  darling you are my everything.  always know that to sexy boy! 

9:58 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment

sooo sad
Category: Life

The passed two weeks were soooo endlessly perfect.  I had him in my arms, I could smell his scent, I could taste his lips.  Now all I can seem to do is cry and pray that my love will return to me safely.  I pray that the next months goes by really fast.  I'm not getting my hopes up on that though.  I pray my love doesnt get extended.  Joey please know that I love you sooo much sexy boy!  

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