It’s been a very long time..................
Current mood: thoughtful
Category: Life

Have you ever lost touch with someone and wondered what the reunion would be like if you ever found them again???

This has just recently happened to me.  Right around Easter Sunday, while I was attending church with my parents and my two oldest daughters, I finally got the nerve to talk to a lady named Beth, who is not only a member of the church that my parents attend but is also the sister-in-law of the woman who was my best friend in high school.  I've seen Beth every time I've gone to church with my parents but was really afraid to inquire about her sister-in-law.  There was a painful situation that happened years ago that I'm not sure what happened but all I know is that it happened at the same time as my divorce.  I was very bitter and angry because I felt betrayed.  The only thing Beth knew about me is that I was the mother of the girl that took her son to a senior prom.  She didn't realize that I also knew her husband because I had had him as a substitute teacher when I was in high school.

Easter Sunday after the service was over, Beth came over to where my mom and I were standing and was talking to us a few minutes as everyone else was leaving.  It was at the end of the conversation that something told me to ask Beth if she recognized me, not as my daughter's mother but as someone from the past.  Beth didn't recognize me at first until I told her that her sister-in-law and I were best friends in high school.  It was very surprising.  I told her that I had lost contact with my best friend about 10 yrs ago when I got divorced.  She told me that my best friend and her husband and children were now living in an area that is about an hour away from me.  I was surprised.  I thought for sure that my best friend was still living in the area that I had moved away from.   Now the decision I had to make was do I contact her or not??  Does she even remember me???  Would she want to talk to me???  It was a lot to think about. 

On my way home that evening I thought of nothing else but what to do.  I wanted to talk to my best friend and see how she's doing.  She and I had a friendship in high school and afterwards that was very special but because of the reasons I lost contact with her, could I "pick up the pieces and start again"???  (Thank you, U$B, for writing the song that gave me the inspiration I needed) By the time I got home, I decided that I was going to try to locate my friend.  Luckily for me, I was able to find her information on the internet.  Now, do I call her, write her or just show up some day???  I had the information I needed.  I had to make a decision…either contact her or forget about it and not look back.  Guess what I did???  I called her.  The first time I called, her daughter said she would be home later.  Ok that was a relief.  I was wondering what I would say to her if I got the chance to talk to her.  I was wondering if she would even remember me considering it's been 10 years. 

A little while later, I called again.  She remembered me!!!!  She couldn't believe I found her!!!  She asked me how I managed to find her and I told her how I talked to her sister-in-law and she told me where I could start looking.  It was like we never lost touch.  She has told me that she has thought of me often and didn't like the way my last divorced happened.  She told me that what I thought happened never did and that my now ex-husband was not very nice and the way that the divorced happened was not fair.  She told me that she had talked to him and tried to tell him that what he was doing was very cruel and that I didn't deserved to be treated like that.  However, he didn't listen.  The fact that I am much better off without him makes things a lot easier to handle now.  

She filled me in on how her life has been since we lost contact.  She's had her ups and downs.  I came back into her life at a very good time as this is one of those down times for her that she could really use a good friend to lean on.  We talk as often as we can and hopefully we can finally get together soon.  At some point I'm pretty sure she'll want to know how things in my personal life are going and if I've found anyone since my divorce.  Let's just say we'll cross that bridge when we get there. 

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wow!!! guess what I’ve been up to????
Current mood: sore
Category: Life

Well, where do I start.  This past weekend things have been very hectic for me.  I was a little disappointed that I didn't get to see my youngest daughter to prior plans and Mother Nature and her nasty weather. 

Saturday afternoon I met up with Mike, Pam and another friend, Shannon.  We went bargain hunting at Goodwill and Salvation Army stores.  It was actually pretty fun.  Then Mike decided he wanted to relive his childhood and took us to a really cool place called the Collesium, where there are plenty of video games, a bowling alley, a sports bar, etc.  We grabbed a bite to eat and then spent a few hours just playing games and having fun.

After we got back, Mike allowed me to use his beloved Katie since I had to drive to my mom's the next day.  I took Katie and went home.  The next morning, I woke up and drove to my mom's house where I surprised her.  She wasn't expecting me to show up earlier than originally planned.  Katie ushered us to Church and home.  After having a little chitchat with my mom, Katie and I came back home.  I stopped at Mike's and filled him in on the conversation between Mom and I. 

Now, alot of the conversation between Mike and I has to do with some things that have been going on in my life that I really didn't want alot of people to know about until after it happened.  This was due to one reason or another.  It wasn't to upset anyone or anything.  Well, anyway, trying to figure out what was going on and how to get things moved, things were beginning to get even more stressful.  Yes, folks, you read it right....I moved.  Well, one friend of mine was upset because she purposely thought I was keeping things from her when in fact that it wasn't that at all. I just wasn't sure how she would handle the fact that I was moving to a different area.  When I told her, she got upset and blew up but then she got over it.  How do I know she got over it you ask???  Well, she was able to find me a UHaul truck to rent on a Sunday afternoon and even helped me move a load on Sunday as well as a couple of loads of stuff on Monday.  She then got called in to work Monday evening and worked til late.  She really earned alot of points in my book for coming through like she did. 

So here it is, Tuesday, and I'm very sore.  Now I know that my friend who found me the Uhaul along with Mike and Pam, we are all very sore.  I didn't realize I had as much stuff as I did.  I guess this is a way to force someone to do their spring cleaning alot earlier than planned.

So fast forward to today.  Sunday while I was at church with my parents, I talked to a woman who is the sister-in-law of a girl who was my best friend in high school.  I have not talked to her in many years.  When I mentioned that I haven't talked to her sister-in-law in years, she was surprised.  She told me that she now lives in Reading, PA, which is about an hour from me.  All day today I was trying to decide if I should call my high school best friend or not.  I finally got up the courage to call.  The first time I called, she was still at work.  I waited until she got home and tried to call again but must have just missed her as she had to run an errand.  I finally got in touch with her and she was very surprised to hear from me.  She wondered how I found her and that I lived as close to her as I did.  Anyway, time got away from us and she had to get going.  Her husband was due home and she hadn't even started dinner.  So she has my number and hopefully she and I can connect again and catch up on the 10 years that we drifted apart.  Maybe we can meet for dinner or something very soon.

So for now, if you need to get in touch with me, either call my cell or email me.  I'll try to get back online very soon.

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The most beautiful thing ever written
Current mood: thrilled to be taking part of Trash Talking Radio
Category: thrilled to be taking part of Trash Talking Radio Religion and Philosophy

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Thoughts
Current mood: drained
Category: Life

Well, it's been a while since I've updated my blog.  Things have been so crazy for me lately that sometimes I wonder just exactly which end is up.

Between dealing with children and financial issues, earlier this week I found out that my dad was taken to the ER.  They were checking to see if he had another bout with vertigo.  Now knowing my family's history of health problems, something just didn't sit right with me.  I found out later that they transferred him to the VA hospital and would be running other tests to find out exactly what was going on.  I was so overwhelmed Wednesday night that I really didn't sleep well at all.  I felt so alone and even crying myself to sleep didnt help this time.  I was too afraid of losing my dad. 

When I finally got awake Thursday morning, I called my boss and told him I was taking a sick family day and that I had to go to Altoona to be with my dad.  I got myself together as much as I could (Thank you, Mike, for letting me borrow your EZ pass.) and drove to be with my dad.  My mom and aunt were there and it was then that I found out they took my dad for an MRI.  Pacing the halls waiting for him to return didn't help much any.  It drove me nuts because I kept wondering what was going on.  Finally he was in his room and he didn't even look like himself.

I guess the one thing you should know about my dad is that, although he never said the words "I love you", his actions showed that he did.  He was always working to provide for his family and as my brother and sister and I got older, if we needed him for something, he was there.  He had his bad moments like everyone but I can remember the day when I left my first ex-husband.  I was living in Harrisburg (this was in 1988) and I called my dad and said "please come get the baby and me.  We're ready to come home."  My dad and my cousin were there in a matter of a couple of hours, ready to take my infant daughter and me back to where we belonged.  At the end of that week, my mom, my dad and my brother and I went back down to get the rest of my things.  My dad never once criticized me for my marriage falling apart.

While the doctor at the VA hospital diagnosed my dad as having high blood pressure and a possible mini stroke, I'm relieved that he was in capable hands.  He was discharged yesterday and is back home. 

I recently found out from my dad that there is alot more about his medical history that I didn't know.  I knew he was a Vietnam War Veteran and am so honored to call him Dad.  But, what I didn't know was that besides the cancer and things he's been through, he is also suffering from PTSD.  They finally awarded him full disability benefits and have decided that he's unemployable.  This was very difficult for me to handle because, as I've said before, he was always very active and working and providing for his family.  I got to read the medical report and found out that there was an incident in 1991 that really caused my dad alot of emotional distress.  While I won't go into details, I will say that I was there when this happened but didn't realize that my father felt the way he did. 

This leads me to last night.  I was hoping to see a very special person in my life but things just didn't work out that way.  I've been wanting a really good hug from him because of everything that's happening in my life and the timing just never seems to be right.  I've learned alot about myself from this.  I've learned that I am a strong person (and not just in name only) and I'm going thru these things for a reason.  Yes it's difficult but I've been doing everything I can to be a better person not only for myself but for those around me.  I ended up spending some much needed "me time" here and made it through ok. 

I find out this morning that my almost 16 yr old daughter called me last night.  I didn't know she called because I had my phone on silent.  I needed the time to myself.  She left a voice mail message accusing me of messing up her myspace.  I'd like to know how she thinks I did it when I'm not even a friend on hers anymore.  She has this bitterness towards me and won't let go.  I'm not sure what happened to her to have this bitterness and it hurts me to think that I have a decent relationship with my other 3 daughters but not with her.  Counselors and everyone else involved tell me to just wait it out.  Yeah, easier said than done.  So rather than call her and scream at her, I saved the message.  I want her grandmother to hear it.  I did call my ex-mom-in-law a little while ago and asked her what was going on.  I told her it wasn't fair to accuse me of something that I didn't do.  I'm not a computer hacker and for my daughter to blame me for something just wasn't right. She said she would talk to my daughter and see just what's going on.

So, where do I go from here??? Why, to Long Island, NY of course!!!  One of my favorite promotions is having a show today and believe me, I will enjoy taking advantage of the time away from home.  Looking forward to another great show, Guys!!!!  See you in a couple of hours!!!!  lol 

Now that I've poured my heart out, I need to go get ready.  If you read this far, thank you.  That means you care. 

Thank you and God Bless each and every one of you!!!

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pushing buttons
Current mood: creative

Have you ever heard the expressions "if you can't stand the heat, stay out of the kitchen?" or "Dont dish it out if you can't take it?"  What do you think they mean??

I found out recently that someone I know really likes to push buttons.  Not sure why but they do.  Yet when the tables are turned, there are problems.  I've finally decided to do the only thing I can do and that is to not let it get to me anymore.  It's going to be difficult but I'd rather not deal with that than lose people that I consider very close to me.  For the most part, I can take jokes and things like everyone else around me.  But there comes a time when enough is enough.  If it goes too far, someone's gonna get hurt.  Usually that someone is me.  Not this time though.  I'm getting out before any damage is done. 

So, in signing off, I'll use the old Gingerbread Man saying "Run, run as fast as you can.  You won't catch me cuz I'm the Gingerbread Man!!!"

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Words to live by....borrowed from Marshall
Current mood: creative
Category: Life

Words to Live By

Never argue with an idiot. The people watching might not know the difference.

If you must choose between two evils, pick the one you've never tried before.

On the keyboard of life, always keep one finger on the escape key.

When you're laying in bed at night looking up at the stars, don't panic when you suddenly wonder "Where the Hell is the ceiling?!"

Remember, when someone annoys you, it takes 42 muscles in your face to frown. BUT, it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm and SMACK the asshole upside the head.

The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four people is suffering from some sort of mental illness. Think of your three best friends -- if they're okay, then it's you.

Just remember........if the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off.

Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film.

Some people are like Slinkies . . . not really good for anything, but you still can't help but giggle when you see one tumble down the stairs.

In the 60's people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal.

There is a theory which states that if ever anybody discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory which states that this has already happened.

The 50-50-90 rule: Anytime you have a 50-50 chance of getting something right, there's a 90% probability you'll get it wrong.

It is said that if you line up all the cars in the world end to end someone would be stupid enough to try and pass them.

Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

The things that come to those who wait may be the things left by those who got there first.

Birds of a feather flock together and then crap on your car.

If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.

Don't assume malice for what stupidity can explain.

The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing in the right place, but also to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment.

The easiest way to find something lost around the house is buy a replacement.

If you can smile when things go wrong, you have someone in mind to blame.

The only difference between a rut and a grave is the depth of the hole!

Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile way and you have their shoes.

If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.

If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.

Some days you are the bug, some days you are the windshield.

Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment.

There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.

Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

Always remember you're unique. Just like everyone else.

Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than going to a garage makes you a mechanic.

Junk is something you've kept for years and throw away three weeks before you need it.

Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables you to recognize a mistake when you've just made it again.

By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends.

Your mind not only wanders, it sometime leaves completely.

Sometimes you'll think you understand everything, then you'll regain consciousness.

A day without sunshine is like.................well, night.

Seen it all, done it all...........can't remember most of it.

Those who live by the sword..........get shot by those who don't.

Nothing is foolproof.............to a sufficiently talented fool.

Everybody lies........but it doesn't matter since nobody listens.

There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.

Dogs have owners. Cats have staff.

When I die, I want to die like my grandmother who died peacefully in her sleep. Not screaming like all the passengers in her car.

There are two kinds of people in this world: those who think there are two kinds of people in this world and those who don't.

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Trash Talking Radio Show
Current mood: sad
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

Wow!!  This will be my last blog about the Trash Talking Radio Show for 2007.  Tonite is our last show for the year and it has me feeling kinda sad.  It seems like we should be doing what Jimmy Valiant does and have a show "52 Tuesdays a year" except for Christmas.  Oh Wait!!!  Christmas and New Year's Day are both on Tuesdays this year!!!  So I guess in a matter of speaking, we are like the Boogie Woogie Man!!

Ok, back to why it's making me sad.  Not only do I enjoy doing the show every week trying my best to keep Mike honest and showing him that "assisting" as he calls it, is bad but I enjoy hearing from the fans and listening to our guests and even once in a while introducing the guests.  Tonite on the show Steve Corino is going to talk about his retirement.  I love watching Steve wrestle. He is such a great guy both in and out of the ring.  He's done so much that it's going to seem strange not seeing him in the ring anymore.

Danny Doring is a wrestler that I don't know that much about.  I do look forward to hearing what he has to say and learning more about him.  Who knows, maybe he'll be another one that gets added to "the list".

We're planning on having an update from the Georgia Athletic Commission.  This should be an interesting turn of events in light of everything that has been happening recently in the South.

Whenever this is no TTRS, it seems strange.  I almost feel like I'm playing hookie or something.  It has become some a responsibility to me that sometimes I wish every day was a Tuesday. 

Anyway, please join us in our chatroom, check out the website, feel free to email Mike (mike@trashtalkingradio.com) or me (trish@trashtalkingradio.com) with any questions.  You can also contact us on here by leaving a message.  Mike's myspace is www.myspace.com/trashtalkingradio.  Yes he's in the 1 spot on my friends list because he really is a great person even though he has his evil streak when it comes to championship belts.  He'll do what he has to to make sure his guy wins the gold or in some cases, keeps the gold. 

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Thanksgiving Holiday
Current mood: melancholy

Hey everyone!!!  Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday and was able to remember what they are thankful for not only on that particular day but every day as well.

This year I drove home to my parents' house early Thursday morning.  I thought traffic would have been terrible because it was a holiday so I left a couple of hours earlier than I had originally planned.  There was hardly any traffic so it made the 2 hour trip seem like a breeze.  I picked up my two youngest daughters and took them back to my parents' house where we enjoyed a wonderful homecooked meal.  There were 14 people there (my parents, all 4 of my girls, my sister, her husband and their two sons, my 92 year old grandfather, my aunt and me) and two dogs (Sissy and Nelson) and a cat (Sandy).  For the most part, it was great being together for the holiday, however, there was a disappointing side that will probably never change.  I won't get into too much detail here but will say that if only some people would learn to forgive and forget and really get to know me now, you would see that I have changed alot from the person I was so many years ago. 

I was able to take some pictures that I will post later when I actually have a few minutes to sit down and breathe.  I wanted to get pictures of all six grandkids together (which I did get), as well as two different ones of four generations that were there.  My grandfather and my mom were in both of those pictures but the one had my sister and my oldest nephew in it as I thought it would be a nice thing since I also had one taken with my mom and grandfather that included my oldest daughter and me.  When I asked my sister about it, my mom had to include that it was something that she wanted not because I was trying to do something nice for someone.

So after the pictures were taken, it was time for me to take my two youngest girls to their other grandma's for them to enjoy time with her.  I hated to do it but I did. Then I went back to my mom's and get rested up for what I knew was going to be a very, very long day.

Black Friday comes around and my mom and my oldest daughter are up at 3:30 AM!!!!  UGH!!!! They have to be at my sister's house by 4 AM to pick her up so they can join the other crazy people that are out and about getting all those really good deals on Christmas stuff.  Since my sister was riding with them, my mom and I decided that I would take my 18 yr old and catch up with them later to diffuse any possible issues that may occur.  While I was a little disappointed in it, I was ok with it because it gave me time to spend with Ashley.  I thought maybe I'd get to go back to sleep for at least an hour but that didn't work.  As soon as they left, my sister called the house.  I told her that they were on their way down to her place.  Then I turn around and Ashley's stumbling out of her room and asks where everyone went.  I told her that they had already left and she got upset until I explained to her that she and I would be riding up shortly and joining them.  She was ok with that.

She and I got ready and about an hour later, joined the other crazy idiots who were out shopping.  Most of the stores weren't too bad but you did have the occasional lines that wound around the store and seemed like it took forever to get thru. 

After we shopped for about 8 hours, we went back to my mom's house and I got to relax a little bit before heading to a show in Denver.  Since yesterday was also Mike's wife's birthday, **Happy Birthday, Diva!!!!** he graciously allowed me to borrow the digital camera to take pictures at this show. It really seems weird going to a show where I know most of the guys and not having Mike there.  All the guys were cool and I was so proud of myself for finding my way there without getting lost.  (Thanks, Dad, for letting me borrow your GPS for the week.  I need one of my own for Christmas...HINT, HINT!!!!)

The show was awesome as usual.  It was a packed building but was definitely well worth the price of admission.  I got to meet a couple of guys I haven't met before and learn more things about this wonderful business they call Independent Professional Wrestling.

After the show was over, I got my things together and started home.  It was about 11 PM and keep in mind, I had been awake since 3:30 AM!!! I was running on pure adreneline until about the last half hour of my trip home.  My bed never felt so comfortable as it did last night when I finally passed out from exhaustion. 

Now here it is, 9 hours later and I'm awake.  Mike and I have another long day today as we're doing the show in Long Island, NY.  I know about how many pictures I took last night and I can only guess as to how many I'll take tonite so I'm pretty sure that all Mike will be doing tomorrow is editing pictures.  *evil grin* 

I hope everyone who has read this far had a safe and wonderful holiday.  I'm thankful for my closest friends, my family and alot of other things.  Make sure you remember to tell those who mean alot to you how you feel about them.  It really does make a difference!!!! 

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mipper
Current mood: silly

What exactly is a mipper???  If anyone asked you, would you know???  While some of my family members and I were out shopping Friday morning, my mom was talking to my 18 yr old daughter about this $200 leather coat that was on sale for $50.  She said that she it was a "mipper" and they didn't want that.  When I looked at her with a very puzzling look on my face, it was then that she explained that a mipper was a "medium with a zipper".  AH!!!!  I understand now.  It seems that after I moved away from Centre County, PA, about 7 1/2 years ago, they came up with some other words that are only for the yocal locals.  Mipper is one of them.  Guess when people who were born and raised there finally sprout their wings and start to fly, only the favorites who chose to remain behind get to have input on their own special language.  Oh well. Such is life.

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